Why can’t the police shut down the Hell’s Angels? Because the government gives them more money each budget than the police.

Why can’t the police shut down the Hell’s Angels?

Because the government gives them more money each budget than the police.

Payment for keeping those poor people in line at their poverty pimp money laundering charity establishments like the Salvation Army, The Food Bank, Theo, The Kettle, UGM, Quest Foods, Narc-anon, The Recovery Centre, and a hundred other “legitimate” poverty pimp businesses, all controlled by a bunch of people who barely finished high school and became rich selling drugs and being rapist murderer bullies. Every state needs to put more money into those guys instead of the police eh? Get their heroin hillbilly punker kids with banjos and meth to trash every cultural scene.
Worked for the nazis.

I bet if you calculate just the tax writeoffs and subsidies for IATSE productions alone you would be at the cops budget.

That’s why IATSE pays cops to stand around as security on their sets
its cheaper to protect a movie set’s worth of coke if theres a union cop at the entrance to the set.

I mean its obvious they have more money than the police
Look at the airport and the seaport
All these billions of security cameras
looking out at us
watching all of us walk by
scanning us as we get on the plane
slowing everything down
so many uniforms
so may cameras
tasers everywhere
but behind all of that
which supposedly guarantees that no bomb gets on the plane

But the coke is on the plane or the boat or the train or the truck
on the other side of the camera
the other side of the fence
the other side off the security that cost billions for us
on the other side of that

there is still tons of coke getting off planes and boats and trucks every day

We so admire the boys who git er dun
we’re willing to fund all their shenanigans
I mean jeez
look what a great job they did
cleaning up those whores and getting a good patsy to face the international press

We don’t have a genocidal rapist gangster problem
we just had too many crack whores
that were made from the crack
that came off of the boats
and planes

The heroin in victoria park and the crack in the Commercial drive area, all the meth that people thieve and steal to get

came through the anti terrorism security system.

It ALL did.

Great job Christy
keeping Gordo’s dictator support system functioning for so long after he’s gone

It’s called Crime (Mis)Management

And these fuckers suck up so much fucking money from all of us
yet they are too fucking cheap to pay me
for my work
cheap ass fucks

Sucking Bald Eagle cock while you fuck over the people of your own country
fucking nazi fucks hiding behind your charity scams
you fucking owe me for my writing on Atlantis
pricks.

This is the thing
I come from a town where I watched 300+ people each week
idolize a huge fat priest
who diddled children for years

So you fat fucks ripping me off and then all standing around your multimillion dollar charity money laundering scams and gloating in your warehouses with the coke stash can fuck off.

You have enough to pay me for my work you fucking cheapskates.

Get Robert and his two buddies to pay me in full and give me my fucking goddamn credit you fucks.
and stop hiding your fucking thieving ignorant drug dealer rapist bullshit behind some fucking “Christian” charity you hypocrite fucks. Ex pimps and drug dealers hiding behind jesus’ fucking skirts and pointing at everyone else
you fucks.

This is the perspective for everyone else you fraudster extortionist dickwads.
A person who works as a senior technician with a screen credit on Atlantis would make a salary of $70k
Plus they would still be getting residuals of a few grand each year
the fucking residuals for a senior tech/coordinator would be still, after these years, more than I’m living on per yer.

I have jack shit and you fuckers owe me a creator credit for Atlantis along with a per episode fee and fucking residuals. Brad and Robert did not create it and all you fat git er dun fuckwads know it. They were producers who took the work that I created and made the show with it. I want the fucking goddamned credit, I want a correct fee, and I want my fucking residuals you fraudster fucks. Pay my fucking fees. Rippoff motherfucker assholes.

The math isn’t hard. Its a lot less than what you scum off all of us with your shit each month.

Let’s say $100K/ep + residuals of 10% is $10M+ along with RESIDUALS.
That’s the lowball figure. Its a waaaay low figure.

But it makes the point you ripoff union gangster motherfucker shitfucks.

Sure its been fun burning me. I’m done laughing.
You owe me for my work you fucks.

The fucking bikers for jesus giving to the poor schtick while you launder your fucking money and rip me off laughing
is pissing me off.

sucking up government money and pretending your doing things for the “community”
its fucking bullshit

You all realize after I wrote this I had 2 people with unmuzzled german shepherds from the heroin crew stalking my dog and me. German shepherds, wolf crosses, should be muzzled. They can kill someone if poorly trained.
and they usually are.
I promote gun legalization for that reason.
If people can walk around with living shotguns
why can’t everyone else do the same.

To the police officer reading this
because there has to be at least one
I just wrote and gave links to witness accounts of fraud and extortion and attempted murder
and even possibly espionage and definitely genocide
but you don’t even have to follow up on it
because its too much work.

A decade after the Royal Commission of Canadian Healthcare: we have worse healthcare than we ever did!

A decade after this multimillion dollar shell game
where we all got told that someone was listening
almost every recommendation this report made
was ignored or shelved completely

The report was right and identified numerous serious health and privacy concerns
none of which have been corrected

Shame on you Prime Minister Harper
you are using the healthcare system to oppress
the lower classes
are getting lower healthcare
private information is being misused
and malpractice is the norm without repercussions

Canadians make over a dozen visits for things that should take two good visits
Why are we waiting for healthcare?
Our government is pumping billions of dollars of resources out
and 3\4 of canada is still paying some form of medicare “fee” end user protection racket

All so stevie’s doctor friends can become millionaires…

The conclusion of the Report set out 47 recommendations along with a timetable for their implementation.
Recommendation 1 – A new Canadian Health Covenant should be established as a common declaration of Canadians’ and their governments’ commitment to a universally accessible, publicly funded health care system. To this end, First Ministers should meet at the earliest opportunity to agree on this Covenant.
Recommendation 2 – A Health Council of Canada should be established by the provincial, territorial and federal governments to facilitate co-operation and provide national leadership in achieving the best health outcomes in the world. The Health Council should be built on the existing infrastructure of the Canadian Institute for Health Information (CIHI) and the Canadian Coordinating Office of Health Technology Assessment (CCOHTA).
Recommendation 3 – On an initial basis, the Health Council of Canada should: Establish common indicators and measure the performance of the health care system; Establish benchmarks, collect information and report publicly on efforts to improve quality, access and outcomes in the health care system; and coordinate existing activities in health technology assessment and conduct independent evaluations of technologies, including their impact on rural and remote delivery and the patterns of practice for various health care providers.
Recommendation 4 – In the longer term, the Health Council of Canada should provide ongoing advice and coordination in transforming primary health care, developing national strategies for Canada’s health workforce, and resolving disputes under a modernized Canada Health Act.
Recommendation 5 – The Canada Health Act should be modernized and strengthened by: Confirming the principles of public administration, universality and accessibility, updating the principles of portability and comprehensiveness, and establishing a new principle of accountability; Expanding insured health services beyond hospital and physician services to immediately include targeted home care services followed by prescription drugs in the longer term; Clarifying coverage in terms of diagnostic services; Including an effective dispute resolution process; and Establishing a dedicated health transfer directly connected to the principles and conditions of the Canada Health Act.
Recommendation 6 – To provide adequate funding, a new dedicated cash-only Canada Health Transfer should be established by the federal government. To provide long-term stability and predictability, the Transfer should include an escalator that is set in advance for five year periods.
Recommendation 7 – On a short-term basis, the federal government should provide targeted funding for the next two years to establish: a new Rural and Remote Access Fund; a new Diagnostic Services Fund; a Primary Health Care Transfer; a Home Care Transfer; and a Catastrophic Drug Transfer
Recommendation 8 – A personal electronic health record for each Canadian that builds upon the work currently underway in provinces and territories.
Recommendation 9 – Canada Health Infoway should continue to take the lead on this initiative and be responsible for developing a pan-Canadian electronic health record framework built upon provincial systems, including ensuring the interoperability of current electronic health information systems and addressing issues such as security standards and harmonizing privacy policies.
Recommendation 10 – Individual Canadians should have ownership over their personal health information, ready access to their personal health records, clear protection of the privacy of their health records, and better access to comprehensive and credible information about health, health care and the health system.
Recommendation 11 – Amendments should be made to the Criminal Code of Canada to protect Canadians’ privacy and to explicitly prevent the abuse or misuse of personal health information, with violations in this area considered a criminal offense.
Recommendation 12 – Canada Health Infoway should support health literacy by developing and maintaining an electronic health information base to link Canadians to health information that is properly researched, trustworthy and credible as well as support more widespread efforts to promote good health.
Recommendation 13 – The Health Council of Canada should take action to streamline technology assessment in Canada, increase the effectiveness, efficiency and scope of technology assessment, and enhance the use of this assessment in guiding decisions.
Recommendation 14 – Steps should be taken to bridge current knowledge gaps in applied policy areas, including rural and remote health, health human resources, health promotion, and pharmaceutical policy.
Recommendation 15 – A portion of the proposed Rural and Remote Access Fund, the Diagnostic Services Fund, the Primary Health Care Transfer, and the Home Care Transfer should be used to improve the supply and distribution of health care providers, encourage changes to their scopes and patterns of practice, and ensure that the best use is made of the mix of skills of different health care providers.
Recommendation 16 – The Health Council of Canada should systematically collect, analyze and regularly report on relevant and necessary information about the Canadian health workforce, including critical issues related to the recruitment, distribution, and remuneration of health care providers.
Recommendation 17 – The Health Council of Canada should review existing education and training programs and provide recommendations to the provinces and territories on more integrated education programs for preparing health care providers, particularly for primary health care settings.
Recommendation 18 – The Health Council of Canada should develop a comprehensive plan for addressing issues related to the supply, distribution, education and training, remuneration, skills and patterns of practice for Canada’s health workforce.
Recommendation 19 – The proposed Primary Health Care Transfer should be used to “fast-track” primary health care implementation. Funding should be conditional on provinces and territories moving ahead with primary health care reflecting four essential building blocks – continuity of care, early detection and action, better information on needs and outcomes, and new and stronger incentives to achieve transformation.
Recommendation 20 – The Health Council of Canada should sponsor a National Summit on Primary Health Care within two years to mobilize concerted action across the country, assess early results, and identify actions that must be taken to remove obstacles to primary health care implementation.
Recommendation 21 – The Health Council of Canada should play a leadership role in following up on the outcomes of the Summit, measuring and tracking progress, sharing information and comparing Canada’s results to leading countries around the world, and reporting to Canadians on the progress of implementing primary health care in Canada.
Recommendation 22 – Prevention of illness and injury, and promotion of good health should be strengthened with the initial objective of making Canada a world leader in reducing tobacco use and obesity.
Recommendation 23 – All governments should adopt and implement the strategy developed by the Federal, Provincial and Territorial Ministers Responsible for Sport, Recreation and Fitness to improve physical activity in Canada.
Recommendation 24 – A national immunization strategy should be developed to ensure that all children are immunized against serious illnesses and Canada is well prepared to address potential problems from new and emerging infectious diseases.
Recommendation 25 – Provincial and territorial governments should use the new Diagnostic Services Fund to improve access to medical diagnostic services.
Recommendation 26 – Provincial and territorial governments should take immediate action to manage wait lists more effectively by implementing centralized approaches, setting standardized criteria, and providing clear information to patients on how long they can expect to wait.
Recommendation 27 – Working with the provinces and territories, the Health Council of Canada should establish a national framework for measuring and assessing the quality and safety of Canada’s health care system, comparing the outcomes with other OECD countries, and reporting regularly to Canadians.
Recommendation 28 – Governments, regional health authorities, health care providers, hospitals and community organizations should work together to identify and respond to the needs of official language minority communities.
Recommendation 29 – Governments, regional health authorities, and health care providers should continue their efforts to develop programs and services that recognize the different health care needs of men and women, visible minorities, people with disabilities, and new Canadians.
Recommendation 30 – The Rural and Remote Access Fund should be used to attract and retain health care providers.
Recommendation 31 – A portion of the Rural and Remote Access Fund should be used to support innovative ways of expanding rural experiences for physicians, nurses and other health care providers as part of their education and training.
Recommendation 32 – The Rural and Remote Access Fund should be used to support the expansion of telehealth approaches.
Recommendation 33 – The Rural and Remote Access Fund should be used to support innovative ways of delivering health care services to smaller communities and to improve the health of people in those communities.
Recommendation 34 – The proposed new Home Care Transfer should be used to support expansion of the Canada Health Act to include medically necessary home care services in the following areas: Home mental health case management and intervention services should immediately be included in the scope of medically necessary services covered under the Canada Health Act; Home care services for post-acute patients, including coverage for medication management and rehabilitation services, should be included under the Canada Health Act; and palliative home care services to support people in their last six months of life should also be included under the Canada Health Act.
Recommendation 35 – Human Resources Development Canada, in conjunction with Health Canada should be directed to develop proposals to provide direct support to informal caregivers to allow them to spend time away from work to provide necessary home care assistance at critical times.
Recommendation 36 – The proposed new Catastrophic Drug Transfer should be used to reduce disparities in coverage across the country by covering a portion of the rapidly growing costs of provincial and territorial drug plans.
Recommendation 37 – A new National Drug Agency should be established to evaluate and approve new prescription drugs, provide ongoing evaluation of existing drugs, negotiate and contain drug prices, and provide comprehensive, objective and accurate information to health care providers and to the public.
Recommendation 38 – Working collaboratively with the provinces and territories, the National Drug Agency should create a national prescription drug formulary based on a transparent and accountable evaluation and priority-setting process.
Recommendation 39 – A new program on medication management should be established to assist Canadians with chronic and some life-threatening illnesses. The program should be integrated with primary health care approaches across the country.
Recommendation 40 – The National Drug Agency should develop standards for the collection and dissemination of prescription drug data on drug utilization and outcomes.
Recommendation 41 – The federal government should immediately review the pharmaceutical industry practices related to patent protection, specifically, the practices of evergreening and the notice of compliance regulations. This review should ensure that there is an appropriate balance between the protection of intellectual property and the need to contain costs and provide Canadians with improved access to non-patented prescription drugs.
Recommendation 42 – Current funding for Aboriginal health services provided by the federal, provincial and territorial governments and Aboriginal organizations should be pooled into single consolidated budgets in each province and territory to be used to integrate Aboriginal health care services, improve access, and provide adequate, stable and predictable funding.
Recommendation 43 – The consolidated budgets should be used to fund new Aboriginal Health Partnerships that would be responsible for developing policies, providing services and improving the health of Aboriginal peoples. These partnerships could take many forms and should reflect the needs, characteristics and circumstances of the population served.
Recommendation 44 – Federal and provincial governments should prevent potential challenges to Canada’s health care system by: Ensuring that any future reforms they implement are protected under the definition of “public services” included in international law or trade agreements to which Canada is party; and reinforcing Canada’s position that the right to regulate health care policy should not be subject to claims for compensation from foreign-based companies.
Recommendation 45 – The federal government should build alliances with other countries, especially with members of the World Trade Organization, to ensure that future international trade agreements, agreements on intellectual property, and labour standards make explicit allowance for both maintaining and expanding publicly insured, financed and delivered health care.
Recommendation 46 – The federal government should play a more active leadership role in international efforts to assist developing nations in strengthening their health care systems through foreign aid and development programs. Particular emphasis should be placed on training health care providers and on public health initiatives.
Recommendation 47 – Provincial, territorial and federal governments and health organizations should reduce their reliance on recruiting health care professionals from developing countries.

Death to Religion! Religion is Death: a twisted Kult revealed in this isometric RPG

I’m playing this cool game.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kult:_Heretic_Kingdoms

In it you play a female Inquisitor whose overriding mission is to destroy all religion.
Its an RPG, an isometric one.
like divine divinity
so basically you have your character in the center and the world moves around you.
Very old school.
A very excruciating startup, it takes about 6 maps until your character can go any amount of time without sleep, its also extremely confusing at first, and trying to figure out how to buy a house and where takes a while.

But its worth it, its actually one of those cool text based RPGs that have a decent story, with super crappy combat.

I’m trying to find the text files in the game
some of the quotes are priceless
since you basically must use a form of shamanic elemental magic and a visionary dreamstate throughout as you work for this very monastic warrior magician order intent on destroying all religion forever.

The implicit hypocrysies of the heretics are really interesting.

This is so old school I don’t think anyone will slog through it like I am
but I actually like it quite a bit.

magician warriors and atheist mages killing and destroying all religion
everyone is actually scared of the heroine
I’m standing next to someones sacred boar knowing the game will reward me for killing it and I just decided to go to the next area instead

they use this druidic sort of power yet they don’t see their buildings and rituals and Order business as a religion itself

Its very cool if you actually like Baldur’s Gate or the excellent Divine Divinity.
Not as polished
but worth it for some of the later dialogue.

I’m trying to figure out how to add more text
some of the dialogue is funny or bland
but its really pretty deep

Death to Religion! Religion is Death!
that’s their chant
the nazi chant

I don’t think religious beliefs are death
I think ignorance and oppressive religious control systems are messed up
but seeing as they are powerful and generate great wealth

I don’t see how we can not use some form of structure to ensure our collective rights
religions are corporations built on a basis of human spirituality
everything, even gangs have corporations

I think a blanket hatred of religion is false.
but perhaps that is just semantics

I sat and had a coffee with an IATSE chef
and he was mocking me
basically

I had a coffee and a smoke
so I went along with it
but I, personally
am not of Gurdieff’s cult
so his joke did not apply

I remember being struck at his ignorance
Complete fucking ignorance
completely dismissive

I guess someone had told him I was a
“witch”
so he was having a poke ad a laugh
making good money working for those IATSE fraudsters
hooking up the Stars with coke
defrauding and extorting the surrounding community

I knew that was the score
He bought me 2 coffees
It was worth it to assess

idiocy
fascist  fucking idiocy

and I am an atheist druid in a loose form
not
a “witch”

I always thought that whole descent of the nazi’s into black “witchcraft” was weird
after killing and burning all else
they documented a lot of wierd shit they did

but
weren’t
the Nazi’s
themselves a Kult?

A very successful one.
They became the rulers
for a while

There is so much of them still

I personally don’t like organized religion
but
everyone is stronger
if they are part of
the right gang

perhaps it should be a right
to have one

For example
have you ever entered a store or something and there were a couple of aggressive belligerent people that randomly wanted to fight you?
if there were 10 of you and you each had your 4 inch sacred knife with you
it wouldn’t matter how much weight they could lift or how big they were

If one of you was having problems with a government office
ten people could arrive to help add pressure or get a supervisor involved
gangs/congregations/corporations/armies get things done

hmm…
what a messy bunch
of strangely evolved
monkey rats

If Jewish people were portrayed like witches are in the media, there would be a lot of problems…

Anyone who’s read any amount of my blog should know I’m not racist or anti semitic.

