Everything is not OK

“How are you?”
I try to look pleasant.
“I’m OK.”
I say unenthusiastically
long ago
I was

not now

she doesn’t care,
the woman enquiring,
as to how
I am

not really

its a Pleasantry,
a greeting,
a rote excercise
in pretending

That everything

I don’t really
want to talk
about the weather

and certainly not about
how I’m

Tell me how you feel
in 60 seconds or less
and be positive
is what’s next
I think
to my

she’s waiting for me to expand
“I’m OK”
or continue
the ritual
of the greeting

I really can’t
like she can
that everything’s

The news from the government channel
tells how they are housing the refugees

there are 2000

spread out across each city

the official numbers
are much smaller
I watched the woman
a yuppie by a line
of poor people
getting chili
she underestimated
by half

with a wry smile
and a twinkle

here there are 175 shelter
and a couple hundred

for the 2000

its the same

I lived outside 3 and a half years
my body aches with arthritis
in the night
and the mornings
as I dig
in a dumpster
for some veggies
to make

In the morning I find
some bread
and the good restaurant owner
gives me a coffee

I probably owe him
half a grand
by now

The chef
at another place
loves my dog

everyone does

so we get a bag of
once a week
she doesn’t

I remember starving
many times

and freezing

many times

because no one
would rent
to someone
with a dog

I guess
I really
should have

let her go

be positive!
a sunny

We rarely tell
the truth
in rote greetings

A refugee gets $1300 flat
And education allowances

the wonderful System
of Canada
covers my rent

and then
who was born in Canada
jump through hoops
and forced marches
holding my hernia
with my hand
to get

for me
and the dog
each month

We should be grateful
we are inside
it is a warmer place
to brood
and seethe

and slowly

living doesn’t
to mean much

don’t seem to be

than the carts
they push

I never saw anyone
a cart
with their belongings
until I was twenty


to Canada?

of charities
for Profit

the “news”
of “what we’re
for those people”

its mostly all
just fictions
around each other

in our minds
we parrot the programming

a talk about
some movie
or entertainment
or government
or scam
run by crooks

we admire
well dressed

they have money
honest people
really don’t

that’s really
its about
in the end

the money
and the power and the glory
forever and ever

the Face
and the ass
and the wallet

who will be able to write
I wonder
in 40 years
will an adult
know how to use
a pencil?

I walk
thirty five blocks and back

To seek

but she plays favourites
with the money

the King’s Cunts
or the Queen’s
either way
that’s what feeds

that’s what feeds
the crusades

of the Magna Carta

beheaded 16,000 pagans
in 3 days
for God

I’m not that upset
about ISIS beheading people

I’m worried
about justice
and medical care

not there

it’s all about
the dead dinosaur

all of it

for the next hundred
itwill be about
the dead dinosaur blood
and the money
and the kings and queens

do they stay?

they seem to be
more eternal
than any god

My own economy
is ransacked
laid waste

by more than a decade of fascism
spun off by little bushy-hitler
and his harpy minions

I don’t ever have
a good day

I can’t be a good enough
to be

there is no credit
except through
or crookedness

not even
to live on
after your 40 hrs

there is no real law
or medicine
freedom of religion

are fictions
governments put
on paper
to make it appear
that something
was done

I get to the doctor
or you don’t get to see them
off at golf
or something

I have a list of ten things wrong
I’d like to work at gettig them fixed
so I could stop limping
get back to work

he has a wry paternal smile
as he completely ignores me
hands me a script
for not enough painkillers


like a fast food burger joint
serving up
prolonged pain
and intentional humiliation

with a smile

a smile like the Colonel
serving you greasy chicken

why wouldn’t he smile
he made $50 to scribble
and ignore me

three doctors killed me
with ether
at 4 am
it was a joke

kill the freak
our friends owe him money
tortured for two hours
flatlined with ether

months of strokes
the doctor now ignoring me
there is no stroke medication
on the script

I laugh when the girl
on the corner
flogging donations
tries to chat me up
about donating

inhaling my smoke
I ask her
why I would donate
to a 2 week cruise
for a bunch of doctors
to go somewhere else

They get a cruise
a huge tax write-off
and they can shop
for future vacation properties
and other investments

My stomache grumbles
as I ask her perplexed face
why she should feel I would
to help

I haven’t got enough
for a coffee
in my pocket

and she’s got
all the answers
it seems

it seems

I can only
walk away

Everything is not OK

My First Statement of Claim for the B.C. Supreme Court

This is about 1/3 done, I had to stop because I was PTSD stressing out doing it,
but its a great start and I will be done in a couple days
It still is just the beginning

but a nice start

Not that it will get far.
When I worked for the IT dept. of the B.C. Supreme Court I was subjected to sexual harassment every single day of my work.
as a tech at the court I was called a faggot by my co-workers every single day.

And the last Dr. that screwed me over

Dr. Fisher,
is married to a supreme court judge
and he totally screwed me and ignored everything I had to say.

I will update it as I finish it off.


[Using numbered paragraphs, set out a concise statement of the material facts giving rise to the
plaintiff ’s(s’) claim.]
[If any party sues or is sued in a representative capacity, identify the party and describe the representative capacity.]
[Using numbered paragraphs, set out the relief sought and indicate against which defendant(s) that relief is
sought. Relief may be sought in the alternative.]
[Using numbered paragraphs, set out a concise summary of the legal bases on which the plaintiff(s) intend(s) to
rely in support of the relief sought and specify any rule or other enactment relied on. The legal bases for the relief
sought may be set out in the alternative.]
26August2011 Page 3 of 4
[Set out the street address of the address for service. One or both of a fax number and an e-mail address may be given
as additional addresses for service.]
Plaintiff’s address for service:

Taylor vs. Vancouver Coastal Health/BC College of Physicians
Commercial Drive Clinic
Dr. Cooper
Dr. Mah
Diamond Centre/VGH
Dr. Brown
Nurse Patti Zettel
Dr. Wilson
The Kettle Friendship Society, VCH Clinic
Nurse Anna Cooper
Three Bridges
Dr. Sakakibara
Dr. Thompson Three Bridges
Three Bridges, Gender resource centre
Lucas Walter
Dr. Aronshtam
Broadway Clinic
Dr. Rondeau
Dr. Fong
VGH Radiology
Multiple Technicians /personnel (Jane and John Does)
CML radiology
Radiologist Jin

(details of Statements are in schedule – )
(Details of the character and experiences of the plaintiff are set forth in schedule -)
The plaintiff has congenital intersexuality and is seeking a specialist in intersexuality to discuss client centered care options. See schedule –
The plaintiff was assaulted and his genitals mutilated using gender normalization techniques at 17 years on request of his parents. The plaintiff was not given informed consent, had no knowledge of his intersexuality at the time of the operation. This occurred at University of Alberta Research Hospital.
The plaintiff discovered and investigated his intersexuality approx. 7 years ago. It was hidden from him by his family. The family of the plaintiff had a duty to inform but did not and actually destroyed all childhood pictures and medical records as they were instructed to do by the doctors at the time
The plaintiff began to seek healthcare for numerous conditions (see schedule -) and tried to find medical services in the Vancouver area with a provider that understood intersexuality.
The plaintiff was at multiple times mocked, laughed at, treated dismissively, assaulted, sexually assaulted, sexually harassed, libeled causing assault and battery and almost died due to the intentional and negligent tortuous conduct of the defendant’s contractors, subcontractors and employees. Each incident is set forth individually in schedule –
The plaintiff asserts tortuous conspiracy to cause harm or death occurred between different contractors, subcontractors and employees of the defense
The plaintiff asserts that some of the actions and assaults against his person committed by the defendant’s contractors, subcontractors and employees were part of an extortion initiated by persons not in the defendents employ, however the defendant’s agents consciously committed the tort of conspiracy with those persons and further acted intentionally to the detriment and damage of the plaintiff. See schedule –
The plaintiff asserts as a statement of fact that some of the initiating agents and representatives of the defendants committed these offences against the plaintiff to further an extortion committed by a familial member of those agents.
The plaintiff asserts that some actions and assaults were committed for reasons of genocidal hatred against persons with congenital intersexuality (hate crimes). See schedule –
The plaintiff was made homeless by the actions of a third party engaged in defamation and extortion of the plaintiff.
The defendant’s agents and representatives withheld key medical services to the defendant and some agents did willfully cause harm to the defendants person and reputation.
Multiple agents and representatives of the defendant were involved in defamation of the plaintiff’s character by attempting to characterize and label the defendant as a delusional or schizo-affective mental health patient.
The plaintiff asserts that at no time in his life has he been delusional or schizo-affective and that the plaintiff does not meet the requirements of the DSM-4 and definitely not of the DSM-5.
The defamation is linked to the previously defined extortion.
The intentional libel of mental illness of the plaintiff persisted for more than 7 years throughout the health provider system and even on VPD records causing irreparable health and career problems due to agents treating the plaintiff as delusional at first contact.

The plaintiff asserts his “sanity” as follows.
Approximately 7 years ago the plaintiff was subcontracted to work for the Information Technology dept. of the Supreme Court of British Columbia.
Although the plaintiff was only employed with SCBC for 2.5 months, there are approximately 1000+ helpdesk calls that were placed to the defendant during that time, of which there are detailed records and possibly even recorded phone calls.
The plaintiff was responsible for personally fixing many Supreme Court Justice’s specific computer user issues, including on their laptops.
The plaintiff has, and it is on record as a tech call, sat next to the Supreme Court’s highest judge, in her chambers, and assisted her with a database connection to a reference library.
At no time during the plaintiffs employ was there ever an armed police officer to protect the justices from the plaintiff.
The plaintiff states that he has martial arts training on a casual basis since the age of 24, in a combination of fighting styles.
The plaintiff walked through the back halls of the SCBC freely, attending technical calls.
There was no armed guard watching out for the schizophrenic martial artist.
Because there wasn’t one.
These things are a matter of record.

The plaintiff asserts that he has been assessed by a psychologist while under duress at least 3 times in police custody and was released without charge or mention of any mental illness other than the PTSD that the plaintiff has due to many previous assaults against his person.
These assessments were made under false pretenses or as a result of an abuse of process by agents under the employ of the defendant and other 3rd parties.
Each of these assessments was made while the plaintif was falsely imprisoned with restraints, and the plaintiff was released each time.
These assessments would also be a matter of record and be available for the court to view.
The plaintiff makes a Statement of Fact that he was given a substantial amount of ether during a recent visit to St. Paul’s emergency.
The plaintiff asserts he was assaulted with intent to injure by 3 doctors and 2 support personnel at approximately 3 am (details to follow)about 9 months ago.
Ether is not given to patients anymore except in extreme circumstances.
The ether was administered based on libel (an intentionally erroneous “violent patient” label on files posted by a Dr. Brown) and possibly slander or conspiracy based on the discovery process and the possibility that some or all of the doctors did in fact speak on the phone directly to Dr. Brown.
The plaintiff asserts that he was given enough ether that he was hacking up white particulate for 3-4 days after the visit. The plaintiff also visually saw the small white ether delivery nasal administrator and watched the white particulate enter his nostrils.
The provider asserts that he was given oxygen only.
The plaintiff asserts that there was no clear mask of oxygen, just a small white 2 pronged nose clip.
The plaintiff began to suffer severe strokes in the days following the procedure (which was simply to reposition a blocked anguinal hernia).
Over the next month the plaintiff suffered at least 20 major strokes requiring grabbing something for support or immediately sitting. Numerous lighter strokes occurred as well.
The plaintiff continues to suffer from repeated strokes.

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found that old resume…

My resume was lost in cyberspace at google docs for a year or two.


Resumé of Christopher D. Taylor


Microsoft MCSE/MCSA(NT/W2K/XP), Cisco CCNA, CompTIA A+

Current Career Goals: Currently I am trying to find employment with reasonable remuneration in a Technical/IT/Media/Educational/Support capacity in the Vancouver Area.

Positions of interest: IT Network and Application Support, Network and System Administration, Sales, Video Editing/Production, Instruction
I have excellent client support and interaction skills, can handle large call volumes, take excellent notes of service calls, prioritize well, and can research/acquire specialist skills when necessary.
Experienced in Mac, Windows, Linux(many distros), Solaris OS, various hardware experience
Other interests: Film, Broadcast, Web, Multimedia, TV, Game design industries as:
Technical Support, Editing, I/O, IT Administration, Junior Artist, writing
Related abilities and experiences you’ll find throughout the resume:
  • Network Administration and IT – MCSE/CCNA/A+ experienced with MS/Linux/Solaris/Mac
  • Professional Audio Engineer –
    Recording engineering/live sound reinforcement/sequencing/composition
  • Video editing – 3/4” beta, Digital media with FinalCut Pro Studio/Premier/After Effects etc.
  • Media Asset Management – large media archive manipulation and organization.
  • A/V Technician – Senior A/V technician for hotel conferencing, various types of stage setups, responsible for other crew members and full setup of video/audio/multimedia presentation systems from single rooms to entire conference floors to full main stages.
  • 3D – Mostly Sub-D or Nurbs spaceships and objects.
Familiar with all main 3D packages (xsi/maya/max/LW/softimage) and conversions.
Not a “math” scripter. Can familiarize myself with most scripting tools for basic activities or for reusing code, can’t do math type scripting such as shaders or advanced formulas for constraint.
I can reuse or create simple unix or winscript as necessary for batch processes.
  • Camera – I know how to use one, but I usually just set them up and someone else operates, I’m usually at a console of audio/video/lighting during shooting.


Graduate of SAIT – Information Technology Professional program – Oct 2001 – Oct 2002
Business Network Design and Administration comprising the material taught in a 2 year course compressed into one year with twice the classroom hours. In conjunction with my 7 years of advanced computing and technical support experience, this course offered me sound instruction and practice in the Business aspects of IT and excellent Team Building studies.
This intensive IT course focused on Microsoft MCSE 2000, Cisco CCNA, Project Management, RFP analysis, and business skills including team project management
  • MCSE Microsoft Certified Systems Engineer/Administrator with Exchange Messaging
  • Official Microsoft curriculum and materials in: Active Directory/SQL Server/XP/Exchange
  • Official Cisco Networking curriculum – CCNA certified
  • Strong IT business simulation consisting of 3 detailed RFP projects
  • theory and practice MS Project
  • Organizational Behavior, Conflict Management, Business Skills, Project Management studies
  • Visual Basic, Unix/Linux/Netware. Hardware, OS, and NOS – A+ certified
Practicum (SAIT – ITP) – City of Calgary, Asset Management
City of Calgary Calgary, AB April – July 2002
  1. Analysis of Remedy Asset Management Database and data extraction
  2. Configuration and generation of MS Systems Management Server audits
  3. Access form queries of Remedy SQL Database compared to SMS queries
  4. Documentation of Asset Management common queries
  5. Asset management systems analysis and process re-engineering
  6. Documentation of asset management points of error and mitigation strategies
  7. Technical assistance and direction for physical auditors and data entry clerks
Instructor certificates from Olds College in:
  1. Facilitating Learning,
  2. Developing and Integrating Learnware,
  3. Assessing Learning Outcomes,
  4. Web Production for Courseware

Employment History

Visual Effects I/O
Stargate Atlantis/Pegasus Prod. Vancouver B.C. Apr 2007 – June 2008
Visual Effects I/O for Stargate Atlantis, pulled visual effects plates and their associated elements from raw footage using Final Cut Pro for delivery to FX Vendors
  • Collecting, trimming to spec, exporting raw HD camera footage as image sequences for all elements of each VFX shot using Final Cut Pro (and excel) for delivery to Image Engine, Rainmaker, Stage 3, etc.
  • Archival and organization of all exported and imported image sequence clips for quick comparison for production staff.
  • Importing of completed VFX sequences and temps from vendors into Final Cut Pro using Quicktime Pro.
  • Adding Slates when necessary to incoming footage, basic assessment of possible footage errors.
  • Creation of high quality Log Cuts for all sets of sequences received for review by the VFX coordinator for each episode.
  • Creation of high quality timecode burned logs of all episode production cuts including timecode for both show and source footage off of the actual editor’s Final Cut timeline of the episode.
  • Professional labeling of all DVD’s to be sent to coordinators or vendors
  • Consultation on possible sources of contamination for certain shots by comparison for production and vfx personnel of various footages archived by myself.
  • Responsible for configuration of new HD workflow beyond basic configuration at start of Season 4. Extensive tweaking and organization of the I/O process, the Mac and PC workstations, and program configurations, including extensive configuration of Final Cut Pro and Compressor.
  • Network , computer, filesystem, FTP, file transfer organization to optimize file transfer to more than 5 external disks at one time using 2 machines. Extensive configuration of the file transfer process.
  • Also worked on logging and editing “The Tracey Fragments” (Bruce McDonald remix) footage in spare time
Reason for leaving: $11 an hour with no raise after one year, no film credit. Unlivable wage.
Teacher – Networking Administration
Winston College Vancouver B.C. Jan – Mar 2007
Taught A+, Network +, MCSE XP workstation, in a small college setting.
Reason for leaving: Low wage as compared to other college institutions, inadequate infrastructure (Pentium 3 computers for an MCSE course!), no payment for course preparation, long delays in getting software and textbooks necessary for the course. No planned curriculum on start. Insufficient institutional support.
Studies in Game design, Linux, Music, and work search
Vancouver B.C. July – Dec 2006
  • Studies in Faceposer and Choreography tools of Valve Source Hammer Editor
  • Evaluations of Knoppix 4, Fedora Core 4, Kubuntu, Ubuntu, CentOS
  • Creation of a number of Reason 4 musical compositions, and guitar studies
Help Desk
Supreme Court of British Columbia Vancouver B.C. Mar. – June 2006
Help desk for the Justices of the Supreme Court and their support personnel
  • Call to completion help desk, no tier separation, load 50 – 200 calls per day
  • PC rebuilding, disk image preparation
Position was not extended after 3 month contract.
Personality conflict with a younger tech who had been on the job for longer.
A/V Technician
Sharp’s A/V Vancouver B.C. Sept. 2005 – Feb. 2006
Business Conference Audio Visual Technician
Left because of low pay($12) and unorganized event loads causing extreme long hours (over 20 hours/day in some cases) as well as sudden loss of hours due to seasonal low period of early spring.
Moved to Vancouver from Alberta
Oct. 2004 – Aug 2005
Spent some time with family, moved to Vancouver, had a holiday
Network Administrator – Macintosh Specialist
Transglobal Communications Inc. Edmonton, AB April – Sept. 2004
Network Administrator for
  • 23 print production Macintosh OS9 and OSX clients with Adobe and Extensis Quark applications.
  • 2 OSX servers with 2 Brownie 1.7 terabyte hardware RAID 5 arrays.
  • 2 Xenix based Dolev Imagesetters, 3 Irix RIP, 1 Fiery RIP, 2 W2K Best Colour RIP.
  • 2 plotters, 4 enterprise laserjets, various desktop peripherals/printers/faxes.
  • 15 XP pro administration/sales/accounting clients.
  • 4 W2k servers with 20 Terminal services clients.
  • Various VNC and Terminal services network control configurations for Win/Mac.
  • Backup administration and configuration for 1.7 Terabytes of information using disk mirroring, Dantz Retrospect, and Backup Exec Pro using ADIC Scalar 1000 tape library with SDLT Quantum drive.
  • Documentation of existing network, network infrastructure upgrade planning, Visio and Excel.
  • Wan replication/backup/mail/public folder/remote access infrastructure planning with W2K3 VPN, Active Directory Domain and Site design, and Exchange 2k3/IMAP/Openexchenge Mail and Groupware testing.
  • Cisco router config for wan and videoconferencing with dual nat and remote access. Symantec and Dlink router config for wan and remote access as well as for remote administration and video conferencing applications and hardware.
Let go after 6 months – Reason: Personality clash with micro managing Art Director and insufficient funding of core infrastructure, was also a long commute for me.
Security Systems Engineer – Network Security Applications
CDG, Calgary, AB May 2003 – March 2004
  1. Enterprise technical support for a large number of Enterprise Network Security and Gateway applications from Trend Micro, Brightmail, Websense, Fortinet, Netscreen, Sophos, Ositis, BlueCoat, Adonis, etc.
  2. Solaris and Linux specialist for CDG clients using those platforms.
  3. Network security and mail appliance testing and assessment.
Software Support Specialist
Olds College, Olds, AB Aug – Dec 2000
  1. Responsible for installation, stability testing of OS and applications on base classroom machines
  2. Creation of Norton Ghost “images” of classroom machines for later multicast installations
  3. Configuration of applications for classrooms as per instructor needs
  4. Registry editing to lock desktops and refresh application settings, policy editing
  5. Batch file writing to automatate settings for specific application needs and to refresh desktop settings
  6. Faculty software assistance and training
  7. Attended Instructor Training Workshops in: Facilitating Learning, Developing and Integrating Learnware, and Assessing Learning Outcomes
  8. Continued multimedia/programming/networking studies, practiced installations of Linux and Netware
Reason for leaving: offered $12,000/year more at Transglobal.
Senior Audio Visual Technician
Caribiner AV Edmonton, AB May ’99 – April ’00
  1. Professional conference staging, show quoting, planning, setup, operation
  2. Extensive personal contact with Business Clients in stressful conference situations
  3. Training of other staff in professional audio and projection techniques and troubleshooting
  4. Configuration of office computers and customizing of Excel macros for order input modules
  5. Determination of necessary equipment and ordering, maintenance
  6. During this time continued studies in multimedia/web design/VB6/RDBMS/networking
Webmaster/Layout Artist/Data Archivist/Network Admin/Tech Support/
Lone Pine Publishing Edmonton, AB July ’98 – May ’99
Responsible for:
  1. Network admin of 12 W95 client Novell Server and 11 client Mac OS network. Tech support for client machines on both networks including all OS installs/client software/applications/troubleshooting. Extensive user support with Office 97 applications including Access and Mac publishing/graphic software. General server housecleaning.
  2. Organization and backup of 200 Gigabyte tape archive of book production data and illustrations. Sorting, cleanup of images, format conversions, batch image processing, identification and removal of redundant files, batch renaming of files to enforce filename consistency. Extensive thumbnail cataloguing and creation of image list tables containing all image data (dimensions/resolution/filename). Transfer of final archives to clean tapes and then to DVD ram format
  3. Webmaster for 10 G website containing listing of all Lone Pine books as well as “Birdguide.com” web within the Lone Pine web. Spent 3 months fixing image, text, alignment, and other errors in original web. Replace of poorly scanned cover images with complete new set containing all covers. Various specialty “What’s new” pages with spreads
  4. Layout Artist and Graphic Design professional. Worked on numerous books at various stages
  5. Entire book completed begin to end “Wildflowers of Sierra Nevada” 338 pages. All layout, majority design decisions
  6. Extensive batch scanning of all book covers in Lone Pine catalog and archiving of cover images for print, as well as batch converting (Photoshop) all cover images for optimal web dimensions and file size
  7. Scanning technician, image editor, batch processing, colour matching for book layout and web images
  8. Backup of current books in progress, as well as all editorial backups
  9. Testing of software technologies and their efficiency publishing production process. Recommended use of Acrobat for author review copies, I-view for image cataloging(mac), numerous plugins, DVD archive format, batch processes, etc.
  10. Continued multimedia/web design studies began studies in VB6 database front end programming
Internet Business Advisor, Technical Director, Instructor
(business web design/internet communications and efficiency)
Student Connections Thunder Bay, Ont. June ’96 – Nov ‘97
Industry Canada funded small business Internet training program
Within the Northwest Enterprise Centre (N.E.C), Confederation College
  1. Wrote numerous training materials for manuals and presentations on the business uses of the Internet, and effective Internet business practices.
  2. Regularly made presentations on Internet and computer technology to business oriented audiences of 30 or more.
  3. Maintained 3 Pentium 133 multimedia computers in a multi-user setting for Student Connections, as well as performing PC support technical duties on numerous machines within the Northwest Enterprise Centre.
  4. Trained new staff members of Student Connections
  5. Trained more advanced students of the program in web site design and advanced Internet productivity concepts
  6. A developer of the Future Eye Computer Technology for Business seminar presented by N.E.C. in ‘97
  7. Technical consultant/designer for N.E.C. on multimedia business training applications including cd-rom authoring, web page design, corporate identity graphic design and Internet conferencing
  8. Tested new Internet technologies and made recommendations for integration into course structure
  9. Advanced studies in multimedia using programs such as Director, After Effects, and Lightwave
  10. Began first studies into windows networking concepts and practices
Web Page Designer
Baynet Internet Prov. Thunder Bay, Ont.
  1. Designed pages Thunder Bay Restaurant Guide, Sheldon Reproduction, Team 100 Realty, Cencan, etc.
  2. Contract work while working for Student Connections/Northwest Enterprise Centre (see above)
Conference Audio Visual Technician
Tel AV audio visual Vancouver, BC
Extensive customer service interaction with corporate clientele in a business environment.


  1. Available on request
I believe some of my most important qualities are:
  1. Patience
  2. Client support and interaction skills
  3. 12+ years experience in advanced computing and its concepts/processes
  4. Highly trained and committed to further professional learning and certifications
  5. Dependability. I can be relied upon to complete any task in a professional and efficient manner
  6. A positive, open, and helpful attitude in my dealings with clients and co-workers
  7. Leadership/Managerial qualities
  8. Teaching/User Support/Presentation abilities
  9. I am equally comfortable working in team situations or as a self directed individual
  10. Highly adaptable. Constantly searching for new methods/techniques to increase efficiency and quality
  11. Understand new technologies and their applications quickly
  12. Extensive knowledge of file formats and applications software.
  13. Creative thinker, problem solver
  14. Near photographic memory
  15. Airbrush artist, multi-instrumental musician, outdoor enthusiast
  16. 4 years of Drama and Theatre training in both acting and set building/stage work.
Technical Overview
All procedures and software known at an advanced level
except: (I) intermediate ability, (Jr.) Junior ability (more than cursory knowledge)
This overview does not contain Multimedia skill sets, see applicant’s Multimedia resume
Major Software installs to date: (Multiple machine ghosting/imaging counted as 1 install)
Windows 2K Server
Windows 2K Professional
Windows XP Corporate
Windows 2003 Server
Office 2000
Office 97
Office XP
Office 2003
Windows NT Server (I)
MS SQL Server 2000
Windows 98
Oracle 8 (Jr.)
Windows NT workstation
Netware 5 server (Jr.)
Windows 95
Netware client
Mac OS 6/7/8/8.5/9/OSX
with Mac Application software
Norton Anti virus
Netscape & IE (vers. 3-5)
Adobe Photoshop
Windows 3.1
Linux: Red Hat/Fedora, Ubuntu, CentOS, Suse, Mandrake, Slackware, Knoppix etc.
Various Linux server/client applications software and configurations
Apache Web Server
Vmware virtual machines
Sun Solaris Unix 8 (I)
MS Systems Management Server
MS Exchange Server 2000
MS Exchange Server 2003
Software Packages that can be supported at an advanced level:
Win 3.1/95/98/NT/2K/ME/XP
Remedy, Groupwise, Wordperfect
Acrobat/Distiller, Illustrator
Access, Excel, Word, Powerpoint
Apache Web Server, FTP utilities/servers
Photoshop, Indesign, GoLive
Internet Explorer, Front Page, Publisher
Star Office/Open Office
PageMaker, FrameMaker
Internet Information Server, Exchange
ISO/BIN/disk image tools
TypeManager, Image Styler
SQL, Small Business Server
Vmware/Virtual PC
After FX/Premiere/CS suite
Visual Studio/Interdev 6(I)
Systems Management Server
Accpac/Simply Accounting
Extensis Quark 4 – 6
Websense, Brightmail, Sophos, Ositis
Ghost, Suitcase, Winfax Pro
Acronis TrueImage, DriveImage
Fireworks, Flash, Dreamweaver
Internet Security, Corporate/Home Antivirus

All Trend Micro products

Framemaker, Freehand
Final Cut Pro Studio
Mac OS 6/7/8/9 /10+ Applications
For Print, Multimedia, Design
Softimage 3.2 – 3.5 – XSI
Valve Source Game editing
Maya / 3DS Max
Experience with a huge array of applications, not all can be presented. If one isn’t listed please contact me. I may know it well.
Christopher D. Taylor (no current phone #) christopher.don.taylor@gmail.com 1 of 7

Ghristuus Gnosis’ Jesus Stories PT2

I believe I went on about the first great miracle of Jesus – Turning water into wine

I am not sure though

so I will retell it

along with the story of the snake the apple and the garden

and then I’ll go on about the loaves and fishes

and I might even throw in that temple tantrum

I’ll write it at home and post it

I guarantee

you will laugh

at the antics of Jesus


Let’s begin
at the Beginning

The Garden of Eden

In the older Apocrypha
Eve is God’s second attempt
at a suitable wife for Adam

The first is Lilith

My Old Atheist-Jew friend
Says it was the penile bone Eve was made of
I think that was Lilith
and Eve was the missing rib

Lilith ran off with the neighbor
whose name was Samael
He was black
so nobody thought to record where he was made from

And after Adam boo-hooed for a while
that Lilith had gone off with the neighbor
after he had given up his penile bone
to get her in the first place
God made Eve out of his rib
to stop his whining

Eve was a better match any way
because Lilith liked fast times and bigger the better
but Eve was pretty happy
with the whole Garden life

that Adam was hip to at the time

Adam would
start going on trips
Long ones

Because it is a big world
And they are supposedly alone
Except for their neighbor

Adam’s ex

So Adam goes off with his ass
for 3-4 months at a time

The lovely Eve is content the first few times
but after a while
needing someone to talk to
she starts to chat a bit
The Serpent

Let’s pull back from our Allegorical Tale
for a moment
and directly look at the symbolism

of the synopsys of the story

Of the Garden
The Original Sin

So the Snake is a Charmer
and he convinces Eve
to eat the Fruit
of the tree of Life and Knowledge

She does so
and LIKING the results
convinces Adam to do
the SAME


Analyse it in THIS way

The Fruit
often referred to as the Apple
is the head of the penis
which looks like an apple
from its underside when hanging down

The Tree is
The staff of the penis and the top
of pubic hair
and the fruit hangs as the testicles
the edible ripened Fruit
being the hanging tip of the penis

The Seeds of the Fruit are
That is the source
of the Knowledge
The eating of the seeds
the Semen


it was bad enough
when Eve ate the Semen and got smarter

But Dad really got angry
and all hell broke loose
when Eve convinced Adam
to suck the apple the Snake
the Charming Neighbor
and eat the seed
thereby becoming too smart-ass
to stay in his Dad’s Garden
I have slowly been working out how to tell that one
for a number of years
I’ve tried it on a number of people
but not as many as the next two

so on to the loaves and fishes…
and then theWINE!!!!

The big Jesus Show is coming
people from miles around are going to it
they’ve been talking about it for months
He’s a cool cat
everyone knows
those Jesus Show’s
are a lotta fun

So something happens with
They order a bynch of catering
but on the first couple days
most of what arrives is rancid

And the Dude himself
is set to perform
after a day of musicians a

and dancing

People are growly
they walked more than 20 miles some of them
everything took a bit longer than everyone anticipated
and so everyone had eaten their food already
some was coming
but the Dude
had to keep these people’s hungry attention

so he had one cart of fish
and one of bread
The Man himself
it says
gave each person a piece if bread and fish

So my thesis is

the Man
The Dude
took each piece of bread
and piece of fish
and smushed a quarter gram of
cubensis mushrooms dried and powdered
(which grew quite commonly in that area then)
into the bread with the fish

so for about 8 hours
the 2000 people or so
felt no hunger
and had a wonderful Time

Now let’s see about that Wine story…














are bugs
in the way
of the
Resource Extracting machineries

Uncooperative slaves
and endless whores
for the Kings

East Van Pride crap

I’m queer.
and Intersex.

I actually despise East Van Pride.
First off.
IT’s a bunch of queers from somewhere else.
They’re from kits or shaugnessy or davie
Every year in the last 11 I either get a nasty drag tranny snarking me off or a super nazi dyke that hates any animal with a penis.
And I didn’t do anything to start it.

Oh. Well.
Last year they were setting up and playing Bob Marley
very loud

I walked up to the organizer
who tried to brush me off

“Excuse me” I said.
“Bob Marley is RASTA

A Rasta is a religious belief that hates queerness.
That’s just the truth of it.
Lots of Dykes have gone to Jamaica for a 2 week holiday and came back within 2 days.

The assistant looked at me and said
That’s not true
Bob Marley didn’t hate queers.

Sorry chick.
But the “One Love – One Heart doesn’t include queers.

So you grow up with all this bullshit they taught you in school and on children’s cartoons,

all that crap about everybody being equal,

fairness, equality,

all that BS

It takes you 20 years to unlearn the programming

and by then it’s too late to catch up

So maybe this will help 

These little nuggets of wisdom

could save you from a life of slavery or whoredom to the Kings of Canada

the nazi’s who’ve taken over your country

and are robbing you blind

its a WIP I will work on over the next couple days


Way back in the beginning days of the Net
When we still had 100 Megabyte hard drives
and floppies that were floppy
We surfed on 9k modems
and were in awe of the first vga gui on win 3.1
still riding over DOS beneath it

Way back then
when we first started to see software like Imagine 3D and PovRay
Then Lightwave and the video toaster
we wanted to create virtual spaces
once we learned how to create objects and scenes
we wanted to share them

Decades of forward thinking speculative fiction writers
William Gibson, PK Dick, Connie Willis, Neil Stephenson, …
so many

Way back then I worked for a college in Thunder Bay
and as I saw the birth of webpages as a marketing and communication tool
I saw within academia this simplistic conceptualization
of the virtual spaces on the net that could be
It was called VRML
Virtual Reality Modelling Language
and at the time I actually thought,
being in the academic system as an employee
that that was the way virtual reality would start

It was far too simplistic for people to accept it
and it never caught on
because it was really for ivory tower nerds
and academics riding the VR funding wave
the geeks of the Matrix never used it at all

Up from behind the snotty carcass of VRML
came the real winner in our search for virtual reality
the true beginnings of interactive multi user 3D spaces
were games.

Games and the nerds who modded them
and created, eventually
their own player avatars
modelled and textured by themselves or their friends
to represent them
in the 3d space

Arguably the most influential game in the birth of virtual reality
was the original Quake by IdTech

It was the first full 3d game
that multiple people could play at once together over the net
the first really popular one
So many people became part of that game
and that was the birth of true virtual reality

Now we have MMO’s with vast landscapes

Our main problem in the creation of virtual reality
is what do people do?

Originally these games had military content
and subsequently the beginning of virtual reality through games
was funded by the military need for cutting edge combat simulations
further advances in vehicle modelling, multiuser interaction, large landscapes and weapons modelling was also funded my the military and as new tech was adopted the previous tech trickled down into the public as a game.

So what now?
Almost everyone has had enough of being a virtual soldier or gangster.

If we use the technology that is GPL now
we can create a new open and free virtualization system
virtual reality that isn’t controlled by the military or “owned”
virtual reality spaces
servers we can log into
to collectively interact

There are a number of GPL game engines
The two that I think are most useful for our foray into openvisualization
At this time
are Idtech 4 and the Torque 3D engine by MIT.
Both are GPL.
Both allow normal mapping techniques and mippmapping, have particles and fx systems, and can be customized and modified through external scripting without compiling the engine again necessarily.
Both allow multiple users to log into a server on someone’s machine and everyone can see the same environment and each other.

Take away the guns/bombs/weapons
No terrorists or zombies.
a group of people logged into a server in a 3d environment and they are able to see each others avatars/player models

What do they do?
if they chat or video chat
the avatars faces/phonemes/gestures
need to be generated
or we lose interest
as humans
most of our time is actually spent
looking at other people’s faces

but in games
actions of the limbs are the common game types

What would people do
with their time in the Black Sun of Snow Crash?

We could see how
with the idtech 4 engine especially
The samurai swordfight of Hiro Protagonist
and the Daemons that whisk away his opponent
would be easy

but what of the rest
the large long Mall with thousands of people walking along
showing off their Avatars
that they bought or spent time creating

the separate external buildings or addresses
with an external look
and a private interior that has nothing in connection with the external architure of the address, which is for show, once you enter a private space, only the players with access to that private server can interact in the rooms of maps or environments or chatspaces within.

What kind of interactive group activities would keep people
like parlor games or good company or a mystery to solve
games that require X number of players

places where we can walk around and look at interesting things
peoples creations on display

If we don’t have a specific game mechanic
any public server can be an interesting riddle or gallery

perhaps the academic servers could host the central mall as mirrors
and separate addresses
are personal or virtual servers.

We’ve actually reached this point
but we haven yet been able extricate ourselves
from the war and combat of the beginning influences of openvisualization.

Blending the future of openvisualization

I have been having a lot of fun with blender’s new sculpt mode. Suzanne never looked so interesting. Use the Multires modifier, not the sub-d one you’ll see… blendersculpt suzsculptrend2 suzsculptrend3suzsculptrend

I’m going to tell you my pros and cons of blender here I didn’t like blender for a long time

I’m a Maya/Softimage/Lightwave person

But all of the modern 3d apps by autodesk have become way too complicated The whole kitchen sink is in there Blender is the same, and it used to be too much work to get into it But really, you have to learn a bunch of arcane commands and processes anyway to get into 3D now So why not use it since its finally matured? Its not harder than Maya or Max, its just a bit wierd and uses some odd terms

The interface needs to be made more adjustable but all the tools you need are there. I’m using 2.69 and 2.7 for this
I have an MD5 plugin that only works with 2.46, but I like the latest builds better for modelling.
Personally, I care very littleabout Blender’s rendering, although it is nice and moody. I approach Blender to build/edit models or apply textures for a test render of UV placement and normal mapping. I’m working with its boning system, and finding it a bit lacking in documentation.
Oh, wait
the whole thing is lacking, because its one of those horrible online wiki crap things that suck if you have an offline development environment like mine.
Online wiki my ass.
That’s the biggest con/negative to Blender of all of them
The Online Wiki.
You make a complicated piece of software that you’ve loaded up with arcane rendering crap and materials abilities, threw in a bunch of dynamics and logic for games, and then you don’t have documentation in an offline browseable form for any release in the past 6 years?
It is really a monkey scratching its balls and head going Hmmmm sort of situation.

Con/negative number two is the inscrutably wierd interface with the miserably meagre customization documentation.
The interface of blender sux.
My personal opinion is this after years of production.
I should not have to make extra mouse clicks and submenu selections for things that I repeat.
I like to make my interfaces so that the things I need are there,
not what someone or everyone needs.
I like Silo because its minimal.
When I use Zbrush I have a super minimal customized interface (based on Cryid’s UI) that has lots of my stuff, and nothing I never use is visible.
That’s what I like in an interface.
OR, an interface that is skinnable and you can choose someone elses skin set that is closer to what you need, like winamp.

Negative 3?
supecrappy material browsing and mat layering
honestly, it needs a texture browser and simple color/normal/bump/spec drag n drop. I should come with some kind of material library. Games don’t use procedurals, and movies really shouldn’t either. Normal maps are the way to go. I don’t know, maybe it has what I’m looking for but I haven’t figured out its “Blender” way. I can use 20 other 3d apps. Material browser please…

But let’s give it a break because Blender has at least matured a bit.
Let’s box model something.
We take a subdivided box (4 subs)
It should always have at least 5 faces across or more to get good central detail later.
We use the mirror select, face/edge/point select, E to extrude selected faces, standard scale s/rot r/g move, loop select edges and loop select faces shift+alt+sel/mouse
use Tab to switch the 3d view between the edit and object modes, then
with just those tools and a multires modifier on the object you can tab back and forth between the base mesh and the sub-d and your final mesh can be subd-d further with the multires to sculpt detail with the sculpt mode.
The block below was turned into the basic winged ship design in about 25 minutes using the techinique just described.
If the Extrude function would work with the mirror select and if the mirror select would give more feedback then it would be as easy to work with as Silo is. It’s still fast and gives excellent results.

The sculpt mode is really excellent and once you set up a couple base sculpting meshes, its a lot like Zbrush and its GPL/free. It works well on older hardware and Zbrush is a 350meg+ executeable whereas Blender is 108.

These were done on Linux Mint 17.1

A plus for Lightwave users is that their old hypernurbs models can be opened in Blender and rendered with sub-d levels using multres. You have to activate the LWO import.

A plus for Lightwave users is that their old hypernurbs models can be opened in Blender and rendered with sub-d levels using multres. You have to activate the LWO import.

A further test here is the essential box modelling tool called Bridge
as you can see the hangar bay is a hole bridged between the front and back faces, and the connection of the hangar to the hull is a bridge between 6 polys on either sub object.

Blender doesn’t bridge with mirror symetry and combining objects into a single mesh is troublesome, you are best to build a multipart connected section like this then del the oppsite side at the point level and merg with a mirror of the half segment.
If Blender would get the bridge and suboject combine thing a bit better it would be ok. Perhaps its a layer combine function like lightwave.


If you need to make a spherical object like a head I suggest you DO NOT USE A SPHERE, use a sub-d cube, then you will have proper U and V EDGE LOOPS, with a sphere you get a weird cone at the poles

basesubd_sphere.blend2 basesubd_sphere.blend3
add a multires after you have applied 3 sub-d’s to the base cube and look how smooth it is!

From Slime to The Sublime Bumslime: The Evolution of Humanity according to Bumfuckerism

From Slime to The Sublime Bumslime:
The Evolution of Humanity according to Bumfuckerism

This is a WIP…I’m still Wipping it!!!!

So, let’s begin with the start of evolution and move forward.
I was in the park by the community centre,
watching the back of the organics place
because I sometimes find scraps of organic food to eat there amongst the throwaways
and two JW’s started setting up their stand

JW’s are very interesting puppet people
They are on this Christian Apologetics kick right now
trying to get young people into the flock
paying into the pyramid
so they got these really flashy pamphlets and portable signs
depicting scientific images of life and the solar system
with bizzare inferential texts that make like science
but completely ignore the core facts

This young JW is there.
I targeted her because the dude was a pink shirted flamer and
I don’t know, it was too much
so I start talking to the young 20’ish JW woman

An old Shaman Kenobi
and a “high priest of bumfuckerism” to boot

She believes that creation from slime over billions of years
is wrong
and that humans and dinosaurs did not co exist
There were no humans when the dinos were there

I explained to her that, in fact,
humans were around at the time of the dinosaurs
But we were about 4.5 ft max,
we had not yet become bipedal
we still spent 50% of our time in trees
did not use tools
and looked like a cross between a large racoon and a sloth
There were lots of them in the muck
Their dna and ours are linked totally
They didn’t wear clothes, make ropes or have fire
They had big titties.
Even the males.
I saw an artist’s rendition on wikipedia or something like that.

She doesn’t seem to understand the spans of TIME involved
she is only 20’ish and part of a brainwashing cult
unlike the brain freeing path of bumfuckerism

I explained to her that she would not exist
except that she had an unbroken line
of Ancestors
all the way back
to the Slime at the start of human time

If any of her ancestors had died before procreating
she would not exist
her ancestry traces all the way back
to the Slime.

She was quite shocked

Humans that walked upright always and used tools,
wore clothes, made ropes and ceramics
began forming villages around 300,000 years ago.
We didn’t do a lot of tools and huts before that
or clothes

The last dinosaurs died 65 MILLION years before that
when the the 3rd M.E.E. occurred
“Mass Extinction Event”
There are 3 in Earth history,
2 from volcanos
and one from a railway car sized asteroid

It was the asteroid (two within a day actually) that offed the dinosaurs
It hit in northwest mexico about a mile off the coast on a shallow coastline
and threw millions of tons of vaporized sand and rock into the air
The temperature worldwide dropped almost 20 degrees celsius globally overnite
and anything that couldn’t swim
or crawl into a hole
NOT just the dinosaurs
That’s why we know it killed them
because it killed 90% of the organisms and species on the planet

All the dinos died at once.

We know this because of something called STRATA
That’s the layers of rock we see looking at the side of a river bed
And at a certain point there is a steady layer of dinos and everything else
and then above that
no dinos
they were all toast,
except for lizards that could muck-sleep

WAAAAAY above that
with 65 million years of dirt between them
are the beginnings of humans building huts and flinting stone.
At 64 MILLION years after the last dinos died
we still had not as a species
mastered continuous fire
didn’t wear clothes
didn’t have rope
didn’t flint stone

Contrary to our childhood media programming
no Homo Sapien ever waved a spear at a T-Rex
Cave-people did not wear furs and hide from velociraptors
They didn’t have fire until a few hundred thousand years ago
They never cooked any dino steaks

The poor girl thought I was just trying to hit on her of course
and she didn’t believe a word of what I said
I wasn’t hitting on her really
I was just being humorous and prosyletic
she looked very gullible and opinionated
I thought she needed a Reality Check
and she did NOT look like a girl who was happy with her BUM
So that was a deal breaker…
I was definately NOT hitting on her
But an auntie JW flew in clutching her as I walked off
saying something about

“Where is God?
Between the Earth and Sun?
Between the Sun and Moon
Between Me and you?
Another plane of Existence?

But the little white man was chirping at us
it was time to cross over…
cross over
cross over

Silly games of children…
Telling stories about the past
interweaved with their present delusion

We move foward now to the present
WE all laughed at that nerd Santorum
being the Savage namesake for “lube and fecal matter”

But what of the Holy BumSlime?
300 million years of time that this rock has been spinning
and we’ve clutched its face and spun around it
evolving from slime to little sloth things
to tools and villages,
then towns and books and cars and bikes
and multimedia

And yet we seem to know so little about ourselves
and the Holy BumSlime that we create

Its quite amazing

If a human eats a bunch of fruit or granola before bed
has a good crap in the morning
and rinses out their butt with something

like, perhaps,
the hose left after chopping off a shower massage head?
or something designed for the purpose in a seedy store…
about an hour later

The Evolved Human Body of the adept Bumfucker
creates its own natural
completely clear and odorless
Slimy Lube!!!

It is an amazing miracle of Life
The evolution of humanity
from Slime
to this point of Holiness
Where We, ourselves
have become
The Creators of Slime
from ourselves.

It’s so amazing,
you would even think
it was designed that way…

Continuing in our exploration of evolution
as according to BumFuckerism
We progress within the Slime of our partner’s Holie-ness
finding the universal path there
common to all males and females of the species
it is the common path
and after we have cleansed ourselves
from the shame that the unenlightened ones have
about their bums
and then we finally progress

to where
we can actually
return to the Dirt
from whence we came
and do it Dirty

This is why Christians
and lower level adepts learning the Cleansing Path
like white sheets
but the higher level Adepts of BumFuckerism
prefer the Shower
Or just
Doing it Dirty.

The greatest compliment
in fact that a BumFucker’s partner can give them
is to shit themselves silly as their partner explores
The Holie Path
and/or piss on their toes.

This is The Holy Shit
of the Inner Circle of BumFuckerism

The second greatest compliment is to point their
Evolved Hole towards you and bring forth
the folds of the Sacred Red Rose.

Oh holie of holies!!!!

The inward quest of the Holie Path of BumFuckerism
will yield you more joy and mental freedom
Than any other methodology
It takes great Will and bravery
Enjoy the Path and the Roses
and you will find your way…


what canada really needs – Profit Sharing!

What canada really needs – Profit Sharing!

Canada is very wealthy.
We have BILLIONS in profit generated by the government.
The money doesn’t come from
the “taxes”

Which are supposed to pay for
like our non-existent painful healthcare
which is “too expensive”
for “people like that”

The money comes
in buckets
from the dead dinosaur blood
that everyone else is shooting each other for

Canadians just let them take it
and tighten our belts
while we watch our government
spend it all
on themselves
and their friends

Yet Canadians as a whole
are much poorer
graduates have a terrible wage-slave situation

I do not want to get government poverty serves
you pay them $20k to administer my $5k

The government wages war on the population
casts as many of them as possible
as lazy, or non conformist
and they get marked

like the fascists marked people
marked as “no good”

Our country makes so much profit
that after the public servants and ministers
have filled their pockets
with whatever they can defraud and milk from their budgets

They give the rest “Foreign Policy/AID/WAR”

To the

I have no Debt.
I made no Debt.
The Debt came from fighting fascism

Deposing Kings

They are still here
I owe no one

If Canada can pay money to the IMF and the World Bank
to pay this bogeyman Debt

Then the people of Canada
alive now
born here
who had no Debt
to the IMF
That’s what other thieving Kings did
not us

So if the thieving fascist Kings of Canada’s
New Millenium State
are going to pay 5 Billion here
5 billion there

to this “debt” which we never really accepted
we were enslaved to it before birth

Then we
the People of Canada who were born here
of any color or originating race
the people born in this land

Should be paid the same amount as these Banking monsters

If the Canadian government gives the international bank thieves
5 billion

The people of Canada,
anyone born here
perhaps we’ll say
anyone who has less than $1 Million in assets
We should ALL get a percentage

Whatever is paid OUT
To the Debt
To foreign “aid” scams

All of these money bilking shenanigans they play

Let them play them

As long as WE GET HALF
That would amount
believe it or not
to about $20,000 a year.
Per Canadian.


Not a tax break.
$2K a month in cash.

No Canadian born here would ever be suffering on welfare
degraded and beaten and bitched at by the Kings
and their “Social Service” bitches
Whipping everybody back to work
Demeaning and degrading and fucking us over

They would have no jobs
because there would not need to be any welfare

With $20,000 a year any Canadian could live well enough
and even be sure to have wheels and put aside a little
People could group together and get co-operative loans to start co-operative businesses
or buy property

They would spend it
it would go into the economy

But the Kings don’t want Canadians
to have property
they want them to lose everything

Because Canada is WEALTHY
And Canadians
are being


Canada’s Society of Cruelty and Suffering pt2: Torture and Murder Pay Well in the Canadian Version of ActionT4

I had a murder attempt on my life about 3 months ago. I was admitted late at night to St. Paul’s, Tortured for almost 4 hours with inadequate pain relief, and then, at 4 in the morning 3 laughing doctors wiith ties to the Dr. Brown I have told you about before, administered a large dose of ether to me. Ether isn’t used anymore because it causes strokes. I’ve had more than 20 serious strokes since then. I was coughing up white particulate for days. Oxygen is a clear face mask and doesn’t have a particulate, its clear. At 4 am the anesthetist, who was wearing a red and black sweatsuit with white trim and had a mustache and mostly bald head with glasses, put a small white thing with two prongs up my nose, I remember seeing the white streams of particulate going up my nose. I hacked up for 3 days. These are friends of the Dr. I a litigating against because he refused to refer me to a specialist and has denied I am intersex. This is Action T4 genocide of the Intersex in action here in Gregor’s fine “inclusive” city, a block from where the nazi dykes and happy fags have their big queer parade that they happily suck fascist d1ck for. ———- Forwarded message ———- From: christuusgnosis . <christopher.don.taylor@gmail.com> Date: Thu, Oct 30, 2014 at 1:55 PM Subject: Customer Care appointment To: jsilver@providencehealth.bc.ca Hello Ms. Silver I was told you were the person to contact. approximately 2 months ago I was in your emergency ward at St. Paul’s There are some issues with my care at that time. is my carecard number My name is Christopher Don Taylor and my SIN is ……………… I was brought to emergency about midnight. I will need an appointment with you or one of your staff next week please. Use email to arrange it with me. I will require the following items from you or them: the names of: The anaesthetist, the two attending doctors, the attending intern, and the two nurses attendant at the application of the anaesthetic. I will also require that youmake copies of the emergency room video recordings for the Police Department. An officer will contact you after our original meeting. I will need a list of what was done to me, as recorded by your staff, as as well I will need to know what kind of anaesthetic tracking system you have and a verification of the anaesthetic I was given. I was given a high dose of ETHER in your emergency ward. I know that it was ether as I saw the white granules flying up my nose and I hacked up white particulate for 3 days after. You may be able to mitigate your liability somewhat in that the doctors were acting upon the prompting and advice of a Dr. Ross Brown Dr. Brown and I will be commencing litigation this year that’s why I was attacked in your ward with ether. You may find on my health file, references to delusion or schizophrenia. However, I was assessed in your own psych unit twice and was release after being told I had no mental health problems other than depression. I did not go there willingly I was taken there after another of Dr. Brown’s accomplices committed Abuse of Process and ordered a mental health seizure. You would be wise to take me very seriously. I have a 9 page resume, and my last paid position was as an Information Technology professional with the Supreme Court of BC. I will commence civil actions shortly after our meeting, and we can discuss mediation after that. As well I am filing a police report as Attempted Murder and Assault Causing Bodily Harm. Thank you for your attention to this matter — …………. Christopher Taylor Swift​ ——————————————————————– Kaba, Sutinder [PH] <Sutinder.Kaba@vch.ca> 10/31/14 to me Hello Christopher, This email is to confirm I am in receipt of your complaint. I believe the best place to start is for you to let me know what your specific complaint is and what you would like to see happen. We can then discuss next steps. We can do this by email or you may want to call me. My number is listed below and I am here Monday-Friday 8:30-4:30. Please leave a message if you get my voice mail and I can call you back. Thank you Sutinder Kaba MSW Patient Relations Patient Care Quality Office Providence Health Care 604-806-8284 We hope this addresses your concern and that you are satisfied with our response to your complaint. If you are not satisfied with the response and wish and independent review, you have the option to contact the Patient Care Quality Review Board PO Box 9643 Victoria, BC V8W 9P1; Tel: 1-866-952-2448; Fax: 250-952-2428 Email: contact@patientcarequalityreviewboard.ca; Web: http://www.patientcarequalityreviewboard.ca ———————————————————————————- christuusgnosis . <christopher.don.taylor@gmail.com> 11/3/14 to Sutinder Specific complaint? Attempted murder. I was given ether. Attempted MURDER. That is my COMPLAINT. —————————————————————————— Kaba, Sutinder [PH] <Sutinder.Kaba@vch.ca> Attachments11/5/14 to me Hello Mr. Taylor, In response to your complaint I reviewed your records. I hope the following information will address your concerns: You were brought in to emergency at St. Paul’s hospital on June 11, 2014 at 2:02am. You presented with a large right inguinal hernia. It appeared to have increased in size and pain over the previous day according to what you reported to the triage nurse. The emergency room physician attending to you was Dr. Johnathan Theoret. He was unsuccessful in manually reducing the hernia and you appeared to be in much pain. Dr. Theoret then referred you to be seen by Dr. Terry Phang from General Surgery for a consult. Dr. Phang determined that your hernia was too painful to be examined without sedation. Dr. Phang consulted with Dr. Theoret and a plan was made for you to be put under conscious sedation to manage your pain in order to reduce the hernia. Dr. John Ward used intravenous propofol for the sedation. After sedation was achieved, manual reduction of the hernia was performed successfully by Dr. Farhana Shariff. You were never given ether. No other medications other than propofol was administered to you. You were discharged with approval at 6:56 am the same day. You were advised that you will require future surgical management for the ongoing inguinal hernia. You were referred to Dr. Sam Wiseman, General Surgery for follow up. We can not provide videos of your visit because there are no videos of the patient care areas. We can explain this to the police if they contact us. We do not provide names of staff at this juncture. They are provided if litigation is initiated. We do not have a “anesthetic tracking system” but all medications are recorded in your chart. You have the right to request your chart (medical records) from our hospital. Let me know if you would like to request your medical records. I have attached the required form. Please complete it and fax, mail or drop it off directly to the Medical Records Department. You can also email back to me and I will make sure it gets to the right department. Mr. Taylor, I hope you find this information helpful. if for any reason, you are not satisfied with our response, please contact the Patient Care Review Board. Their contact information is listed below. Regards, Sutinder Kaba MSW Patient Relations Patient Care Quality Office Providence Health Care 604-806-8284 ————————————————– christuusgnosis . <christopher.don.taylor@gmail.com> 11/14/14 to Sutinder I was definately given ETHER Sutinder. Oxygen does not have a white precipitate. A small white nasal device was placed under my nose by the anaesthetist who was wearing a red white and black jumpsuit. I clearly looked down and saw white precipitate going into my nostrils. I hacked up white precipitate for the next 3 days and had about a dozen strokes over the next week. There. will definately be litigation. Absolutely. I will have the opportunity to question and cross examine all involved staff. I was given ether at the request of Dr. Brown from VGH who committed LIBEL by putting on my records that I had been “violent” at VGH, which I never ever have been. The libel is because Dr. Brown understands clearly that he is liable for over $500k in a negligence lawsuit. Your Doctors contacted Dr. Brown and he instructed them to give me ether for the purpose of initiating these strokes. I guess we will be going to the Supreme Court now Stinder. You should have been more conscious of your duty of care to investigate further. All email and phone records can be subpoenaed. I bet I can locate a call from Dr. Brown to someone in your staff at that time. You may be found negligent later, Sutinder, once everything comes out. ———————————————————- christuusgnosis . <christopher.don.taylor@gmail.com> 11/26/14 to Sutinder Thank you Sutinder. Please consider that as of this moment you are an accessory after the fact to attempted murder. You can actually get a criminal charge arising out of your negligence to your duty of care. You will be named personally as a defendent. Please retain a personal lawyer immediately. There. Believe or do not.