I have been informed on many occasions that the major film studios in America are “controlled” by a very small number of wealthy jews. This is what Ihave been told, from multiple sources. I do not personally know it is true unless the asshole Anderson and Cooper clans are jewish descent.

Over the years I’ve come to realize how much fear is induced in children towards pagan belief and how badly different pagan people have been portrayed.

I’m starting to find it very unsettling.

If you were to place a very sharp nosed obviously jewish person, with a couple of specific jewish caricatures, in the place of any character represented as a witch…

there would be a mass public outcry.

If you portrayed an old jew as a smelly person with horrible potions and evil intent, or the greedy jewish goldmiser attacking his community members for his own profit.

there would be a problem.

I don’t know.

I know more jewish people that aren’t like that.

I come from a place where people actually tried to ban Harry Potter
until it swept the world. So.

Shouldn’t we create an association similiar to the jewish league that’s sole purpose is to sue people over the representations of pagans and “witchcraft” that are misleading or cast a negative connotation?

I think that’s what we need.

8P

Canadian State Funded Terrorist Support Organizations: Why the Masons and the Salvation Army are like Islam and the Taliban

This is really an interesting comparison
I’m getting to this and the 3 previous works in progress very quickly
just teasing you with what’s coming up!

This is going to be kind of like a previous article where I compared the average christian potbellied gun toting arab hater to a taliban insurgent. I thought it was quite funny how similar they were.

But in this article we will take a cursory look at how our provincial and federal governments are giving billions of taxpayer dollars to thugs, gangsters, and christian religious extremists in every budget, through organizations that have headquarters in other countries. Terrorist support organizations working towards a religious or political coordinated attack against the Canadian economy and its citizens.

A Mason, or a gang member aren’t really Canadian.
Masonism comes before their country and its citizens.
Just like Allah.

I also think all Celts should be allowed to carry knives in courts as well.
We are being discriminated against in favor of sikhs.

(I’m sortof kidding. Nothing against Sikhs, except that they hate fags and are also a religious paramilitary group. They feed more people than the Christians though.
I will say
however
that a Sikh policeman once lied to me
directly to my face
and as a Celtish breed of norwegian scottish german
I value honesty/truth more than anything else within the spirit or material
and so
my assessment of the honorability of Sikhism
is compromised by this situation
regarding a Sikh
in a VPD uniform
with a Kirpan
yet I can not carry
a Kris or Athame.)

Class Actions: How mass suicides and killing sprees became the only effective mechanism against institutional and societal pack oppressions.

Ghandi’s process was too slow
We are a Mc Dick’s culture now
speeding up societal evolution
through an instinctual mass wave of teenage and elder suicide
or depressed underemployed serfs going on killing sprees after being evicted or psychologically tormented for years.

I think, personally, anyone who wants to kill themselves in depression after being tormented for a long time by a group of people should go the killing spree route.

It works like this
A group of people are calling someone a slut or fag constantly, mocking them, laughing at them, making concerted efforts to steal from them and taunt them, etc.

If the person calls the police or an authority figure like a teacher who doesn’t give a shit then nothing will be done, no one will even take a look at what’s going on, and if they do, they’ll just shrug it off. It’s too much bother to get into things like that if you can’t just see what’s happening in a couple of minutes. So many more important things to do.

So useless authority fuck goes away.

The tormenting continues and even is stronger because obviously no one will do anything about it unless the person being tormented does.

At this point, thousands of people of all ages kill themselves each year, because of shitty people in their “community”.

No one cares, every one says they do, they spend lots of money talking about it and having big dinners. At the same time, its happening to thousands more.

Everyone forgets the loser who committed suicide, and later the people who were mocking them get to sit around and laugh for hours. They’ll trot that story out every couple years.

If the person being harassed kills 10 of the 20 people who are involved in tormenting them, everyone remembers them, some of their enemies are dead, the enemies that aren’t dead no longer have a funny story to tell because your torture and its humorous aspects gets overshadowed by the death of their shitty friends or family, or that limb they lost.

In this scenario the victim gets fucked over too, death or jail usually, unless they meticulously plan and watch lots of movies made by gangsters that show them how to get revenge.

But in one scenario the shitheads get to laugh forever.

In the other, they bleed and cry and shut the fuck up and as a group they avoid pissing people off in the future because they remember when that geek or fag or slutty drunk girl got pissed off

and fucked them right back.

my fucking hometown

I guess I have to write about my shitty little hometown and my shitty backstabber father who lives there.

I haven’t seen him in 10 years. I don’t care to.

I think a lot about where I grew up
the town that perpetually loses its children

a beautiful summer resort
deserted in the winter
a town without money or hope

Where the shittiest rednecks have regular work for the town
and the people that have jobs in the 5 stores or so
make jack shit

all the intelligent children flee.

What a great place
to call
“home”

I remember the trees and the water
I did a lot of hiking and riding

Such a beautiful place
to have nothing
and no hope really
of ever having anything there

a lonely place of buffoons and bullies
where no one really ever had any happiness
not the people I knew

I remember visiting my father
living in a trailer
his retirement home

I wasn’t welcome there
not really

mocked regularly
there’s that unemployed bum

no jobs anywhere
no respect

I watch my father
work for the town tycoon
who owns the trailer and rents it to him

He’s so ingratiated
quick to please
I had to leave
watching my old man grovel
for 5 bux an hour under the table

That’s what they admire
my father admired him, the tycoon
I wanted to murder him

He made everyone grovel like that

everyone grovelling for little bits of money
everyone snarling at each other
I’m a good slave
why aren’t you working too?

Because I detest slavery
and slave minds
who can barely read
telling me

I’m wrong

The recreational vehicles, boats, skidoos
every summer it fills up

and in the fall we see again the truth
when they are gone

there’s nothing here
and we subsist

No car, no job, no money
get out and get a job
get out and get a job

I wanted to go to university
at 17 with my honors grades
but the $3500 I had saved to buy a car
had to be used to feed the family
during a rough spot

so no car.

no car, no job, no future
jack fucking shit
oh yeah
I guess it’s beautiful

and lonely
and hopeless

honors student
a “star” in the play
not worth anything to rednecks
my plans and dreams to get a degree and work on music
destroyed

as if they never existed
childish dreams
of futures

I remember bowing
at the prom
a long slow bow
to everyone

as I stood in the doorway
with no money for a suit
unable to dance
with the girl I really did like
but never was able to be with

I should have been in a tux too
dancing or sitting at a table
but I couldn’t

so I bowed
and left

I left.

I remember the day I left
I wasn’t even offered a ride to the city
I took a suitcase with wheels
and walked to the highway
hitchiked to edmonton
and got on a bus

get out
get a job

My father didn’t want a future with us
he wanted a place to retire

He has retired

He wonders why I will never visit him and his new family
a new wife with kids that did things right
they have jobs and cars
they made something of themselves

unlike my brother and I

beautiful places of poverty and futility

Why would we return?

To be mocked?

Kill them or Die: Why all of humanity must murder or incarcerate every mason.

They are enslaving and murdering all of you and they are in control of the legal system. Kill them or die.

They are worse than the Taliban or Islam
The control our courts, police, our hospitals
They manipulate our politics and undermine democracy and human rights in every country in the world

and they act self satisfied in their right to do so

waco

She bought the shirt, I just laughed at her good taste!

She bought the shirt, I just laughed at her good taste!

I don’t know her personally.
It’s from the web.
I think it’s from the states
in which case
she would be promoting an illegal activity
since ass-sex is 21 in most states

Its obviously her own choice.

And its FUNNY.

I know girls that stick their hands in each others holes.
Not my hand, it’s too big.
And I would get in trouble with someone like above so I would be restricted to flirting.
But they do that to each other.

What was her excuse? oh yeah
“Babies come out of there. My hand is smaller than a baby!”

I’m fine with it if she demands, but it hurts to have your hand crushed in fleshy handcuffs for an hour or so.
Honestly, it really hurts my hand.

=|

Speaking of good taste.

I was readng about Female Ejaculation on the wikipedia.
At like, 4 am.

There was an anthropological anecdote about a tribe whose female rite of passage encompassed the older women teaching the younger women to hit the wall with the liquid. Which I thought was interesting since that would mean it could be a learned or taught behavior/technique.

Another thing I found interesting was how little the male dominated medical profession understood this until 1990. The amount of blatantly wrong assertions and descriptions created and presented in the article as references in scientific/medical printed history are astounding. Truly.
Just “don’t worry about that silly woman…”

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Female_ejaculation

 So essentially, there are 2 kinds, just like males.
Thick white goop of about 1-5ml or a stream of thin clear almost urin like liquid which is not really urine but has some urine and a higher water content. Which would maybe be more like what happens at a prostrate release. Yet for all these centuries, male physicians have completely got this wrong and gave it all sorts of “hysterical” labels.

In fact they were conditioned by a christianized society to believe it was “wrong” or a “malfunction” or incontinence

from wiki:
It has been demonstrated that a large amount of lubricating fluid (filtered blood plasma with urine traces) can be secreted from this gland (Skene) when stimulated from inside the vagina. Some reports indicate that embarrassment regarding female ejaculation, and the mistaken notion that the substance is urine, can lead to purposeful suppression of sexual climax, leading women to seek medical advice and even undergo surgery to “stop the urine”.

And we implicitly trust such an ignorant medical system.

If there was no third eyewitness, then there is no proof of rape.

If there was no third eyewitness, then there is no proof of rape.
That was actually law and standing legal precedent
up until less than 30 years ago.

There are still places where this is true.
There are many things like that.

You see.
Even though I was robbed by Robert Cooper and the people of Stargate Atlantis,
it isn’t beneficial to the masters.

In Canada, a handshake agreement is binding.
Contracts do not need to be written, they can be verbal and remain in force.

But to my family and “friends” and “community”
I am not really a victim of fraud and extortion and attempted murder

Unless you have a witness to the act that’s willing to testify
you were not raped or robbed

it did really happen
for years, only a witness who actual saw the rape, didn’t get caught by the rapist, and was willing to testify, was the only way to get a conviction

sperm, dna, bruises even
all could be construed by the court as consensual
and the legal device called “hearsay”
prevented all people who the rapist might brag to
from being used in testimony

So even though 3000 members of IATSE and Pegasus productions
all know the story about how Robert and Andy sat with me and ripped me off
to get the storyline for Atlantis
that’s innadmissible
its hearsay

unless I have a recording
or people that witnessed the event themselves

I do,
but both of those chicks got burned pretty bad and messed up.
So they can’t even remember.

I guess that might have happened to someone else before eh?
Raped and beaten, the cops are unsympathetic, or just plain mocking her
everyone indifferent or even laughing

Just clean yourself off and get back to being a good slave after your beating
because they will make everyone work more
if they back yo up or show you sympathy

Nowadyas, if you are raped with GHB
its the same,
you looked like you were enjoying it
or
it serves you right
for something or other you did
or
if you weren’t such a, that wouldn’t have

it really didn’t
happen

because if we admitted that it did
our illusions of equality and societal evolution
would be dashed
by the sharpest of reality’s edges

they all know I didn’t
get paid a fucking cent
I’ve listed people involved, police have sent me harrassing comments on the internet mocking the fact that I don’t get justice
and  never will

I imagine a few young women sat with rape counsellors who really didn’t care, it was just a job, and if she doesn’t have the legal requirements for the case, such as a present witness, then really there is nothing you can do so
“focus on getting your life back together”

We are a society that puts smiles and laugh tracks
on torture and misery

I was thinking about all those old movies
the british period pieces about the colonies
africa, india

I was thinking about the rich british elites
having tea in the poshest places
“taking care of all the paperwork and business
for you savages”

countries full of poor people
lorded over by people
with slaves

they always have slaves
and servants

slave, servant, whore, moron-thug
those sycophants thrive
in such environments

from a society on the edge
we ebb backwards
into glistening clean genocide
made by laughing thugs
in clean uniforms

The nazis were respected people
they held big fancy parties
in suits and dress
they had cultured dinners and hospitals
they ran thriving businesses

and when they slowly started screwing all the
“unwanted people” over
non nazi, non conforming, non german girls
could just be raped

and it would be justified by everyone
over breakfast

Doctgors, lawyers, police, soldiers
accountants, movie crews, government officials
whole countries turned to fascism quickly
and the first step is wiping away rights
in their big magical illusion machine

called “law”

Worldwide American Standing Armies: Psyops and Cultural Suppression in the New World Order

4000 men anywhere in the world at any time.

How?

Because they are already there.

Satan’s Typewriter

 

“Masturbation is Satan’s Typewriter”

The current generation of children and teenagers learn more from the internet than from their peers and parents or even tv.

Want to hear something cool about church?

My mother has a tithe in her church right?

Plus all the other contributions,

in 25 years she has given them let’s say $80K+
seriously, it’s probably twice that

I have ideas that have formed the basis of a multimillion dollar TV show,

and I’ve run a number of restaurants and was also an excellent student.

Which is worth jack fucking shit

to all you students out there

in “high school”

Its bullshit.

Get out fast and make money before you are 24

or you won’t have money you’ll have debt

no one cares about marks

the marks don’t get anyone work

It only that you make money,
how DOES NOT MATTER

the church is worth a $80k

but my family wouldn’t invest $20k in a business loan for someone in the family,

unless

they were

a christian

Dissed

dis = order
dis – ease
dys – phoria
dys – function

These are word programming tools to make INTERSEX humans as wrongly formed – DIS – formed from the NORMAL gender binary

the wording makes us
DIS – tinct
we can be Dis-owned, Dis-enfranchised, Dis-missed,

this syllable is a negative one, a perjorative
like
Dis – turbing
Dis-dained
Dis-membered
the people in the clinics who get all the money set aside for dealing with these DIS – gusting De – formed group of people who DE – viate from male/female marriage normality, those people get paid to explain to us how wrong we are and how we just have to leave that alone.
The money was all spent in them mocking us
there’s none left for our actual healthcare.

If you have a lot of intersex friends or associates
do a little survey
I bet you 9 out of 10 has had serious mental health issues
but if you actually know them
they are fine
but the mental health label is necessary
So no one will take our Dis – reputable words seriously
if you have a set if Dis – eases then you can DI – vide people who are united under a common pronoun as the intersexed, and turn them into Dis – crete groups of separate dis – orders.
As Intersex people, we earn the group inclusion rights of this larger group encompassing more than 5 separate div – isions.
As that larger group we can require advocacy, legal protection, and specialist medical care, as in – div – iduals we are just separated out from the group protection by the pack of the medical society after they make us out to be dis – eased in distinct forms.

As the group Intersex, we encompass hundreds of millions of humans in various stages of medical and cultural suppression, as dis – orders, we have no inherent group identity to hide behind or be proud of.

Does “God” have a Penis?

I mean

she said he was invisible and that she spoke to him all the time

he was all around us

I asked if he had a penis

She said no and then yes

and then something about being formed in his image

You don’t have a penis

I said

Do you actually hear a voice?

Words?

No

she said

but I feel his presence

Oh

I said

You speak to him daily, identify him as male, can’t see him, aren’t sure if he has a penis, have never heard him speak, are still certain that he’s male.

And there. Hmm. You’re certain he’s there as you feel his presence.

Hmm.

Do you believe in Telepathy?

I said

Not really.

Not like, people talking to each other with their minds and stuff,

that would be wierd

She says.

Oh.

I said.

So you’ve never been a Tree?

A what?

She says

How long have you believed in this “god” that doesn’t talk to you?

I said

I guess

She told me more

about it

him

what she thought

about him

I wondered why someone would work with a Godform

or one projected for them by their “trusted” priest

if there was no direct mental speech

outside of flashy rituals

and private personal workings

speaking

and hearing

and seeing

clearly

would be how to interact with a Godform

since it is your own mind

that must take away benefit from the exchange

and communication of that visionary sort is very metaphorical

it doesn’t

make sense

to me

it rarely does

To leap and trust

because that is what is expected

and everyone else does

so…I should too…?

It seems silly

I know

the idea of that

big invisible penis

its kind of like

an elephant

in a tiny room

full of people

who don’t want to talk about it

“If you’re going to tell people the truth,
make them laugh,
otherwise they’ll kill you”
- O. Wilde

Billeting the DraGOONs – The disruptors attracted your gatherings like evil moths

Pagans exhibit and grow their spirituality outside

this is why outdoor gatherings are so quickly dispersed by police

in the absence of legal gathering places like churches

we found fields to dance in

in the midst of our drum circles and gatherings we think we have safety and equality

but if we look around

we find the dragoons

the shitty gangster fuck who takes over the loudest instrument, playing off time

drunk and mocking

the rocker union boys

just setting up a picnic nearby

and blaring their blasters

where you have always gathered

They are charming

and have money

and its a free world

you can’t stop them from coming

unless

you throw rocks at them

or start a fight

they will never get in any trouble for it

they’re doing what the masters want

creating fear and tension

so the heathens

will flee

I stopped going to your events

funky people with music and dancing

there were always a couple of the disruptors

usually from surrey or a union

and amongst your people pronouncing the need for equality

I found as much jeering

as any other shitty scene

so it wasn’t worth staying

and trying to compete

with the dragoons

If you were really aware as pagans

you would actually learn to fuck them up

but I guess

that is why the Eloi

were food

The Jesus Zombie – an easter fable

This isn’t my idea

I don’t know if even belongs to the guy who told it to me

I’ve embellished it considerably

but you may recreate it faithfully if you wish

I have no copyright on either the Passion or:

Jesus as a zombie

The Zombie Christ

Hmmm.

It makes me think

jesus rising from the dead as a zombie

and the first 2 people that actually are waiting up for him

because they love him so

replenish his brain supply so he can continue

That’s a great easter story

before and after zombification donkey riding pans and closeups

the whole tomb transformation scene

n fact

you could write it up so that the zombification was already taking hold

when he bit off Judas’ ear,

so that would clear him of that cannibal stigma

that the whole ear biting thing was causing for some people.

If there were 2000 zombie movies of Jesus Zombies

That would be better than just zombie

zombies fucking suck

but you could mix it up with Day of the Dead meats Passion of the Zombie Christ

It could be a dramatic tearjerker with maggots and pus

and romans

so many fucking romans

romans and pirates turned to zombies

a battlefield of zombies with beer

there for the whole nailing scene

This is a period piece, right?

There’s no tv, but they got beer

unless its like a future apocalypse retelling thing

then they might have TV projection

Pirates and romans and jock zombies

with a little crowd of christians at the center

watching in horror

and fascination

I mean

that’s the crucial money shot moment anyway

the long death scene

with hints of the coming zombification

for viewers in the know

lots of fucking zombie robot romans

barely able to speak

they can’t even say “brains”

they just say

“spooooorts”

Jesus was dark BROWN…

Jesus was BROWN.

His hair was curly black

He had BROWN eyes

He didn’t speak english

He didn’t watch football or racing.

Really.

He was brown. Almost BLACK.

Not white.

Just throwing that out there for all you folks that like to

“Git ‘er Dun!”

I know I’ve said it before

I thought it bore repeating

for the moron boys

All of the holy apostles were brown.

They were BROWN!!!!

not white

BROWN

Somewhere in history he got bleached

after the romans took over the collection money

Complaint Procedure – the fascists laughed, because | I wouldn’t get on the fucking train…

http://www.ohchr.org/EN/HRBodies/HRC/Pages/Complaint.aspx

What the Death of Jesus represents, metaphorically, to a non-christian:

1. If you are spiritual and have big gatherings and talk about tolerance the kids will love you.

2. The older people who have orthodox right wing views and are good well paid slaves will hate you because their kids that hate them love you. They also hate long hair because they are bald and are afraid of their anuses being too filthy to touch.

3. Eventually the backstabbers and gossipers and lynch instigators will wear you down or set you up or realize you have ideas or property of value and they will ask the Romans to kill you. Even though everyone hates the Romans and knows they are the real criminals that are fucking everyone over, but you can’t fight them so get on their good side whenever possible. Always lots of people ready to suck Roman cock for perks.

4. Once the Romans are involved, even the people that hate the Romans will scream at the Romans to kill you.

5. Everyone that ever liked you will, in the face of all of that, denounce you and pretend they never liked you. Your family will gladly tell them everything shitty they can about you and help, especially if you are worth money.

6. Everyone who doesn’t have anything else to do will all get together to throw rocks while you carry your shit to where they’re gonna kill you. Even the people that knew you will throw rocks, otherwise they will be noticed for not throwing rocks. Your family members will be in the crowd. They will have fucking rocks too.

7. The Romans will kill you.

8. Everyone will watch on pay per view if they can’t be there. It will be a spectacle. There might even be beer commercials during the breaks in torment. Union Made. The local police will run crowd control and grounds security for the event. Everyone will have a party and laugh while they rewind the good parts.

9. The Romans will divide up anything you have of value.

10. The people of your community will divide up the rest. Your family will fight about it all later.

11. Afterward no one will speak well about you. It will be a good thing that you were publicly humiliated and killed. It was good for everybody.

12. The next generation they’ll do it to someone else.

13. 100 years later you and your works will be the tourist attraction for the community that screamed for your murder.

14. If you die dramatically there will be a statue covered in pigeon shit representing your martyrdom.

15. If you don’t die dramatically, you won’t even get your fifteen minutes of fame for hanging up there.

What Jesus represents

If you look up at him hanging there just the right way

is this:

Do what the Romans tell you to or you’ll end up like me.

Clear Precedent Danger – why every queer and freak should take law in post secondary…

Your rights as a human being in Canada are not inherent

like all systems arisen from colonialism

the Canadian legal system is specifically designed to maintain the status quo against human societal evolution and pervasive rights

For decades an atrocity can be committed by administrations of respected governments

as long as there is little proof and no outward signs

it will be allowed to continue

until someone of the slave classes

takes their savings and time

years and thousands

to set a Precedent

This is why entry to law school is very restrictive

Every queer and witch and freak in Canada

can be ripped off with impunity

anyone, really

in Harper’s Canada,

only profit matters

and “God”

method and motive

and culture,

or lack thereof

are inconsequential

They tell you to do what you love

I tell you that’s bullshit

right out of school

take accounting or law

after you have a degree in that

be yourself

because if any of your ideas or creations are of value

you will need a lawyer

so why not start your life debt to the education system by prepaying for the legal representation you will invariably need?

If you want rights, real ones

you have to pay for them

a society that progresses

evolves

by challenging laws of the past

that entrench injustice

not justice

to evolve past overdressed simians

bowing frantically to white robed holy monkeys,

to a world where humans can fuck how they like

and create families outside

of the christian binary construct,

a world where evolution is admired but it is still a place where people can believe in different spiritual constructs without suppression,

you need Precedence

to continue evolving

silly monkeys

Precedence only comes

from from humans FIGHTING unjust law.

Fighting Law is the only way to evolve Law.

It is only through our conflict with laws that law and society evolve

anachronous or oppressive, or discriminatory laws,

entrenched for centuries

have to be fought by slave citizens with their own slave money

Masters do not want the law to change

and they can pay well to manipulate law and create more controlling or thieving Precedents.

Injustice in “law” is held SACRED until it is destroyed

by a Precedence.

Law in Canada as it stands, promotes inequality and oppression

Almost all evolutions in law start with someone who recieves unjust treatment at the hands of law, confronting law on their own dime.

They usually die penniless

and 2 centuries later are vindicated.

So instead of taking art, silly little witchies and faggots

trannies and freaks and musicians and dykes and everybody that’s not in a good christianized nuclear family workin’ fer the union to Git ‘er Dun,

all you queer folk,

Take Law.

Set a few Precedents.

You’ll make a lot more money than the other slaves

because all of the hegemony will try to distract you

simply to avoid

the evolution

of Precedent.

Quisling Culture: Harper, Christy, and the Crime Families vs. Your Family

They have a very small minded idea of what a family is.

There are so many real “families” of people living together that don’t conform to their christian gangsgter ideal of what a “proper” family is.

They discriminate and oppress you from this imaginary position of superiority.

Harper’s growing fascist state loves the gangs

that’s why so many billions are paid out to the “faith based charities” that are really gangs laundering money for the rich and targeting the enemies of the state

The state has always needed bullies

and since they learned what a mess public genocide is

they moved back to the previous policy

billeting the dragoons in the cultural neighborhoods

Christy and Stephen have no problem going to church

then paying $300 million dollars out to a bunch of “charities” run by the italians and the hells angels and yes, the cia too

That was Georgies selling point to Harper

“We’re funding faith based poverty initiatives,

not state sponsored criminal gangs attacking lefties, witchies, and queers”

Its all in how you present it.

The indians were relocated to “help them”

die of course, but hey it looks good when you sell it right

Do you all realize

that we could end all of the public debt in Canada

90% of which was incurred by our debt to the gang run unions

the welfare people didn’t break our budgets

the unions did

the gang unions

that Stephen employs

We could vaporize all that public debt in one single month

ALL of it.

Not decades of belt tightening for everybody

its very simple

use the new expanded police powers you’ve gradually grown under everyone’s noses, and absorb all of the assets and companies owned by organized crime groups and their subsidiaries.

In one single week, the Canadian fiscal deficit crisis would be over

If you then went and absorbed all of the corporations who owe the fed more than 50% of their capital assets in tax payments, we as Canadians would be in the black again.

You’ve dismantled our healthcare and made legal representation impossible to get for anyone without money Mr. Harper

You want to throw 15 year olds in jail for a few pot plants

but your buddies at the Salvation Army and IATSE get your gov’t handouts

for the good work they do importing cocaine for your rich friends

Canadians have less money in their pockets than when you started Mr. Prime Minister. Except your buddies in the gangs. They’re living large.

Why every Queer should marry a Straight person early in life…

…and then divorce them when it’s convenient.

Do it before you are 20

Your whole redneck family will turn against you and fuck you over because you are queer,

so marry a straight right out of high school

get all the gifts and perks that families hand out to their good newly married children

take the bank loans, the cheaper insurance, the jobs that suddenly appear,

when you are 22-23, divorce them, split up the booty

and go handfast with someone more conducive to a real life of non fakeness

Your family will be shocked

but so what, if you had been honest with your queer self like they try and tell you you can be, you would have got NOTHING but derision from your family.

So a fag and a dyke marrying just to have the marriage on paper so they can get all the discriminatory perks is completely justified. Each can have their real sex partner living in the house too, legally it is only the marriage on paper that matters.

The Christian Hegemony wants you to believe that it is a holy thing, man0woman marriage.

Love is holy. That’s all. marriage is a cult dominated cultural bias which allows 20-30% of the population to discriminate against the majority, LEGALLY.

They can LEGALLY discriminate against you all..

Christians have this weird idea that they’ve tried to take over the world with.

That because you live together and fuck someone that you should share their debts and profit.

Each person should keep their own debts and profit

There should be no support from exes,

if the child rearing parent outside of the relationship is having trouble then society is not caring for for people with children properly in its design of the social safety net.

Otherwise, people marry because of the economic benefits(the ingrained discriminatory practices against singles) and they marry people not out of love but out of a future greed where they know if they fuck a rich person for 3 years and live with them that they can get a monthly check for the rest of their life.

It’s a long term whoring strategy used by the christians in power to institutionalize control and discrimination.

So all you faggots and dykes and trannies and kinksters

find yourself someone you don’t really love

and marry them just to get the perks that society illegally gives to married people.

Marriage Cults

I predict that one day the concept of “lifetime marriage”,

a Christian Concept

will be ruled as unconstitutional

and the discriminatory rules and perks that married people get in their taxes, salaries, insurance costs, and job promotions will be outlawed

Marriages will be fixed term with clearly defined rules to make sure that the participants assets remain separate and that they have a specific co-owned couples account for shared costs.

Children will go with one or the other parent, all financial ties will be severed at the time of separation

We must separate the church and state

Marriage is a Christian tool of mind control that is used to make people conform to a christian set of ideals.

It divides people more than it connects them,

it separates families by making them enemies over money

and it ingrains discrimination and favoritism against single people in society, finance and law.

My brother might be a stupid redneck cunt-fuck

but he gets job offers, promotions, way cheaper insurance, and more than 10 times the credit, just because he’s married to someone. That is discrimination. It really is.

Look at the managers at your company where you work

The managers are all married, and between a single person and someone who is married, the married person ALWAYS gets the promotion, even though somone else might do a better job.

From the special advisor on religious discrimination at the UN:

In his report, the expert warns that human rights violations against persons belonging to religious minorities include disproportionate bureaucratic restrictions, denial of appropriate legal status positions needed to build up or uphold a religious infrastructure, systematic discrimination and partial exclusion from important sectors of society, discriminatory rules within family laws, and indoctrination of children from minorities in public schools.“The human rights-based approach,” he explained, “takes respect for the self-understanding of human beings as its systematic starting point.” “In keeping with the principle of normative universalism, the rights of persons belonging to religious minorities cannot be confined to the members of certain predefined groups,” Mr. Bielefeldt said. “Instead, they should be open to all persons who live de facto in the situation of a minority and are in need of special protection to facilitate a free and non-discriminatory development of their individual and communitarian identities.”

a tree

The Girl didn’t Die From Bullying, She died because of lack of justice…and indifferent police.

In B.C.

What about that girl that was gang raped at the Pitt Meadows bush party?

Oh, right, she didn’t kill herself so we can forget that happened here.

I mean, she wasn’t killed like that girl on the train in india, so it wasn’t really that bad.

Right?

Just “kids”

having “fun”

in the Greatest Place on Earth

Not much the police can do about it.

They don’t really care

really.

They get paid either way

and I bet one or two of the boys involved

has a rich dad

Amanda Todd didn’t die from internet stalking

or bullying

she died from an institutionalized indifference

Every day in canada

someone else who is seriously fucked over by a gang or bullies

every day in Canada, they call the police

and are laughed at

unless you can prove it yourself

the police won’t spend resources to prove what happened to you

you’re just another slave

and union resources like police

are expensive

The girl’s trauma was caused by no one

not even herself

doing something about it

and since her death another 150 people in Canada her age have killed themselves

over something similiar

Where no one did anything

and everyone tells them to call the police

who stand around chuckling

before saying

“There’s really nothing we

can do”

Bullies and gangsters make more

remember that

be a bully

and you’ll be rewarded

here

But what about the adults?

They get it worse

we’ve spent as a society about $30 million

on Bullying conferences for kids

Save the Kids!

Save the Kids!

There are 4 or 5 times as many adults

experiencing the same thing

every day

but the conferences ignore them

because they aren’t kids

That;s what’s wrong

its not just a high school thing

it permeates our society

We know the police are inneffective

except in simple violent crime

but when someone kills themself

there are no bruises

and the police are allowed to choose

whether they will bother

to investigate

anything

Its easier to build up your employee file

doing simpler things

arresting drunks and such

spending a couple of weeks trying to help one person?

they don’t even bother

There is no justice in Canada for anyone who cannot afford to make their own.

And what about that young 19 year old ontario girl

locked away for more thsn s yesr for stealing a cd and throwing an apple

She didn’t get any justice

She was trying to kill herself because of the inherent injustice of the situation

an injustice the police were propogating

the justice who sent her to jail should be lynched

but there are no repercussions for bad judges, policemen or politicians

The main problem is that the police officers are allowed to decide for themselves whether or not to investigate any particular crime, and they specifically are instructed to not waste resources.

Someone who is harassed online for showing their tits is really just a laugh to them, when they can make 5 arrests in an hour just targeting drunks and crackheads. They aren’t going to charge anyone for calling someone a slut. They won’t charge someone for calling anyone any names at all. They don’t consider verbal harrassment by social groups to be a crime.

It was OK for all the yuppie jocks to mock the goth kids of columbine. That’s ALLOWED. The outsiders retaliate and they are seen as the “evil bastards” but really, if there was proper justice and court and legal representation for people they could maybe taken the rich whelps to court – NOT.

If you get robbed by a gang and they are gone when the police arrive, they won’t look, its a waste of time to them. I had a friend have $5K worth of stuff burgled, an officer didn’t even come to the door. A crackhead steals a pack of smokes and 6 cops will be there, a crackhead or drunk is passed out in the deserted house down the street and they sent 2 firetrucks and an ambulance, $2K worth of union workers for a drunk.

Do you think any police officer is ever going to investigate the fact that my CT scan was swapped on orders from a doctor involved in Therapeutic privelege? Do you think any cop is going to investigate the rich american fucks who ripped off some east van faggot?

no.

They’ll drag a drunk off to the tank for $10K worth of Detox, but they didn’t spend any time or effort on dying whores, robbed and harassed faggots, or little girls who can’t keep their shirt on.

They don’t give a flying fuck, its just a job, and they are only in it for the money and power.

If you have money and power, you’ll get justice.

Otherwise, just be a good slave and shut up, because they aren’t going to investigate anything on your behalf when there is good money to be made taking bribes from gangsters to ignore the whores and drug dealers.

We have a “community cop” in our neighborhood, and he stands around joking with the crack and heroin dealers!

What about police harrassment?

Is that included in your new “bullying” law talk?

2 times a police officer from the VPD has made comments on my blog after a court appearance.

Twice. Mocking me.

What about being jailed for 3 days for calling a doctor a cunt because she was the 9th docotr I went to and all 9 mocked me for my birth genetics. They laughed. They swapped medical records, they mocked me right in the CT scan lab!

My last court appearance the prosecuting attorney tried to make the REMOVAL OF THIS BLOG as a condition of release!

How many millions have we paid out to “talk” about bullying in school, when its really a society wide problem with a number of right wing union backed groups involved.

“Finding God – The Movie” and “The American Invasion !!”

I’m going to find God.

And capture it on film.

The search of course

in all the nooks and crannies

of our minds.

But before I start, let’s get this clear:

I don’t believe in God or Satan.

Or Heaven.

Or the concept of Hell as a destination of Torment

But I believe in human spirituality.

This will be interesting…

It might take me a while.

I need a camera and a better rig for editing.

This will be cool.

So cool.

I’m also planning a movie, 2 actually, a doc and a comedy, on the invasion of Canada by American CIA agents using Canadian films and drug smuggling film unions as a cover for the targeting and character assassination of lefty pothead Canucks with socialist tendencies.It will be followed by a spin off called Canadian Traitors, where the dumbest redneck Canadians who suck american military dick for perks like good jobs harrass and intimidate every Canadian cultural worker they can find, justifying it by giggling like a bunch of fat schoolgirls saying “you shoulda joined the union!!” or any other excuse they can bring up for why the person deserved their fate.

Of course, both of the “American Invasion!!!!”(tm) series will have the usually stupidified Canadian politicians clamouring over each other to bend over for the americans, and happily going along ith everything to help get rid of the terrorist socialist pagan un-christian hordes of useles people who won’t be good slaves for the american masons who are in seats of power all throughout the canadian social and legal and health systems.

Every episode starts off with another loveableCanadian loser who believes that the social safety net is essential in a society where it hits minus 30+ and all the good jobs go to people who were born in other countries, to keep the canucks from ever gaining any hold on their own society and its rulers.

Every episode or 3 episode arc will show the horrible lefty bohos getting framed and red-baited and ostracized from their own families and communities for real or imagined “transgressions” endlessly talked about by plastic TV personalities groomed for vacuous information misdirection.

Lots of closeups of plasticized canucks speaking reverentially about “american life” while their families slowly disintegrate from lack of healthcare or credit.

Single Player 3D First Person Adventure/Story Game Design on Lower End Rigs

I’ve been trying to get a modding/game design core single player base to work from.

I was using Valve’s SDK for a long time,
but it’s expensive if you’re successful, so there’s no profit motive. It’s also got a lot of steps to work with textures.
The deal breaker with Valve was Steam tho.
I would have my dev box working, all set up, in the middle of something, I’d run a test after surfing the net, and Steam would update and reboot.

Then it would refuse to let me work until it had the internet again. Which was really spotty.
I could not work offline consistently with Valve and after about the 10th time of that in 3 years I uninstalled the source SDK and probably will never install it again.

I abandoned that for UDK 2 years ago. When I had A DECENT RIG.

Unreal Development Kit (UDK) from Epic Games is FREE and is here:

http://www.unrealengine.com/udk/

It really is fantastic. On a better rig I would actually be using UDK 50% of the time.
I LOVE UDK, BUT…

I have a piece of fucking crap rig that limps. 512 megs of ram feels like I am on acidic time distortion. Press. Wait. Smoke. Look at floor. Drink coffee. Look at monitor…
NOT DONE YET
Drink more coffee, smoke. Wait.

What really kills UDK is that the core SDK won’t install or run on older hardware. We have good hardware perhaps, but 3\4 of the world is still using XP. They really are. I am. Valve Source can be made to run at DX8 level using the orangebox engine from 2009(hl.exe -dx8). Except it has that steam affliction.

That is actually something to consider. That is a huge possible user base (read customers to buy your creation) that has 10 year old machines and they usually play farmville or peggle.

UDK needs pixel shader support so it won’t install on your Grandma’s rig or mine, so I need to go backwards to find an engine that will work, that isn’t like using stone tools to cut steak.