Doomed to second place for lack of openvisualization. Why Linux needs a decent game engine…

I have lots of other things I really should be doing.
Preparing litigation and stuff.
But I have had a long term project for many years
and I am starting to see the means of accomplishing it.

Part of the reason it has taken me so long is my aversion to programming.
The thing about it is, you can read and even adjust/fix other people’s work if it is commented well, and if you work with numerous similar systems, over time you get to understand common things like declaring variables, including headers and other libraries, linking, referencing, entity definition, and the like. You can do a lot of bashing without reading math, just treating math as blocks that represent a calculation regarding a higher function, which you can reference with an understandable $_string of text or a label/definition.

For many years I was a network administrator and application specialist. I don’t do that anymore because I have no car or phone or internet. And I really always hated getting $35K to do the work for a numbnuts that was not able do the necessary intricate work, while he sat in a better chair with a better laptop and a better car and made $100K. Done. Hire some ppl direct from Bombay or get a bunch of $0/hr practicum students, thank you very much. I’m retired.

I can’t really lift a computer anyway these days.
I haven’t been able to for a long time except the 3 times a year I move my own or get an opportunity to upgrade them. Which I recently did.

I had 3 pentium 4 machines and and a celeron laptop B4, now I have 2 core 2 duo’s and a sempron with the celery still. You were really uninterested in knowing that.
I can tell.


My Grand Mission.

I have a few actually, but I don’t have them numbered so we’ll call this

The Christuus Gnosis Grand Linux Gaming Vision

to be specific.

Microsoft works good

and we, as geeks, like games.
And games work on windows.

Really cool games.
Lots of them.

Linux was good for servers.
That’s where it was born.

On university science nerd computers for people who wanted to do bizarre shit like calculate rocket science or control particle smasher gizmos. Or file/web server administrators.

It had a sucky desktop for years.
Because, really
for about a decade
anyone who was running a nix server
had a very ugly CDE-X interface or none
and they did a lot of terminal bashing because the CDE was so clunky.
Drag and drop was rare on a linux machine for a very long time.
Linux machines rarely played music.
I remember many machines,
doing their thing
there was no media player on them
only text.
Possibly a beep.
You didn’t double click a program you typed its NAME.

Now there are a number of good “window managers” for linux and they’ve emulated the bloat and bling of Micro$hit to the max. Modern linux takes advantage of modern graphics cards and connects up well with wifi and audio cards.

I must admit, Compiz is faster than Aero.

unless you have a futuristic space machine rig
something that can handle a sluggish wine emulation layer.

you can’t play good GAMES in linux.

Which is dumb.

Because Linux is about trim, not bloat.
That’s always been the l33t geek thing
avoiding the Micro$hit bloat

That and NSA carnivore/echelon backdoors built into closed source OS’s…

Oh, that pesky Patriot Act and its twin eh?

A linux machine, with its software,
if you are so inclined,
can be compiled by a set of scripts,
and you can, in fact
peruse every line

if that’s what you do for shit’s and giggles.

Or security.

You can read every line of what creates each part of the os and its associated applications or you trust a repository.
But even the files from the repository can be scrutinuzed or rebuilt from c/c++ text source.

You can’t do that with Apple/Skynet or Micro$hit.

You get extra E.T. gnomes that are invisible and orifices you didn’t know you had.
IPV6 pings galore disabling your IPV4 subnet protection and honing in with a google maps 3d overlay of your position within 300 metres.

its so simple and beautiful…
Did you know you can do that yourself?

Back to the Game Engine Vision.

Linux can run on older hardware. Linux has OpenGL(3D), OpenAL(Sound), OpenSDL(input) etc.

Much of the world is actually still using pentium technology.
There are cities in the world with internet cafes where 200 people are sharing a 98k PHONE MODEM.
Most of them run Linux of some kind or hacked Micro$hit.

Africa, malaysia, india, the boonies of russia, the remote or poor places of the world
where people don’t throw out a ten year old computer,
they blow out the dust and replace a couple things
and keep it going
because it has value
as a tool to learn and access knowledge, communicate, and


Let’s take my piece of crap celery laptop here.

Celeron 1.8 with 512 megs of ram and a 64 meg intel integrated video taking 64 megs of my system ram.

Yuck, you say.
I say yuck too.
I’ve lugged its carcass a lot of places and downloaded everything necessary to set up a half dozen other machines over 2 years.
At first it lasted 30 sec with the battery. I’ve brought the unplugged life up to 25 minutes.

I am accepting any better rides.
Even fractionally better.

So this crappy celery with WindBlowsXP
and all the micro$hit fx cranked off
could run the following commercial games well enough to play them through a number of times:

GTA-Vice City
Deus Ex 2: Invisible War, Battlefield 2, Project IGI
Age of empires/Empire Earth/Starcraft/
Planescape Torment/Baldur’s Gate

These games I played and also extensively MODDED the game graphics files using the celery in XP:

Sins of a Solar Empire
Quake 1, 2, 3
Unreal Tournament 2004
Half-Life 1/Opposing Force/Blue Shift with “high def” mods
Far Cry 1
Deus Ex + Mods/high def packs
System Shock 2

The celery runs 3DS MAX 9, Softimage 6, ModTool 6 and 7, 3d-Coat, Zbrush, Silo, Lightwave, Maya, the UT2k4 editor, the DX and HL1 editors, photoshop 7, etc.

And I can mod those games.
In WinBlows XP pro.

Which is no longer on the laptop
it now has mint

If linux is NOT bloated,
and has ADEQUATE audio/video driver support
and open gl
it SHOULD be able to play these games,
or games of their complexity
and mod the files

on a celery.

On a piece of crap that some kid somewhere somehow managed to get linux onto, it should run these old games or have compareable linux versions in a moddable form.

In 20 years of watching the Linux desktop evolve
from the server roots of linux
where no one ever would install X,
to the bling of compiz,

we haven’t got the basic thing that wets a geeks pants right.

We, as geeks who use linux and see it’s nascent potential as a production environment for GPL and commercial games. We have had no good engine.
We haven’t got it Right.

Most of a linux distro is really crap.

The bloat.

If you install debian using apt and build a system by hand over a couple days you can actually have a fully working linux desktop with full open gl, audio and video support, and a couple base apps including a bare game engine.

And it can weigh in at 500 megs.
Anything over 800 megs
is the bloat

Now, I like the mdm login themes and the icons and the little bit of bling in modern linux.
A windows 7 install is 8 gigs at base so the 2 G base of mint/debian/ubuntu is ok.

But the core install doesn’t have a good basic 3d engine.
Just the support for the open gl.
In the last few years Open Arena and Xonotic were well recieved,
but they are based on previous technology in 3D.
They came from the Quake 3 code by IdTech.
Which Carmack made GPL.

That technology did not support normal mapping, or quality translucency. It had poor shadows and no reflections. There was no basic ogl effects like heat haze.

These things are important.
Especially the normal maps.

In gaming technology the ability to use normal maps on a surface allows the designer to use extremely simple geometry and overlay exceptional detail using a special image. The image is at least 20 times faster to process than computing the extra detail as mesh geometry would be. The fine details catch and cast shadows and render quickly.

I went on at length about this in other articles you can read.




The Vision.

A DECADE+ ago.

A long time ago.

The original programmer of the highly successful and groundbreaking 3D Quake series, John Carmack

released the next generation of his engine,
for the commercial release of Doom 3.
It was followed by Prey and Quake 4.

Like his previous games, the files and entity definition system, the guis, localizations, pda’s, everything basically, was open to be modded by graphic designers or programmers. You could extract all the game assets and modify them, creating mods with different textures, npc, monsters, gui surfaces, objectives, etc.

The engine supported normal maps, bump maps, specular maps, additive glow maps, flexible entity/material definitions, interactive gui materials that could be applied to meshes made in a 3D program. Basic open gl 1.3 shaders were included as well as advanced ones.

So the engine, with smaller levels and maps than the commercial ppl made,
will run on almost anything, and show these effects and materials.

Like this celery.

With XP at 800×600 and the textures fixed on DDS I can run Doom 3, Prey, and Quake 4 on my celery and make a basic large room with some stuff in the editor, I can bsp it and run it.

On the celery.
With XP.

Not linux yet.
That’s what we’re trying to achieve.

With my Plan.
The Vision.

The Grand Vision.

About 5 years after the original release of Doom 3
the game code was made GPL by Carmack.
And a Linux port appeared on the idtech servers.
Very few people got it to run.
But the code was made available.

But then,

ipads, and androids,
steam and udk,
apps and iphones and itunes
deluged us and deluded us

they distracted everyone
and they would rather use their
unlimited bandwidth
to download the bloated UDK
that skims 20% of your profits
or steam
that chokes offline every 2 months
all encrypted

So the media and gadget satiated geeks

abandoned the Holy Code
this dark shadowy gift
that was given to everyone
by our savior


There are 4 main “forks” of the Doom 3 code for linux.

All can be cross compiled to make win32/64 binaries and linux 32/64 bit binaries.

None of them has a binary, except the massive Dark Mod.

A binary is the executeable of the game engine that will run the original game.

Specific dedicated humans who go through a COMPLEX series of steps
can install the necessary tools and dev headers and compile the code for their machine or cross compile it.

These are not normal people.

They really are not.

The IdTech documentation
is absolutely lame to the point of obscure ridiculousness.
Doom 3, Quake 4, and Prey are Completely moddable.
Everything can be modified.

Without programming anything,

just creating different entities, materials, guis, localizations, pda’s, models, maps, DEFINITIONS, an entire game can be created. Every interface can be modified, even the main game gui. Without recompiling.

Just extract locate modify/add test.

To figure that out,
and how…
you had to actually

Figure it out.

Because the idtech documentation for each of the things listed above was 2 pages of text or less.

None of it is hard to do, all of it is completely effective,
but the documentation is non existent,

and people can drag and drop into UDK or Valve and have gigabytes of developer documentation.

This is the key for us slim and trim linux geeks though.

A UDK or Valve Source game takes almost 1G of space for the engine and its libraries.
That’s before you’ve added a single model, gui, or map.

In comparison.

The main executeable of Doom3/Quake4/Prey is about 32 megs. In Windows, Linux, Mac, and yes even Android, the Doom 3 executeable will run and then you have the game assets and definitions in the folders or .pk4 files that it pulls from.

But the core engine is 32 megs.

And it does the normal maps, bumps, shadows, volumetrics, etc.

It can be configured to use opengl 4 shader level 2+
or it can fall-back or be set
to run perfectly fine with open gl 1.3

So unlike UDK or Valve
it will run on a NON-SHADER LEVEL 2 card.

And it will run well, because it doesn’t have bloat.

Up until now only a few people have taken up the shadowy torch of Doom.

There was a guy named Timo who took up the gpl code and cleaned it up a bit.

Then there was a fork called iodoom3,

but that sort of dissolved into The Dark Mod,

which runs on Linux but is not able to run Doom3, Quake 4, or Prey, and has completely different game mechanics than those games as it is based on Thief. It is not lit the same either. And its 2G. It doesn’t like the celery. Too many npc’s in the mission areas. It chugs on small demo levels. Like, 12 frames per second. I like the work they did, but it’s too far from where I am going with the Vision.

RBDoom is good, but only works for shader level 2 cards. If it get upgraded with a OGL 1.3 dx9 fallback or option set I may fork it instead of Dhewm.

But it doesn’t so at the moment I decided in my Vision that I needed a wider audience for the great visualizations and games that I want to make. Shader level 1 OGL 1.3 is fine and that’s what I am going to stick to.
Because of that kid in the boonies who dragged a piece of crap home and is trying to play a simple game on ancient hardware.

So we come to Dhem 3 and RBdoom which will compile.

Which I proclaim a “fork” of probably Dhem unless like I said I can get the Rbdoom to be less strict about cards and files. I thinks its based on msvc so, unlike Dhewm its not totally open source and is using windows dlls.

They are 64 bit cross compileable and linked up to the standard open souce libs, headers, and codecs in use for linux.

Neither are working for me yet.
I have some problems with the g++ compiler setup in Mintx64.

But I will get it.

I believe my vision is almost attainable. I have, after 10 years, begun to understand how its laid out and what all the main variables and declarations represent.

I had to give it a name. My fork is called “The Shadow Game Engine”.

Dhem 3 or RBdoom, one I will fork and my intentions for the fork are to follow in the Project Definition Document outlined below.

I do not know Software Project Management systems in use like git. I don’t understand them because I am not a programmer in a group of programmers, I am a single evolved homo sapien with some lame-ass cpu’s that they are bashing and hooting on.

I did study Project Management though.

You start a project like this
with a plan…
A Project Definition Document.

The Plan for the Christuus Gnosis Grand Linux Gaming Vision in which the Shadow Game Engine emerges as a separate FORK unto itself:

1. Cd/serial Check/pk4 check/dll check removal.

The games are on GOG for 6 bux. These checks are impediments to modding and use and aren’t necessary anymore. They also take cpu cycles. If the engine sees the files it needs to run the gui and load up it should just do so and get on with it immediately.

2. I would eventually like to have the main executeable able to play the 3 commercial games as well as the Shadow Game Engine “Base Asset Set”. I was thinking a single base engine with a separate library file for each game that you want to work with in the engine that has a map conversion, entity or syntax conversion, blah blah. The engine should be able to display any 3d scene based on additive or subtractive BSP/enclosed space methodologies. Most games, even non idtech ones can display at blistering non emulative speeds with the engine. Perhaps their orientation is different or unit system or something, but when they ask the engine to draw the scene they all give out a similiar kind of data that can be piped to the engine through a quick reference library.

3. The Shadow Game Engine “Base Asset Set” which would be similiar to the basic udk/templates for a room/landscape etc. Including a base main gui and base map/hands/npc/gun/items.

I would also like to have some whimsical templates, like nintendo-ish 3D platformer or something with big mushrooms and little creatures.


A cleaned up set of localization strings as well, since the idtech ones are all over the place. And a method of creating and modifying the the localization table of the current base on the fly for games that need to label a lot of things, like adventures with inventories.

The localization strings or similiar string tables are fast ways to change whole sets of dialogue options in a conversation system.

4. Multiplayer co-operative mode.

5. Co-operative or single player RPG asset set/database configuration.

I want to add the game mechanics that you can see in Project EDEN, The Thing or Half – Life: Decay, or even the flat multi npc intricacies of Baldurs Gate and Planescape.

Where the player has to take control of different members of the party and the other members follow or stay.

Or where certain characters have to be used to do things because they have the skills tools or abilities..

The engine has good ai.

I was considering the integration of Mysql or sqlite into the game engine to allow relational database sets and multi-user relational database sets instead of simple flat files.

The original games were basically military simulations that trickled down into the entertainment media after newer tech was adopted, they didn’t need extensive database management of items/quests/skills/etc that an RPG or adventure needs.

With a relational database, when a player lets say, finds a pda or downloads stuff from a computer it can actually be a whole set of files, ebooks, etc.

We think of books and text as aids in our FPS twitchlust, but I would like to make it so that books and pda’s and files on pda’s were actually readable and part of the story or mystery. There are people who would read 200 project gutenberg text files of books if each book was easily readable once found and the information was central to their understanding the mystery or plot.

Emails, and text files, the detective aspect of going through things to advance knowledge, the conceptualization of needing to find specific books to learn specific things and gain specific abilities. Or diagrams, or reference manuals. But make them real, not just a paragraph representing a book, but the book itself and emails referencing sections.

You need to get the nuclear particle accelerator smashing something to stop the alien invasion?
You should actually have to find the 9 physics/electrics/magnetics books. And if you look through them
They are real books, 300+ pages long with proper inline imgs.
Instead of just simple snippets to advance a plot, a desk, bookshelf, or computer can have mp3’s, zipped files with different formats, videos, ebooks, emails, docs, essays, etc.
Instead of spend 30 seconds zipping through a room after mowing down the inhabitants we could spend an hour or so in a room looking though stuff, and enjoying a small room with really detailed textures and layout.

I know this concept may be hard for some people.

I actually like slow games where you walk around and think like Myst, and games like Planescape and Baldur’s gate that you can play with absolutely no sound and never touching your keyboard except to hit the spacebar.

Just clicking, exploring and reading.
In RealMyst3D there were only the 7 ages.
I spent 3 months on that.
Just wandering around each little island looking for clues
MILLIONS of people played it
Not a single gun

Games where you have to take NOTES.
Not auto generated notes, but you actually had to scribble things,
make a good open journal with personal notes along with the quest ones.
I don’t think people have stopped wanting that, the dazzle of supergraphics is gone and content is actually beginning to resurface. I hope.

The 3d pipeline can give us so much more realism to make these stories breathe, having the player view of the hands, and maybe tools is a step up from the armless adventurer or the pixel hunt of previous adventure games, but we can do more with it and empower others to do the same with good flexible basics to start with. But once we accomplish that, maybe we can focus on some stories instead of deathmatch twitchfests and nuclear survivor mad max epics(both of which I enjoy).
Moving the core of my own game designs from a military focus and into an explorational one is a big thing for me, as a concentrated part of my Scope.
I don’t intend to remove anything, but my own design focus is away from combat oriented game mechanics, and more aimed at cerebral stimulation and advanced thought.
Games can be intricate and interesting. Mostly they are eye candy these days. A balance would be good.

6. Blender integration – Tweaking the blender -> idtech pipeline, and tweaking the blender interface to make a more game or game animation focused mode for it. It might even be possible to use Shadow as the blender game engine runtime, as in Gamekit.

Blender out of the box is too render-oriented, which is not useful in any way for MD5 modelling/boning or BSP Map block editing. But it CAN BE. It has huge amounts of wasted screenspace in its interface, and everything is thrown in with the kitchen sink and the baby too. Its as complex as Maya or Softimage and more obscure.

You can create empty interfaces and pass custom commands to Blender

All commands in Blender are python strings and updating/changing variables by passing them to the python interpreter.

So blend can be made like a minimalist modeler such as Silo or Lightwave Modeler. With a more limited and select set of tools for modeling that has a subdivision mode similiar to the idtech built in modes and displays all the textures as the engine would.

Have a separate toolset/window/layer mode for texturing that leaves out non game engine layers and focuses on the things necessary to texture a model for the engine.

Remove all the extra things from the interface and create discrete focused ones for this task. Create a new interface if necessary.

When I used to box-model spaceships in Lightwave I basically used approximately 12 tools total and 90% of my work was with 3 tools and the spatial manipulation of points/polys. I don’t need to create all the primitives of standard blender and don’t need any of the render tools.

They don’t need to be removed, Blender is not even 50 megs, but it needs a specialized interface to become useable in a game production environment pipeline for this task and with this engine and system.

Blender has a way of adding other script libraries as well which you can see in the gamekit momo blend

I really do believe that Shadow could be used as Gamekit and even somehow I think it might be possible to plug the idtech engine into the 3D view. To see the normal mapping/bump, additive, specular changed on the fly, but a small engine render window like FPrime would work.

Have a specific layout and toolset for boning and simple animations rooted to an origin MD5 system for characters.

I think that Blender has a texture painting mode that could be tweaked into allowing bump/nmapping painting and a bodypaint style or simplified 3D-Coat workflow.

It might be possible to pull the blender into the engine like the editor, or pull the editor to a separate .exe and merge it into a modified blender.

Also, making an editor style mode for manipulating textured BSP blocks, a way of placing static meshes/ lights/entities and seeing them in Blender as in the editor.

Can Blender be made to open a Map completely and make one?

Without fudging the display of statics and entities?

MD5 is very similiar to LWO.

For those of you who are interested in using blender with MD5
This is the best exporter/importer I have found that works with 2.6 and 2.7, which have a different python than 2.5 and under.



I would like to make a spacebar plugin like maya, but game specific, where it would give access to common prefab sets, views, tools, entities, settings and items.

7. Adding support for more 3D formats: OBJ specifically, along with smoothing groups and multiple uv sets.

I would really like 3D-Coat and zbrush integration into the pipeline, perhaps through the LWO format which is directly translateable into MD5. Adding support for silo would broaden the user base as it is used a lot for base modelling in production.

Unfortunately, Silo can make bad meshes sometimes. They look great, but the Uv goes off and needs fine tuning.

8. Absolutely basic opengl mode that will work on anything. Option for advanced gl and fx.

Think of that kid somewhere who managed to get a computer home. Even if they don’t have a hard drive, if they have a key and a live distro with Shadow they can ignore the shittiness and tell their story.

We empower them to communicate by giving them an adequate toolset for communication.

9. Making the editor WORK.

Currently it was built with Micro$hit widgets. I would like to switch it to gtk or qt OR I believe that it is possible with Carmack’s windowing system to build the gui of the editor completely within the gui system off the engine, so it could actually be a SKINNABLE interface.

It should be capable of displaying entities as meshes with idles. The original Hammer for half life 1 could in xp.

Honestly, with a small room with a couple items and a 128 meg card the editor should be able to run in render mode in the viewport. On linux. With an NPC idle animation. It should do a small cinematic with 3 characters moving talking, and not much flashiness, on almost anything. Lets start from there instead of over the top cinematics like action flicks.

The Half life one and DX1 editors could show a dozen monsters and npc’s with basic lighting on a P4. So can this engine, we just need to see the usefullness of that as a broader player/modder base.

People will make levels that are smaller and tighter if necessary. Just because idtech could make stuff a couple miles long with hundreds of monsters doesn’t mean we need to for our game stories.
Proper VIS blocking and BSP construction let’s the engine do very complex scenes with minimal hardware if shaders are used frugally and textures are compressed right. Simply making sure that any surface is only hit by 2 lights max can yield excellent framerates.

The editor needs to be simplified and modularized for many projects, like the right click menu, it needs to be more flexibly organizable.

Certain basic things like navigation in the editor need an optional mode that emulates other 3D programs really.

The Alt key is used a lot in 3D and it needs to be unmapped in most linux systems from the “move window” command.

10. Adjust GUI editor to allow the importing of HTML with basic javascipt modules. Button interfaces with hover overs and other imagemapping techniques can all go zoom into a gui as long as the assets are rooted under base. Then we could use web design techniques and applications to create gui bases swiftly without resorting to proprietary flash.

11. Quick subdivision and basic profile occlusion. I don’t know if this can be done. I certainly can’t do the math. The engine is gorgeous, BUT, there are no razor sharp lines anywhere in the world. Every edge other than a knife is rounded in some way. Even a knife is. It needs fixing. The MD5 has a normal and bump applied in sync with the color/ specular texture, this should be used for a simple edge occlusion on the md5s combined with a quick form of sudivision so the organics don’t have polygon profiles and edges. There are organic piles with polyline glints, that is so wrong and if you don’t go for a separate occlusion map it is doable, I believe, by making all edges into a superquick sub-d curve with an exge extrusion based on the nmap and the bump map.