The problem for me and other single player designers, other than the shader mode 3 necessity in UDK is that there is no easily placeable AI entities and no NPC codemonster entities, no patrol guards, snipers, rocket monsters, police. In Valve you would have the entities from the game you own.

You can’t get any from anywhere else, you can’t copy over scripts from previous versions and modify them so you just have BOTS. Bots fight different than monsters and act differently and don’t have good scripting arrangements for cinematics really. In UDK its nodes not scripts.

I look at really popular games from the past that intrigued us with so so 3D. The game was more important. The game. The story about so and so and things you had to find to learn more about what was happening. How many hundreds of hours did I walk around Myst or Planescape or the Forgotton Realms of Baldur-s Gate, skulked along the corridors of System Shock 2 with about 2% health, a jammed weapon, and the knowledge that there were at least 2 of those slow dumb happy kamikaze robots between you and the tiny little health item 2 hallways away. And it was about 4 blocks of virtual backtracking to the nearest health behind you. It was so ugly looking but we were actually engrossed by the activity and the balance of things, the complexity of our tasks and the map of the ship that we began to memorize as we walked through it.

So I don’t care too much, personally about particle effects and procedural shaders.

Textured environments, stories, and simple logical systems really are at the core of single player games.
Dumb AI can be deadly if it’s placed right and has the right animation in a standard campaign game, and for more adventure or mystery there doesn’t even have to be any physical conflict.

Weapons can be replaced with tools and tool actions. The process is well documented.

If you want to create Single Player 3D games, there isn’t a good code/engine/graphics framework to work with unless you go way back to games that were interesting but ugly. Angular characters and spaces, crappy lighting, blocky textures, low color palettes. But many of them are extremely moddable, because it was Quake and Half Life in object oriented c++ that began the whole modding thing, really. That was when it caught on. But the engines suck. You can rip apart all the texture sets in System Shock 2 or Quake2 with Xnview and replace things to your hearts content but you can’t overcome the lighting and mesh limitations of the engines.

IF you have System Shock 2, and you have applied the major texture mods (there is a non illegal torrent of all the mods that are really good combined with inconsistencies between the mods worked out), then I HIGHLY suggest that you go throught the datamods folder with xnview and find the image sequences and place your own 5-10 frame animated image sets in there instead in png format,  then play the game.

It is a great and easy introduction to retexturing that is fast since you simple open what is there and replace it with something else you make or just adjust the contrast or colour, put embossed labels on doors, change the med sci animations, etc. Its very easy and fun, and doesn’t require a number of steps in an editor, you simply replace the files with new ones in png 32 bit format, and since they are mostly planar mapped you can resample most of the textures larger if you want to make sharper graphics. Just start up the game and walk around, the monitors will be different, there are lots of small image sequences and textures you can alter.
If you want to do this, copy the datapermmods folder after you’ve fully patched ss2 and applied all the mods or the big modpack. Then open the .crf files in the data\res folder with winzip since they are zips renamed crf. Extract all of those into a new empty datapermmods folder in the main SS2 dir. Delete the crf files.
Then copy the contents of your datapermmods bkp onto that and overwrite. This way you will have one image file per asset, and all of the assets in one place. Trust me. Then you can edit the images to your hearts content. I’m trying to make the von braun look like a geiger bosh jofra nightmare. I think I can ickify the intro to the many cutscene with only image replacement. Its more fun than it sounds like.

To my knowledge no one has succesfully managed to open a SS2 .bin 3d file and change it then resave it and have it appear in game. You can retexture it in minutes though. Just editing the files in Photoshop and anytime you open a .pcx comvert it and save it to PNG and notice that png transparency works fine.

But there is no PNG in UT2K4. Hmmmm.

If you have a pretty good rig, with 4-5 year old graphics, you can use Unreal Tournament 3 and have all the things I am going to talk about next, plus normal and bump mapping, and transparent texture support.
But it is a lot more complex to modify if you are just getting into this. I really like to use UT3 for modding, but it is too laggy on my pathetic box here, even with the smallest of landscapes.

If you REALLY need transparent textures (think chainlink fence texture on a flat plane – 4x3d points and a texture to make a whole fence you can see through) and normal maps, there is a super crappy pair of games that you could use. They use Unreal Engine and the Unreal Editor, and they came out about 2 years after UT2k4. They are Pariah and Warpath. Warpath is a slighty more tweaked engine, and pariah has a bit more single player entities. They use UE2.5+ so they have those two extra things, which, for your particular application may be necessary, as normal mapping and transparent textures are very useful in creating atmospheric scenes with low geometry. These run on my rig but smaller designs are necessary. They both come with the Unreal Editor, and it is the same as in UT2K4 so all your workflow procedures will go back and forth easily. They just let you import transparency and normal maps.

You won’t really be able to release it to any large community since both games tanked, whereas UT2k4 players (millions of them) could potentially play your SP mod/level/game if it is UT2K4 based.

I finally settled on Unreal Tournament 2004. Which is not designed for Single Player, but read on.

It has the graphics with basic uv layered textures (but unfortunately no normal mapping).

A number of cool monster packs based on the monster code from the first Unreal single player games years earlier are available, lots of them, plus there are bots, vehicles, ingame messages triggered by using things*think PDA story parts) and landscape objects with landscape tools. It can also import static meshes of fairly high triangle counts and bitmap textures in 32 bit color. It has a mesh Terrain Object with a really excellent set of landscaping and layered texturing tools for the terrain. Huge terrains and rooms are possible. And you get a bunch of vehicles. I like vehicles for SP games.

It will install on a DX9 gfx card, works with 512 megs of ram.

If you install a mod called the Single Player Framework, and another called Vehicle DM, then you get
xPawns from unreal with updated monster code and reworked monsters from the first unreal game (faster, smarter, better shots), unlocked drivable vehicles , and a number of triggers/objectes/keycard/ingame store/inventory/persistence code for single player stories/activities. These are called Actors, and they are also known as “Entities”. If you add the UT2K4 mega pack with the updated patched engine, and its additional 20+ maps, you get 3 new vehicles which greatly change gameplay. For single player flying missions and modding I prefer the Cicada to the Raptor as a base to work with. You may like it as well, and the Paladin is a good class to base a land vehicle off of. The editor patches in the update are essential though, if you want to use Matinee flying camera scenes. (Hint: in the editor you have to load OnslaughtBP.u if you want to place a Cicada or Paladin or SPMA in your level, BP stands for bonus pack.).

I KNOW there is a Max Cicada file for the bonus pack version, not the UT3 version which is MUCH more complex. I remember it. It was rigged and had all the sockets named correctly in Max. Can’t find it now, email me if you do.

UDK doesn’t come with a lot of that (it does come with a souped up cicada), but it gives you better graphics and realizm. And Complexity. It’s a tradeoff.

The Monster and xPawn entities/actors are c coded with simple behaviors that have been modified over the years, unlike bots, which have a different form of AI that works on a pathnode logic system. If you build a game in UDK your enemy actions are complicated networks of kismet programming nodes. Not my scene really, and they don’t give you any templates or base NPC’s so it’s actually a bonus, the scripted monsters, because you can get tweaked monster code in basic patrol here press alarm then attack flavors..

With the UT2k4 Source from Epic and notepad++ or uncodex (I use notepad++ more, but uncodex is really indispensable) you have a good available base of code you can peruse for your enjoyment if you swing that way. So you could open the different files and read the well commented code, adjust it, and even recompile it. If you have a rudimentary knowledge of object oriented languages and headers or linked dlls you can read the main scripts for each significant actor you want to learn as well as their parents, and you can extend, say, a new weapon/monster/item from a similar existing one and make changes such as a new model/sound/fire animation, etc. without affecting the upstream parents and retaining the qualities of the parent objects that you do not explicitly change with our child object. Keycard can be extended to become MetalKey and be necessary to open a door perhaps.That’s the short version of scripting uses.

The recipe is as follows:

You take the script source
http://download.cnet.com/Unreal-Tournament-2004-UnrealScript-v3186-Source-Code/3000-7441_4-10285176.html

http://wiki.beyondunreal.com/UnrealScript_source_code

http://wiki.beyondunreal.com/Legacy:UnrealScript_Source

unzip it to a folder that isn’t UT for now to keep yourself from getting confused, as you might “export the scripts” from unrealed later but I suggest you do that in a separate folder and place a different uncodex there.
Place Uncodex in that folder and have the classes folder there, then add the codemasters classes from the spframework which will be in a folder called codemasters in your spframe directory if you installed spframe right, or it will be in your main UT2K4 folder if you did it wrong.

Put the two folders of classes side by side in your development folder somewhere away from UT, they do not have to be but you could end up with 30,000 duplicate classes in your UT2K4 folder if you export the source from unreal ed into the same place. Put those folders in the uncodex settings and let it build the class tree. Install notepad++ and bind it to .u and .uc files.

Browse the classes in uncodex, the blue links in the code browser will take you to that class as you browse through each script. You can open each class that you are browsing into notepad++ and then you can have the upward object tree for any child class all opened at once in tabs there. You can then extend the child classes of the source and modify them, creating new .u scripts which you can test and even compile for your UT system directory later, where they can be loaded as necessary to implement your coded child class and its game representation or effect in a running level.

You don’t need visual c++ installed or any c++ ide and compiler, since you can use a tool called ucc.exe oryou can link a small compile program to uncodex and notepad++.
If you want to you can get an extension for visual studio express that will properly section and highlight UT2K4 code.

Which will make sense to some people, and others just got an immediate migraine. Sorry about that. I shoulda warned you. I had to give the starter code geeks a bone though since I am focused on the story and graphics here mostly, the application of the tools created by the underlying code, and the useage of software applications to create or process original asset and structural content. Somewhere some geek just figured out they can sift UT code with less than 20 megs of space and a set of programs smaller than 10 megs, and have everything they need to manipulate their nasty little code snippets. Grrr. Programming sucks kiddies but there you go.

You then have every tool available in a game like Quake 1/2 or Unreal.
Tools for a single player game. And you actually can do the whole thing without typing any code at all other than names of objects or filenames.

If you go section by section through the two connected example maps called Parser and just try to recreaate each trigger/even setup you will see by the end you have most of what you need to tell most stories.
You can use minus to take the hud away. I’m trying to find out how to set it that way at the start of the game, no hud. They are very short, but the 20 or so objects used can all advance your story nicely.

The only thing that isn’t there is some kind of Deus Ex 2/System Shock 2 inventory system with combineable items. And personally I would like a coop non deathmatch adventure using the SP tools, where in SP mode I could control one of 4 or 6 characters like in the ugly but interesting Project Eden. The source is There. I really would like a fling probe and remote vehicle controls too. Project Eden used Quake 2 c++. If they could accomplish it, it is possible in UT2k4. C++ is C++. There is a way…

Graphics wise, in UT there is a LOT of modding support, which is good for artists because they are NOT coders usually. It takes a different Brain for lines of text than for 3D modelling and level construction usually.

I found an essential tool. For older Rigs.
If you are on XP using Dx9 and you install Dx10, 10 will fubar 9, and max and modtool, which can hold the actor x plugins for mesh and animation export of UT, both choke.
It can be fixed using dxerad.exe (dx eradicator) and only reinstalling dx9c, but some things will never be the same. XSI Modtool will repair itself this way tho.

If that happens then you don’t have max (Max 7 works great and natively supports .ASE mesh format!) or xsi modtool working suddenly and then you NEED an .ASE converter. Or you get no static meshes.

Max/Maya/XSI really are OVERKILL for most needs in your game design adventure.

I gravitate to max a lot. When its accessible. I enjoy working in ModTool more because I started in 3D with LW and Softimage 3.1 (the irix->NT port). There is an actor X plugin for max, maya, xsi, and the xsi works in modtool. All of those tools however will immediately botch and be unuseable if you install direct X 10 on an XP machine that is at DX9c. They will work before that. XPsp3 with DX9c will install and run these 3 applications. If you install DX 10 for any reason on that development box, your DX9 is wratched and all 3 cease to function. DX10 on XPsp3 requires a complete rebuild of the os patched to dx9 and don’t add the dx10 again. If you don’t care what you are building things in as long as you can do it, then you can just move over to a tool that works for you on your crappier rig.

At which point you can use C4D, Lightwave, Silo, Milkshape, etc. LW works on almost anything. Keep in mind these games you love were made with tools from 10+ years ago. The core tools for low poly and uv have been standardized for more than a decade.

So anyway, for UT2K4 I needed this tool.
Nothing else worked.
with it I can model in Silo/c4d/max or anything else and convert to .ASE
So cool.

http://mirex.mypage.sk/FILES/bi088.rar
It’s called Biturn, and was made for Final Fantasy 7.
Imports Obj and a bunch of other formats, and exports clean .ase files.
This is the guys page:http://mirex.mypage.sk
There is nothing else, other than the max/maya actorx plugins which are picky for just static meshes, and not everyone has max or maya.  So now you have this!

With those things you can build a single player game that is graphically superior to at least 20 games that made over 10 million each. So you can’t really bitch about it not being enough. Pretty much everything is tweakable at that point.

Another very useful file utility for me is dragon unpacker, and notepad++ to read uc and u files.

and I HIGHLY suggest you get the Extended Toolbar, which you can customize with the toolbar creator.
http://www.ego-creations.de/
Why? Because you can click a button and select all lights, or all actors, or all stat meshes. You can customize your own tool buttons too.
I actually use the toolbar creator alone now because it will actually build the toolbar into UnrealEd once its set right.

All these monsters are available in UT2k4 if you take the time to import them, and you can load them into an editor and look at their design or modify them.
http://www.unreal.shaungoeppinger.com/monsters.html

I stick with the ones in the SPFramework first (the original unreal xpawns), some of the packs are twitchy and you have to fix them.

The unreal reference animation sets and meshes are here:
http://unrealtournament2004.filefront.com/files/Unreal_Tournament_2003/Utilities/Modeling_Tools
This is the most important one for animators (use google)
ut2k3_skeletons-allspecies.zip
as it has all of the base animations for the 5 character types
so it has the dodge ani, the fire ani, the crouch ani, etc.
There is a base mesh too, but you have to detach it from biped as those are max files.

The editor is a bit hard to get into, but for cheap/free level design you can’t really complain. Save lots, don’t push it too hard.

On my crap rig I can work with a 40k terrain and 30 monsters with 6 vehicles on the map and a bunch of interactive items.
I don’t need that much space, but that’s the limit where framerate drops.

If I don’t use a terrain object, and just carve out the world with the BSP builder brush, I can make a set of spaces 10+ kilometers in size connected by hundreds of passages, since the bsp compile will segment the rooms by visibility. That’s more than I need. I can build the Rickenbacker or similar sized ship/complex in one level with different zones to pull the entities out of ram until I enter different zones.
You can build huge complexes that you have to drive around in.
They are hard to light though, so stick with smaller rooms connected at first.
But what more do you need?

Every monster or character mesh made for UT2004 can be modified and reskinned by clearly defined processes. All character animation sets can be loaded tweaked exported reloaded and packaged. All inventory items can be renamed and remeshed. UI elements can be reskinned. Ogg or wave can be triggered at will with stereo placement. Text messages, even small vids or audio can be embedded in consoles. Monsters can be spawned. Bots can be spawned. Keycards and quest items can be gathered. Vehicles (and Turrets) can be placed. Sculptures, models, artwork can all be imported.

You can even build your level corridors using the base Silo/c4d/max cube and extruding faces then exporting, but you have to resize and change the orientation in a very odd way in Silo/c4d/max before making your OBJ for conversion by biturn to ASE. It works, and Silo or c4d have very intuitive face extrusion tools.
You might NEED to flip your normals too. Double sided materials make light do weird things in game engines. I used to dislike C4D. Now I do not. Meshes from it import well in UT, its base scale is close to UT, and most of all it will open old lightwave hypernurb sub-d objects. Which I actually have quite a few of since lightwave was great for spaceships. But nothing else opens them. Lightwave itself is fine for this work in games, though it is usually a film/tv rendering tool, the modeller is great with these meshes, and UV texture display is excellent. Lightwave 9.0, not 9.0c will work after a dx10 in xp botch. Max/Maya/Modtool will not, even if they worked before the dx10 addon to xp. Max 7-9 and modtool will work on most older hardware, and max has a software renderer built in for backup. UT2K4 will import single layer lightwave static meshes as raw .lwo, and they will show nicely with collision and uv mapping and smoothgroups by mat. I don’t know why. I don’t see any mention in the history of Unreal where they specify having used anything but max, maya, or xsi, but there it is in your static mesh import: would you like .ASE or .LWO?

I honestly think you get better speed with standard room squares and corridors by using the BSP Subtract/Add tools and then populating the spaces with Static Meshes (the sculptures and models you make in other packages and import). If you don’t delete the end caps and use the interior, I believe you can also convert a room system to a Brush then use it to Subtract if you are using max.

The main advantage of using builder brushes where the user goes is that wall sections can be selected by rectangular brush face and given a different texture. Static meshes can not be retextured in the editor so you have to texture in Silo/Max/ModTool/etc. and save all your maps as massive TGA files until you can import. If you don’t texture stat meshes with UV you will have to link up every texture on wall faces instead of just to a single UV map. I say this because I have avoided modelling in BSP as I was using UDK which is Additive and supports FBX. UT2k4 is subtractive and only supports triangulated ASE meshes. It affects your texturing flow in the editor, so if you build corridors as stat meshes you have to texture them well before importing and properly uv map them unless they are perfectly planar mapped. In BSP you just select a wall and change the texture. Stat meshes don’t drop and have pretty good auto collision on import, even archways and domes. Faces and the Normal directions matter very much if you use Stat meshes for the corridors, so surround sections with BSP blocks or antiportals.

Zbrush models I’ve made with the default sphere can be very detailed, comparatively, and poly painting/textures exported with the multi map exporter are great, although I didn’t dig auv tiles, they made seams.
The polypaint to texture had no seam. I found meshes at level 2 were enough, 3 caused lag, but textures of 2048 on a level 2 mesh export straight through biturn into ase and are very fluid and interactive. Thats at about 16000 tri’s exported per model for good speed, you could probably go step 3 on a better rig, but 16k is pretty good for a sculptural showpiece in the center of a room or a fairly detailed console or something.

Transparent textures are not supported EXCEPT with TGA,
but you can live with it. You get entities in exchange.

Hint:
create zrush/max/silo model
in zbrush export multimap tx 2048, mesh exp at level 2
in max/silo/c4d/modtool export a uv mapped .obj mesh and texture
convert obj to ase with bturn
convert zbrush psd or tiff to bmp or tga
import mesh to your meshes testpackage in UT2k4
import textures to your textures testpackage in UT2k4
save both packages
place model
select model,
“actor properties -> display -> drawscale” to resize, 400 works good
rotate the model
“actor properties -> display -> skins” add skin
select imported texture or a Shader Material with multiple textures combined in it
click Use
the texture appears in the field
and on our model
build all, play
The packages must be saved before you play,
they do not need to be saved before you build.

It is that easy. You could resize and flip in your 3d application. The mesh on import will always flip the same way, so learn to adjust for it and get the origin of your objects right to make rotating/moving easier.

Zbrush is beautiful, but difficult, expensive and a ram user, and BodyPaint I believe costs even more. Sometimes I feel like I’m using a bazooka to create a simple texture map.

This FREE software I offer a link to is tiny and, well, FREEEEEEE.
It’s great.
I can load a 3ds of a ut2k4 vehicle pulled from the package with some extractor, coverted to 3ds, I can load the manta in to this Tattoo prog, both materials are still assigned,  I can paint away, save out the textures, it saves png and paints symetrically.
I can then load the 3ds manta into LW/Silo/Zbrush/etc. and have an already applied uv with 2 pngs.
Did I say that it is free?
And 1.2 megs!

It’s called Tattoo:
http://www.terabit-software.co.uk/Tattoo.aspx

http://www.terabit-software.co.uk/Legacy/Setup_Tattoo.exe

Save it, pass it around. Good things like that tend to disappear suddenly.
I have 2 backups of it.

 This is great for g16 terrain heightmaps
http://www.bundysoft.com/L3DT/

At this point someone might ask why I haven’t extolled the virtues of the mighty Blender.
I have 2 versions, the latest, and one around 2.4 or earlier.
I use them for occasional file conversion.
I can’t stand Blender. Can’t stand it. Big clunky interface or inscrutable blah.

My screen is MINE. Get your damned geeky buttons that mean jack shit off of them. Give me back that big grey blob of wasted space in the corner under and around the boxes with 30 pixel spacings and those huge massive pixel robbing bands of menu that never stop f$%@%@#ing replicating. You bastards.
Sorry.
Ahem.
Blender really makes me mad.

When it has a skinnable interface that we can reorganize and ungibberish I’ll consider it,
until then feel free to jizz in the open source.
One day there will be an alternative. To Blender. I’ve been waitng a decade.

Yes, before the emergence of the windows pixel robber at the top of our screens (not my model of course)

Don’t tell me it is a gem under a turd splash,
I don’t care.

I hand built an NT machine so I could install Softimage 3, and used Lightwave since version 3 on the Video Toaster.
I used a f@%$%@#$%ing Video Toaster, the wierdest Amiga doodad that worked ever.
I can decipher a wierd interface.

Blender isn’t wierd, its an asshole. It doesn’t want you to understand it because you’re not fucking ‘leet enough. Or something.
The things that work they remove and they fill in more crap. No manual you can download? A wiki? f@#$@%. Grrrrrr. Inscrutable geekshit.

That being said, I use it for some kind of conversion or test at least 10 times a year since it came out. I just don’t model in it.

The SMD export works in 2.6 and you can still activate .lwo import, so I do use it for file generation and conversion.

Well. The SMD SORTOF works.
It shows you how great things COULD be, auto importing all meshes from the qc, SOME of the animations import, but then, after being somewhat excited you realize that it doesn’t like the source .bmp’s and so you need to convert all your textures to jpg and replace them in each material.

On the redesigned high def loader that’s 30+ image files that need to be hand linked after conversion.

f%#$$%#ing ‘leet geeks. What do you think people want to use blender for?
They want to mod games. HL1 and UT2K4 hav huge user bases, but we get half cooked tools because all the geeks are jerking off on subsurface scattering and python crap that has no fucking value to 80% of the people who would LIKE to use blender for real production work. Sure milkshape is an ugly piece of shit, but at least it doesn’t make me load 30 f%$%#^ing textures requiring 120 f^%$^ing goddamned mouse clicks to do it with for every f^%&^ing  <bleep> model I want to work on.

Milkshape, XSI, Max, even the HMLV will load the fucking textures with its whopping 20 meg size.

Go code us some more high end shit we can’t really fucking care about and we’ll go back to using tools we don’t have to fucking fight with or try to decipher.
I guess that’s mean. But its been 10 years.

Do I sound mad? I hate inefficiency. If I have to repeat a task over and over with multiple mouse clicks then the process is NOT WELL DESIGNED and I rip the software from my pipeline or relegate it to what it is doing well without fighting me. That goes for shortcuts and interface.

When I work, the things I need should be there, around me.
Not stuff I don’t need,
not stuff I have to click through and down and into like %$#% textures
5 clicks from an object to reach image import and I can’t batch load my 30 images into the list? Why do we bother with that. Grr.

Yes, python is cool, but it breaks,
import export, mesh optimization, armatures and animation
are the core of work,
everything else,
rendering and physics,
is really an external process
to 90% of the work
we would be using blender for.
modelling, texturing, rigging, animating.
Shaders are a render things.
Dynamics and physics are an engine thing.

I can model with it
it’s the little things that suck.
Like mouse controls that make no sense
and dialogs that constantly pop up
just to ask me if I really wanted to do that simple thing that I have an undo for
or the nested tree of 20 clicks it takes to get at a specific component
oh, and I mentioned the massive interface I think
I expect it from softimage xsi, the bloat
I don’t want it in Blender.

I can’t believe it won’t import a BMP from source.
that’s just lame. So lame. Its bmp.
too ‘leet for bmp, even though that’s a core format for a dozen different media pipelines. I know it sucks but that’s what I’m working with let me load it.

If its up your alley, great. Yee haw.
Check KatsBits for tips on blender and .map
http://www.katsbits.com/tutorials/idtech/exporting-models-as-bsp-maps-advanced.php

Anyway, I’m foaming and ranting.
If I’m stoned out of my gourd and a bit drunk will sit down and open Zbrush or Lightwave or Silo. All 3 are symetrical box modelers in operation.
Silo rocks but lacks some basic material functions and occasionally won’t work for a particular application without tweaking points or normals.
Lightwave is slightly less wierd than Blender, but to anyone who has taken the time to learn it is worth it and a dozen movies and sci fi series have used it.

On lightwave I generally start with a 6x6x8 edge cube, centered, symmetrical modeling on, and tabbed into hypernurbs, and then constant extruding or faceted subdividing selections.  I use the subdiv weights painting to sharpen edges, bridge to connect separate object layers, and spin quad to fix bridges. Before Silo, I could not find this workflow anywhere else.

I like the separation of LW Modeler and Layout
I personally like the segmentation of apps
I would like something open source that was like Motionbuilder
I think that would make everyone happier
especially if you could smooth retarget and edit bvh and asc motion libraries
I bet an open source motionbuilder clone could run on less than 100 megs and have input mapping, retargeting, advanced and simple armatures, control rig and biped/multiped/wheeled/tracked motion skeleton templates
instead, when you want to animate, you have these massive 2 gig I wanna show off every dynamics and shader trick I can find suites
when you just want to make the arms move on the mesh you made in something else. That’s all you wanted to do, just a little walk cycle or two, with maybe an attachment. How many buttons do you need for that?
not 300 that’s for sure.
I don’t want render menus and texture menus when I’m animating
and I don;t like navigating around render tools and things when I’m modelling really. I want my screen space more than all your pretty geek buttons
put them in a folder and I’ll put them on my toolbar
if I want them only.
There really should be nothing on my screen except the tools I am using and some menus to get to the others.
I’ll stop bitching and dreaming about impossibilities now.

I use lightwave for mechanicals and ships, zbrush for organics mostly, and silo is kind of inbetween. There is a great Silo scene with 12 heads you can find.
Well, I couldn’t find it but I had it once so its out there to study.

Open Source is a great idea. When I’m rich and can be a philanthropist I will give $1000 prizes to people who contribute significant code to open source video editing, 3d animation, 3d modelling, 3d compositing, and  motion tracking software. I’m not rich and I’m stingy so you do it. I personally think it’s a disgrace that we can fly people to the moon, encode the library of congress on portable media, and yet we have no fast good slick free swissarmy knife nonlinear video editing/compositing system, 3d rending animating modelling system, and top notch open source game development software that is cutting edge. Our evolution is chained to our profit motive and we have become lazy fucking sated ipod monkeys or vacuous wage slaves, take your pick. Hmmm.

Ok. Back to our wondrous Single Player Experience.

Adjusting the texture map in photoshop is fine but it will not import if it is not multiples of 512, 1024, 2048 on the sides. One pixel off and it will choke. Bodypaint is the cat’s meow, but anything that does uv textures properly works. Obj is standard between programs but you may wish to keep them in your original application format for editing as all meshes end up triangulated. If you triangulate it yourself, in your fine tuned 3d application, then UT will not do its own thing on you. This only really matters on meshes with bones in the end as all quads just get split but if you do it yourself it won’t change your work.

Maybe one day the stingy bastards at Epic will release a set of engine updates (I bet they even have a bunch of SP code they could stop hoarding) to support simple normal mapping in UT2K4. Probably not. It sucks that a Quake engine replacement, Darkplaces, will render normal maps and png files, but UT2K4 won’t. System Shock 2 supports png!. TGA files are huge things. Anyway. That’s not a drawback if you build small spaces for showing off particular meshes, I have had extremely high density meshes for showpieces in testmaps. The Terrain object used more resources than the super subdivided model I imported.

Oh well. Normal maps are not really required for a story driven game, which is my personal interest.

I have enough to work with, as do you and your small team, or cat.

There are LOTS of tutorials for every asset of Unreal Tournament 2004 modding, and the SPFramework with the VDM code snippet is stable.

Now, that all aside, that isn’t your game.

The game part, the story, usually is built with a text editor, a pen and paper, an excel workbook, a flowchart editor, a logic diagrammer like visio, Yed, etc.

Did I say Pen and Paper?

Or your BRAIN.
That’s where games come from, really.
Brains.
Coffee, cigarettes, beer, pot, putzing, playing games
thinking, using your Brain, Creating, having Opinions about what YOU like in games you play, incorporating techniques you observe to expound YOUR story.
That’s really where it starts
before all the committees get involved in the process…

Working with a level editor is actually a lot
like using an old typewriter
just get into the rhythm of it.

People used to do that you know.
By candle.
They didn’t have power and they wrote books on mechanical typewriters.
They all got ripped off by rich fuckers too.
But the point is
you can make a book with a typewriter
games can be made with sheets of paper (D&D)
And you can make both with an average computer

You don’t need weapons, or “weapons” don’t necessarily need to kill or cause blood. You have audio and text messages you can trigger, say, when a character finds a book or pda or computer. You can have the character trigger video events as textures on tv sets/monitors, you have outdoor and indoor environments available. Anything can be modified visually.

So where do you start?

We’re back to our trusty pen or simple text editor, or maybe we have something more elaborate in spreadsheets or diagrams.

Planning.
creating lists of the items needed sequentially to finish each section or “quest”area.
roughly sketching out the text of what will happen or what will be said/heard/seen
Many people create a backstory or project bible
lots of others fly by the seat of their pants
If your gameplay isn’t focused on killing or violence,
then what is the story about?
What tasks need to be performed?
Do you need tools? keys? parts? more knowledge?
If you ignore building the tool meshes and animations, and focus on defining the story and the need for the tool, you can build up your story and not get bogged down where everyone else does
in the asset creation, which really should come last
if you have the lists of things and the sequences that will need to be completed all in a rough sketch format, you will be much farther ahead, as you will be able to make placeholder ojects in the world for things you will build later, yet still be able to work on level construction.

What about location?
Space is cool. game characters don’t really need air, so you can go between inside and outerspace pretty quickly. Oceans, or islands, with level transitions and lod level streaming the illusion of vast spaces can be achieved with very fast frame speeds. Especially if it’s just your character and not 32 deathmatch players.

What do you like to see in games?
I like it when I am searching around for a particular type of ammo instead of universal ammo. I like inventories and vehicles. I don’t like picky jumping puzzles.

Links:
http://unrealtournament2004.filefront.com/file/All_Species_Source_Art;6964

http://www.gamefront.com/files/listing/pub2/Unreal_Tournament_2004/Tools_and_Utilities/

http://www.tsumea.com/node/114

http://wiki.beyondunreal.com/

http://www.gamefront.com/files/4047846/Single_Player_Framework

SPFramework mod team forum:
http://forums.beyondunreal.com/showthread.php?t=162936

http://www.fileplanet.com/141104/download/UT2004-Impersonator-Pack

http://www.gamefront.com/files/files/3573003/vehicledmmapperspackage.zip

http://unrealtournament2004.filefront.com/files/Unreal_Tournament_2003/Utilities/Modeling_Tools;281

UTX gaffer for quickly browsing the texture packages:
http://mgiese1.home.comcast.net/~mgiese1/pyramid_files/tools/ufiles/utxgaffer_v2_1_setup.zip?path=content/download.php&contentid=4388

DXT and DDS tools including a windows explorer thumb view extension:
https://developer.nvidia.com/legacy-texture-tools
Photoshop DDS
https://developer.nvidia.com/nvidia-texture-tools-adobe-photoshop

The ever incredible and essential picture browser that’s free and converts to bmp with a right click:
XnView
http://www.xnview.com/en/index.html

Gimp:
http://www.gimp.org/

Gimp Normalmap plugin
http://code.google.com/p/gimp-normalmap/

Q-Dir
http://download.cnet.com/Q-Dir/3000-2248_4-10834271.html

an I couldn’t even count the number of times in the last 15 years I’ve gone searching around in my stuff to find this tool for a particular project or that. Useful with games, images, mp3, massive asset datastores, 500 image sequences, etc. Strange to learn, addictive to use, its…Albert’s REnamer.
http://www.albert.nu/programs/renamer/default.asp

for when you have 30 images rendered out in format myrender0000.bmp and UT wants it called myrender_a00.bmp
just so you can have a bunch of animated stuff on a monitor, or lets say a background? Prerendered background components with moving textures on planes? Hmm. Like shuttles flying into bays, or moving machinery. 10 512×1024 images in a sequence can create huge amounts of moving detail with low overhead.

of course, 90% of an average factory scene can be done with simple movers, but getting beyond what the starting point is and creating something new that will move on old machines is a challenge.

some more links:
http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ModHome.html

http://wiki.beyondunreal.com/Legacy:Topics_On_Mapping

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/TriggersTutorial.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ExampleMapsTriggers.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/SVehicleCreation.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/SimpleSVehicleExamples.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/SVehicleReference.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/HotRod.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/UnrealModeling.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ImpersonatorHeadRigging.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/SkeletalSetup.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/MatineeExample.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/TerrainTutorial.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/MaterialsShaders.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/AIControllers.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ScriptedSequenceActions.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ScriptedSequenceTutorial.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/MaterialsShaders.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/SampleMatineeTips.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/MatineeDemoOpening.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/MatineeDemoDropship.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/MaterialTutorial.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/MatineeExample.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/MaterialsModifiers.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/MaterialsCombiners.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ExampleMapsSounds.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ParticleSystems.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ActorXMaxTutorial.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ExampleMapsTriggerableLighting.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/UnrealVertexAnimation.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ImprovedModSupport.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/UnrealScriptReference.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ExampleMapsKarmaColosseum.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/HelicopterTutorial.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/UnGlossary.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ConfigurationFiles.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Two/ExampleMapsEPIC.html

http://wiki.beyondunreal.com/Legacy:Fluid_Surfaces

Www.Hourences.com is a good place to go, he has some really excellent tutorials,
http://www.hourences.com/tutorials/
 and another good one is Angelmapper. 
http://www.angelmapper.com/gamedev/tutorials/tutorials.htm

For UT3 but useful to read:

http://udn.epicgames.com/Three/SettingUpVehicles.html

http://udn.epicgames.com/Three/VehiclesTechnicalGuide.html

The simple tips I should give you:
When you build your first subtracted big room box, if you want the Sun light object, you must make the walls and ceiling surface properties to fake backdrop.
When you create a landscape object, you MUST texture it, you MUST save the package with the texture if its imported, and you need to select the terrain objects editor icon to move it, not the terrain mesh itself.
Spend time with the landscape object and get to know how to make a heightmap, and at least 3 texture paint layers so you can paint pathways and rock face edges in the landscape editor (very quickly your landscape will look good if you can do that), then make yourself some simple textured rock shapes in a 3D app that you can use to sharpen the edges of cliffs with, as Terrain doesn’t make hard edges for cliffs. The terrain is the base, but the edges and wall sections are all mesh rocks, that’s they way to have edges and ledges. Only a couple sets of rocks are used, and instanced all over the level in different rotations to achieve rockiness. I have a “bunch of rocks” prefab.

I was suggesting people look at ONS-Iguazu to see this rocks with terrain example in a vertical style map, however you need to have ONS-Dinora as the Iguazu designer used some textures from Hourences Dinora packages.

A terrain object’s mesh density is directly related to the size of the heightmap in pixels.
a 128 px HM is 1/2 as many QUADS (which render as tris) as a 256 which is half as many quads again as a 512 pixel heightmap.
Crappy rig? 128 px landscape heighmap is fastest. Later you could just upconvert your HM to a higher resolution for more detail, but usually you just use Terrain for the major form of the land and static meshes for the edges and details.

This image below is a 70k (in Unreal editor units) square room 26k high. There are 8 similar rooms in the level with identical dimensions. 3 have the walkways and I plan to test the map with every room filled with the walkways. Just for shits and giggles. It has no Terrain objects, so it is very fast, even at it’s current size.

The vehicles at the bottom are specks. Down in the right at the bottom of the room you see a little square, that tunnel is large enough to drive the flying raptor through. Its roughly 6 times the character size. There are 3 rooms here with the same walkway grid.

The walkway is one section made in cinema 4D (which sends extruded shapes to UT better than Silo, but at 10 times the price tag). It is copied and pasted multiple times rotated grouped, copied, pasted again and again, so it looks like a maze, 8 levels high, from one static mesh imported. The grey ones were a bad texture wrap, the brown ones were properly uv textured in cinema 4D first so the textures are better, not that you can see any from this height. The walkways are actually too big for a person. but the test is to check lag with lots of simple extruded walkways made externally with 3d modelling, not in-editor additive csg brushes, which are really difficult to fully remove and move in this version.

A test with railings would probably be next.