Perhaps I am understating the math but I believe this can be accomplished. Like FAST, without LAG. No Razor edges. Corners of rooms in reality don’t even have razor edges, how do we fix corner bsp blocks creating pure sharp edges, it has to become a global setting in the gl render. All corners have a slight curvature, layers of paint or edgings. The cubes need edge embellishing to stop being cubes.

Here are two pictures of the bad thing I am refering too.:

Must get pics.

12. Adjustable content paths. If the same executeable on linux can play any of the 3 commercial games and separate games modded off the base Shadow Game Template base folders, then the executeable should actually be able to sit by itself with a couple of libraries and point with a gui to any mounted folder on a windows mac or linux partition that has the files, either extracted or in pk4/zip format.

13. It should load all previous Idtech formats. So all the bots and skins and animations and character meshes and levels of Quake 1-3 will load and play.

Those entities should be available for modders to add to their own levels. With the new engine, the original skins of quake 1-3 could have an extra normal, bump, specular and additive map applied with multiple uv sets if necessary.

I don’t mean converting the old levels, I mean making the engine just read them and run them, an on the fly translation. A Q1 Grunt or whatever those leaping stabby monsters were, with a quadrupled texture at 32bit png, and a normal map applied would actually look good.

All the levels would look great and there are already hi def texture mods for these games.

14. I would like to have adapters for System Shock 2, Deus Ex 1, and Half life 1. Each of these engines is less than 20 meg or even 10. The levels are small. The Shadow Game Engine based on Idtech4 can be adjusted to accomodate the other systems. The RPG inventory elements of these two games needs to be incorporated into the Shadow game engine as a template anyway, with skills/nan/aug/mod/tech trees. I also really would like to use the engine on Morrowind ala OpenMorrowind and oblivion as well as these games have very larger modder bases and work on low end machines.

If you add support for the original unreal engine models and maps then there are a couple hundred monsters that were modified by people for the original UT. That’s a massive set of base assets ppl can use as npc’s or enemy AI..

Imagine playing System Shock 2, with normal mapped textures, proper lighting and shadows, normal mapped monsters, and you could make a swap option that would swap in various doom monsters in place of the SS2 ones, since they are zombies mostly too. Such a cool idea. The same levels, the same meshes, the same objectives and everything, inventory, people will actually be interested in adding their asset packs. There are at least 3 major modders who have high res System Shock 2 models in maya form with normal mapping. Export them to MD5 and plug them in.

If I could get it to run RealMyst3D I would faint.

Deus Ex and System Shock 2 are two prime examples of fantastic games with great storylines that you could not get a young person today to play because of the graphics and “every monster looks the same” problem.

The Shadow engine could simply play the original games with an added set of normal and higher res texture maps and a game that looks blocky would suddenly have detail and proper shadows without modifying the original game files unless its to make an out of view no vis box that follows the character outside in a large map, but even so, with the polycounts of these games they should play fine with some simple fixes.

These games had such small levels they would not be a problem to display and even swap out other monsters in other formats and ai at the same spawn points.

I really need to add a plug about Deus Ex 2.
Invisible War was really an excellent sequel to DX.
It is really well laid out, with lots of cool reuse of locations.
The weapons, mods, bots, are great. It can be played in many ways.
But the engine it was released with is very flat, and so are its shadows. The assets of the game itself have normal maps but it doesn’t really show. Just swapping it into a new engine with better shadows and a texture pack would make it and DX1 playable for a new generation used to built in xbox normal mapping.

Why remake a good thing?
It’s built well,
Just give it a new engine!!

15. Include all libraries and dependencies for play in the base package.
Every dependency. Keep them in the executeable system folder.

16. A separate Shadow Game Engine Dev pack. The graphic designer type modders can go nutz out of the gate, but for the ones that want to program the engine I would like to eventually create an absolutely complete game compiling package. Include an IDE and the g++ compiler and ALL DEV headers. Do not install them in /usr/whatever install them in the SRC folder and have everything linked inside the SRC folder. One script or gui should give you access to open the IDE and compile. Whether the user has their machine setup should be irrelevant. Everything should be there under source, IDE/Compiler/baselibs/core startup assets for the base gui’s and a simple 20 ft cube map with the player hands and a light. It should make both 32 and 64 bit lin .exe’s from either architecture. Without having to apt get anything. Extract peruse compile and run without a single E.T. phone home call. A second package will later appear, much larger, that cross compiles win 32/64, Lin 32/64, Mac OSX, Iphone compatible, and Android, from one interface, in a batch.
The assets should work in all the executeables with a batch DDS convert of large base TGA/PNG files for older machines or smaller devices.

17. EPS, SVG and AI support. Guis can be really small and beautifully scale at all resolutions.
Eps files can have embedded text and image layers. I think .ai libs exist for linux too already. They are versatile formats. Increase PNG/DDS support. DDS convert gui embedded. Inkscape native format would actually be usefull too. But EPS really is the vector standard. Objects inside an eps can be animated like layers.

18. Open GL and HTML in the gui editor and some fixing up of the gui editor.

As I look at this I realize I can do that already, I just need to build a gui to place and rotate, but if you look at the main menu of D3 the sphere is ogl, and I was able to replace it with another object spinning slowly.

Normal mapped lighting of textures in the gui.

If gui materials can have normal maps applied then the interface on the gui can have depth and shade and textural detail.

In Prey, some of the gui layers float in space out and up. make controls for spacial positioning/scale/rot/opacity in Z and allow these fields to animate. Make animation controls in the gui editor for base timelines.

Have lights in the gui editor

HTML import with jscript so that light effects can be tested as the gui’s are lit within the game environment. So every GUI doesn’t have to glow emmisively it can be lit with direct lights as a material. And have Jscript activity like rollover states. Easily made in a wsywig editor or web-ready button making rollover script like we’ve done for years.

I actually would like to really focus on a linux built in alternative to Flash. I think the gui editor can have a simple timeline system built in and a lot of repetitive actions and things that are constantly used can be grouped into better toolsets and organization.

19. Inventory/Tech/skill/ability/RPG/Adventure templates. An alliance/faction/group system. A conversation system with simple conversation tree interface.

Examples are Deus Ex, Shadowrunner, Fallout, System Shock 2, Morrowind…

I would like to have different view mode templates like The Deus Ex Series and the Splinter Cell series, as well as a vision mode template like the Spiritwalk in Prey which alters map layout. Another example of that is Soul Reaver 2. OMG SR2 would look so great in idtech 4. Wow. So nice…

Vehicle templates with Vehicle inventory.
Lot’s of vehicles. A vehicle modding base set for modders. Gui for the mechanics and custom torque/tension/etc definitions.

20. Adapt a 3rd person mode for the engine, see if games like Generals or Empire Earth or Neverwinter Nights will be playable without moddifying their original files, just maybe adding texture packs with Nmaps.

Try going:
at the prompt (crtl-alt-~)
in doom 3 prey or quake 4 after you have a level loaded
and fly around.

Its totally doable.

21. More vid/aud codec support. Allow various mkv mp4 whatever to play in gui’s and pda’s.
The designer will compress them.

22. Allow the user to choose a separate music folder for each game or profile, so when they play a game they have certain tracks they like, or perhaps allow them to associate a standard music playlist. People listen to music as they play. Controls in the game for adjusting user audio. Like GTA with its radio stations and mp3 folder.

24. Easy setup of multiplayer servers. Completely open. Anyone with the server password or right mac address can connect. Let everyone with the same packs play together. make it really easy for home users to play multiplayer or cooperative adventure missions. Ipods playing with androids playing with lin and win boxes and macs. Everybody connected.

25. Devise a prefab methodology for the Shadow Game Engine, and organize monsters/npc’s/texture/prefab packs in a complete .pkg/pk4/zip. So if you open a monster pak all the files regarding its material, textures, images, mesh, anims, ai, etc. are all in one spot. Like vmt or upk but straight zip no encryption.

26. Make an interface for Renderbump. Make one for loading config profiles too and converting DDS or importing models. The engine does all these things with scripts so a gui can be made easily.

27. Make a proper model viewer that shows all the textures on a model and lets you test additive states too. Make it really fast to view the different anims. It shouldn’t have to be set by hand, it should read the mat files and load everything like the game would and let you see the mats under different lighting.

29. Extract off, at some point, just the engine and physics without character things like AI, and create a screensaver module from the base engine that can camera fly through a small map or importable 3d file and display it with animated MD5 meshes and characters walking through it or animated. Everyone would use and mod the OGL Shadow screensavers.

They will be popular and ppl can show off with them.

30. A nice camera animation gui system to create and test scripted sequences. Some form of scripted sequence editor.

Better than matinee. Just using the mouse and quick commands complex scenes can be made.

The engine can support DOF.

The Shadow Game Engine templates and any useable bots can be used for machinima.

Free linux machinima using a game that actually works.

The camera anim files can be generated from within the editor interface, idtech used maya export anims for their convenience, but it doesn’t take much to add timelined camera states and curves. The lighting in the engine supports very moody cinematics.

You can read camera and cin anim files BTW. They are just position and orientation coordinates in a flat table.

31. A multiple head at a time facial gesture, look at, talk editor with timeline and audio clips. Slim trim small. A separate app if necessary, but of course connectable to the cinematics or scripted map sequences. Load 4 heads and an audio clip of 4 ppl talking, setup the conversation gesture script. Give the sequence trigger a label and load it into a map, and the heads are on the ppl. Perhaps whole body gestures too, but a face one is pretty important.

Phonemes and phoneme analysis have been around a long time. Animators have had mouth shape sets on file for a very long time.

32. A simple bone animator or a set of rigs for blender and a simplified blender interface or a decent set of basic reuseable character bone/base mesh/base anim templates.

MakeHuman pipeline integration. MH can create character meshes with an MD5 bone system already mapped. Tweak the MH templates and the texture exports to make a base MD5 mesh and have a base movement set of MD5 anims that can be applied to all MH meshes of roughly the same size of person. Like a small, medium large set.

The MH clothing system isn’t fully implemented yet, but it has a lot of possibility for quick NPC or player character generation. The meshes do render very well in the idtech4 engine with material tweaking.

The MH export could possibly be adjusted (since it is also python) to make head torso leg chopped MD5’s since the engine will work with a single MD5 with bones or a head torso leg set with separate MD5’s linked by an entity definition file or section within a decl script(declaration file of a number of entities/mats/ai).

33. TTF and PS Font Support. True Type and Postscript have been around forever. Let’s please use them. It’s also a way to get a set of glyphs or vector icons into a program, you just make a font set with the icons. Subtitles, conversations, objectives, with scaleable vector text.

Allow attaching MATERIALS, not just colours to text strings and vector imported gui layers. Normal mapped materials with additive vector rollover textures anyone?

Scalable 3d text in designer fonts floating translucently in 3d space and manipulable with bone or mover or interactive gui technologies?

How about multitexture materials with nmapping applied separately to fill and stroke?

34. A basic ogl material def previewer editor.
Materials are mostly a set of images in layers with perhaps a function trigger for luminosity/colour/or swap texture, but the thing is it is hard to browse the textures because you can’t see the normal/bump/spec and transparency mask layers. Its useful for checking additive on stacked uv sets too, but a model preview is best for those.


I know this will sound a bit too far at first,
BUT, I believe, Honestly,

I believe

that the Shadow Game Engine
could eventually, itself,
be THE Linux Window Manager.

Instead of a desktop picture, have a room or landscape in full normal mapped lit 3d open gl

navigating left or right spins you around.

select objects that represent files or applications, the open of the window can be an MD5 animated bone mesh.

so an example,
Lets say a Steampunk one.

The linux kernel loads,
Then X
Then the engine

the desktop is a room, like a boiler room, with gadgets and screens. There is a dangling electro plug which follows the mouse movement. You click on an object that represents the web viewer. The electro plug MD5 plugs into the steampunk monitor which triggers and opens quickly zooming out with normal mapped textured bone animated quickness.

Instead of the Microsnot or an Nix emulation topbar, we have the gui material on the MD5 displaying our browser, and we can just arrow key or mouse around to see another app.

a shortcut key could let us navigate from where we are viewing to a window or door and we could go to a different “room” or workspace and see what other things are “running”.

Instead of watching the little folders fly so slowly back and forth, we occasionally switch from our document or whatever to see if the machine in the “boiler room” is still “pumping” and how much fluid is left to fill the container.

We don’t need the widgets of windows. We can make sure there are minimize/close/quit/kill functions within gui standards. GTK and QT are actually window manager transparent.

Completely 3D Themes. Navigateable.

Want the sound lower, grab your current work and move away from the sound player in the gui.

Environmental 3D audio within the shell of the windowing system. Spatial positioning of datablocks. Animated meshes with textures, glows, normal maps, representing applications! With an activated idle animation as you center them on your view. Or everything is moving and pumping constantly and when you center something it has a “selected” animation that’s different.

A different theme:

Surrounded by greek statues, all your research materials on shelves or represented by the statues.

Hanging planes of text or images or appz anywhere around the 3d space with machines/objects/ they are mapped onto or projected from or hanging from?

Lets say you have a Scientist character, he’s holding the window of libre office writer you are using, when you haven’t typed for a while his fingers twiddle at the sides if you aren’t maximized. When you grab the window borders his hands do the grip ani, and he stays rooted while you reposition the window, only his hands and arms move then settle.

When you look at the main gui and windows systems in linux you can see its taking up about 300+megs with the compiz and stuff.

Eliminate all of it.
You just need the kernel, X, Mesa, a few base dependencies and drivers, and the engine, plus maybe some program widget systems like GTK, or QT not running as services but available. You will only hit 200 megs of System Ram.

It will run on almost anything and display almost anything

The engine can handle the display of almost anything you give it an I/O for, the windows of our text/video workspaces can be any flat surface, we don’t really need the paradigm of the flat desktop at all anymore. Gparted, Mozilla, Blender, whatever can run windowed in the 3d space attached to an md5. Themes can have exploratory and game aspects to them outside of operating conventions of our applications and documents.

Creepy people can make creepy 3D rooms for their desktops with skulls and dusty (with ogl dust particles!) books and creepy candles.

Kids eventually creating their own rooms inside the widescreen, their own themes and drawers and “toys” that do things.

Plant ppl that use computers can have leaves grow and blossom up the window edges. Why have a scroll bar? Have a little spider you drag down to scroll and when you let it go to type again it boings up on its thread.

The desktop is a flat box. it doesn’t need to be. It can have interior 3d space. There dosn’t have to be a taskbar, different objects represent progs, we can have different “huds” or none, we can hafe objects with gui materials that show information.

Want to know the time? use the hotkey to pull out of your gimp, as you pull back you see the easel that represents gimp, with your work on its gui, waiting, you turn around the little 3d village square to look at the clock or put your easel so you can see the clock, the sky and sun conditions are set according to weather information, but you see them as 3d simulations of the current weather instead of looking at a little applet.

Applications as doors you walk into and there is a fullscreen room of that application. Leave the app and are back in the base OS “room” or “control chair”.

Or how about a William Gibson one.
Your cozy room or den, instead of clicking an icon of libre office writer, you go over to the typewriter and the action of putting a new page in or taking one out and putting it in a file or drawer or pile becomes an MD5 player hand first person anim. Complete with keys punching the right strokes? And little hammers smacking up to dent the page, which is a textured paper, lit with open gl, and a cigar in the ashtray making some ambient non smelly smoke?

If it follows standard linux HOME profiles, then desktop links and program links can auto install MD5 icons in different 3D themes.

MD5’s can be REALLY small. Its the textures that are big, but on an optimized texture, most visible sections are less than 256 pixels of the screen at any time.

Try this on.
A multi-user operating system (linux) and a multiuser 3d OS gui.
The engine is multiplayer.
instead of a Desktop
we have a map
multpile people can use different applications in the same multi-player/user space.
3 people using 3 different gimps
when you look up from your work and look around in the map/gui you can see the other person’s avatar or player 3rd view mesh painting on their gimp-easel.

Instead of opening Blender,
Go to the sculptural workspace

I guess we just need to get the hot hacker chick from Snow Crash to build us an auto phoneme system to increase the immersion…

We could create the Black Sun!
Common walking strips and “hangouts”
shared multimedia experience in a multi user os…

If you can’t picture it well,
try more booze or drugs.
It helps.


Landscapes the UT way are not my thing.
The big problems with most landscape editors are the absolute concavity of a heightmap based image and the visible tiling of textures.

The idtech4 engine has excellent collision mapping on standard imported polygon meshes with low point density.

If you used a similiar mesh in UT you would fall through it because a poly is larger than the character’s collision box.

I think people are fine without a landscape editor.
I use the free version of L3DT to generate a terrain,
Then use the heightmap in Blender or MAX or LW to generate a clean optimized displacement mesh.

The thing that would be good is a landscape texture chopper that chops it into 256 pixel bits or smaller, and a method of mapping the multiple small textures on the larger texture mesh.

The reason for this is that you need the mip-mapping on the terrain with normal map mipmapping. If the terrain is one mesh with many small texture layer sets of tex/nm/hm/specm then the normal maps and color will have mip maps in dds format that allow the detail of close parts of the terrain to be sharp and non visible/blocked terrain segments don’t load until the character gets to them.


Can the MD5 format be adjusted to allow Nurbs?
A character with a low number of vertices made of nurbs is much smoother than a poly one. With normal mapping on top of nurbs animated skeletal meshes would be much smoother looking on heads and edge curvatures, and might be faster computationally than an on the fly sub-d on polys.


If you do it first you really don’t have to call it The Shadow.
But keep it GPL so we can all start building and stop paying out for SDK’s! We can make a FREE framework, and people can profit by packing it with their own content.

No one would ever have to worry about the legal stuff.
As long as they have the engine and toolsets
They can mod the templates and sell their games or give out demos.

Without any worrying. No royalties. No agreements. Just make your game and find a way to distribute it.


WIP – There’s more I’m adding to this yet
If you notice weird spelling mistakes,
its cause the keyboard has no letters on it anymore

and I’m a stare-at-the-keyboard typist!

I am on my way I guess

Casper Meets a Minty Dhewm with the Yumi GNU Linux OpenGL Gamekit Blend…..

My personal Linux mission (for another article) is to compile the Linux port of Doom 3 for 64 bit architectures, probably using the Dhem3 fork as it has lower system reqs, which is part of the project’s goals. I am going to bring idtech 4 to a stripped down completely moddable port on linux with a complete set of base assets that doesn’t require any of the commercial game files but will play them. I am using codeblocks and g++, if you have a better IDE suggestion.

So I embarked on a journey to test the capabilities of Linux as a desktop OS capable of playing open gl games and doing basic stuff.

Like playing mp3’s and .mkv’s and flacs and evil micro$hit .wmv’s

Its been sucky for years, but I test the scene out every 2 years to see if I can work with it yet.

I am fine, as a long time network administrator, with using linux in its bare server state.
I mostly in the past used web consoles for visual expedience, webmin and the like.

About 10 years ago, maybe much more, before DVD’s even
came Knoppix Live CD.

It saved many network admins and computer geeks.
I could go to a client’s place and attend to the hurting unit, and I was almost assured of being able to boot up anything and get the windows stuff off.
Its still a worthy tool that boots up almost any machine.
And will resize a windows partition without damaging it or copy it to another partition intact and you can install a bootloader to fix it.
InsertBootutils is smaller even and just as good.
I believe both are based on a small linux debian kernel.
Knoppix has impressive effects for a 780 meg bootdisk in its current version.
Insert is an ugly tractor at 50 megs.

Then came Ubuntu.
It was 780 megs back in the early days, a few years after Knoppix.
And it had a better handle on multimedia and internet.

Now Ubuntu Live Linux is a big loaf of 1.8 G.
And it doesn’t play most media files out of the box
it runs like a slow pig.
Its not cool anymore.

Enter Linux Mint.

I feel refreshed.
It plays mp3s, has libre office, plays mp4’s and wmv’s and mkv’s
shows jpg’s/png’s
the Gimp Image editor loads DDS files with a plugin
(you say what?)
I neeeeeeeed DDS.

So I’m happy with mint.
It plays anything pretty much, surfs ok, especially if you use Midori instead of Ffox.
Blender installs which has Idtech4/Doom3/UDK/Valve import/export.

I suggest the following few programs to your minty linux experience.
Always add Gparted if your distro doesn’t include it.
Midori is a lighweight browser that doesn’t choke on those facebook ads
Xfe File Browser is faster than the default one and more versatile

If xfe doesn’t work use Double Commander gtk or qt version

MyPaint + The Gimp + Inkscape is a complicated but complete set of art and design tools.
Blue Griffon and SeaMonkey need to be extracted and run from your user folder by hand but I found them preferable to Bluefish. Off course, if you install Apache/Mysql/PHP and maybe python/perl as well, you have a LAMP server.
Type localhost un your browser to test it, use phpmyadmin in the settings to check your php and mysql install. Type perl at a terminal and you should need to crtl-z out of the perl prompt.

Screenshot from 2015-01-28 03_54_53
Filezilla has a queu. PureFTP is easy to use with pureadmin.
Together they let any linux boxes transfer files to each other.

Celestia has a gnome version that works in Mint.
Blender + Gamekit, Meshlab, mm3d, makehuman are stable and completely useable. Python is autoinstalled with MH and Blender.


Doom 3 runs. But that’s a long story in another article.

I have personally tried the commercial products Mudbox, Maya, Mari, and Modo in both the xfce and cinammon versons of Mint 17.1 and they where highly polished and responsive. No glitches.

Xnview kicks every single linux image browser’s butt and
They just made a .deb with a 64 bit version as well.
Hand install it and browse your pictures comfortably for a change.

For music there is Banshee or you can add Rhythmbox and GTKpod.
One if them will get your ipod running.

If you make music,
LMMS+Rosegarden+Muse+Audacity+Composite+Hydrogen+Fluid+Jack2 = happy.
Add some basic downloaded soundfonts or samples and you’ll cream yourself.
Becasue its FREE.
And it actually works.
Screenshot from 2015-01-29 06_35_29


So back to the base Live Linux OS…

Perhaps you do not get the idea of Live Linux.
Let me explain.
I do it well.

Linux Mint/Knoppix/Ubuntu are Live Linux disks
that allow you to install linux on a hard drive,
but also will run Linux from the DVD/CD/USB Flash drive/SD card

or other bootable device that your or your friends computer bios can read.

Most machines can read the above and have been able to for more than 10 years.

In the old days, waaaaay back der yung ‘un’s
way back then that was it.
It was the $hit.
It was useful.

A machine with a wratched os but the drive was working would boot up to the cd and instead of a text recovery console there was a desktop, file browser, unzipper, internet browser, etc. Running from the ram of the machine.

More than a decade later the geeks and miniaturization of memory devices has made portable linux with a desktop a science.

Now we have Casper-RW,
the friendly file based read-write filesystem overlay.
Say that fast.

Casper is a bunch of space used on your key that you can’t see from the windows machines. It holds the desktop icons, your home folder, and any applications and settings you’ve added to the filesystem of the live linux that the casper is linked to.

Before, ubuntu and knoppix were not writeable.

The desktop was always the generic one and adding applications didn’t work.

Because we didn’t have keys then, we had optical media.
Now we can overlay one filesystem onto another

Casper is a big file. Lets say 1-4 G on your flash drive.
When you install a live linux onto a flash drive it will, nowadys, if it is a debian based system (which ubuntu and mint are) it will ask you to specify the size of casper.
It can’t be over 4G on a fat32 partition. If I install a full loadout of every programming, art, music application and my pictures and docs I end up with about 1.8 G used of Casper and about 2 G free.
I also have 3 different caspers I can swap out with 3 different configurations of the same live linux on the key. Just rename them! Or zip them up.

Its a versatile system.

It says “what size of PERSISTENT file would you like” during live install or you use the slider in Yumi to set casper’s size.

It doesn’t matter if you screw up Casper’s size at install,

you can delete it if it gets screwed

and build a blank one with PDL-Casper-RW-Creator.

Your original linux installation on the usb drive is never damaged

by anything you do inside of the running os,

only the casper-rw persistent files contents are changed

and those changes are overlaid onto the original filesystem at boot.

An excellent way to check out Live Linux Distros (as they are called) is to make a MULTIBOOT usblinux key. There are a number of tools for the experienced user. Unetbootin, Rufus, Universal Usb Creator, etc. I like Yumi from pendrivelinux, where they are into this stuff.

Currently Yumi uses syslinux and chainloads Grub.
As a GEEK, I eagerly await the next version of this nifty tool, since Grub2 now loads disk iso’s directly instead of using the syslinux->grub chain. Its better. Take my word for it.

So you get Yumi. You download 2-3 differentlinux distros. A good plan is to have a 32 bit and a 64 bit if you are travelling and want to use any machine you encounter. Otherwise choose the distro that matches your computer, ie: multicore 64 bit or older pentium4 32 bit.

For example I will say:

are the 3 we will load in order into Yumi.

So we take our key, let’s say it’s an 8G key.
We format it with the right click-> format in windows
We run Yumi. Point it to the key.
Choose the first distribution as linux mint and browse to the iso that you downloaded
Yumi builds a boot loader on the drive and formats the MBR (master boot record)to make the key bootable then it copies the linux mint iso to a folder on the drive, as is (you can even burn a disk from it its a straight copy)and pulls a copy of the linux bootloader and kernel from the iso and puts them beside it. It then makes a boot menu entry in syslinux.cfg on the root of the usb key which it has conveniently formatted as fat32 so you can peruse it on a windows machine.

Continue and add the other two distros but knoppix you have a second option which is to not choose knoppix from the drop down but choose “unidentified grub install” and it will copy the iso like the cinammon and xfce mint distros, otherwise it will extract it all and make a filesystem because of Knoppix’s bootloader, which isn’t a bad thing, but I like the iso, it is a reuseable file.

Give each of the mint distros at least 1G of the space.

Now you can boot a computer to any of the 3 distros without using the hard drive in the computer.
Like if you don’t have the password, or the drive is virused or something.

When you boot to a different device than the hard drive you usually will have to go into the BIOS.
When the computer starts you usually hit del or f2 to get the BIOS setup or on some machines you press f12 to change the “boot order”. You want the boot menu, boot to the key, it may appear as a hard drive, a key, or as hdd-zip or hdd-cd depending on your bios.

You should get a menu with 2 linux mints one xfce, one cinammon rebecca, then an otion to boot to the windows partition or mac partition, and then a “other grub” blah blah for the knoppix.
Playing around with syslinux.cfg and the yumi.png can get you the results of a custom menu if you are so inclined.

I have personally booted a computer into live linux that I installed onto the drive partition side of an ipod nano. I booted the computer up from the nano. Getting that partition off the nano was another story, but I did it.
I was, BTW, also able to surf the net, load rythmnbox, get the nano songs into rythmnbox, add songs to the nano and update the song information and album art for the 6 gigs of music on the nano which didn’t have covers. And the nano recharged while I did all this to it from a machine booted into linux from the nano itself. It was “fun”. From a geek perspective.