Very ugly I know, but the point is, its only one static mesh, referenced a bunch of times.
On my celeron 1.4 I can fly all around in this between the rooms and walk all over the walkways or drive on them and I get NO LAG. Theship I’m in, and me are smaller than that tiny square. 4-5 of the Raptors I’m flying would fit side by side on each walkway. It’s really big, and there are 8 rooms as big, but each room is separated by the BSP space, so they are basically self contained, when you are in one the others are not calculated at all. It’s too much space. But it’s a good thing to know, you can fit a lot of stuff and a lot of stories into 1/4 of that space. Designing for vehicles in your single player requires larger sizes though so you need to do these kind of “how big can I go without introducing any lag on this target playing device”.

I think that’s cool. That’s probably why I am a computer geek.

You don’t need more room or complexity than that to tell a story. That’s a lot of room.

You don’t need a better this or that or anything,
OK, well. Someone has to get a decent inventory system going at some point.
If a P.O.S. like SS2 or Fallout 1 can have one, it can be done
I don’t want to code. Me and code are like cats and full bathtubs.
Also on my wish list> trunks for the cars so I can stash things from my inventory into the trunk
I think it should be a standard
SP/Co-op with swapable inventory and vehicles with trunks.

Forget the implant to give us more slots just give us all the f*ing slots at once at we’ll all descend upon the Template to rip its holy words apart and use them in our own creations.

Personally, never liked the conversation systems, but a framework for it in UDK at around the time of UT 2k4 was in the game Pariah, so it could be implemented in UT2k4.

the normal maps might be nice, but once you move up to UDK you have no single player entities and you must build them from scratch as there are no templates.
There’s also only 2 vehicles, and the complexity of the vehicles is much greater,
they have more bones for motion and sockets for coding rider entry, weapons, engine exhausts etc.
in UT2K4 a similar vehicle will have less than 1/3 of the bones and sockets and will have accessible code for you to read the socket comments in the program script as well as more readily accessible meshes and animations.

(you can learn more from a UT2K4 model quicker)
So UT2K4 might be better for you to get into the design of a Single Player game.

I prefer to study the Onslaught gametype maps for ideas, and for a suggestion, amongst the many many maps you could download for UT2K4, you really need to get this small one:
ONS-Toon Country

Yes. You fly or drive around and blow up bots in cartoon land.
It is a stunning example of a non realist modeling texturing effort.
If you are initially frowning on UT2K4 as an engine because of the mainly war themed textures
This shows you how all of the standard tools used to create a realist environment can each be cartoonized.
I played it quite a bit. The cartoon water is very soothing when your tank is starting to spew smoke.

I highly suggest the UT3 weapons and vehicles in UT2K4 mod, to get a look at how much the textures can be tweaked in the current engine. But if you install the Bonus Pack from Epic and update, or install the megapack with everything, you get a vehicle upgrade as well you might want to look at. And an editor upgrade.

All the bonus packs and the 3 UCMP map packs have admirable work to look at,

A very simple VCTF map that I like is VCTF-Marsbase-3000.
It is a simple terrain that works to test your own ideas in. It also has some pretty gnarly botpathing, but something like that could be an opportunity to see a simple path network and maybe adjust it. It works better with the Vehicle DM actor placed in it before you path, the bots see the vehicle paths better. I don’t know how, it’s one of those geek code things that I don’t really do but appreciate.

Botpathing isn’t necessarily essential at all in a single player game.
No bots in Myst. Still spend 3 months staring at it.
Writing down clues.

At the start of this article I was slagging Steam.
I REALLY love Valve Source. I actually like it more than UDK.
But that Steam “I always need to be online or I’m gonna cry” thing bites.
It just bites in development boxes, because it will update itself no matter that you tell it not to.
Anyway, I have to clarify something for you since I was slaggin the delivery system, not the engine or the SDK itself (other than its extravagant cost). I actually prefer to work in Source, but UDK is more flexible and convenient with file formats. I want you to pay attention tho:
.
If your rig won’t even run Unreal Tournament 2004, or perhaps you just like a more simplistic but not crappy engine, the re-released Halflife one on GOG based on the gold src is available to you.
You can get a build that will run without steam installed, and the Hammer Editor 3.4 is still around. Its less than 4 megs and the game is less than 600. I mention this because it is the Hammer version you want that has gcf support, but not the not the Source SDK. As soon as you use steam you will get that problem if you aren’t connected, but with an offline GOG install of HL1 and the Hammer editor you can actually fire out levels extremely fast, and it has all kinds of necessary things for a first person shooter. I have to mention this, because as bad as Half Life 1 looks, it has great lighting and texture support, and the scripted scientist things are actually pretty easy to make. I have to mention this, because as much as I hate Steam, I love Half Life and the Hammer editor was how I originally got into Q1/Q2 editing and I find it REALLY quick and intuitive for a starter with lots of easily placeable stuff . The editor is arranged well, and once you get the feel of it, it is easy to crank out nice complicated levels, that run extremely fast on new hardware. It doesn’t have as nice static mesh support and is a bit blocky and overbright, but it might work better for some people, just because. You can, if you look for it, still find the “HL1 SDK”, but all you really need is Hammer.

Half life is a great start to look at how assets in a single player are laid out. If you extract all the GCFs or Wads into folders you can look at the arrangement and the audio files for this particular game are 3/4 of the game story. The triggers for the most part are well named if you open up the valve level s and the hammer properties editor and material/entity browsers you will be able to organize and create things very quickly, with very quick build times, lots of interactivity and some pretty hard enemy AI for smaller quarters.

It’s also a great deal better than it was originally, and with proper design you could remake a lot of the NPC’s and Monsters with your own meshes attached to the Valve animations, or even just reskin and reweaponize them. The inclusion of wandering NPC’s who babble and can be “used” to do things is a considerable code bonus for you. It can add immense depth to a story, and you can extend the NPC entities with your own names and just a mesh and sound cues changed. Voila. Wandering characters that will say important things about your story. Suddenly you need a voice-over artist unless you got it all covered.

The engine is better than System Shock 2 and half a dozen other titles that made millions. I just replayed half of it. There’s a lot to work with, and it could theoretically be reskinned like the Toon Country example above, or something approximating it (without the tanks). If you make maps for goldsrc Counterstrike you will actually have people play them as well..

http://www.cstrike-planet.com/files/40-Valve-Hammer-Editor-34
http://www.cstrike-planet.com/files/75-Valve-Hammer-Editor-35
 http://decay.half-lifecreations.com/?content=files

http://www.slackiller.com/hlprograms/hammer_v34.exe
http://www.slackiller.com/hlprograms/hammer_testbuild04.zip

http://www.moddb.com/games/half-life/addons/valve-hammer-editor-34

http://www.moddb.com/tutorials/beginners-guide-to-valve-hammer-editor
http://www.moddb.com/tutorials/setting-up-valve-hammer-editor

If you use Source or Goldsrc, the XSI ModTool is the way to go, and I personally always have and install both 6 and 7.5 because of some exporting issues and 7.5 requires Steam to access some of the Source Noesis ref meshes for HL2 which are included in 6 in a folder.

I love softimage
and it is the biggest fucking ram and interface screen space stealer on the planet. Yuck.
The interface is actually bigger than blender these days.
But, if you are lucky enough to have a dual monitor setup with lots of vid ram and widescreen 92 dot lcd screens running at over 1280 it really is the cat’s meow.
I can run modtool on my celery. but I have to stare into space a lot a wait.
I hardly even animate with it, but it is my 3rd preferred next to motionbuilder or max biped. I like it for modeling and tweaking triangular meshes, which I generally despise. It makes a hard job easier with the tri’s.

https://developer.valvesoftware.com/wiki/Softimage_Mod_Tool

http://www.moddb.com/downloads/xsi-mod-tool-601

http://www.fileplanet.com/148790/140000/fileinfo/Half-Life-2—SOFTIMAGE|XSI-Mod-Tool-v6

http://usa.autodesk.com/adsk/servlet/pc/item?id=13571257&siteID=123112

http://www.moddb.com/downloads/autodesk-softimage-mod-tool-75

source addon:
http://images.autodesk.com/adsk/files/valvesource.6.02.zip

I really do suggest that anyone involved in any way of studying video games get the modtool 6 and 7.5 and study the valvesource addon scenes.

6 will let you use them without steam, 7.5 has some feature enhancements, but some export functions work better in 6.

They both have working buggies, swamp boats, and first person arm/weapon combo scenes for half life 2 all rigged up and working. You’ll learn a lot, if you can run it. Really. For everything. This is the core that you need to look at. A couple of working vehicle meshes with the nulls that are named for the engine. Human figures boned and skinned for the game, and first perosn weapon models and animations to work on and learn from. There are similiar files for UT2K4 or UDK but they are all over the place. Everything that is graphically/texturally necessary for modelling/animating for an FPS engine is in that addon, really.

Modtool is the preferred tool to extract an SMD into obj as it retains vertex weighting nicely and maps. Milkshape is very useful, but everything can be done with just modtool and some other modeler of your choice. You need to actually locate the obj export plugin though for 7.5 as smd’s won’t export natively.

http://www.moddb.com/groups/softimage-rs/downloads/mod-tool-75-obj-exporter

Regardless of that
anything will work once you’ve translated an mdl to an smd then fixed up the textures a bit, closed a few holes and random polygons, merged/freezed/collapsed the stack or whatever and made an obj then any tool will work

With milkshape or xsi modtool you can decompile, recompile, modify, and translate the model and skeleton, make animations and meshes, import them back into either one, and create a new smd set, edit your.qc to point to all the mesh and image bits, compile in studiomdl, and you have a character.

When you come down to it,
ANYTHING WORKS:
The same game model, extracted and ported to 5 different packages for manipulation or as a base guide:

 

See?
I can do it. So can you.
The above examples are on a CELERON 1.5 with 512 megs and a 64 meg shared ram onboard laptop video card.

Yes it is fucking slow, donate me a new one,
but as you can see, it doesn’t matter if the machine is crap or what you use
as long as you have the ability to read and think
and click and drag

I’ve been using 3D packages for 15+ years
but if you focus on one or 2 applications and follow the trail of google tutorials left by others you can accomplish this too.

To get to the point above required about 1.5 days to have the helmeted and non helmeted versions in 7 file formats fully textured with proper uv’s and about 4 hours of mesh tweaking that wasn’t necessary, but made it cleaner.

So you, young jedi
or old crotchedy jedi,
you can do it too
From knowing zip you could get to this basic point of having a model from your game in your editor to tweak in less than 3 months.
Faster if you are a smarty pants.
Yes 16 year olds learn it faster
but, grandma can do it too if she’s so inclined
(see tooncountry example)

You need one copy of hammer to edit HL1 and its mods updated to 3.4 so you can see the static meshes instead of colored blocks and you can get an unofficial 3.5 update from Sven’s Co-op that gives all the entities labels in the 3d view.
It can be moved around, it’s not really a picky program, but the 3.5 has to plunked onto a folder full of the 3.4 for it to work, so you can have a 3.4, and a folder with 3.4 that you overwrite with the 3.5 fixes

If you can’t stand the unmarked entities (which is the only real suckness to the editor) then you could try this Hammer rebuild which puts nice labels on every entity. Along with other tweaks.
http://forums.svencoop.com/showthread.php?t=40462
You can run them in two separate folders, the 3.5 has to be plunked onto a folder full of the 3.4 for it to work, so you can have a 3.4, and a folder with 3.4 that you overwrite with the 3.5 fixes and use the sven fgd and supplied hammer browser models to get a nice set of little icon models..

You need an .FGD file for each of the goldsrc games you wish to edit so the editor knows what entities it can interface with. It is also an important file for you to look at since it contains everything you interact with in Hammer in each dialog.

So if you have HalfLife, BlueShift, Opposing Force, and HalfLife:Decay you need an fgd for each and have to choose one as a base, but you can import meshes, textures, and code from the others into it.

FYI there was a torrent that had all four with the HD meshes all applied. It was a 250 meg package, SO TINY, to hold 4 games. It’s 15 years old no one will mind I don’t think. You know. About the torrent. Or you building a great game off it.
Buy the GOG and download the torrent for its ease of use since all the games are built into it as mods with the gcf’s already extracted. You can access all 4 games plus team fortress. Lot’s of base materials, code, and entities to workwith and aome really excellent hi def packs you can patch all of them up with. As a modder the torrent file has it set for you to go and you need to take much less steps to set up your environment, as it is also moveable your dev machine around without breaking registry settings.

You can also Create Quake 1, Quake 2, Counterstrike, Tribes, Max Payne 1, etc. levels with the same editor. Or you could use netRadiant I guess. NOT. At least not for me.
You need GCFscape, Wally to extract stuff from wad files, Quark, theres a tool to pack wads of textures properly, etc.
Most is here:
http://www.slackiller.com/hlprograms.htm
or at Nem’s:
http://nemesis.thewavelength.net/index.php?p=47

http://quark.sourceforge.net/ 

the best hammer update for over hammer 3.4

Milkshape costs $35 bux, but it might do something you need at one point if you use this dev environment:

http://chumbalum.swissquake.ch/ms3d/index.html

Milkshape does .SMD, the Valve model format.
When everything else dies milkshape works. Clunky, but it works.
It imports a lot, including fbx/dae, and outputs smd with multiple uv textures linked. compiles for you in milkshape.

XSI and Max have Source SMD plugins
Blender 2.46 and previous support .MAP natively.
Blender 2.6 doesn’t. But there’s a new smd script link below.
To get a simple static mesh without animation but textured, into hammer, is a feat. It will take you have a day if not half a month to do it.

Hint:
make model
textures as flat 8 bit bmp (ugh) they can be adaptive
export .smd model.
copy the .smd 2 times in folder
name one reference.smd and one sequence.smd
3 .smd’s and one or 2 materials in bmp format in folder now
create .qc file which is a simple file to tell the model compiler that you have these 3 .smd files, named this, in this folder, with the bmp’s that are referenced in the .smd in the same folder, and other material flags if you want to add them.
drop the .qc on studioml.exe and a .mdl with the original .qc name should be there next to the smds and bmp’s.
copy the .mdl  to your hl/mod/models folder
place an info_generic and browse to the .mdl file
run and see your model in the level!
Notice it has no collision box
It is much more difficult to import a simple unmoving uv textured mesh in goldsrc, but the qc/smd system is actually fairly useful, just time consuming.
They should have made a full gui for mesh import,
oh right they made something called sourcesdk…

http://blender-smd.googlecode.com/files/io_smd_tools-1.6.5.zip
https://developer.valvesoftware.com/wiki/Blender_SMD_Tools_Help
https://developer.valvesoftware.com/wiki/Animation_in_Blender
http://chumbalum.swissquake.ch/ms3d/help/index.html
https://developer.valvesoftware.com/wiki/Exporting_a_model
https://developer.valvesoftware.com/wiki/Qc
npc tut:
Creating an HL1 NPC: http://twhl.info/tutorial.php?id=175&page=1
http://twhl.info/tutorial.php?id=85
http://twhl.info/tutorial.php?id=53
http://twhl.info/tutorial.php?id=55
http://www.egir.dk/index.php?page=list_tutorials.php
http://twhl.info/tutorial.php?cat=1

this dev texture wad totally rocks, and if you look you can find something similiar for UT2k4:
http://forums.svencoop.com/showthread.php?t=39958
http://jpolito.zlique.org/mapping/resources/jp_dev_wad.rar

At this point you realize it is easier to get a static mesh into the UT2K4 editor.
but you also see that it is nice having an .mdl file that has its textures and even animations all inside the one file, and that specific materials like metals, shiny, glowing, can be used in the .mdl using the compile with materials as well as textures. For GoldSrc, ValveSource is more complex with the textures and vtf, but goldsrc is still operating on basic image maps with uv.

 You don’t need Source tools, Source is different than GoldSrc and c++ source, the file and mesh formats supported are different as well, and animation is not the same. MDL, and bmp/tga, in paks and wads. It is limited graphically and texturally, but it is small, fast and fun to build with GoldSrc using Hammer.
The code is much easier to understand than a modern hundred programmer game for those kind of people, and it also doesn’t require any expensive IDE to work with it.

I don’t think they(Valve) will hoard it forever, it should become open source goldsrc one day. Nice shiny stuff in ogl mode.Of course, they MIGHT be stingy about it forever.

If you can run HL2 and the modern SourceSDK on your awesome rig, then you might want to get Black Mesa if you wish to have some of the Half Life 1 monsters and scientists to use for your stories. Source SDK is a great storytelling environment, its Face Poser and Choreography/Gesture tools rock for actually getting characters to speak properly and show facial emotion.

And to anyone who would take the time to read this my recommendations of other single player story driven games you could look at for inspiration in story or asset creation:
System Shock 2, Myst (I suggest realMyst 3D), Deus Ex 2, Baldur’s Gate 2, Planescape Torment, Portal, Half Life (all of them), Doom 3, Quake 2 and even Q1 with the glquake or darkplaces engines, Arcanum *of Steamworks…), Max Payne 1, and Grand Theft Auto Vice City.

Which all should play on your machine, if you can run Unreal Tournament 2004.

Now.
Adding to my Valve statement above, which was just shy of gushing I guess,
Half Life 2 will run in DX8 mode, the orange box engine source 2009.
hl2.exe -dx8
Which means it will play too. On a crappy machine.

Half life 2 (and Portal) are very easy to create and edit complex maps in.
I own Half life 2 and can legally dl the sdk as anyone who owns a game based on Source can
actually Source Base SDK is free with like 5 models or something,
but it’s better to start with a game that is close to what you are trying to create.
You can get offline versions of HL2, but you cannot get an offline install of the Source SDK.
So then you have Steam. You really can’t edit HL2 without Steam and an internet connection, but if you have both, it is of course an excellent framework for a single player adventure.
Noesis is the place for Source tutorials, I highly suggest both the version 6 and version 7.5 of the XSI ModTool Which has some valve base meshes in it to work with. Like a working buggy, cop, and airboat. You can use something else of course.

Whatever engine or development environment you choose, the first thing you should do is create a basic 30k box with just your character, the sun light entity, and maybe a vehicle if there is one. Save it as a template and make a copy.
Do the same again with a terrain object if your editor has one, then look at the simple SKYBOX demonstrations for your particular editor and make one for your basic 30k space and save that as a template.
Start from there. you have your BSP tunnel type stuff or outdoor skyboxes. Mixing them comes later. But you can mix terrain and underground levels in a large map if you segment all of the zones nicely for cutting out unrenderable things for the engine.