For advanced users,
if you don’t add anything xfce specific to the live usb software, you can install most applications in one of the mints, delete the other mints casper rw file, and edit syslinux.cfg so that the path of both the cinammon and xfce mint and even an ubuntu can all share the same single casper rw. If you just use the base install for music, internet and documents and don’t even add any progs the 3 live linux’s can be used back and forth and have the same files accesible. Most of the casper file is the home directory.
I did this. It was good for trying them out.

If you use one distro more you can delete the casper-rw from the other distro folder and even the iso as well to save space later. Or back it up and swap it in later.
You can MOVE casper.

Just change the path = setting in the syslinux.cfg and /menu/linux.cfg under the MULTIBOOT folder on a yumi disk.

In the end I choose one and still leave yumi on, in fact, you can leave everything in the distro folder that yumi creates and just delete the casper and iso files specifically.
Leave yumi and pdl casper creator in the root of the key, Then if you want to try that distro again or you don’t need the free space you can plunk the iso back anytime and just make a new blank casper for it and it runs again.

Mp3’s work best in the root of the key in a folder so all the distros can access them by mounting that folder.

have fun with casper and mint
and remember
if it gets crummy
blow casper away and make a new one
after backing up your files of course…

PART 2 – Synaptic’s lameness is our doom.

I can’t stand Apt.
I really can’t.
In network administration, the idea of 200-2000+ user machines all downloading updates from micro$hit or a linux repo is completely ridiculous. It can be 2 G+ per machine. That’s too much redundant data burning up bandwidth and productivity.

Most organizations lock and block user updates and have set times where the Disk Partition of the os is actually reimaged. User files are mounted on servers. They may have a central update server set that has the updates that have gone through a Change Management assessment.

Otherwise a whole organization can be crippled for 2-3 days by a single update that seems like a good idea to the package or update maintainers, but for some reason or another it breaks a crucial component of the company’s workflow.

Another reason prevalent in Games/Film/TV/media is Asset Management and IP protection.
Machines that are in production working on secret projects are not usually online.
They might have an http gateway if they are lucky, and be able to do basic surfing, but email and other ports are centralized for Intellectual Property security.

So it is good practice to learn how to build your linux box with no network.
Unfortunately, until you roll your own linux, it will always come with some crap you don’t ever use or need, and then you will add crap, learn that you don’t need it, and then eventually come to a set of programs that you consistently use and that are stable for production.

Once you have decided and set out your software, you don’t want to have to redownload all of it to make a second machine go with the same applications. That’s what Micro$hit does, unless you use ctupdate and build an offline tech iso.

On linux, you might have to reboot once to install 500+ packages. Comparably I installed and updated my cousin’s vista machine and it rebooted no less than 15 times and locked up 3 times. That took 3 DAYS. Installing Mint from live usb and updating with the following procedure took 1.5 hours.

Of course, that was after 15 days of trial and error.
So learn, young Paduwan…

On Mint, I can install from the usb. Copy my package set to /var/apt/cache. Point my Synaptic package manager to the folder on the usb, and install ALL of my main programs (500+ pkgs) and utilities, while still doing other stuff on another workspace. The reboot is only necessary to jiggle a couple x11 updates and the initrd update.

/var/cache/apt/archives is the spot to place the packages, and you have to be Root to copy them.

This is the technique for offline package set installation on a debian machine (ubuntu/mint/debian/etc.) running synaptic package manager:

if you want to download programs onto a key for offline machines with linux to install them on
save a download script from the offline machines synaptic package manager after selecting the things you want to install.

You can begin from the usb live boot up, or from a linux freshy installed on the hard drive. They should be “nearly” identical. Not totally but nearly, I don’t know why.

boot into the live linux or the HD install and open Synaptic Package Manager.

Select the programs you need or want, start with the basics.
You can make more than one download set.
for mint xfce:
type xfce in the filter
choose all the xfce extras, extra xfe icons and utilities, and specialized xfce programs.
Add ristretto

Other distributions you would not select the xfce, but you might choose all the other extras, like ubuntu and gnome extras for gnome.

if you are a web designer
choose Apache 2, then php5, then Mysql Server and Client then phpmyadmin
optionally choose python and perl main starred packages.

At this point I actually save a dl script from file-> save download script
I put that file on my key where I am going to download the packages to on the computer that has internet.

Continue. Add all the following if you can. They are all cool.

Blender, Meshlab, mm3d, makehuman,
OpenShot Video Editor and the Frei0r plugin set, VLC
celestia (gnome) (mint can run gnome apps)
inkscape, mypaint, pencil, sozi, gimp-gap

Xfe File Browser, Double Commander gtk or qt version

Filezilla, PureFTP/pureadmin.
Rhythmbox, GTKpod
LMMS+Rosegarden+Muse+Audacity+Composite+Hydrogen+Fluid+Jack2 (include fluid soundfonts)
I add the xscreensaver and all the OpenGL screensaver hacks. I don’t add the xscreensaver extras because they are boring. I actually deselect all non OGL screensavers as soon as I have it installed. I like the engine and the chemical molecular visualization one.

Keep going.
Fill your boots.

Now, you’ve selected everything.
Don’t hit apply, you are doing this from the offline machine.

At this point I should explain,
perhaps I should have explained earlier, but only someone with the tenacity to read this far is worthy anywayz.


So linux has these things called Kernels which your lovely OS pops out of at the start.
The kernel is the engine, and the dual/multi core 64 bit machines need a different kernel than the older pentium 4’s do. Same for the video card and network devices and extra storage devices on the machine or any other specialized hardware.

Some distributions have both kernels and a second set of appz designed for the 64 bit architecture, like the file management and 3d apps which need the extra math.
Most programs will run 32 bit inside 64 bit, but file operations and advanced math for visualizations are much faster with the extra bits.

That’s why you HAVE to run Synaptic on the machine you are going to build on later or one just like it.
Once you have the packages most of them will work on similiar machines, they don’t have to be identical, but the processor type must be the same. Or you will get the wrong packages.

Everything is selected.
It says you want to install 400+packages and you are getting worried.
Just don’t hit apply.
Go Edit->Fix Broken packages and then select custom filters->broken on the left

if there are any red ones keep unmarking them
click fix broken packages until it says “successfully fixed dependency problems”
Maybe you can’t install those things. There shouldn’t be many.

Now go to File -> save download script and save it to the key.

Make a folder for the packages on the key.

The machine you go to download the files from has to be a LINUX machine or it has to allow you to boot it into your Live Linux installation so you can use a terminal and the wget commands in the script to retrieve the files from the various repositories where they are stored. Synaptic has marked it for you, but a windows machine wil not allow you to run wget from a terminal.

So now you are at the machine that you are going to download. It is linux or you have booted from your key made with yumi.

The machine you are on the net with could have a completely different architecture than the one you are downloading the packages for. So you cannot use Synaptic to get them or Apt-get. Which you normally would do and which Big Brother loves. Watching everybody get what they get and all.

But you have your tiny little download script or 2 or 3, and you have a folder with almost 2G of space.

Open up the key in the file explorer of your choice. Right click the download scripts and choose “open in Text Editor”. If there is just one go to the next step, if you have a couple, copy them all to one text file, with only one #!/bin/sh/ line at the top, so just select the second line until the end on the additional scripts.

You will have this

wget -c http://archive.ubuntu.com/ubuntu/pool/universe/libx/libxfce4util/libxfce4util-common_4.10.1-1ubuntu1_all.deb

wget -c http://archive.ubuntu.com/ubuntu/pool/universe/libx/libxfce4util/libxfce4util6_4.10.1-1ubuntu1_amd64.deb

wget -c http://archive.ubuntu.com/ubuntu/pool/universe/libx/libxfce4ui/libxfce4ui-common_4.11.1-2ubuntu1_all.deb

wget -c http://archive.ubuntu.com/ubuntu/pool/universe/x/xmorph/libmorph_20090926_amd64.deb

— and on and on….
It doesn’t matter if there are duplicates, but do a search for the word “cdrom://” and delete those lines.
There shouldn’t be any but there might be. You will have to find those two files on the cdrom if there are but there shouldn’t be those lines for 90% of people using this procedure.


Right click on the folder that you are going to download the files into, or right click into the white area inside of that folder to do the same and “open in terminal” or get to the folder by bashing the terminal yourself with cd and ls and pwd.

So you have a terminal with the folder name before the prompt,

showing you what is the working directory for the next operations you are going to perform in the terminal.

Copy all of the text from the final download script crtl-a then crtl-c
Go back to the terminal and paste the script in. Right-click paste or crtl-v
or middle click

Wget should start pulling the files from the repositories and putting them in your folder, which should start filling up with files.

You can select half of the files or the lower third in the text files and paste them into another terminal opened from the same folder and get 2-3 wget streams going.

Any files already downloaded get skipped. You might have to press enter once at the end of the list to send the last file unless you put a enter at the end of the text before copying.

Afterwards I repaste the whole script into the terminal again and it will whip past anything already downloaded and catch one or two stray files that were incomplete or the server timed out.

Unfortunately for you, you will probably have to go back to the download machine at least once, because synaptic doesn’t mark everything and you will not be able to get your final small download list of dependencies until after you apply the main set.

Still, you probably have 600+ packages in that folder and it will mostly install in a flash.

Go to the offline computer with your folder of .deb pkgs on your key.

Open /var/apt/cache/ as Root.
Copy the contents of your download session into the cache.

Open Synaptic and choose File->Add downloaded packages
Choose the folder on the key not the apt folder

We have to do this because even though you downloaded the packages,

Synaptic will ignore a lot of them and try to go to the internet!

Disconnect your network connection in the lower right of the panel by the clock so it will cease trying faster.
Because you have all the files in the pkg folder in the cache folder, Synaptic pulls ones it is stuck on from the Apt cache.

FYI the apt cache is in /var because it VARIES in size like other temporary stuff.
/var/www is your apache root for the web designer in you.

If there are any broken dependencies unmark them, but there shouldn’t be many.

Apply to install. It should take 20 minutes. When it is done, close Synaptic, open it, and repeat this process. You might have to do it 3 times, and if you installed things like screensavers and login themes Apply the downloaded folder again after one reboot to get any strays.

Everything should be working at this point.
If it is unable to download a few last things,
SAVE a download script on the key. These are the last bits.
unmark and even uninstall anything that fix broken dependencies won’t fix.

Your machine should be running smoothly with updates/programs/additional stuff and less than 2 hours has elapsed.

Go back to the other machine and repeat the wget process with the last few dependencies INTO THE SAME PKG folder. IT won’t redownload anything, but one of the files might be a partial and it will fix it.

Go back to the offline computer.
You should at this point have your final complete set of packages with all dependencies.
Overwrite the files in var/apt/cache/ in case one was incomplete.

Again, the pkg folder on the key and the apt cache are the same, apply from the downloaded folder and the last few programs that were missing a dependency should be installed.

Now you can delete the 2G of .deb packages from /var/apt/cache leaving the file called “LOCK” alone. You can archive your packages folder off the key. Or leave them for the next install on a similiar machine.

It works.
If you ever botch the machine, with the base install and this one folder you took the time to create, you can install and fully upgrade/customize your debian distro in less than 2 hours, with everything running perfectly.

In another article I will explain how to bake a final installation into a custom live usb disk, by merging casper with the iso filesystem. That’s going to be a long one.

Unfortunately, if you have a 64 bit machine and you are a programmer, you are in for more fun, since the Ubuntu based distro’s have a broken g++ chain and you have to install your c++ compiler and dev headers by hand.


if you did not understand that

it will be…

Enjoy your Mint.

What Canada Really Needs #27 – Screening Politicians, Lawyers, Doctors, Judges and Police for Delusion, Sociopathy, Psychopathology, and Drugs

What Canada really needs 1 – 26

I have been really pissed off by this for a very looooooooong time.

Why do we not have a comprehensive empirical psychological screening process for Politicians, Lawyers, Doctors, Judges and Police to diagnose and weed out Delusion, Sociopathy, Psychopathology, and Drugs from these professions which are so vital to a true democracy?

Iget really pissed off every time I watch Harper and his buddies even for a few seconds, they are absolutely batshit crazy delusional sociopaths, and they are allowed to run a country?
They should actually be institutionalized.

The “leader” of my country believes in an invisible being, man shaped but apparently invisible except to his most trusted followers.This invisible being that the Prime Minister has delusions of supposedly has a grand ethereal estate protect by a private army with wings and swords. Somewhere in his life the Prime Minister was brainwashed by this wierd cult to believe that the invisible being really exists and if the PM sucks his dick just right throughout his life the invisible being will grant him everlasting life in the ethereal estates after he croaks. Furthermore, the cult trained him to believe that the invisible being and his winged militia gang have the most sophisticated telepathic surveillance system that is beyond the understanding of modern science and that using this the invisible being can monitor all of the humans on the earth at once and he will be immediately informed if any of his loyal or indifferent subjects masturbates or takes dick in their ass.

Of course, any intelligent well informed individual knows what a delusional crock of shite that is, but somehow he was allowed to apply for the job of PM even though he has this delusional belief system.

Honestly, the leader of our country should not be a position that is held by a human being who believes that the earth is 6000 years old and that dinosaurs are a puzzle set out by the invisible deity man to give his ant farm something to argue about.

OMG that is so FUCKED UP.

Science is based on observation.
Gravity falls. Dust settles. Time is measured in dust and carbon. The world is billions of years old. At the time of the dinosaurs the ancestors of humanity where about the size of a large raqcoon and looked like a cross between a hamster and a chimp. There are NO HUMAN BONES down in the layers of strata where the dinosaurs are!!!!
Things die, layers of silt build up, stratas form, humans were not human like at the time of the dinosaurs, we had no language then.
Humans were not created by a creator god.
We evolved.
This is not a theory, this is now established as FACT.

the leader of my country believes in this cult mythological being and the creation of the earth, and that the invisible deity thing hates humans who bumfuck.

How can someone so deluded be a Politician, Lawyer, Doctor, Judge or Police officer?
Their cult obviously has a lot of clout if they can take over all the administrative functions of our country and fill those posts with cult members who are properly brainwashed in the cult mythology.

So why don’t we have delusion, sociopathy, psychopathy, and drug testing for these important individuals?


The Bible is a bok of HEBREW MYTHOLOGY.
It has NO PLACE in a court, a parliament, or a hospital.
It is a book of fiction, delusion, discrimination, and hatred. It and its quotations should be banned from the courts and all government buildings.
It is completely delusional, and it promotes sociopathy against persons who are not inthe CULT.

god is the wizards machine

 I tried to wiggle one ear up and one ear down
 while squinting into the morning sunlight
 I had a spliff burning
 and I really had not understood buddy at all
 in his explanation
 of “God”
 It was a bit too much of a meaningless ramble
 repeating things other people had told him
 I had listened well
 I heard every word
 but there is this spiritual path called Zen
 and I studied it long ago
 for a bit
 and in that austere simple struggle
 you learn that words can be strung together
 that seem to make sense
 but yet within the structure of the paragraph logic
 complete contradictions can be formed
 because words are just a tool of thought
 they are not thought themselves
 Yet I had listened to the young man for at least five minutes
 and listened well
 but he was really just babbling
 numbers and infinity and bullshit
 too much shitty drugs
 not enough reading
 “god is the Wizard’s machine” I said.
 He looked blank.
 “Dorothy. The wizard. Off to see the wizard.”
 He still looked blank.
 “Wizard of OZ”
 “Oh I heard of that, never seen it
 its like old stuff or something…”
 “Yeah. Exactly.”
 This was going to be a bit more difficult since he was unfamiliar with the particular cultural reference I was using to illustrate the metaphor.
 But I had to try, regardless of his inability to grasp it without prompting.
 I needed to practice my delivery for the next person anyway.
 Dorothy, the Tin Man, the Scarecrow, and the Lion go off to find the Wizard.
 They are off to find God.
 They are on their Journey to find God, because everyone knows that god can do anything and each of them has a personal thing that they think God can help them with, to go home, get a brain, get courage, get a heart…etc.
 “Yeah, yeah, man, yeah and theirs the monkeys and shit eh and the witch”
 “Yup. Lotsa fucking monkeys.” The insinuation went right over his head like a Boeing. I didn’t elaborate on the monkeys. This guy would have trouble focusing on a full wrestling match.
 They travel across the landscape doing this and that and all this shit happens and they finally find the Wizard.
 And they walk inside, and there is the big huge face on the wall spouting smoke, and the big booming reverberating echo-voice of GOD/the Wizard booms out at them and they tremble and shake and the colored lights flash and the smoke billows and the thunder roars…
 until Toto pulls apart the curtain on the little booth and we see the old man operating the great Machine, fiddling and turning the dials to make the God machine go.”
 He’s looking sooooo blank but trying at this point. He realizes he’s failing a comprehension test of some kind, its showing in his eyes.
 They come all this way to find something, they go to the big Temple to find God/the Wizard. They are met by the Priest. The old man. The caretaker of the Temple.
 The Priest operates the God machine,
 he understands ethereal projection, telepathy, archetypal personal transformation, shapeshifting, energy pattern manipulation, kundalini, meditation, along with stagecraft, ritual practice, and the psychology of spectacles and illusions, and he/she pushes those levers to make the God Machine Show that gets everybody quaking with fear so he can live nice and quietly in his big temple with minimal fearful intrusions.
 Everyone around fears the Temple and the God Machine but everyone is trained that they have to go there to get what they think they need”
 He wasn’t getting it so I gave up.
 Total blank.
 At least Homer could understand Cheebuz.
 Not this kid.
 The truth of it is after everything in their adventures, when they find god, and realize he’s just a wise old man with some people skillz, they actually do complete their quest.
 They each find the thing they were looking for
 inside of them, with them
 they already had it
 they needed the Journey to the old priest to find God, in order to find that God is a projection of the old priests, and really they just needed to go to an old wise man in the first place to get some advice on how to find what they already had.”
 I relit my spliff
 because it had gone out
 I don’t think he was able to hold the nuances of that one.
 I need to sharpen the story a bit for the younger generation
 find a different
 cultural reference

My Shitty Neanderthal Family

I am composing a new blog story
Its called
My Shitty Neanderthal Family and the TV version is My Neanderthal Family (TM)
Its in response to the news from my brother that I was “banished” from their loving arms for being “bad”
What happened was my shitty family fucked me over, had some doctors mutilate me, then burned all the documents and spent 20 years laughin while I tried to get some basic healthcare. And I’m the shityy human because I am about to sue.

When I was 14 I suddenly realized I was actually more intelligent than my mother who barely passed grade 12. When I was 16 I realized I was more intelligent than my father as well.

So I left The Swamp.

Meanwhile, while I spent 3.5 years living outside without healthcare, my mother has spent about $150k on church charities, about $60k taking grandkids to disneyland and other places, and of course$200k on her moron husband’s get rich quick schemes, and they want to cry poverty at me when I start to sue?

fucking non – evolved monkey neanderthals

Informed Consent: Canada’s human rights on paper are not protected at all in reality, unless you are rich.

I am studying Law
and I will write in this article about the current state and case law regarding informed consent.
The conservatives don’t care about the fact that it is law.
This will take a couple of weeks. (WIP)
I’m sort of using it as a notepad, then I’m planning to rearrange it when I have all the quotes in one place.
I will attempt to link to every piece of case law listed or mentioned or even append certain sections to this document.

I believe this is a good use for a blog, you get to see my “thought processes” as I build my Statements of Claim and my Pleadings and try to find the $500 or so per case to begin things…

this is an interesting read as well:
THE LAW IN NAZI GERMANY Ideology, Opportunism, and the Perversion of Justice

Informed Consent is part of Negligence law:Thanks are due to Patricia Peppin and Phillip Osbourne for their introductions to Informed Consent and Tort Law.

…as many as 7.5% …treated in Canadian hospitals experience an “adverse result” – an unintended injury or complication that is caused by health care management rather than by disease that leads to death, disability, or prolonged hospital stays…40% were highly preventable…9,250-23,750 deaths could have been prevented in 2000. – G.Ross Baker “Canadian Preventable Deaths Study”

Breach of fiduciary duty may found an equitable claim against a physician …this may arise not only when the physician acts unconsciously or takes advantage of a patient,such as succumbing to a conflict of interest, but also when disregarding the patients interests – Norberg v. Wynrib,[1992] S.C.J. No. 60, 92 D.L.R. (4th) 449 S.C.C.

Malpractice liability may also arise for false arrest and imprisonment, such as through negligent or otherwise improper employment of powers of involutary detention under mental health legislation – Mullins v. Levy, [2005] B.C.J. No. 1878, 258 D.L.R (4th) 460 (B.C.S.C)

Elements of Negligence
1. The defendent owed the plaintiff a legal Duty of Care
2. The defendent breached that duty of care
3. The plaintiff suffered legally recognized damage
4. The damage was caused by the defendent’s breach of that duty of care

If physicians discriminate against…(prospective patients)…on grounds of race, age, or other prohibited grounds they may violate provincial human rights laws… – Korn v. Potter, [1996] B.C.J. No. 692, 134 D.L.R. (4th) 437 (B.C.S.C)

physicians may have a duty of care not to treat their patients but promptly to refer them to colleagues whose skills are more suited to the patients needs – Jaglowski v. Kreml, [2002] M.J. No. 334, 167 Man R. (2nd) 71 (Man. Q.B)

The duty to refer also applies regarding procedures in which physicians conscientiously object to participate. Failure of adequately informed consent can be actionable in negligence,, and may be found if a practitioner refuses or fails to disclose a legitimate choice of patient care because of the practitioner’s conscientious objection to participation in that choice – Zimmer v. Ringrose, [1981] A.J. No. 596, 124 D.L.R. 93rd) 215 (Alta C.A.) – CMA, Code of Ethics (Ottowa: CMA, 2004), ss 12, 19 – Reibl v. Hughes [1980] S.C.J. No.105, 114 D.L.R. (3rd) 1 (S.S.C.)

As private corporations, hospitals…bear both direct corporate and often vicarious liability for the medical and other care they accomodate and facilitate – Picard and G. Robertson, “Legal liability of doctors and hospitals in Canada”, 4th ed.

Limitations acts require plaintiffs to initiate complaints within a given time from when they actually knew that they have a cause of action. Limitation periods may be suspended during a patients disability. Action may therefore be initiated some time after the procedure complained of was performed – Patterson v. Anderson, [2004] O.J. No. 3619, 72 O.R. (3rd) 330 (Ont. S.C.J) – E. (D.) (Guardian ad litem of) v. British Columbia, [2005] B.C.J. No. 492, 252 D.L.R. (4th) 689 (B.C.C.A) – ter Neuzen v. Korn, [1995] S.C.J. No. 79, 127 D.L.R. (4th) 577 at 589 (S.C.C.)

The doctrine of informed consent has developed in the Law as the primary means of protecting a patient’s right to control his or her medical treatment…informed consent is plainly intended to ensure the freedom of the individual to make choices concerning their medical care. For this freedom to be meaningful, people must have the right to make choices that accord with their own values, regardless of how unwise or foolish those choices may appear to others. – Malette v. Schulman [1990] O.J. No. 450, 72 O.R. (2nd)417 at 423-24 (Ont. C.A.)

Participation in decision making provides the opportunity to excercise choice according to ones own values and beliefs rather than recieving treatment through paternalistic imposition of another’s treatment decisions. – P. Peppin

The doctrine of informed consent was developed as a judicial attempt to redress the inequality of information that characterizes a doctor patient relationship. – [1995] S.C.J. No. 104, [1995] 4 S.C.R. 634(S.C.C.)

(the tort of)Battery continues to be the appropriate action in situations where there is no consent at all or where the act exceeds the consent. – John G. Fleming on Reible v. Hughes, “The Law of Torts” – Reible v. Hughes, [1980] S.C.J. No. 105, [1980] 2 S.C.R. 80(S.C.C.)

Wrongful Sterilization see Leilani Muir, Muir v. Alberta, [1996] A.J. No. 37(Alta, Q.B)

…it is the patient’s decision and the doctor must equip the patient with the necessary information to make an informed choice…where more than one medically reasonable treatment existsand the risk/benefit analysis engaged by the alternatives involves different considerations, a reasonable person would want to know about(those)alternatives and would want the assistance of the doctor’s risk/benefit analysis of the various possible treatments before deciding whether to proceed with a specific treatment. – Van Dyke v. Grey Bruce Reg. Centre [2005] O.J. No. 2219(Ont. C.A.) leave to appeal refused [2005] S.C.C.A No. 335(S.C.C)

“Physicians rights to refuse to participate in medical procedures that offend their conscience may be incompatible with patients rights to recieve lawful medically indicated treatment” – Rebeccca Cook and Gerard M. Dickens “The Growing Abuse of Conscientious Objection”

The concept of therapeutic privilege was recognized by the Supreme Court in Reibl. It permits a physician to withhold or generalize information relating to the risks of treatment where its disclosure may cause psychological harm to the patient.The privelege has recieved a narrow interpretation and there is no Canadian case in which it has been successfully applied.(as a legal defense to negligence) – P.H. Osbourne, “The Law of Torts, Essentials of Canadian Law”

The duty to inform patients has been described with reference solely to physicians…the duty, however, rests on all health care professionals within their area of expertise or practice.- P.H. Osbourne, “The Law of Torts, Essentials of Canadian Law”

Deceit is (a tort action) established whenever a person has made a fraudulent statement that intentionally causes another person to rely on it to their detriment. – Pasly v. Freeman (1789), 3 term. Rep. 51, 100 E.R. 450(k.b.)