Partly related, but not quite, if you are interested in facial animation that doesn’t use bones as in UT2K4′s impersonator system, you should look at Facegen modeller. It generates nice head meshes with rigged eyes and mouth, and will export a whole phoneme set of Shape Morph Targets in one shot, which you can then load into Max or Maya or whatever and you can practice BLENDSHAPE animation using max’s morph mixer or Maya’s blendshape tools. Not very useful ingame, but for creating animated head cutscenes or a simple exercise they are great.
http://www.facegen.com/modeller.htm

Maybe someone could donate me a better rig when they upgrade!
Then I could use UDK or Source like everyone else,
Till then I settle on UT2K4
8P

Exactly what you would expect from someone who spent 4 of the last 6 years outside eh?

If you are truly a geek, I tell you
those Stargate assholes are rip off backstabber mofo’s.
But no one cares because I’m not a pretty 15 year old with perky tits, no police would help her either, they sure won’t investigate what happened to me…they only investigate crimes against rich people

I actually know my shit.
They are the reason I was living outside.
Read this again. Follow along and put all these parts together.
I find it easy, just time consuming on my rig.
Probably 4 out of the hundred or so people I worked at Stargate with could even get close to putting that together, and not in 4 days.
I set all this up in 4 days and tested it thoroughly.
On a Celeron 1.4
I’ve done this setup hundreds of times.
I could write the same thing about non linear video editing and the important components of a small set.

The only reason I’m not doing anything is not laziness,
I need a proper Doctor, and these Stargate fuckers,
Robert Cooper, Brad,
The whole GANG of them
Owe me some decent money.
I should have a house and car and some extra at least,
if not a lot more
you backstabbing prick fucks pretending to righteous while you slut about the sci fi conventions
fucking shithead moron fuckwads.
You are fucking redneck neanderthals.

Robert Cooper definitely couldn’t.
Jen Patterson couldn’t.
Mike Elliot DEFINITELY couldn’t.
Bones or Shannon Gurney probably couldn’t either.

Fuckers.

Games and Theories

I have been holed up for 4 days with a celeron trying to get all my tools in order.

I have successfully changed images and textures in System Shock 2 while replaying it.
So fantastic. Especially with all the fixes and visual mods you can apply to make it nicer
A game people replayed even though it looked crappy, because it was the story, the hunt for things, so many things, and the neat little touches like the research, chemicals, pda’s, combinable inventory items, nano augs, and tons of little story lines all with great spooky soundtrack that constantly makes you feel paranoid.

You may laugh and point to Skyrim. But that is 25 GIGS.
This game started a lot of it out more than a decade ago, and it’s still replayable.
Unmodded it is 520 megs! With the eye candy applied its 1.2 G.
So much scarier.
That nice tense scary.

I study games that were big, ones we don’t think of much now, Fallout 3 and Skyrim have made them into grand cinematic textural masterpieces with hundreds or thousands of ants building them bigger.

What gets me about a game like SS2 or deus ex, is the small tiny size
Really, all the flash is nice, but you only need a small toolset to create games.

Someone asked what I would do when I was sellingthem one of my instruments.
I lifted my hand and said
“It is in these, not that.”

I spent 2 days importing static meshes properly into UnrealEd for Unreal Tournament 2004
Which I have modded on my machine to build single player maps and eventually a conversion of the game to a single player story that is not really about killing.

Games are affecting us strongly
we spend so much time in them

My personal mission, which I have had for many years amongst my bazillion other eternally broiling ambitions
is to make a game,
a 3D FPS with almost no shooting.
Not really any enemies
Just things to do and look at in order to progress.

I’ve talked to people about this,
people interested in game design
They thought I was nuts
everything is twitch these days
twitchy gibby blood spattered amigdyla spazzing shockfests.
Its exciting. For a while.

I remember Myst.
Not when it came out, later. I got into the 3D one not the mac hypercard bs.
It took 2 months without a manual.

I actually remember no personal computers of any kind.
I remember the startling joy of a 1 gig hard drive.
Not a terabyte. 1 Gig.

I remember computers with no hard drive other than the os and you had to have a disk or you couldn’t save.
I programmed apple basic, pet, trs-80. Well. Actually I copied the instructions from the magazine letter by letter which was how people did it before you could buy floppies. Originally we used cassettes to record. Or we typed it in, and retyped it if the power glitched.

But now I bitch because I only have a celeron 1.4, 512 ram and an integrated 64 meg video card which feels like the stone ages. But I can play and mod Unreal Tournament 2004. I bitched at my Dad when the kid down the street got an atari with no cartridges, it was hard coded for pong, breakout, and tanks. You toggled a switch for the games.

Now I can build a landscape and meticulously plan the puzzles.
Searching for things.
That’s what I like.
Not really murder mysteries
just mysteries
figuring out
what happened

You see, some of the most groundbreaking games, that made their creators rich and changed the face of our lives, they were made with 5-15 core people, sometimes starting with only one or 2 collaborators.

very intricate games, games that intrigued us for months
were made by very small teams.

Hollywood and its northern compatriots make movies
flash bang whiz
Big games are movies
Movies are about investors and money and action and gangsters and fabulous people.
Ugh.
Fabulous people.
Roll them in shit and wipe them off with money.
ahem…

I’m misanthropic.

These small teams made games that were films
Like Repo Man.
That’s a film right?
Not a movie?
Or Tarkovsky…

I have no desire to make movies
I will make Films.
Science Fiction Films.
2001. Film. Definately.
Gattaca, Equilibrium, Brazil,
and I’d like to make games
like films

I keep returning to Myst, Baldur’s Gate 2, Planescape Torment, Quake 1-2, Arcanum: of steamworks, divine divinity…
So many hours
looking for things, finding things, learning more of the story.

I will be writing a how to of 3D game modding. Maybe you’ll like it.
Or not care.

You might find these interesting

Or these…

Van Cliburn

Van Cliburn died.
He made a lot of cheese in his later years.
But so what.

The ’57-’62 recordings he made of Tchaikovsky and Rachmaninoff remain at the top of my favorites.
Van Cliburn made me like Tchaikovsky more and love Rachmaninoff.

Out of dozens of Rachmaninoff recordings I’ve listened to, I only found 2 other pianists I even like as much on that.
Back then, in the years shortly after his wins in Moscow.

I had a beautiful live recording with both composers on the set list.
It was RCA I think, but might have been Deutsche Grammaphon

I hand copied it to tape from a record my uncle had.
He wasn’t much of a music guy, but this piece of vinyl was sweet.

I wore that friggin tape right out over 10+ years.
And never have found that again.

Fear of “Witchcraft” – new names for a new version of ourselves after the fires

I’m constantly amazed at the reactions people have to the word “witchcraft”.
Personally, I dislike the term, except when using it to explain historical prejudice against various forms of neo-paganism or to interact with that smaller subset of pagans who specifically call themselves witches.

Why does the word cause such extreme reactions?

WIP

Watching the Watchers

They have this:

Can we get one about 1\200 this size?

But looks like we can too!
on a smaller scale.
Wow. Under $3K for a hovering ipod camera mount system.
Very Cool.
For consumer use.
Goes with your button hole camera and your bag with built in record system that syncs to your ipod.
You can mount an ipod on the storm flyer…

I like the little one. Imagine where that’s going in another 10 years of composite materials and miniaturization.
I think battery life and gas engine noise are the two blocks, but a laptop battery lasts 4 hours now, not 1.
These things will be cool.

The toy 2 channel heli’s are only 40 bucks now with electric motors.

I’m not going to become a guy with a lot of helicopters.
I just decided to see what personal consumer options for spy drones there were.
Interesting.
A Drone with HD and audio that can fit in a cigarette case?

Oh.
Shit.
My cover would be blown immediately when I pulled out the cigs.
No one smokes these days
except crazy writers.
Even James doesn’t really smoke anymore.
He can kill people and blow shit up,
but the cigars are getting toned down.

More surveilancel means more candid photos of corrupt politicians or their brats getting blowjobs or driving off with their non-partner.

I predict that portable cameras will become a big legal issue in the next 10 years. Worldwide
Not that I care.
I just need a normal camera for HD
You think the blog is eccenric?
Wait until I have HD podcasts.
With drone footage.

how to kill faggots…

I was checking my wordpress stats,
I still get a lot more traffic to the blogger site
but I like writing and editing in the wordpress interface better
anyway
I’m looking at the search terms people have found my blog with

and this is one of them
“how to kill faggots” is what the person was searching for
and they got this:
http://christuusgnosis.wordpress.com/2011/08/30/vancouver-pride-when-we-take-over-well-kill-all-the-faggots-and-dykes-first-but-first-a-spectacle-a-parade/

The Asshole – Reloaded

I have a computer finally
a p.o.s. celery with a 64 meg vid card
erg.
So I can maybe fini a few of the incomplete arties

(evil cackle)

The pervy girl returns soon with part 2 of her story
but it won’t be complete until I finish another story, The Divorce, since the little dragoness has disapeared and I need to relate to that within the pervy girl’s story. Unless she tracks me down and kills the protagonist, which could happen. Or vice versa. It’s just that way.

God is a telephone is also gonna get an expansion. Big time
Don’t like it?
Bite me, then lick.

So there you have it.
Pucker up.
I’m mad.
Payback.

Christy the Clown gives $280 Million to the Hells Angels, bitches about $20 million for the social safety net, and STILL disabled children get no bus passes?!?

Do you realize that if a mother on disability in B.C. has disabled children, she gets a bus pass, but the kids don’t?

So, a disabled child, needing multiple visits to the doctor, gets NO BUS PASS from Christy and Translink.
They haven’t ever got them.
It’s shitty and LAME Christy!
Making mothers on disability or welfare pay for their childrens bus tickets.
They have $280 to live on, and you’re stealing $5-$10 from them when they need the transportation for their disabled children.

Who cares about them though heh?
You made your $280 million payout to the Hell’s Angel’s for the year, giving IATSE and it’s american pimps a quarter of a billion to keep 1500 of their shittiest cronies in the money, so I guess you got another year in their good books eh?

Don’t you realize that the $280 million doesn’ go to B.C.?
It’s a bunch of American gangsters backed by the U.S. Military.
They produce “Canadian made” propaganda using the great hollywood machine
which is simple.
A bunch of americans come up here.
They take over a film studio. Rent it.
They get U.S. military and cia fake companies, many of whom are manned by unwitting agents of the us state.
The movie itself is made by a small crew of Canadians getting about $20 million dollars of this money you are paying out you dummy!!!

The american crew are in charge of everything and get $80 – $100,000 jobs while the canucks get $18 -$50,000 jobs, and the canucks are laid off whenever possible.

All of this film subsidy money will be out of B.C. in less than 2 days after you release it.
Less than $20 million will actually stay here.

When the movie industry rents things here they do what they have always done, they rent from another american running a “canadian” company. Or they order it up from the states and again the money goes down.

Most of B.C. ‘s actual filmakers that are from canada are serving coffee.

All the union people up here, the 1500 out of 25000 that actually work regular, are all gangsters and the managers are all american.

You’re paying $280 million in corporate welfare for AMERICANS.

And B.C. people on welfare, all 100,000 or so of them split up $20 million and you give another $20 million to the union bitches that harass them each month.

And now you introduce legislation that makes it so that if you live with someone for 2 years and have sex with them they are entitled to half of your money and property? That’s fucked you dummy. Why do you think people live together? Because they DON’T want the legal bindings!

Christy the Clown, you are a nasty cunt, responsible for oppression, genocide, and political corruption.

Good luck with your election bitch.

Who needs poetry anyway.

Now that I’m in a place
I can assess

In my last shithole place, the slumlord fuckwad ex-whore moron junkie shithead landlord causes me to lose:
My airbrush and…
200 poems!

Really good poems.
from 11-18 I wrote a lot of them.
Those were the best ones, copied out and arranged.
Carried with me for over 25 years.

Gone. Thrown out by the shitty little bitch in her shitbox full of garbage.
She even ripped me off of the rent money and then throws out
my life

All that matters now is money and revenge.
Keep that in mind at all times.
Art, music, love, poetry
are worth nothing in culture-less vancouver

So fuck them all and lets be assholes making money.

plugs

I don’t really plug too many things, like software
just once in a while
I’m going to plug a simple tool that you might find useful
its an online image editor
so you can edit images in the web browser
so it works to edit images in the library or other locked down computer environment

Its called pixlr

http://www.pixlr.com

It works in the library and most corporate environments!!!

Another cool thing for locked environments, or a Novell/Unix/mac variant, is this nifty java jar based file browser which seems to pick up nfs and its variants nicely:   http://sourceforge.net/projects/jfm/

A while back I went on about zbrush and silo
I am currently running a laptop with a celery and 512 megs ram, with an integrated 64 meg shared ram vid card.
I am able to do basic modelling in zbrush!!
It’s a very smooth prog, after the 5 minute startup!

I use Firefox mostly.
I use tabs. Usually about 15-30 documents open at once.
It’s how I work.
With this little firefox addon I can open tons of wikipedia reference pages and other textual research links, lots of them, and just right click -> save all tabs, or save selected tabs.

later, offline, I can sit and go through all the text and even copy paste from it
Its called Multiple Tab Handler
I would go crazy without it. I just spent 2 hours searching for it again.

if you can’t afford microsoft’s expensive OneNote,
which I will say I like a lot

You can do a lot of note taking and organization on the free version of EPim,
which holds its data in a flatfile, so you can back it up
and will capture the pictures from web pages and store them in notes when you copy sections from the web.
it can get big though so you can’t do a lot of that.
I use it to write and copy paste organize text in research because it has a nested note tree which I love
It’s more effective than notepad but less irrelevant things like in word are in the interface.
and its only 6 megs, there is a portable version too. It loads fast and holds a lot of stuff, organized.
I use the calender and scheduler sometimes to make the computer go beep and warn me of something but mostly,
as a writer
I use the notes feature to organize work which I then finish elsewhere.
Sometimes with the blog I will use it to build the base text and save out the note as a .txt then post from that and edit.

The Original Christian Sin: When Adam Sucked Some Dick

I was raised until my teens by an uber-christian mom, then I became an atheist.
I had lots of those bible stories pumped into my head though, seeing as christian brainwashing of children is still legal in Canada.
Later I began to try and figure out the metaphors in many of the various myths that I studied.

I came to this conclusion many years ago, and thought I would share it with you.

The metaphors of the Garden in Genesis are kind of murky,
but here goes…

So, first off
Eve wasn’t the first woman.
Lillith was. And she took off with Adams neighbor, a black man.
His name was Sam. Sam was actually a really nice guy but Adam was too racist to stay friends with them. And he was pretty bitter, so they didn’t keep in touch
Adam couldn’t handle that, that lilli needed a bigger wiener than he had,
so he whined to god and got a replacement.
That was Eve.

So, after a few years of married bliss, eating lots of fruit and having sex in the garden, Eve got bored. So she started thinking about another neighbor and wondered if she could get Adam to allow it.

She couldn’t figure out how. Then one day, she was giving Adam a blow job, and when he came she took some of the seed from the serpent, the semen from his dick, and puts some in his mouth and made him swish it around.

Adam’s reaction was basically, “that doesn’t taste too bad at all!”

So now that Adam had eaten from the tree of life, the fruit, the seed, he started thinking about his wife and the neighbor and himself

(secretly he sometimes thought of Sam too!)

And eventually Eve convinced Adam to have a threesome with one of their white jewish neighbors who just magically appeared from nowhere.

Adam was a happy cat. The serpent, his neighbors dick, filled him with joy when he drank the seed, and he and Eve were very happy with this new arrangement.

Of course, the god dude was homophobic and he had a tantrum like all fathers whose son’s learn that dick isn’t really bad at all.

But no amount of counseling or group communication and mediation could cool dad down, and like every christian father since, he expelled his children from his home.

That’s what the story is about. I might have some details wrong, but essentially,
That’s what happened.

And that is why, regardless of hate speech and anti-discrimination laws, the christians hate all fags and actively attack them and bully them.
Because they want to go back to dad’s house, but he hates fags.

So,
The recap/summary of the thesis concept is:

The Husband’s penis is the Tree of Life
Eve’s pussy is The Garden
They are forbidden to eat the Fruit (the semen)
The Snake represents another penis, not the husband’s
Eve is tempted to eat the semen (give a blowjob) by the Snake (another man)
She does, enjoys it
And convinces her husband that it’s good
And so they are kicked out of paradise by dad.

Now, this came to me many years ago, and I was actually going to write a much more serious piece about it
but
I’m feeling cranky after the holidays.

Sanity, Madness, and Foolish Families

I have a lot of strange and interesting things here, I’ve said a lot of things that many people find difficult to swallow.

I would like you all to understand one thing though,
I have a family, and people I know.
I am more intelligent, if you use standardized testing, than all of them.
There is not a single member of my large extended family who has a higher intelligence rating than me.
I had honors through every year of high school. I’ve read thousands of books, both fiction and reference non-fiction.

Many of the people in my family and amongst my community believe that Chris has a serious mental health problem. Most believe I am “schizophrenic” or “delusional”.
Most of them would not be able to read and understand the DSM-IV-TR, which I can read quite well.

So for all of those people, to make it clear:

About 3 months ago I called a Dr. Mah the “C” word. I wrote about it, you can read it. I spent 3 days in jail and half a day at St. Paul’s having a COMPLETE MENTAL HEALTH ASSESSMENT.

So to all of my fucked up moronic family who all barely graduated and married other people who paid for all the stuff they are so proud to have, there you go.

A full assessment.
No schizophrenia
No delusion
None
No cognitive malfunctioning.

If you smooshed all the people who think that crap about me into one big brain, I would still beat it at chess.
Neanderthal morons.

God is a Telephone: How Monotheism Hijacked the Immanent Gods to Hold Us All Hostage

Wow. This is it. The big questions answered!
It’s going to grow on you

I promise.

“fake” Witches vs “fake” Christians: “real” authentic fake relationships

I was reading one of the two every bustop cia “news” rags, when it informed me, in a number of articles nested firmly between santa’s bosom, that there were “fake” witches, and that in Ontario, 5 fake witches in ten years have been nabbed.

First of all I wondered how one would be able to tell a fake witch from a real one.
It would be as easy as finding a fake christian I guess. But there isn’t a law against that, being a fake christian.

Is there a witchness test?
If Canadian law can’t nab fraudsters who can ascertain fakeness of witches?
So there must be a definition of a witch to compare the fake witch to.
Where do I find that definition? That would be interesting.

A big part of the articles were about people spending thousands of dollars on some blessing or something. Timeshares, whether they are in the after life or in a run down condo that the managers have neglected as they spend the fools money, are almost never nabbed as fraud.

Christian priests demand money for their services though.
Donations are usually in tens to hundreds of dollars, and a longer talk with a priest is more money expected or even a monthly tithe of $300 or so.

Why would you bother spending time “blessing” or counseling someone if you weren’t getting paid somehow.

If the Christian priest is found to have done something improper, can the authorities then have him arrested for being a fake priest as well?