Three elements must be established in order to establish tortious assault: first, the plaintiff apprehended immediate physical contact, second, the plaintiff had reasonable apprehension (the requisite state of mind) and third, the defendant’s act of interference was intentional (the defendant intended the resulting apprehension). But intent for purposes of civil assault can be either general or specific. Specific intent means that when the defendant acted, he or she intended to cause apprehension of a harmful or unwanted contact. General intent means that the defendant knew with substantial certainty that the action would put someone in apprehension of a harmful or unwanted contact. While the law varies by jurisdiction, contact is often defined as harmful if it objectively intends to injure, disfigure, impair, or cause pain.The act is deemed offensive if it would offend a reasonable person’s sense of personal dignity. While imminence is judged objectively and varies widely on the facts, it generally suggests there is little to no opportunity for intervening acts.Lastly, the state of apprehension should be differentiated from the general state of fear, as apprehension requires only that the person be aware of the imminence of the harmful or offensive act. – wikipedia

Abuse of process is a cause of action in tort arising from one party making a malicious and deliberate misuse or perversion of regularly issued court process (civil or criminal) not justified by the underlying legal action. It is a common law intentional tort. It is to be distinguished from malicious prosecution, another type of tort that involves misuse of the public right of access to the courts. The elements of a valid cause of action for abuse of process in most common law jurisdictions are as follows: (1) the existence of an ulterior purpose or motive underlying the use of process, and (2) some act in the use of the legal process not proper in the regular prosecution of the proceedings.[1] Abuse of process can be distinguished from malicious prosecution, in that abuse of process typically does not require proof of malice, lack of probable cause in procuring issuance of the process, or a termination favorable to the plaintiff, all of which are essential to a claim of malicious prosecution.[2] “Process,” as used in this context, includes not only the “service of process,” i.e. an official summons or other notice issued from a court, but means any method used to acquire jurisdiction over a person or specific property that is issued under the official seal of a court.[3] Typically, the person who abuses process is interested only in accomplishing some improper purpose that is collateral to the proper object of the process and that offends justice, such as an unjustified arrest or an unfounded criminal prosecution. Subpoenas to testify, attachments of property, executions on property, garnishments, and other provisional remedies are among the types of “process” considered to be capable of abuse. – wikipedia

A tort consists of a wrongful acts or injury that leads to physical, emotional, or financial damage to a person in which another person could be held legally responsible.[1] The two main subcategories of tort law are intentional torts and unintentional torts…The main difference between intentional torts and unintentional torts is intent. An intentional tort is when a person intends to achieve a particular outcome that results in injury to people or damage to property, whereas an unintentional tort such as negligence, occurs when there has been a lack of duty of care or foreseeability that results in injury to people or damage to property.  – wikipedia

Intentional infliction of emotional distress (IIED) is a tort claim…intentional conduct that results in extreme emotional distress…created in tort law to address a problem that would arise when applying the common law form of assault. The common law tort of assault did not allow for liability when a threat of battery was not imminent. A common case would be a future threat of harm that would not constitute common law assault, but would nevertheless cause emotional harm to the recipient. IIED was created to guard against this kind of emotional abuse, thereby allowing a victim of emotional distress to receive compensation in situations where he or she would otherwise be barred from compensation under the common law form…”intentional infliction of mental shock”…the willful nature of the act as a direct cause of the harm. Elements:Defendant acted intentionally or recklessly; and Defendant’s conduct was extreme and outrageous; and Defendant’s act is the cause of the distress; and Plaintiff suffers severe emotional distress as a result of defendant’s conduct…The conduct must be heinous and beyond the standards of civilized decency or utterly intolerable in a civilized society. Whether the conduct is illegal does not determine whether it meets this standard…the standard: the conduct must be such that it would cause a reasonable person to exclaim “Outrageous!” in response…Some general factors that will persuade that the conduct was extreme and outrageous (1) there was a pattern of conduct, not just an isolated incident; (2) the plaintiff was vulnerable and the defendant knew it; (3) the defendant was in a position of power; (4) racial epithets were used; and (5) the defendant owed the plaintiff a fiduciary duty. – wikipedia, [often pleaded as Nervous Shock(PTSD, etc.)in Canada]

In tort law, a duty of care is a legal obligation imposed on an individual requiring that they adhere to a standard of reasonable care while performing any acts that could foreseeably harm others. It is the first element that must be established to proceed with an action in negligence. The claimant must be able to show a duty of care imposed by law which the defendant has breached. In turn, breaching a duty may subject an individual to liability. The duty of care may be imposed by operation of law between individuals with no current direct relationship (familial or contractual or otherwise), but eventually become related in some manner, as defined by common law (meaning case law). Duty of care may be considered a formalization of the social contract, the implicit responsibilities held by individuals towards others within society. It is not a requirement that a duty of care be defined by law, though it will often develop through the jurisprudence of common law. – wikipedia


statement of claim. 1. COMPLAINT (1). 2. English law.
statement. (18c) 1. Evidence. A verbal assertion or nonverbal conduct intended as an assertion. 2. A formal and exact presentation of facts.
statement of cause of action. See STATEMENT (2). A plaintiff’s initial pleading in a civil case
PLEADING – 1. A formal document in which a party to a legal proceeding (esp. a civil lawsuit) sets forth or responds to allegations, claims, denials, or defenses. • In federal civil procedure, the main pleadings are the plaintiff’s complaint and the defendant’s answer.
STATEMENT OF FACT – A form of conduct that asserts or implies the existence or nonexistence of a fact. The term includes not just a particular statement that a particular fact exists or has existed, but also an assertion that, although perhaps expressed as an opinion, implies the existence of some fact or facts that have led the assertor to hold the opinion in question. See affirmative TESTIMONY.
STATEMENT OF FACTS – A party’s written presentation of the facts leading up to or surrounding a legal dispute…
informed consent. – 1. A person’s agreement to allow something to happen, made with full knowledge of the risks involved and the alternatives. • For the legal profession, informed consent is defined in Model Rule of Professional Conduct 1.0(e).2. A patient’s knowing choice about a medical treatment or procedure, made after a physician or other healthcare provider discloses whatever information a reasonably prudent provider in the medical community would give to a patient regarding the risks involved in the proposed treatment or procedure. — Also termed knowing consent.
voluntary consent – Consent that is given freely and that has not been coerced.
IN MALA FIDE In bad faith. – “A possessor in mala fide is one who holds possession of a subject, in the knowledge that it is not his own, on a title which he knows, or has reasonable ground for believing to be a bad one.”
– blacks law dic.

Fear and anxiety are forms of assault damage which may also create a situation of battery as a cause of action.



OLR Research Report

January 2, 2004 2004-R-0002
By: George Coppolo, Chief Attorney

You asked what are the elements of economic and noneconomic damages in a medical malpractice case.


In a medical malpractice lawsuit (just as in any personal injury lawsuit), there are two types of damages: economic and noneconomic. Economic damages are monies awarded as compensation for monetary losses and expenses, which the plaintiff has incurred, or is reasonably likely to incur in the future, as a result of the defendant’s negligence. Noneconomic damages are monies awarded as compensation for non-monetary losses and injuries, which the plaintiff has suffered, or is reasonably likely to suffer in the future, as a result of the defendant’s negligence.

There appears to be no statute or court case that contains a complete list of all possible economic or noneconomic damages. And while there are official and unofficial sample or recommended jury instructions for medical malpractice as well as other personal injury cases, there is no definitive or uniform set of jury instructions that judges must give to a jury. We spoke with Judge Lagenback who recently presided over a medical malpractice case against Hartford Hospital that resulted in a large jury verdict. He told us that the judge has the duty to give the jury charge concerning damages that he believes is appropriate in light of the evidence offered and the claims for damages the plaintiff has made. A judge can rely on sample jury instructions and on proposed instructions each side presents, but ultimately it is the judge’s decision based on his understanding of the law of damages as established by statutory and case law. If a judge gives an incorrect instruction, any party may appeal, and the verdict could be overturned.

The statutes require that the jury or, if there is no jury, the court to specify: (1) the amount of economic damages; (2) the amount of noneconomic damages; and (3) any findings of fact necessary for the court to specify recoverable economic damages and recoverable noneconomic damages (CGS § 52-572h). This law defines “economic damages” as compensation determined by the trier of fact for pecuniary losses including, but not limited to, the cost of reasonable and necessary medical care, rehabilitative services, custodial care and loss of earnings or earning capacity excluding any noneconomic damages. It defines “noneconomic damages” as compensation determined by the trier of fact for all nonpecuniary losses including, but not limited to, physical pain and suffering and mental and emotional suffering.

Because the statutes do not contain an exhaustive list of economic or noneconomic damages, courts must look to the common law to determine what is recoverable as an economic or nonecomic damages.

Based on our examination of case law and recommended jury instructions, the following types of economic and noneconomic damages are recoverable if proven by the injured party: Economic damages can include lost wages and other income including benefits such as pension contributions, medical care and expenses, custodial care, lost earnings, lost earning capacity, and funeral expenses if the injury resulted in death. Noneconomic damages can include physical pain and suffering, mental distress and suffering, permanent impairment or loss of function, disfigurement, loss of the ability to enjoy life’s pleasures, loss of consortium, and death.


The background information is taken almost verbatim from the Judicial Department’s web site under the heading of Civil Jury Instructions. They were compiled to assist judges. Their use is discretionary. Whether any jury instructions are sufficient and accurate is a question of law, which either party can appeal.

An injured plaintiff is entitled to recover all the damages caused by the negligent act. To be entitled to damages a plaintiff must establish a causal relation between the injury and the physical condition, which he claims resulted from it (Bates v. Carroll, 99 Conn. 677, 679). This causal connection must rest upon more than surmise or conjecture (Witowski v. Goldberg, 115 Conn. 693, 696). The trier of fact is not concerned with possibilities but with reasonable probabilities (Richardson v. Pratt & Whitney Mfg. Co., 129 Conn. 669,672).

Under the law of damages, insofar as money can do it, the plaintiff is entitled to receive fair, just and reasonable compensation for all injuries and losses, past and future, which are proximately caused by the defendant’s proven negligence. Negligence is a proximate cause of a loss or injury if it is a substantial factor in bringing that loss or injury about.

Under this rule, the purpose of an award of damages is not to punish or penalize the defendant for his negligence, but to compensate the plaintiff for his resulting injuries and losses. The jury is instructed to attempt to put the plaintiff in the same position, as far as money can do it, that he would have been in had the defendant not been negligent.

The law imposes certain rules to govern the award of damages in any case where liability is proven. Just as the plaintiff has the burden of proving liability by a fair preponderance of the evidence, he has the burden of proving his entitlement to recover damages by a fair preponderance of the evidence. Thus, the plaintiff must prove (1) the nature and extent of each particular loss or injury for which he seeks to recover damages and (2) that the loss or injury in question was proximately caused by the defendant’s negligence. The jury may not guess or speculate as to the nature or extent of the plaintiff’s losses or injuries. Its decision must be based on reasonable probabilities in light of the evidence presented at trial. Injuries and losses for which the plaintiff should be compensated include those he suffered up to and including the time the jury deliberates, and those he is reasonably likely to suffer in the future as a proximate result of the defendant’s negligence.

Once the plaintiff has proved the nature and extent of his compensable injuries and losses, it becomes the jury’s job (or the court’s if there is no jury) to determine what is fair, just and reasonable compensation for those injuries and losses. There is often no mathematical formula in making this determination. Instead, the jury must use human experience and apply sound common sense in determining the amount of the verdict.

In a personal injury action, there are two general types of damages: economic and noneconomic damages. Economic damages are monies awarded as compensation for monetary losses and expenses, which the plaintiff has incurred, or is reasonably likely to incur in the future, as a result of the defendant’s negligence. They are awarded for such things as the cost of reasonable and necessary medical care and lost earnings. Noneconomic damages are monies awarded as compensation for non-monetary losses and injuries, which the plaintiff has suffered, or is reasonably likely to suffer in the future, as a result of the defendant’s negligence. They are awarded for such things as physical pain and suffering, mental and emotional pain and suffering, and loss of diminution of the ability to enjoy life’s pleasures.

Following are recoverable economic and noneconomic damages in a medical malpractice case.


Medical Care and Expenses

The plaintiff is entitled to recover the reasonable value of medical care and expenses incurred for the treatment of injuries sustained as a result of the defendant’s negligence. The plaintiff must prove that the expenses he claims were reasonably necessary and proximately caused by the defendant’s negligence.

Loss of Earnings or Earning Capacity

The plaintiff is also entitled to recover any lost earnings that he proves to have been proximately caused by the defendant’s negligence. With respect to lost earnings up to the present time, the plaintiff must prove that the defendant’s negligence has prevented him from receiving the earnings for which he seeks compensation. He must do so by establishing a reasonable probability that his injury brought about a loss of earnings. The evidence must establish a basis for a reasonable estimate of that loss.

Loss of Earning Capacity

The plaintiff is also entitled to damages for the loss of future earnings based upon the evidence as to what he probably could have earned but for the harm caused by the defendant’s negligence and as to what the plaintiff can now earn through the earning period of his life.


A plaintiff who is injured by the negligence of another is entitled to be compensated for all physical pain and suffering, mental and emotional suffering, loss of the ability to enjoy life’s pleasures, and permanent impairment or loss of function that he proves by a fair preponderance of the evidence to have been proximately caused by the defendant’s negligence. As far as money can compensate the plaintiff for such injuries and their consequences, the jury must award a fair, just, and reasonable sum. The jurors must use their own good judgment in awarding damages in this category. They must consider the nature and duration of any pain and suffering that they find.

Mental Distress and Suffering

A plaintiff who is injured by the negligence of another is entitled to be compensated for mental suffering caused by the defendant’s negligence for the results that proximately flow from it in the same manner as he is for physical suffering. Included within this class of damages is the fear that death will result from an injury, if the jury concludes the plaintiff honestly had this fear.

Loss of the Ability to Enjoy Life’s Pleasures

The jury must consider, as a separate category for awarding damages in this case, the length of time the plaintiff was, or will probably be, disabled from engaging in activities which he enjoys.

Permanent Impairment or Loss of Function

If the jury finds that it is reasonably probable that the plaintiff has suffered permanent physical harm, loss of function or disfigurement, he is entitled to be compensated for that category of injury. The award should be in accordance with the nature and extent of such physical impairment, loss of function, or disfigurement and the length of time he is reasonably expected to endure its negative consequences. Typically, the court will instruct the jury as to the use of any evidence of life expectancy that has been introduced. But while mortality tables are generally held admissible to assist the jury to estimate the expectancy of a plaintiff’s life and thus determining the period of the probable duration of a permanent incapacity, they are not necessarily conclusive nor are they the exclusive evidence admissible. A jury may also consider other evidence such as age, health, habits, and physical condition.


The jury may also assess fair compensation for any disfigurement such as scaring. It must take into consideration any reasonable probability that the disfigurement will be less noticeable as time goes on and also taking into consideration any mortification and anguish the plaintiff has suffered and will in the future suffer.

Pre-existing Condition

The plaintiff is entitled to full compensation for all injuries and losses proximately caused by the defendant’s negligence even though those injuries and losses are more serious than they otherwise would have been because of a pre-existing condition. The jury may not compensate the plaintiff for the pre-existing injury itself. But, the aggravation of such an injury, proximately caused by the defendant’s negligence, is a proper item of noneconomic damages.

Damages for Death

Damages for death are allowed as compensation for the destruction of the decedent’s capacity to carry on life’s activities, including his capacity to earn money. It is the sum that would have compensated the deceased so far as money could do for the destruction of his capacity to carry on life’s activities, as he would have done had he not been killed, including the destruction of his earning capacity.

Loss of Consortium

The law allows damages for the loss of consortium. These are damages due a spouse because of injuries to the other spouse (Hopson v. St. Mary‘s Hospital, 176 Conn. 485). “Consortium” encompasses the services of the spouse and the variety of intangible relations that exist between spouses living together in marriage. These intangibles are generally described in terms of affection, society, companionship, and sexual relations. They have also been defined as the constellation of companionship, dependence, reliance, affection, sharing and aid, that are legally recognizable, protected rights arising out of he civil contract of marriage.


Legal Fiction: How Omissions in Legal Representation Form the Foundation of Fascist Canada’s Silent Softkill Genocides…

Human rights justice is a media fiction in Canada.
A fiction propogated by Rand and our “protected by the CRTC” media landscape of choose your channel mind programming

“Who, by act or omission…commits genocide…”
[“genocide” means an act or omission committed with intent to destroy, in whole or in part, an identifiable group of persons, as such, that, at the time and in the place of its commission, constitutes genocide according to customary international law or conventional international law or by virtue of its being criminal according to the general principles of law recognized by the community of nations, whether or not it constitutes a contravention of the law in force at the time and in the place of its commission.]

Omissions in access to justice, healthcare, basic needs…
Omissions are active programs
by the abscence of their services
an action occurs

action T4

So much this one costs
the homeland
social parasites
and culturally colorful

I started long ago trying to get a lawyer
which is hard since I have no phone or $30 a month for a plan.
I use the Library for internet.

About 5 months ago now I decided I need a Human Rights lawyer and that I should start my litigations against Vancouver Coastal Health there. Much of my contacts and interaction in the past with employees or contractors of the VCH in pursuit of proper healthcare have been outline on my blogs and in other writings.

Since I am Intersex, as previously discussed, and having problems with gaining access to specialists knowledgeable about that congenital condition and the specifics thereof, I decided that I would either need a lawyer, or would have to hobble through 4 years of law school and become one.
Scenario 2 appears to be the only option.
I contacted the B.C. Coalition for Human Rights.
unfortunately, it seems their main business is not to help people gain access to legal representation for human rights abuses.
Their main business is to give workshops to corporate representatives and managers about how to bulletproof their HR against human rights abuse claims.
They did give me two names.
I pressed them and everyone else I have emailed to give me more names
but I only get two.

One lawyer works for one of the Vancouver coastal health clinics which I may need to sue, over the genocidal actions of some of its contracted employees.
So she works the the Action T4 program herself and is unacceptable.
The other lawyer whose name I was given
Has, in 5 months, done nothing, really.
Because I have no money.
So my access to law and representation to navigate the court system
is a fiction
a Legal Fiction

a vaporous

So, 5 more months
of daily pain
I have a bunch of bogus mental health crap on my medical records courtesy of Dr. Brown, Dr. COOPER and his relative, nurse COOPER(ala sga!), Patti Zettel, Dr. Wilsone, and of course, Dr. Rondeau who stuck his hand imy ass instead of ordering the ultrasound of my perineum that I asked for 12 visits straight.
And I actually can’t sue, anybody
because I don’t have access to legal representation
The “Human Rights” lawyer
actually trusts
the doctors and nurses
who, as I have stated clearly in previous accountings, made no tests or even VISUAL EXAMINATIONs of something I have posted a JPEG of!
I guess its a common camera artifact eh?
Across thousands of cameras?


The nice lady in the pet store was concerned
but when she heard I had to sue a doctor
or a few
she laughed sadly
being from america
“But this is Canada
You can’t sue a doctor in Canada.”

Apparently its common knowledge
their godlike status
priveleged protection
so privileged they can emulate Action T4
and no one can ever hope to sue them

It takes $40K to actually live and have transportation, communication, and other basics fully met. That is the base. From that a human slave who has been robbed or beaten or fucked over by an organized crime gang, a wealthy businessman, or a couple of doctors, has to slave somehow to gain about
$20K more
just to begin
to have access to “justice”
and there is still so much more
of the Legal Fiction
to wade through
from there.


for your reference:

Crimes Against Humanity and War Crimes Act

S.C. 2000, c. 24

Assented to 2000-06-29

An Act respecting genocide, crimes against humanity and war crimes and to implement the Rome Statute of the International Criminal Court, and to make consequential amendments to other Acts

Her Majesty, by and with the advice and consent of the Senate and House of Commons of Canada, enacts as follows:


Marginal note:Short title

 This Act may be cited as the Crimes Against Humanity and War Crimes Act.


Marginal note:Definitions
  •  (1) The definitions in this subsection apply in this Act.

    “conventional international law”

    « droit international conventionnel »

    “conventional international law” means any convention, treaty or other international agreement

    • (a) that is in force and to which Canada is a party; or

    • (b) that is in force and the provisions of which Canada has agreed to accept and apply in an armed conflict in which it is involved.

    “International Criminal Court”

    « Cour pénale internationale »

    “International Criminal Court” means the International Criminal Court established by the Rome Statute.


    « fonctionnaire »

    “official”, in respect of the International Criminal Court, means the Prosecutor, Registrar, Deputy Prosecutor and Deputy Registrar, and the staff of the organs of the Court.

    “Rome Statute”

    « Statut de Rome »

    “Rome Statute” means the Rome Statute of the International Criminal Court adopted by the United Nations Diplomatic Conference of Plenipotentiaries on the Establishment of an International Criminal Court on July 17, 1998, as corrected by the procès-verbaux of November 10, 1998, July 12, 1999, November 30, 1999 and May 8, 2000, portions of which are set out in the schedule.

  • Marginal note:Words and Expressions

    (2) Unless otherwise provided, words and expressions used in this Act have the same meaning as in the Criminal Code.


Marginal note:Binding on Her Majesty

 This Act is binding on Her Majesty in right of Canada or a province.


Marginal note:Genocide, etc., committed in Canada
  •  (1) Every person is guilty of an indictable offence who commits

    • (a) genocide;

    • (b) a crime against humanity; or

    • (c) a war crime.

  • Marginal note:Conspiracy, attempt, etc.

    (1.1) Every person who conspires or attempts to commit, is an accessory after the fact in relation to, or counsels in relation to, an offence referred to in subsection (1) is guilty of an indictable offence.

  • Marginal note:Punishment

    (2) Every person who commits an offence under subsection (1) or (1.1)

    • (a) shall be sentenced to imprisonment for life, if an intentional killing forms the basis of the offence; and

    • (b) is liable to imprisonment for life, in any other case.

  • Marginal note:Definitions

    (3) The definitions in this subsection apply in this section.

    “crime against humanity”

    « crime contre l’humanité »

    “crime against humanity” means murder, extermination, enslavement, deportation, imprisonment, torture, sexual violence, persecution or any other inhumane act or omission that is committed against any civilian population or any identifiable group and that, at the time and in the place of its commission, constitutes a crime against humanity according to customary international law or conventional international law or by virtue of its being criminal according to the general principles of law recognized by the community of nations, whether or not it constitutes a contravention of the law in force at the time and in the place of its commission.


    « génocide »

    “genocide” means an act or omission committed with intent to destroy, in whole or in part, an identifiable group of persons, as such, that, at the time and in the place of its commission, constitutes genocide according to customary international law or conventional international law or by virtue of its being criminal according to the general principles of law recognized by the community of nations, whether or not it constitutes a contravention of the law in force at the time and in the place of its commission.

    “war crime”

    « crime de guerre »

    “war crime” means an act or omission committed during an armed conflict that, at the time and in the place of its commission, constitutes a war crime according to customary international law or conventional international law applicable to armed conflicts, whether or not it constitutes a contravention of the law in force at the time and in the place of its commission.

  • Marginal note:Interpretation — customary international law

    (4) For greater certainty, crimes described in Articles 6 and 7 and paragraph 2 of Article 8 of the Rome Statute are, as of July 17, 1998, crimes according to customary international law. This does not limit or prejudice in any way the application of existing or developing rules of international law.

> On 4/16/14, LKnights@lsbc.org <LKnights@lsbc.org> wrote:
>> Dear Christopher Taylor:
>> I acknowledge receipt of your April 14, 2014 email.
>> Unfortunately, the Law Society is unable to assist you with finding a
>> lawyer.
>> Information about the function of the Law Society and the limits of what
>> we
>> can and cannot do can be found on our website at
>> http://www.lawsociety.bc.ca<;http://www.lawsociety.bc.ca&gt;.
>> Yours truly,
>> Lynne Knights | Intake Officer, Professional Conduct
>> Law Society of British Columbia
>> 845 Cambie Street, Vancouver, BC V6B 4Z9
>> t  604.443.5722 | BC toll-free 1.800.903.5300
>> f 604.605.5399
>> ________________________________
>> Regulating in the public interest | http://www.lawsociety.bc.ca




[Using numbered paragraphs, set out a concise statement of the material facts giving rise to the

plaintiff ’s(s’) claim.]

[If any party sues or is sued in a representative capacity, identify the party and describe the representative capacity.]


[Using numbered paragraphs, set out the relief sought and indicate against which defendant(s) that relief is

sought. Relief may be sought in the alternative.]


[Using numbered paragraphs, set out a concise summary of the legal bases on which the plaintiff(s) intend(s) to

rely in support of the relief sought and specify any rule or other enactment relied on. The legal bases for the relief

sought may be set out in the alternative.]

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[Set out the street address of the address for service. One or both of a fax number and an e-mail address may be given

as additional addresses for service.]

Plaintiff’s address for service:

Taylor vs. Vancouver Coastal Health/BC College of Physicians

Commercial Drive Clinic

Dr. Cooper
Dr. Mah

Diamond Centre/VGH

Dr. Brown


Nurse Patti Zettel
Dr. Wilson

The Kettle Friendship Society, VCH Clinic

Nurse Anna Cooper

Three Bridges

Dr. Sakakibara
Dr. Thompson        Three Bridges

Three Bridges, Gender resource centre

Lucas Walter

Dr. Aronshtam

Broadway Clinic

Dr. Rondeau
Dr. Fong

VGH Radiology

Multiple Technicians /personnel (Jane and John Does)

CML radiology

Radiologist Jin



(details of Statements are in schedule – )
(Details of the character and experiences of the plaintiff are set forth in schedule -)

       The plaintiff has congenital intersexuality and is seeking a specialist in intersexuality to discuss client centered care options. See schedule –
The plaintiff was assaulted and his genitals mutilated using gender normalization techniques at 17 years on request of his parents. The plaintiff was not given informed consent, had no knowledge of his intersexuality at the time of the operation. This occurred at University of Alberta Research Hospital.
The plaintiff discovered and investigated his intersexuality approx. 7 years ago. It was hidden from him by his family. The family of the plaintiff had a duty to inform but did not and actually destroyed all childhood pictures and medical records as they were instructed to do by the doctors at the time
The plaintiff began to seek healthcare for numerous conditions (see schedule -) and tried to find medical services in the Vancouver area with a provider that understood intersexuality.
The plaintiff was at multiple times mocked, laughed at, treated dismissively, assaulted, sexually assaulted, sexually harassed, libeled causing assault and battery and almost died due to the intentional and negligent tortuous conduct of the defendant’s contractors, subcontractors and employees. Each incident is set forth individually in schedule –
The plaintiff asserts tortuous conspiracy to cause harm or death occurred between different contractors, subcontractors and employees of the defense
The plaintiff asserts that some of the actions and assaults against his person committed by the defendant’s contractors, subcontractors and employees were part of an extortion initiated by persons not in the defendents employ, however the defendant’s agents consciously committed the tort of conspiracy with those persons and further acted intentionally to the detriment and damage of the plaintiff. See schedule –
The plaintiff asserts as a statement of fact that some of the initiating agents and representatives of the defendants committed these offences against the plaintiff to further an extortion committed by a familial member of those agents.
The plaintiff asserts that some actions and assaults were committed for reasons of genocidal hatred against persons with congenital intersexuality (hate crimes). See schedule –
The plaintiff was made homeless by the actions of a third party engaged in defamation and extortion of the plaintiff.
The defendant’s agents and representatives withheld key medical services to the defendant and some agents did willfully cause harm to the defendants person and reputation.
Multiple agents and representatives of the defendant were involved in defamation of the plaintiff’s character by attempting to characterize and label the defendant as a delusional or schizo-affective mental health patient.
The plaintiff asserts that at no time in his life has he been delusional or schizo-affective and that the plaintiff does not meet the requirements of the DSM-4 and definitely not of the DSM-5.
The defamation is linked to the previously defined extortion.
The intentional libel of mental illness of the plaintiff persisted for more than 7 years throughout the health provider system and even on VPD records causing irreparable health and career problems due to agents treating the plaintiff as delusional at first contact.
The plaintiff asserts his “sanity” as follows.
Approximately 7 years ago the plaintiff was subcontracted to work for the Information Technology dept. of the Supreme Court of British Columbia.
Although the plaintiff was only employed with SCBC for 2.5 months, there are approximately 1000+ helpdesk calls that were placed to the defendant during that time, of which there are detailed records and possibly even recorded phone calls.
The plaintiff was responsible for personally fixing many Supreme Court Justice’s specific computer user issues, including on their laptops.
The plaintiff has, and it is on record as a tech call, sat next to the Supreme Court’s highest judge, in her chambers, and assisted her with a database connection to a reference library.
At no time during the plaintiffs employ was there ever an armed police officer to protect the justices from the plaintiff.
The plaintiff states that he has martial arts training on a casual basis since the age of 24, in a combination of fighting styles.
The plaintiff walked through the back halls of the SCBC freely, attending technical calls.
There was no armed guard watching out for the schizophrenic martial artist.
Because there wasn’t one.
These things are a matter of record.

The plaintiff asserts that he has been assessed by a psychologist while under duress at least 3 times in police custody and was released without charge or mention of any mental illness other than the PTSD that the plaintiff has due to many previous assaults against his person.
These assessments were made under false pretenses or as a result of an abuse of process by agents under the employ of the defendant and other 3rd parties.
Each of these assessments was made while the plaintif was falsely imprisoned with restraints, and the plaintiff was released each time.
These assessments would also be a matter of record and be available for the court to view.

The plaintiff makes a Statement of Fact that he was given a substantial amount of ether during a recent visit to St. Paul’s emergency.
The plaintiff asserts he was assaulted with intent to injure by 3 doctors and 2 support personnel at approximately 3 am (details to follow)about 9 months ago.
Ether is not given to patients anymore except in extreme circumstances.
The ether was administered based on libel (an intentionally erroneous “violent patient” label on files posted by a Dr. Brown) and possibly slander or conspiracy based on the discovery process and the possibility that some or all of the doctors did in fact speak on the phone directly to Dr. Brown.
The plaintiff asserts that he was given enough ether that he was hacking up white particulate for 3-4 days after the visit. The plaintiff also visually saw the small white ether delivery nasal administrator and watched the white particulate enter his nostrils.
The provider asserts that he was given oxygen only.
The plaintiff asserts that there was no clear mask of oxygen, just a small white 2 pronged nose clip.
The plaintiff began to suffer severe strokes in the days following the procedure (which was simply to reposition a blocked anguinal hernia).
Over the next month the plaintiff suffered at least 20 major strokes requiring grabbing something for support or immediately sitting. Numerous lighter strokes occurred as well.
The plaintiff continues to suffer from repeated strokes.

Discount Dildos

So I was a little drunk and kinda stoned
and I had an extra 20 bucks
so I thought I should get a dildo
because organic cucumbers  and zucchinis
eventually decay
Anyways, I was pretty loaded but coherent
and I walked into this dyke dildo store in my neighborhood
Its a serious dyke shop
so I was a bit scared
but I trudged on in
There was this pretty little skinny dyke girl with one of those hitler hairdos that thom yorke sings about running the shop
I asked her if boys were allowed
And she sniggered a little and said yes with a slightly sarcastic wry little smile
so I’m standing there
I got about $30 I can spend
but I guess I’m in a “boutique”
because I’m standing there
trying to focus(because I have extremely bad eyesight and no glasses)
I’m looking ahead of me
and the isle has about 5 dildos
in presentation displays
and these things are REALLY scary
they’ve got veins, and extruding flanges
the perfect textured rubber/neoprene with the throbbiest vibes inside them, or so the display promised
hardcore jerk off science
I was sooooo scared.
There was no way one of those little ribbed things was going anywhere near my butt.
and they where all over $350.
I had sticker shock on top of the ribbed vein science prod fear.
I looked at the pretty little sourpuss beside me
she was amused
There was no way I would ever let her peg me
She just wasn’t gentle at all
I said
“Don’t you have a Discount Dildo section?”
A huge smile crossed her sour little face
“oh, yes, over here.”
She points
I look
There is one dildo there
about 5.5 inches, very slim
with a base, and wires running into it
She says
“Its $50”
I look at it
then her
“That’s a LOT more expensive than a cucumber”
I said.

As I walked out
I wondered drunkenly if it was just a front for laundering drug money with fake $400 dildo sales.
Oh well. I know there’s a $10 one a little Sister’s
its just plastic…

Low end game design: idtech 4

I haven’t written about idtech in my game designer exploration for a very good reason
The idtech boyz do military sims
they have incredible gear
and their games have always ground down the best consumer machines of the day of their release
I finally decided to give them a good look, choppy framerates and all

They have beautiful rendering in the game engine, they support normal, bump, and specularity maps
Models and animations are done in Lightwave by the developers but you can use other things and milkshape converts to and from md5
I used this:
it has a 6 page step by step tutorial about exporting an animated mesh from LW
but you can model in something else and use either milkshape or lw to convert
or mirex’s Biturn http://mirex.mypage.sk/FILES/bi088.rar
but for anything other than an animated mesh, importing and mapping is really easy
I have a thing called the doom material editor which helped with surface flags (translucent, mirror, two sided, etc.) but straight textures and mapping meshes is easy
a lot can be done in 3d coat or another package with just the 4 image maps
the uv’s are all that matter.

That’s the level editor
I hate it
I’ve always hated it
I think I always will.

Too much clicking, a nonstandard interface, its just wierd to me.
But I suffered through and can use it enough to do what I need.

Optimizing levels is hard
On even a small room, one misoptimized mesh or large texture can slag the FPS.
But its pretty, and it has bumps.
oooh. bumps. so nice…

the bumps on the chest and the legs scales are 3d coat normal and bump

Material definition files allow textures to consist of diffuse, bump and specular on brush materials
a huge bonus!

This is the game mesh
very low polys

none of the work that makes this look like in game is done to the mesh
the only thing being modified are the 4 image maps for diffuse colour, normal tangent space, specular, and height/depth maps, no polygons are harmed in the process in any way.
I simply added the 4 new images to the folder where the other image maps were and changed the lines in the the material file to point to the new files
What the flamboyant dude here is showing us is specularity
the diffuse colour image map below is completely devoid of purple
all of the purple on the dude is coming from the specular colour map
which I made purple to see how much the specular colour affects the look
I have read that putting colors opposite the diffuse gives interesting effects.
from opening the md5 file to extract the low poly mesh for texturing to exporting the maps from 3d coat and changing the material file took 20 minutes to make the standard marine tech look all bumped out and green with purple specularity.

Image046This image is again showing the power of specularity as the reflection in the mirror of the painting behind the player has large black areas that are raised and shiny – specularity and bump on a blog surface! The blog is a single 6 sided polygon, yet we are getting rendered bump and specular lighting detail in that space.
The mirror is pretty but it slams the framerate.




it also comes with an sdk which has a visual c++ solution
not as easy as the unreal scripting
but you can do everything you want because its GPL
I was able to load it into VC++ 2005 express just fine

creating new entities requires you to write a definition file
which is basically a class extension script
and that can be done without any compiling
but you can’t just click in the editor and extend a class
you have to manually write a .def file

ITs not as easy to extend the programming without actual visual c++, but importing bum[p mapped meshes alone makes it a big favorite.

It is SOOOOOOOO picky about leaking light in rooms
make backup copies always as you go

but its pretty
even though its a military sim
no civilians if that’s what your game is
but good for outer space and alien stuff.

the gui materials totally rock too.

The simple low poly mesh shown earlier, plus these 4 image maps below, creates the interesting final result in the game engine.
The original diffuse and local space tangent normal map are seen as well as the modified maps. The specular is the stock one, with simple colorization and spinning the hue to the opposite of green, increasing the contrast, and lowering the brightness. If it was even lowered more the results would be more subtle.
Maybe 40 minutes was spent to create the demonstration here, and the original mesh was never touched, it was only used as a reference base for the uv painting in 3d coat.
Beyond the need for optimization and frugal shader use, the idtech 4 engine gives beautiful color, bump, and light rendering. The normal maps rock.
Its GPL so you can create your own games with it without a license, but you would have to strip away the Prey, Quake4 or Doom3 related assets.
The hud and PDA/video/audio log system is accesible.
The editor sux. Maybe you could make a better one. When everyone else was using radiant on Quake 1 and 2 maps I was using hammer and glad to not be as ‘leet as them. I can’t right click and get the properties of an object, yet they insist on taking up about a thousand pixels of my screen space with f#$%#$% windows toolbars and window decorations. Grrr. Programmer geeks just don’t get interface design. I will one day create an intelligent editor that will just make a bloody room with a door and you can drag out to extend the hallways, double click to make new roooms or caves, or buildings, and right click bloody everything and drag its handles to wet your panties. But I swore I would never become a programmer.
Map sections can be built completely in a 3d package as long as you can save it into .lwo or .ase with uv mapping. I think that’s why they neglect the editor, they actually design large sections of maps directly in a 3d package like maya, lightwave, or max.
BSP is very picky in idtech4, save often.
There isn’t a conversation system, and there are no real civilian assets, so if your game is not military in nature you would have to make an md5 workflow and import some character assets.
A couple vehicles are included, but they are military as well.
There is a vehicle mod for Doom 3 that has a nice regular jeep in it that works good, and I believe that mod can be tweaked into quake 4, but there doesn’t seem to be one there by default, just the walker and the tank.
I personally haven’t figured out the head system yet. I think the entiy .def files for each soldier that isn’t generic contain the specific heads, decals, etc. but they often share the same base mesh.
In contrast, if you were to use Deus Ex to previs your design you have approximately 90+ discreet civilians to start with that are already subclassed. But it isn’t GPL.

I like the Prey engine and assets,
which is basically the same as Doom 3 and Quake 4
but I like the gravity mechanics and the base creatures/entities
Note the line in the config file
everything elde is set at high quality
but I had to set this flag to “0” in order to use the uncompressed TGA textures instead of the DDS ones
I copuld not successfully make a normalmap into a dds for prey
so I set this flag and voila!
I now have uncompressed textures and normal maps on my dead alien
as you can see by the ostentatious pink and red bumpy lines made in 3d coat
I also gained a 3x longer load time
It was worth it.
notice the bumps and different coloured cells on the gun as well
you can tweak a lot of the glow effects with simple images
and it has texture swaps for bloodied versions as you can see by the farther dead alien that has a dark purple head and yellow on his legs.
I accidentally whacked the tooth alpha as you can also see.
I understand from exploring this that you could basically put anything from doom 3 or quake 4 or prey all into the same base engine and it will work with tweaking.
I am unable to successfully run the prey editor and dark radiant doesn’t like its textures, but all of these examples are just done with image maps and no modelling or level changes.
I am trying to get the editor to run and if I find the secret where it doesn’t freeze my video card and force me to restart, I’ll pass it along, beause the gravity effects are fun for puzzles.
I think I might even become hooked on idtech 4 if I can optimize the game rendering settings a bit.
The main drawback is the need to use a complex debugging and compiling environment for building in anything that isn’t in the engine.
And radiant. Ugh.
I think a lot of people would use idtech 4 for development if it had the following:
1. A new editor with a decent fullscreen texture browser,
2. gui’s for layered image map material creation and management.
3. an entity subclassing/creation dialog
4. disable advanced shaders and make a dx9c compatible version based on minimal shader use and the focus on image maps for texturing.
5. Some prefabs and a few civilian characters
6. Make a stripped down idtech 4 that contains a couple of weapons and characters and maps that are gpl as well. Remove it from its d3/q4/prey base.
7. Package it with a minimal IDE and a compiler. That VC++ along with the windows platform sdk is about 2 G. There must be another solution.
8. A dialog tree with triggers woulkd expand it.
9. Some code examples or updates, like regular vehicles, rpg style inventory management, etc. in templates.
With one of these 3 games as a base there is plenty of assets to tell a story with or previs, but stripping and repackaging the game is difficult and so you would be stuck with modding them unless you stripped and repackaged it yourself.


There is also an MD5 plugin for blenderand a script for max for exporting at Katsbits http://www.katsbits.com/
simply adding a glow texture and linking to it with a blend add function gives you some great effects. The glow image can be small 64×64 or large and intricately detailed. In the script you see rgb 1, zero is black and point sizes are in between. This section can also link to an equatio, trigger or function to increase the glow dynamically according to parameters initiated in the game, such as glowing turning on or of according to an entity death or a trigger.. but 1 or less just makes the image glow. R,G,B can also be set each on a line with its own value for simple colour altering of the glow. glow images should be mostly black and you can use the diffuse map as a guide to draw them.
if you look in the editor image, the holes on the wall there are not geometry, they are a normal mapped and bumped material on a flat geometric block.
This is the shortcut string you need to use for prey editor. The multisample flag is necessary or it will flake.
PREY.exe +set r_fullscreen 0 +r_gamma 1 +set r_multiSamples 0 +editor +set fs_game cdtmod

If you are going to work with idtech 4 and don’t have lightwave, this tool called noesis may help you with the MD5 format.


My next round of tests is something I’ve been working on for a number of years, but was waiting for the engine rendering to be good enough, I am going to make a virtual gallery using UT2k4 and another using idtech4 and see how just a simple room with paintings renders in each engine.

So in looking for a base engine to start building a game on, it matters whether you can modify it and also sell a game built on it without paying exorbitant licensing fees.
The base Idtech4 engine is now about 10+ years old.
I believe the terms of its use are basically that you can make and distribute and sell your game provided that you also allow your code base to be viewed and modified. If you don’t want anyone to be able to have your base code modifications you would be breaching gpl and have to pay licensing fees.
The idech4 source code was released many years ago with nothing serious coming from it.
I was wondering why.
So I downloaded all the main forks of idtech4 and compiled them.
iodoom compiled but sucked
the gpl base compiled, but a lot of new code for multiprocessing is in the BFG edition of the code so I looked for a fork off that.
The base Doom3-BFG-Master repository did not compile on VS2010 with an error in the joint section of model.h, which has significant differences from the base d3 version so you can’t just use the old one.
I then found RBDOOM-3-BFG-master, which contains all of the BFG edition code, adds some glshaders that are good on newer cards, and the author of the fork has made some effort to clean up and organize the source. It compiled and ran with some gl errors in the exe, but it did run. Download the master zip at the repository here https://github.com/RobertBeckebans/RBDOOM-3-BFG
RBDOOM-3-BFG-master also needs a program called cmake as the base build is made from a linux source and can be used to make a cross compiling(it will create windows and mac binaries as well) build on a linux machine, but I was using vs2010 in all its disgusting bloated glory in xp and I was able to generate a working vs2010 solution from the source in the zip repository by using the win32 cmake gui.
For those of you that hate microstink, you can actually compile this doom3 engine on a linux box with no microsoft libraries and no vc2010. vc2010+dx_sdk+MSWinSdk=4.5G!!!
I hate the MS IDE and libraries, I believe it is possible to compile idtech4 D3BFG on windows using mingw with a couple small community made libraries and the scons project. I am currently examining this other method of compiling in windows with cygwin/mingw and an alternative IDE. Bloated ide’s bug me soooo much.
The RBDoom project has solutions for the eclipse IDE as well as VC express from 2002 to 2012.
I found if you copy the bloated directx sdk folder to the projects folder you are building life get easier.
Anyway, I blah blah blahed this and that and ended upp with a nicely compiled executeable which works as well as I can see at this point.
The main problem with idtech 4 is no one has built a nice base package for it
it comes with no interface or anything and there is no set of base template content or even a player model.
No one has stepped up and made a base package yet
because a list of necessary startup assets isn’t there yet.
If you want build a game from scratch and sell it, RBDOOM-3-BFG-master might compile properly for you to build off.
You are on your own from there though, as documentation is sparse and other user support in forums is a non newbie friendly geekzone of hardcore programmers. RBDoom is the neatest and most organized.
A nice thing about idtech4 is that many entity definitions can be created with scripts, so with a good basic package you could extend the game and use it quite well without recompiling the base solution.
I personally find Q-Dir useful for copy-pasting paths and notepad++ indispensible for browsing the source directories. You can make a Doom 3 source workspace and have the different dev builds under different projects there and load the folder structure into the project. N++ also loads the image and model folder structures which helps in pasting filenames into the scripts you are working with.
Maybe someone could make a bare set of assets for D3 like Torque3D has.

You might be able to build off torque from MIT, many people have made games with it and it is a flexible engine with working (Swap RGB in the nvidia filter without inversions, as you see from the orange not blue .dds) normal mapping. It builds and runs fast on my machine and you can actually be up and running in minutes with your own dev build.
If you are not really a code person, but want to begin to get your feet wet, Torque is really very good. The core emty and full projects are about 350 megs and all the source is simplistic and available. It is the opposite of idtech, but of course, idech4 looks better than the older Tribes engine powering the free Torque.
The editor gui itself is ceated with scripts and all gui elements and the assets of the entire engine and editors are modifiable without recompiling anything. It can generate project files for other IDE’s, but I find notepad++ fine for browsing through it and xnview for browsing the image elements.
Someone needs to write some importers for it as you need to basically use an older version of xsi to write nice .dae files for it as it has no other import modules, but it does have nice performance with large normal and texture maps. Terrains are very smooth at about 5k, and there is vehicle and flying machine code.



I’m starting to warm up to Torque a lot. I like the open perspective interface that runs the game logic as you are building. I don’t like the .dae only 3d import, but if you use softimage xsi 6 or above the collada 1.4 import/export woks excellent and all clusters, nulls, mount points, lights, textures, etc. transfer well. I have been unable to find any other 3d package with .dae support that transfers things back and forth to torque, but I began my 3d explorations with softimage 3D from the irix to NT port 20 years ago.

The Torque world editor has an EXCELLENT shape editor for imported meshes. As you can see, you can ADD MOUNT POINTS and nulls and clusters and bones! It is so excellent to be able to add a mount point, light, camera point, particle emission null, etc. right in the editor and move the positions of them without having to load up the design package again.

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The old softimage I learned on:

It loads in Maya nice, but Maya 2012 only exports the 2012 fbx, not a collada 1.4 compliant DAE file.
I personally believe that OBJ should be the standard and they should make it work in all game engines.
Unfortunately I find myself using 3dsmax9 .ase files in idtech because I haven’t got the same LW version.

The big trick to using Torque is that the game engine and physics is running in the editor, so you can walk the player off the edge in the editor or drive a vehicle off and they will keep falling forever with no quick respawn to their starting spot. You have to alt-c to the world cam, position the camera above a platform or terrain, and drop the player at the camera point, with vehicles you select them in the scene tree and crtl-x then crtl-v while the world cam is over a platform.

It is also imperative that you make a zip of your base full and blank torque projects, as it is easy to break things in the gui or scripts at first, so being able to blow away the 260 meg full project folder and restore it from the zip is essential.

I have a 6 gig base backup of my idtech modding folders!

There is also OGRE3D and Irrlicht but they are very geek oriented game engines. If you want to use ogre3d thoug, with its bump and normal mapping and even occlusion mapping, then this is a better start: Ogre-Irrlicht GameKit which is not just the bare bones ogre, but has OGL, animation, mouse, sound, bones, physics, etc. all linked up already as you can see on the left of the VS2010 in the background which was used to compile it. Its a good starting base and it compiled and ran better right off than the base ogre which has nothing linked up by default. be Warned, both ogre and irrlicht use the horrible online only wiki docs that GNU crap is famous for, so you can’t study unless you download all the pages of dox you want. I have an offline dev box so its a super pain. But GameKit made me happy with Ogre3d as it compiled and ran perfectly.
Image076I like this the best in the repository:
Its blender 2.5 with the gamekit latest build installed and the executeable for both dx and pure ogl.
I am currently working on im[plementing the bump mapping normal map shaders to import files.
Anything that can import into blender will go into it!!!
It is waaaaay cool.


http://code.google.com/p/gamekit is the main repository

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I figured out the .dds localmap problem so I can work with the compressed normal maps in my mod folder, speeding up dev test time:
Doom 3 uses the ATI compressionator program
not the nvidia dds tools

from katsbits:

The UberCompression filter needed by this tutorial to get correctly functioning RxGB compressed normal maps (with or without alpha channels (masks)) for Doom 3 powered games has been removed from the general application interface. At time of writing it’s not known if the ability to compress via the command line method is still viable.

To create ‘correctly’ compressed DDS files download the Compressonator v1.21 from the link provided below.

Please note: this is the officially released version of the tool and not some hacked and redistributed file. It is provided in a zip file ‘as is’..

Download idtech 4 compatible Compressonator from katsbits

Note : There’s a potential problem some may have when installing the Doom 3 compatible version of the Compressonator onto a fresh Windows (cleaned) install. Apparently ATI didn’t include a couple of commonly used DLL files in the *.msi self extracting installer as they were most likely relying on the missing files to have been installed by other programs. It does mean however, the program errors out because it can’t find them.

There is a temporary ‘fix’ for this (reported but not doubled checked) which requires the installation of the new version of the Compressonator, which does appear to include the missing DLL files. However, once that is installed it (and the DLL files placed) it may need to be uninstalled as it potentially causes conflicts with the older version. A recent test with both applications installed didn’t reveal any problems so this may not effect everyone if indeed anyone.

What are DDS exactly? ^

DDS is an acronym for ‘Direct Draw Surface’ and as you might guess from the reference to ‘Direct Draw’, it’s part of Microsoft’s graphics ‘API’ (Application Program Interface) for their Windows operating system environment; Direct X to you and me!. What it’s for, or rather, what it does, is allow content creators the ability to compress images using a number of different algorithms depending on the needs of the content originators; Doom 3 powered games for instance use 3 different algorithms for the assets used in game; DXT1, DXT3 and DXT5. This tutorial will cover DXT5 and the compression of a localmap (normalmap).

Another tool that is useful is Njob

And I often use a couple of the extra utilities in xNormal

As an ending?
I actually think I am switching to idtech 4 since I am a bump map normal map fanatic.
If I could get basic profile occlusion from the normal mapping I would be in heaven.
Its not such a great engine for large outdoor stuff,
but the patch meshes, glow textures, normal maps, triggered and emissive textures, and nice specularity effects rock. I like every test map I have better than the ut ones.
The vehicle support sux, but its there
So I’m going to start building from there…



At the end of this I will say.
I am converted.
I now have cast aside Valve Source and UDK
and I am converted to idtech 4

I swear that in 2 years I will actually know all of the code in this executeable
and because of the BEAUTIFUL normal mapping and material capabilities I will be concentrating on it almost exclusively.
Because I realized when using the Far Cry editor and comparing an island in that to the original MYST island
and I decided
at least until I have a rig that will run Skyrim modded
that I like smaller map sections anyway

in short
idtech 4 looks better than UDK for indoor and small things
and there is no % licensing once you’ve stripped out the assets and made your own
which is eventually the goal

And UDK will not install or build stufff on a win xp pentium 4 single processor with 256 meg vid card in ogl 1.4
Idtech 4 WILL! At a base install of about
60 megs with everything stripped and base assets.

It will run on almost anything if you optimize your textures to DDS
and normal map/specular map rendering is the key to making depth and texture for your users
You can get Prey, Doom 3 BFG, or Quake 4 very cheap nowadays to get started with modding in the engine.

I am currently trying to make a system shock 2 style level, since there are lots of zombies to work with.

3d stuff

I found a new favorite program to go along with zbrush and silo.
its called 3D-coat and creates advanced normal and bump maps on low poly meshes.
Its fantastic

check out the free MakeHuman project
all generated meshes have identical polygon counts and poly orders so you can shape morph between them


I really like makehuman, version .9 has a different mesh worth checking too.

If you use silo
this Silo Head Pack is a great learning and experimenting base:


silo head packThese are not my heads, you can search for Silo Head Pack and find the guy easy. They are awesome to study.

I’ve been experimenting with using 3d coat to make paths and details on UT2K4 terrain static meshes


You can see the low poly mesh subdivided once from a lwo hypernurbs in siloImage015_1

All the detail is from the normal mapping and bump!
Its the same meshImage016_1

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Image006_1 Image007_1  Image009_1   Image003_1see how the low poly mesh looks fantastic with the normal map details?
Image021_1The blobby was made in 3d coat with the voxel sculpting
this was then imported into zbrush after being optimized from 240000 polys down to 70000 polys and the normal map was applied as displacement in zbrush. The red is to track contours for uv mapping which had to be flipped on the u or v on import into zbrush. So I have imported texture and depth into zbrush.




Image025_1the 4 maps for a doom weapon model can be exported directly from 3d coat right into the mod folder
the mesh was extracted from the md5 using a lightwave export pugin and the normal and texture maps from the game load directly into 3d coat with mapping active
very nice

Image026_1the voxel sculpting is cool for roots and muscles and pipes and stuff

Image027_1doom 3 machine gun 3d coated.
Killing zombies is better with a pink machine gun.
As you can see below I haven’t pinkified the world mesh yet, just the view model.

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These are from Celestia, the best solar system universe sim with nasa connections
it is way cool..






this is just a wierd thing I’m doing in max 9 with displacement on a plane
then I used c4d because I could get a denser plane mesh
the last is a zbrush displacement, which is hard to tweak
and here is a youtube version of a different painting with animation:



conv2Yed is a tool you can use to create dialog maps

Feeding fascism: Canada’s Death Squads of “God’s Warriors” get fat off your charity.

Canada’s genocides,
aren’t really genocides
I’ve often thought about that

witches, pagans, atheists, socialists, queers
those aren’t races
they’re just
“social groups”

so that’s not
according to Harper
only the Attorney General
can call something a genocide
that’s why on paper
we don’t have any
but in reality
we have so many
so many fascist genocides
occurring right now
as the conservatives entrench
killing off their enemies and opponents
and anyone who isn’t
a “good” christian.

God’s Warriors can rape witch girls
Rob and murder faggots
You give them money for charity
toys, food for the poor
God’s warriors pretend to help
all smiles and tattoos
but the best food and toys that are donated
the ones still packed
frozen meat
no poor person ever gets those
God’s Warriors sell them
Meat draws at the legion
Food resold in businesses of the clan
take food donated to poor people
resell it to them
more money for the
Death Squads of Canada

Grey beards and harleys
rape your little girls
if they start studying Wicca
turn them into whores
make meth and crack addicts of your children

To God’s Warriors
all your girls are whores
unless you’re married
you are
a whore

Union Jobs for all of them
while the Dictator gloats
his buddies scooping 3 billion+ away
Where did it go?