I have more to say about this of course, but its cold and the dog is cold outside the library.

Spells. Hmm. Christians have rituals and spells. Hmm.

And what about the Sally Ann eh?
Fake. Money laundering organized crime bikers turned to jesus bullllllsheeeet.
Sorry I don’t call spades shovels.

My friend says he hates christians because they just assume that everyone believes like them. He was upset about christmas. Not everyone believes in Christmas. So we should be able to take any day like the solstice or hannukah as a “holy” day, but the only one officially marked on the calendars is the christian holiday.
I don’t think I really hate christians. I kind of pity them, and I kind of avoid getting too close. Being surrounded by sheep is too disconcerting, I’d rather watch them from a distance.

updates are slow…

I am really cold, tired, and getting fucked over more by doctors and the Ministry, so I have a couple of recent articles that are small or even just a title.

They are teasers I guess, just check back and re read tehm, they might get very large and interesting!

We only have 1 hr at a time at the library again since we are outside.

Christmas wishes…

What do I want for Christmas/Winter Solstice?
Hmm. I haven’t got much spirit of happiness right now.
I have nothing to give out, except sharing a bit with the ground level people around me.
And THIS. For whatever that is worth.

But, if you are a gift giver, these are the things a ripped off freezing-starving writer likes.

1. Justice. I wish that I, personally could get a team of lawyers to make sure I got justice against Robert Cooper and the Stargate crew. Good luck, I know, but a gift card for a hitman would be almost as good.

2. A place for a man – dog – cat that is $450 or less inclusive and preferably doesn’t have 6 people sharing the shower. I will do with a covered heated garage and access to a toilet though. Closets are also welcome. If they are in gay-friendly houses. I don’t really care about inet, though it’s nice, I don’t care about cable, but I’ll watch a bit if it’s there. I care about a plug to plug in my computer and a place to sleep and crap. I can wear sweaters if its an unheated space. Yes I know this is impossible.So what. Its my wish and I can wish for what I want.

3. Tobacco. A pouch of Tobacco. Maybe you disagree with smoking, so go to the next number. For those of you that can maybe understand, consider: it’s 3 am, and I’m broke and cold and hungry, sleeping on cement. I get up and have a smoke.
Small pleasures are important when you have nothing.

I like Drum, Players, or Export 50g pouches – premium.
If you give me a “rolls 100% more” bargain pouch I will not complain though.
I like zig zag blue or white papers, and an extra pack of them is so fantastic…
The little things.

4. A Tim Horton’s card with some money on it. I like coffee. If you give me more than $10 I’ll get a tin of the hot chocolate powder and one of the toffee cappucino, just add hot water and yum. I can drink Shitbucks too.

5. A liquor store card. YES I DRINK. I AM FROM ALBERTA.
Make sense? I’m not a 2 litre cider a day alchoholic, I drink about 10 6 packs in a month. I usually buy 3 tall cans or a six pack in a sunny day, and drink them while I throw the dogs frisbee forever and ever.

5. A really good rain poncho, and some super mitts. Size 36 pants with a belt. Unused longjohns. Wool socks. An israeli sub-bullpup with R. Coopers address in the box with it. Hmm. I feel so warm.

6. A pretty girl. Self explanatory, but she must be warned that she has to shower me off or she will probably gag.

7. Weed. Well. I meditate daily and smoke weed, not always in that order. I keep myself with enough for my daily meditations, but if you have extra of something nice, Thanks!

8. Small change.

9. A computer that doesn’t suck. I use the UDK for developing games. Yes I am a homeless person. But 10+ of the best games of all time were made by a small team with one tyrant at the lead. Those are the games I like, and I’m going to make one.
unfortunately the UDK requires shader moder 3, my meshes, landscapes and textures require 4G of ram or better to build properly and test, and a terabyte will only be just enough. I’m a power user with a shopping cart, but when I get into a warm closet with a plugin I continue to work on my games.
So what I would ask that santa dude for would be a 4 processor I7 with a shader model 3 (dx10) video card with 2g+ video ram and a terabyte+ hard drive. I need 4 G fast mobo ram minimum. That’s what I need. To work at full speed with maya-zbrush-max-silo-udk and test. I’m limping along on a 4 year old build of udk mounted on a P4-2.8ghz with 1 g of slow ram and only a 350g hd. It sux. Big time. But I can do it if I have to, since I know that there is no santa, or justice, or god, or devil, or fate. Just people who believe you and people who don’t. A laptop is obviously more convenient, but if it isn’t shader level 3 I’d be happy with a tower. I’ll be inside healing after 2 operations and will need something to do.

10. Did I say Justice would be cool? With the VPD in the pocket of Big Red and the Mafia? With Genocidal doctors in every clinic of Least Van and Canadian Human Rights protection at an all time low. Hmmmmm. I am wasting my time I know.

11. A Traditional Tarot deck. A traditional rider-waite/radiant deck. My favourite deck is the Fey deck, but it’s a mail-order expensive thing, right now I have this Arthurian deck which is just too weird for most people, and it’s too christianized for me. I’m going to write a book about Tarot in a non-mystickal structure one day. Yes, I am an atheist pagan and I read Tarot from a jungian archetypal perspective. It works for some people and I can actually make a couple dollars here and there with it without begging, which is against my spiritual beliefs. Willing to trade this deck for yours if you like it.

12. A job that doesn’t require lifting or heavy pushing or running. I am a certified Network Administrator, I can walk a dog, I can repair your computer or show you how to use it. I can make up to $500 a month while on PWD. I can do linux/windows/mac for homes or businesses, but I can’t lift things off the ground.

Food: We actually do pretty good for food usually. Sometimes its tight, but we can’t store anything really. Hot food though. Or hot coffee, harder to get and welcome when we get it.
Powdered hot chocolate, dark chocolate, tins of survival food like sardines, food cards.
We never trade in gift cards for money, we always use them to get food.

For Koala:
Koala really needs a good visit to the doctor. 

She’s 10 and needs her paw looked at and a teeth checkup. If you can donate a bit of money to the SPCA with a note asking them to help your buddy Koala when she’s in, they are really nice to her.

1205 East 7th Avenue
Vancouver, B.C. V5T 1R1 
Phone: (604) 879-7721
Emergency Phone (if available): (604) 879-7343
Email: vancouver@spca.bc.ca
http://www.spca.bc.ca/vancouver
Koala likes Tripe. Tripe in a can. And tasty canned dog food. And frozen turkey necks, or chicken legs. The tripe is good in the winter for her coat. And dried liver sometimes. Mr. Pet’s or Sophie’s both know her and will give her the gift anonymously if you want. She could also use flea stuff of course since B.C. is perfect flea temperature. We really have enough toys.

Koala really wants a place more than tripe tho
she likes couch cuddling while watching something.

My wishes for you this Christmas/Solstice?
Find some small happiness,
and rid your world of some large hypocrisy you’ve been holding onto.
Maybe clear up some family secrets or decades old lies, clear the air a bit, build Trust.

happy happy, everyone.
I can’t do it. Fuck optimism. It’s cold. BAH! HUMBUG!!!!

East Van Genocidal McMedicine – Quack Diagnosticisms for all…

44 minutes
I’,m in the waiting area for a McClinic on Commercial at Broadway.
I’m calculating
Time
My time.
My life in a McMedicine line
Thank you Mr. Harper, and you especially, Mr. Martin
For McMedicine
I have lost 44 hours of my life
for less than 2 hours of medical attention
because they get paid by the visit, not the ailment, so I must come and come and come and sit and wait,
because it’s better for billing the government.
44 hours of my life.
3 hours at a time for each 5 minute McVisit
a half hour each way
2 hours wait EVERY time plus some longer waits
3 hours per McVisit
5 minutes of face time
per McVisit.
and after all of that
we have:
Jack Shit, really.

The form in my hand must be filled out by a doctor,

he get’s paid a hundred dollars to do it
It can’t be done in 5 minutes
So I have come here
14 times
so that he would have been able to gather enough visits
to make the time.
For accounting I have come here ad nauseum
while daily I freeze outside without a bus pass
and from the FIRST visit
ALL I have wanted
was for the doctor to fill out this form
ACCURATELY.
Not “make something up so you’ll be sure to get visibility”
No.
I have come here 14 times to have it filled out accurately
with no embellishment.

The system thinks it is on the right course, full steam ahead
44 hours for less than 2
sitting
freezing
dog freezing
and now
“just sign up for mental health and it will be fast tracked Mr. Taylor”
railroaded

I came for accuracy,
and am offered a quick road to warmth
for lies

fucking liars.

There’s this crucial component of modern medicine.
Its called diagnostic imaging.

Its important to have proper diagnostic imaging for medicine. Very important. Its important for lawsuits regarding malpractice as well, but you have to pay out of pocket for that, since the system will never pay to investigate its own people for wrongdoing.

If you’ve read some of my blog, you may be familiar with my rants regarding the horrifying and dangerous quality of care I have recieved in British Columbia. I am literally scared shitless of lying murderous doctors. There are so fucking many of them.

So. Short summary.
I have a congenital condition called intersexuality, which is an actual physical genital difference created by genetics and endocrine development factors during gestation. No bullshit.

So after doctor number TEN that I have been to in the last 5 years, we have this. 4 doctors literally LAUGHED. 3 doctors refused to interact with me for treatment, and 4 of the doctors tried to put something on my file regarding delusions or other mental dysfunction – WITHOUT PHYSICALLY ASSESSING me. They didn’t even look.

Now we come to medical imaging and its importance.
Doctor or nurse is trying to call me a liar and delusional. If i had a proper DIAGNOSTIC IMAGE I could pull it out and show it, but I don’t have one.

Ten doctors, half a dozen nurses, and I have NO DIAGNOSTIC image of the area in question. I have asked EVERY SINGLE doctor for this, over the course of 5 years.

My library time is almost up and I will have to add to this over the weekend.

So. 3 months ago I try a new clinic, like clinic number 7 in 5 years.

Its at broadway and commercial.

For the first time in 5 years a doctor or nurse actually asks me to drop my pants and take a look.
She doesn’t understand it but agrees its not what she normally would see.
I ask her to order an ultrasound of my perineaum while I am getting one for my inguinal hernia in the upper groin.
She agrees, and contrary to my wishes and commoon practice writes “hermaphrodite” on the imaging notes. The term is Intersex, there are less than 1% of all intersex people who would be termed actually hermaphrodite. I was a bit offended but she ordered the scan so I was ok. I ask her to use CML, in the new Jim Pattison(ie: Hell’s Angels) constructed medical building at broadway and commercial, across the street from her. There is a reason. They destroyed some of my ultrasound images at the beginning of the 5 years at the request of a Dr. Cooper and Dr. Brown, both of whom are mudering genocidal religious fanatics, I SWEAR!

Anyways.

I book my ultrasound.

the story of Jin the genocidal radiologist – goes here! and is still being expanded:
Short summary: Jin is pattronizing. He takes 32 pictures of my 1-1/2 inch balloned out inguinal hernia, then scans my perineum for 5 minutes, after turning the monitor away from me, and he doesn’t snap a single frame of my perineum!!!!
I went for a diagnostic image, one that I could show to other doctors…and not one single image was snapped into his digital system!!
That medical building is where they are moving the transgender clinic from downtown. So all of the clients of that “service” can expect to be lied to in that building if they are intersex and not trans.

here’s my email to Jin’s boss: bidad@cml.ca
Hello Diane.

I am very upset. I will try to be short and clear.

A couple of days ago I was booked for an ultrasound at your broadway commercial location.
The technician was Jin.

Jin was the same technician on duty in the old office 3 years ago. I remember.

I have a congenital condition known as Intersexuality.
It is not a mental disorder, like transgenderism, it is a disorder of sexual development, a physical expression of non standard genitalia  caused by different  factors, some genetic and some endocrinal. Approximately 250, 000 people in canada have some form of one of the 5 kinds of intersexuality.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intersex

I came to your clinic for a scan of my right side anguinal hernia and a second set of my perineum. So I could take the IMAGES, which are the end result of a professional DIAGNOSTIC, to a PROFESSIONAL with SPECIALIZED experience.

You might notice, if you look, that there are 30+ images of my hernia.

and ZERO images of my perineum.

He didn’t snap a single image. This isn’t the days of $100 film stock. Digital space is almost free.

3.5 years ago I had a scan done, when it was strips of paper and not on file.
I watched as Dr. Cooper (who severely compromised my healthcare) actually TOOK 3 sheets from that set back then, in front of Jin.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Therapeutic_privilege

Therapeutic Privilege should be a CAPITAL crime. IMHO.

There is no SCIENCE without DOCUMENTATION.

Thank you for your time, Diane.
As you can see, I’m kind of pissed off.

–
………….
Christopher Taylor

So after all that. The new doctor tells me that he can’t really fill out my disability form without using “schizophrenic” because he really wants me to get on disability and he really doesn’t want me to get a CT scan for this:

This is what it is all about.
They will absolutely not give me a CT or ultrasound image of this under any circumstances!

They would rather kill me first, slowly, in front of all of you!So you tell me, ladies, how many boys have that between their balls and ass?
Honestly. How many? You’ve seen that lots?
The well-trained Dr. Mah, with no examination whatsoever, called it “probably extruding colon material”. I’m pretty in tune with my butt. If I rub a one inch section of one spot of my colon for half an hour I don’t curl up into a ball.
Rub that and I do.
I think I deserve better from a scientifically advanced culture.
There are specialists for everything, but we are happy with the techniques of modern genocide here, so clean and quiet.I am tired of this shit.

The Grandview-Woodlands “Community” Plan: Hard Drugs, Decimated Culture, Genocidal Health Providers, voila! -a “community” is reborn – with fetal idiocy syndrome…

Beyond the Border: Harper sics the FBI and CIA on Canada’s left wing, allowing them to operate in Canada against socialist threats!

The nazis were elected with about the same percentage as the conservatives, and with similiar circumstances.
Throughout his career, Mr. Harper has steadily eroded the principles of democracy, equality, justice, and human rights.
It’s a right wing dictatorship now.
All the left wing neighborhoods and hangouts in Canada have been effected, and the culprits, when we look at the disruptions of these cultural centres, the culprits are americans in canada, or the organized crime gangs who buy their coke from the CIA and american military.
Mr. Harper believes that our “allies” have our best interests at heart, but americans in canada all say the same thing,
“These stupid Canadians…You can get away with anything here…”

check it out, the bilateral agreement where american law enforcement can operate within canada, and identify targets for canadian extrajudicial harassment by law enforcement here.

and here is a quote for you:
“Integrated Cross-border Law Enforcement
We intend to build on existing bilateral law enforcement programs to develop the next generation of integrated cross-border law enforcement operations that leverage cross-designated officers and resources to jointly identify, assess, and interdict persons and organizations involved in transnational crime.
We intend to seek further opportunities to pursue national security and transnational crime investigations together to maximize our ability to tackle the serious security threats that these organizations and individuals present.
We intend to improve the sharing among our law enforcement agencies of relevant information to better identify serious offenders and violent criminals on both sides of the border.”
——-
Serious offenders would be all you fucking idiot do gooder socialists who believe that full comprehensive healthcare is a right that should be fully covered by taxation, and all you foolish lefties who think in a country that hits -40 degrees sometimes it’s essential that everyone get the basics of food and shelter.

The americanization of Canada is an essential component of Mr. Harper’s very christian crusade against anyone who believes the rich, and the corporations sucking resources out of our country, should be paying back in to the prosperity of ALL Canadians, not just the rich cronies of Mr. Harper and his genocidal business pals.

There are american teams in Canada right now, “neutralizing” the left wing, before it starts demanding that everyone get free access to post secondary education, healthcare, childcare, eyecare, and LEGAL REPRESENTATION.

Anyone that says things like
9/11 wasn’t the Taliban, they just threw the brown people at the building to make it look good. Really, what happened was that Donald rumsfeld announce that $2.1 TRILLION (that’s what, 9 zero’s?) in DOD money was missing from the Defense budget, and they didn’t know where it was. 2 days later the 3 places that held accounting information on the $2.1 trillion dollar heist were gone. It wasn’t the Taliban, it was the Italian Mafia and a bunch of American generals skimmming the money and they needed a scapegoat, so a bunch of brown people were elected to make it look good. Don’t agree? so what.

Saying that in AmeriKKKa is treason. But in Canada, we like to look reasonably at the FACTS, because we actually think Noam Chomsky is worth listening to, while in the states they would rather hide their head up their ass and believe that their government and military loves them and cares about human rights. Fools.

Good luck Canada, you’ll need it.
When Hitler took over,
it took the whole fucking world to stop him.

Wanted: Non – infested private living closet with utilities and toilet for the welfare rate – $375

The title says it all.

I can actually afford to spend $450 if I use my food money, which is of course necessary in Greater Vancouver.

$500 is really pushing it for me.

Looking for something south of broadway and west of main

anywhere.

man- dog- and cat.
Cat kills mice. Dog, doesn’t do anything but chase frisbees. She’s quiet.

We’re quiet. We don’t like music anymore. We keep to ourselves.

I “write”, and develop video games, which is a good excuse to play them.
I smoke, smoke weed, drink a few fays out of the month.

I mostly keep to myself and can keep a kitchen and bathroom clean.

I would probably have better luck finding a grassy spot on the moon with free cheese flowing out of a lava tube.

Email me with your splendiferous offers.

I don’t want to live in the outer burbs. Van/South Van/West/North/fairview/shaughnessy/marpole/dunbar/ubc/jericho would be great.

Willing to live in a garage if I have access to at least a porta-potty.

Christie, it’s impossible, and you won’t be able to hide it!

So every human on social “assistance” is allotted $375 dollars for rent+utilities and no more.
Social services gets the rent receipts every month.

Out of all those people, all those receipts, more than 80% of those receipts the rent is over $375.

So. 80% of people on “assistance” are using a significant portion of their food/clothing allowance for their rent and or utilities. Plus you can’t even get service out of the Ministry snots if you don’t have a PHONE, so half again of those clients are forking out for a phone out of their measly $230 of food money.

And the paper trail for our flabbergasted future researchers is undeniable.

This is a really sick society.

I’m talkin to a crackhead who has longterm disability, because they are a poor crackhead, I’m talkin to a half dozen other people I know who are on disability because they are obese, they ate to get on it. They get a bus pass and I don’t with a mashed knee and hernia? Messed up, so messed up.

Christie, just organize public executions of poor people. It will be more effective, I swear.

Searching for solace for solstice

I am wandering in search of a place.
Probably gonna move west from Least Van
Would like to be near the shore
jericho or spanish banks
let the dog near the water