Let’s not talk about it
Prorogue and delay
we’ve almost killed them all off
driven them away

We couldn’t believe it
not here
but really
Canada became a puppet state years ago
and all dictators of puppet states
need Death Squads to remove their opponents
Everyone does it
Harper smiles

Sig Heil!
Pay the unions Death Squads billions
Ensure the drugs flow freely for them
through our airports and dockyards where they work
I can’t get on a plane with c4 up my ass
but somehow that 2 tons of coke
landed and drove right off the tarmac
I can’t walk along the shoreline anymore
Because of “security”
but behind all the cameras and fences
the 20 tons of coke and heroin
make it through every month
and get on the privatized trains and trucks
filling the pockets of fascism

I guess the cops standing guard
are for show

Canada is great at that
pretending to be human rights advocates
while we remove the enemies of the fascist government
The queers and witches and lefties.

God’s warriors hate socialism
less than 1 in 10 could even spell it
never mind understand its necessity
followers cannot think

Its much easier to do what you are told
It is required amongst God’s warriors
The Rapist – murderers
robbers and thieves

The fascist death squads of canada
don’t think of themselves that way
they see themselves as a necessity
raping little witch girls is necessary
robbing queers is “gawd’s will”

any way they can do it.

We had a country
of color
and culture
we had independent cinema
coffee shops full of lefties and musicians
all tracked down and burned

Just like all dictatorships
Harper would like to pretend
that’s “God’s Warriors”
raping our country
and sucking CIA cock for all they can get out of it
he pretends they are just

and then
he signs the deals
to ensure their union jobs
and security
rewarding them
for their hard work.

Here in my neighborhood
Christy and Harper
give out a couple million dollars a year
right into the pockets of the fascist gangster
racist homophobic drug dealers pockets

The government leases spaces from them.
Pours money into the PNE,
full of red union rapist gangsters
pays $20K a month for rent
to the crack and meth selling italian fascists
to have places for government services

Those 50% of Canadian women raped?
That is genocide
I bet 80% of them were pagans of some kind
or dykes
definately they were mostly
so they were whores
to the “Boyz”

The “Boyz” run Canada with impunity
it is not a democracy
20% of the humans in our country voted for our Aryan Despot.

That’s about what hitler had
in his minority gov’t
then he paid the union boyz
and the punks/street gangs and doctors and police
to kill the hippies and witches and queers and retards
and all of his opponents
swamp their gatherings
and make them flee
those people were already dead or displaced
by the time he got to the jews.

The “Boyz”,
“God’s Warriors”
many of whose great grandfathers
fought hitler
and killed nazis
They all love the power of fascism now

Git er dun
and don’t ask questions
we have fascism to feed.

Let’s all sit
and watch GlobalTV
Feed fascism to our children
well produced fascist television
full of smiles and laughter
for your children
make sure they all salute
and say yes sir!
everyone learn to be good little slaves
cocksuckers for uncle sam
start them young
“their place”

Everyone of the fascists
“donates” to the red and the black
the charities of fascism
keep payin g it back to their brothers
laundering the money around
for the boyz
global, variety, sunshine, canwest,
your provincial capital
has their recreational acreage
less than 10 miles away

The Death Squads
at the feet of the kings

we can’t get rid of the King’s Dragoons
God’s Warriors
are performing a service
for the kings
keep the slaves in line
rape and beat and rob and harass them
they will go away
and the Dragoons
will never sit in jail for long
when they’ve done crime in the service
of the kings

Stand in court and see for yourself
the fascist court
does not recognize justice
she is blind
so she can be robbed
with her eyes bound
she cannot see
the handsigns in court
messages to the kings men
that corrupt our courts
with the dragoons influence

without a gutter
and hunger and poverty
their is no stick
to ensure the masses behave
they have to see
the poverty
or they will not work as hard
and the Dragoons would not be able
to thrive

Give your charity
to the Salvation Army
God’s Warriors
in the service of the queen
burning all of you around them
the helpful biker gangsters
shovelling your charity into the mouths and pockets
of the Boyz
God’s Warriors
the righteous rapist killer theives and pimps
none of whom could read 10 pages of Kant or Hegel or Sartre or NIN

God’s Warriors don’t read
they burn boooks
and watch sports

We became fascists so silently
we still burn books by the thousands every month
but it is done quietly in the basements of libraries
by on call workers with a high turnover
taking the books that are
“Removed from Circulation”
not broken, or damaged

tearfully the tells me of his work there for years
ripping apart hardcover books of translated poetry
with full color plates
sending them
to the furnace
ostensibly so “they can’t be resold”
or given to poor people
who read and still create
personal libraries

Truth be told
more books have been destroyed here
in canada
in the last decade
than the nazi’s burned

its just done quietly
union efficiency
at night
in basements
of institutions with furnaces
and smokestacks

Fascists always relabel their actions
It’s not a burning
its a removing
ita all right now
carry on…

Just as in the past
Fascists are clean
Efficient, boisterous, happy,
every picture of fascists I have seen
They are smiling
The superior gang of thugs
Focused on science and sports
and war
lots of war

Where fascism grows
no culture can exist
music, art, dance, film, poetry,
fascists hate these things
unless they are vapid spectacles
devoid of content

culture is dissent from slavery
it makes people come together
creates community
community is impossible under fascism
they must control all speech
Organized business fascists and property owners get half a million in grants
while the comunity association for the same neighborhood
gets less than $50k
that’s fascism
paying itself
patting itself on the back

Money spent on government “service providers”
All the money ends up
in the end
in the pockets of the criminals who sold drugs to become rich landowners
Drug dealers have good credit
Slaves do not

Fascism can start as atheism or from an organized religion
There are many catholic fascists
Most religions breed hatred and discrimination
on some level
or at some “other”
All other humans that are different
become “vermmin”

Fascism sleeps in our societies for decades
huddled around tables of cards and money
through the cigar smoke
for the time like now
for the king to let them grow
there is always a king
willing to hire
the fascists
to ensure his seat
of power

and over
and over
in history

As ignorant
or blinded as we are
we are efficient
we have records
and when the future arrives
the scholars will recount
the missing
and the methods
through which your culture
was quietly removed

for over a decade
they have been taking the best food from the food bank
and reselling it
they have been awarded millions in contracts
to service the poor
and the lion’s share
goes into their pockets
while the judges and police

I remember
standing filthy
outside a Salvation army
the doors locked
a multimillion dollar facility
people wasted on crack
selling crack
the Boyz making money
all around it
people sleeping on the ground
the pamphlet in my hand says they have showers for the homeless
the women at the wicket
keeps the doors closed
apparently all 20 showers
are out of order
and no one is inside the building
a building making money
for the Boyz
for God’s Warriors
they need profit
so I can’t have a shower
nothing is really given out there
it is only taking
and pretending

that’s the way we like it here
as long as the money isn’t spent directly on poor people
they would misuse it
fascism needs to feet its fat belly
and they have much better marketing
and staff to write
of better ways
to deal with the poor
without actually giving them anything
because it makes no sense to give money to them
when the good ol’ boyz
can make better use of it

fascism laughs
feeding itself and growing
while the bohunks of canada
fleeced by their governments
just baaaaaaah
and baaaaah
and listen to the CBC

Our culture accepts book burning in library basements
just not in public
count them
there is a record of every book pulled
count them you fools
as they quietly burn away each night
he tearfully tells me
of stuffing a first edition Arthur Racham illustrateed
Arabian Nights
like Montag
he tried in vain to save them
count them fools
count them

the CANADIAN people
have allowed your government
to burn more books
than the Nazi’s did

count them
and you will see
40 years of book burning
with various policy papers and legal reasonings
of why
we cannot just give them
to poorer communities

a fucking invisible
Memory Hole
in the basement

clean quiet efficient fascism
was is known for its marketing expertise
selling genocide
like it was a refreshing drink

Action T4!
becomes the
Stay Home Project
isolating the valueless
the social parasites-+
human vermin
fascists think of other humans
as vermin

We remember the Nazi’s
as atheists
but drunk
and high on seized cocaine
they became power mad wizards of death
grand wizards
everything has
to be grand

you don’t work here
or get credit
unless you are one
of the fascists
so everyone
must become one

3 billion
the auditor says
3 billion they made off with
big red is laughing
there will be no repercussions

my simple medical care is too expensive
for the state to cover
but they can steal
3 billion
and laugh


Our federal and provincial governments
are spending billions
to softkill their enemies
targeting dissidents and activists

in a parade

30 years ago we would destroy a politician for killing one opponent
now we simply bend our backs and keep working
because we don’t even see it happening
through our maple covered glasses

I wish Paul Martin
the greatest of ills and pain
in his old age and dying
I watch him play the elder statesman
talking with George on the CBC
I’m dissapointed with George
at the respect he is showing
this fucking shithead

Paul Martin is the true founder
of canadian fascism and discrimination
Harper’s dictator throne would be impossible
without his deeds

I remeber Paul Martin
for stealing 23 billion from EI
and suddenly I couldn’t get any career education subsidies
and my benefits were less and shorter
I remeber when everyone had a GP
and then Paul
a year after the Royal Bullshit Commision on Healthcare
that spent millions
pretending to listen
after all that
Paul rips apart our federal medicare system
and hands it to the provinces
the birth of Fascism
Medical information
no longer federally protected
everyone being “served”
by clinics
that won’t proscribe painkillers,
or give specialist referrals
a system where laughing doctors
mock patients who try to get a second opinion
a system where individual fascist provincial governments
can deny any particular group or individual
any decent care
Action T4 in Canada
courtesy of Paul the Destroyer

Paul Martin showed the other politicians of Canada
that they could steal much more than they though
from the Canadian people
Just keep calling out the bogeymen
of national debt and terror
you can get away with anything

I didn’t create the national debt
Canada is filthy rich in oil, wood, uranium
some debt a bunch of fat priveleged union fucks and politicians made 40 years or more ago
is the reason I get no benefits of canada’s wealth
My healthcare is too expensive
because of their free ride
long ago

my career development
and credit
must be paid for with slavery
because they got theirs
for free
collecting the blood
of my country

No election should be considered valid
unless 80% of the population has voted
and people who expatriate
and haven’t lived in their land for a decaqde
shouldn’t be voting

As a dictator
Harper wasted no time
Paul’s theivery and treachery to his people
emboldened him and his gang
Stripping down the CRTC
to make sure american military money
could pay for our “entertainment”
“made in canada”
by the cia
all the little newspapers
individual voices of Canada
bought up
or crushed
all media now centrally controlled
all cultural neighborhoods
by security forces
in plainclothes

and god’s warriors
the boyz
and their shitty

packs of them
murders of them
fascists flocking
and destrying all color
all color but red and black

police forces and medical infrastructures
manned and administrated
by people not born here
all access to law
for those unable to pay
within a year of being seated on his throne
only the middle and upper classes
have access to law and proper healthcare

The drug dealers dealing cia heroin and meth
have healthcare and lawyers
most canadians do not

the Snowden files prove to us
our prime minister has ordered the deaths
by softkill
of thousands of canadian
killed softly
by agents of a foreign nation

justified targeted assassinations
witch burnings
red baiting
people with views the government doesn’t like
harassed and intimidated
raped and robbed
mocked by laughing fascist police
who shrug and don’t even bother to file their complaints

The CIA placed Harper in his seat
as clearly as some chads in florida
reseated the munchkin dictator down south
we can’t get rid of him
and the stench of fascism spreads across our cities

a deep miserable stain
of Red and Black

Canada praises and rewards them
for killing its children
the lazy Canadians
who don’t slave as happily
as the imported workers

we recite the canadian moron mantra
over and over
programmed by righteous television
to trust that there are honest cops and lawyers
and the cia has our best interests in mind
recite it over and over

“They would never do that!”
nazi war criminals
came here
and started families
22k multiplied by 4 generations now
Canada welcomed them
and their money
the war criminals who came here
came with money
to start again
waiting quietly
hiding from the nazi hunters
just more
good white citizens
fitting in

people forget
birds still sang and flowers still blossomed
the festivals and gardens
international events
the fascists had all these things
clinics that murdered
anyone strange
cops and lawyers and judges
who would legally destroy
the vermin
“other” people

I’ve played thousands of hours of games
where I hunt
and methodically kill

But nazis don’t wear swastikas now
only maltese crosses
and logos of red black and white corporatism and unionism
take the place of the red white and black flags of the last reich
fascists hide behind the charities of “Gawd” now
laughing and raking it in
mocking the do gooders that support them financially
with donations

my country became fascist
the most “beautiful place on earth”
for genocides
and house flipping
devoid of culture
that it chased away, robbed and buried,
it imports culture now
calls itself “international”
so no one notices
the lack of anything local

unless its a local of an international
union interest

Fascism was bred here
it escaped here
made roots
joined with the racism
and militant christianity
that was here
bred generations

trained since little grandchildren
in visions of purity
and control
motors and sports
and never any color
unless its corporately sponsored
by the elite

everyone else
is food for them
tenants holding a makeshift
on the property they only care to sit on
and build over

all culture is temporary
and shiftless now
everyone sells
the family home
to go for a trip
or move elsewhere

or they lose it
to crows and wolves
dog eat dog
we cannibalize our evolution
over and over
to fill our

We watch TV and drool
the masters give us
well honed images
written by Rand
period pieces of masters and slaves
of machines
and power
and history
and Man

to this…

We believe we have choices
but it is only in what
we consume
a hundred magazines on the rack
looks like choices
90 of those magazines
are printed by
one company

The Company

Where we once had 70 newspaper publishers
with their own
now we have Southland

The CRTC bent over at Harper’s whim
and took CIA cock in their ass
and we allowed it
under the thundering manufactured media sqwuak
of terror! Terror!
Terror and Debt

we won’t allow…!
we are programmed
we are protected…!
we are programmed



our propoganda is disguised
under thin veneers of
“free market” corporatism

The CBC has been stripped of its relevance
long ago
media puppets
pretending to watch out for you

no one is watching out for you

They know exactly where you are
every apple device
is connected to skynet
to ping you by
why pay to monitor you
when you will pay
for the monitoring device

there is no
under the all seeing eye
of fascism

Fascism took over slowly here
and like before it rode the title of socialism
while cannibal fraudsters wore their masks and waited
to consume their people

Law and Order
is a fiction
There is no law here
unless you pay for it

or make it
the law

The lords are divying up
the land
there is none for you

long ago
a canadian could buy a bit of land
with ten years savings
after 20 years of
and Debt!
we look around
at properties that would take a lifetime to buy

displaced by the kings
from elsewhere
Canada is a great plce
once we get rid of
these lazy Canadians

our country is rich in resources
but our healthcare is shite
dangerously bad shite
our legal system is in tatters
taken over by the fascists
you pay the extortion
to the Kings
or there is no court

Justice is blind to your plight
she only cares
for the weight of your

that people are dancing
or singing
or gathering

pave it over
make them put on their clothes

everywhere they sit and talk
send Mother’s mocking crow children
at the behest of analysts
who pinpoint places
of dissent

good jobs for all of Mother’s children
not for you
import slaves to build over the places
where the not so good slaves
were dancing
and laughing

pave it over
charge a fee
you must obtain a license

to play

and if your music
and art
is worth money
will know

IATSE rhymes with Nazi
for a reason
syllables of power
the raised fist of the “workers”
peons for the union gangsters
loading drugs into trucks
all culture
the entertainment unions
are part of the extortion and censorship
of the kings
As long as they make the King’s stories
they can deal as much drugs
and rip off all the art fags
and painter witches
hound and harass the musicians
anyone who is not
in their union
their gang
the holy dragoons
that lick Mother’s tit
from which all money flows

CIA and US military control
of our media
our news
our music
our charities
our governments
our universities
our courts
our trains
and medical systems
and police information systems
our cellphone companies
and IT infrastructure
and fully controlled
By Mother and Uncle Rand
for Big Brother Uncle Sam

The Port is under Fascist union gangster control
there is no bomb
on the other side
of the
“security perimeter”
only tons of coke
and meth
and everyting else
the drugs go on the trucks
and privatized trains
each day

Mother ensures it
the border police
are all in on it
the enter and exit
through the same doors
as the cocaine courier
and up the street
IATSE has a movie
at the deserted ironworks
across the street
from the union
feeding fascism
Millions of government tax money
for a “production”
a union production
a Triumph of the Will
made for TV
There is a VPD officer
two in fact
standing guard
while the union boyz roll movie cases in and out
“We’re making a movie!
Git er dun!”
and the drugs that were stored in the ironworks overnight
roll past the policewoman
chatting up the movie security people

and they can’t afford
to pay

They harass, intimidate, extort,
and mock

While they shovel money into tax havens
and burn everyone around them
laughing fascists
with police protecting
their drug cartel

the most beautiful place on earth
for genocides
and mass murder
and fraud
the wild west of the fourth reich
family friendly
and soon to be
faggot free
under the east van cross
of hypocrisy

Gregor’s “Inclusive” city
is marketig hype
for a cultureless blob
of streamlined fascist policies
designed to displace
drive out
and burn
anyone different
or those people
who don’t make
good slaves
in the minimum wage camps

One day Gregor will repeat his speech
about inclusion
at the Hague
that is my dream.

“Freedom” of Information “Privacy”
in a fascist regime
function creeps happily
into a tool
that limits the liability of government
in serving you
an act “designed” to “protect” you
has for 20 years
been used by every
government network administrator
to deny communication through email
which is apparently insecure
it is
but phones are insecure now too
and there soon will be no mail
so requiring all communication to the government
to be phone or snail mail
we reduce our requests for service
and our responsibilities
to our citizens
for our SLA’s
Fascism loves to exclude
and phone conversations can’t be tracked
emails come back to haunt retired politicians
and administrators
so they sit fat and happy
pretending to be doing something
while not including you
at all

ministries of love that are killing

clinics of torment and pain
cruelty and suffering
are food
for fascists

They admire Action T4
they admire its simple efficacy
its wonderful efficiency
and cleanliness

(There is a bit more to this
it is a W.I.P)

Peace of Ass – End Homophobia Forever – Convert the World to Bumfuckerism

Fascist Canada Blossoms under the heap of bullshit called “Truth and Reconciliation”

We have become fascists.
It happened slowly
We saw red, instead of black, and there were no swastikas
so we didn’t recognize the fascists
but they are fully in power here now
no one works unless they work for the fascists
no one gets credit
only the fascists
and their genocides
like those before
have laughing police
protecting them.

Low End Game Design RPG Style: Deus Ex

A dozen articles back I wrote a lengthy piece on designing FPS games for lower end machines.

The number of machines still operating with roughly a p4 and under 1g video ram is actually staggering. Just because everyone in the cafe has an ipad, doesn’r mean that’s the norm.

Speaking of the tablet style computer,
the morons designing them still think we are happy with crappy graphics, so they are actually not very high powered and games designed with techniques I described in the earlier article still apply well to them. IMHO a tablet should have 4 gigs of ram and a 2gig vid card.

Recently I finally was able to get the original Deus Ex running and modded with the HDTP and New Vision texture packs. I later added the Nameless Mod to my configuration and was able to keep editing so they are all compatible, as well as the 2047 mod.

Deus Ex was almost unbearable to play at first,
the original textures and models were terrible
but it is another of those story driven games like System Shock with an RPG inventory managemet system and skills.

Since it is running on a modified Unreal 1 engine it uses the UnrealEd editor in its first incarnation. Which is actually very stable, just extremely limited in file formats and import capabilities.

If you read the previous article, you know I was settled on the unreal tournament 2004 engine.
It has excellent 32 bit texture support, bone and mesh importing, particles, etc.

Its very hard to edit the UT2k4 gui and games system for an RPG style game however,
so if you are not making a team based killing machine game, or a flashy eyecandy walkabout, then it suffers from a lack of many RPG game elements that a story driven game requires.

Once youve modded Deus Ex with HDTP and New Vision you can add their texture/system/model packages to the Deus Ex.ini and incorporate those into your own game in the Deus Ex sdk.

If you can’t install the SDK because it is choking on the “version” of your patched 1112fm sp patched deus ex the use 7-zip to open the file as an archive and extract its contents, then you can install con edit (the conversations editor) and the example mission and text files and the tools by hand.

When you work with Deus Ex, it is the complexity of the story and character interactions that will be your focus, not the action part. You could, of course, but some other engine is better for action modding because of the limitations of the engine. Meshes are extremely difficult to import for a newbie, and the quality is low, the textures are, even modified, BAD.

It really looks bad.


If you build it and install the sdk (worry about the mods later for more textures and better weapons) then you have a very complex set of information and inventory gui items you can use to help your character solve the mystery or find whatever it is you have deviously hidden.

Working with Deus Ex requires a bit of coding exploration, as importing a texture, sound, image, or model, generally requires writing a small amout of code to reference the files and then using the included compiler.

There is no drag and drop of any media in the editor. Its from like 1999 or something.
Many things cannot be imported without creating a class and compiling a package, like meshes with uv mapping for instance.

Why would you?

its actually very easy to make a new class of object and give it properties
so almost any object can have a use action, and information can be given to the player from picked up books, computers, public computers, newspapers, datacubes, notes, and goal information can be triggered with mission text added automatically to your journal.

Even more sophisticated and simple is the conversation, choices, transactions, and “barks” (random comments generated by nearbt NPC’s in response to events). Looking at the examples in the SDK is exhausting but rewarding. The option syntax is simple and the capabilities of the system are very complex. Mouths aren’t synced well, but it doesn’t matter, the amount of information you can impart and the logical choice/consequence triggers are essential to a person making a game based on dialogue and not on flash.

So maybe that’s you.
You like to write dialogue and quest style games in a pseudo regular world. It may be a good choice.

I recommend not even trying to build any models for quite a while, it really is a pain to get texture mapped meshes in it. Trying to import a mesh in this makes the Half life 1 procedure look like a haiku. You will notice on playing that most objects are actually simple brush objects, not static meshes. Get used to it.

Textures are simple 8 bit PCX or BMP with a masking color like gifs use for transparent bits.
You can make 32 bit stuff in photoshop and convert to indexed 8 bit. 8 bit, not 24. It is VERY picky and likes PCX more. Mirrors are easy to make, as well as shiny semitranslucent tiles, those two things alone can make a huge difference in world believability, and the transparent PCX textures actually work just fine for things like fences.

If you are more interested in creating an RPG game with books/notes/computers/text/conversations/finding items/quests/missions/info/newspapers
it may be a better tool for that kind of story.

Pen on paper, excel spreadsheets and text files, layout or diagramming software

The first rule of working on something in a previsualization game design is:
don’t reinvent wheels or anything else if you can copy paste it or make some kind of prefab or reuseable class of the object.

The story that is in Deus Ex is a very interesting nano augmentation/man made plague/conspiracy story, and if you even play through the first half of the game you get a feel for how the system enables a large number of factions/gangs/organizations/and alliances to be portrayed. Any NPC can have alliances and interactive conversation sequences with branching logics and triggers, and early in the game you are faced with the fact that you may be working for the wrong side against humanity’s interests. The inventory system is very robust, the 2027 mod adds a lot of new weapons for the gun ppl, but the core game is filled with enough standard items you can use to tell your stories. It is also a game where you can create your own objects for inventory, like findable quest items that can be used.

All of the books, datacubes, notes, papers, computers can be filled with information, and with the new vision mod some of these items get multiple pages.
While the core game uses these things with short sentences, for writer’s looking to make games with mystery or other information gathering adventures, this could be a great build environment for you.

The code is simple unrealscript, which is based on quakec which is in turn based on object oriented c++. Its really very simple to work with. I you have the ability to read some amount of programming an can search the programming contents it is really very easy to create and tweak your own classes so that when the character looks at your new items they will get hud info about it. Wotgreal will extract packages, Unreal Package Tool and UTX gaffer work, editing classes can be done with uncodex or notepad++, and source can be exported from the editor as well as there being some source available online in zip.

I have played all 3 Deus Ex games for extremely long periods now. They are not graphics driven, they are story driven, and the computer hacking, nanoaugmentation, and NPC interactions are the focus. Almost every level can be played in a stealth/non lethal way. The second Deus Ex suffers a bit graphically, but the augmentations are significantly increased in their useablity and the story is great. The 3rd, Human Revolution, is really fun to play, but requires fairly decent hardware to deal with the much larger firefights containing up to 20 enemies in a space. Neither the second or 3rd installments have an SDK.

If you need fast action and landscapes, full particle physics and every whiz bang, its not a good dev environment. As I have been playing and building in it tho I have come to see it as my favorite dev tool at the moment, since I have always personally been interested in games where information and story is more important than graphics. I can live with the fact that importing an animation is harder than cloning a human. I spent 2 days figuring out static mesh import, then decided I would only import a mesh as the last resort, and focused instead on using the vast amount of objects and items that are there.

I am also looking at whether or not unreal 1 monsters can be imported in, since the Actor class object is derived from the original unreal. But that is just an experiment.

If you are short on space, the core game with SDK comes in at just under a gig installed, with the 2047, New Vision, HDTP, and Nameless Mod installs it becomes about 4G. The mods don’t add much extra functionality, mostly just textures, some new objects, and a few tweaks.

If you use Deus Ex to build your game, you can be pretty much assured it will run on mostly anything. I can’t get it or the editor to crash without doing domthing really dumb, and I don’t get any freezing like I do with some DX10 games. Deus Ex can use OGL or DX8 as well as having DX10 support with the NewVision Mod. I am running it on a celery with 512 ram and an integrated 64 meg vid card. Ancient tech, but it runs fine for this game.

Deus Ex is $6 on GOG.com. You can find a torrent with all the mods described here fully installed and configured with additional renderers if you look.

Vancouver’s Pride: Pink Nazi’s Party with gov’t bribes to ignore the genocides…

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I have no net
because I live in poverty
I am going to write this 10 page article offline
and then slap it in your face.

40 people of a particular social group killed by another social group is considered genocide.
There are many genocides of 40-200 people.
They are listed as genocides in the wikipedia.
Over 200 intersex people have been softkill murdered by well thought out genocidal policies over the last decade in the city of Vancouver.
Great party. That’s 2000 people in a decade across Canada.
Dara wants us to have new washrooms built for millions by the union non queer contractors.
I think we should clue in and make an actual completely queer healthcare facility and subsidized queer lawyers.
spend the money on the big happy fag party.
I would rather have a lwyer and healthcare that doesn’t want to kill, mock, ore sterilize me.
Give your members lists to your sponsors
and lets everybody smile and sign in
so the VPD can spend the next 6 months
drinking beer
and identifying those homosexual activists
on the riot cams


all genders clinic
Christopher Taylor <christopher.don.taylor@gmail.com> Mon, Nov 14, 2011 at 5:32 AM
To: All Genders Wellness Centre <allgenderswellnesscentre@gmail.com>
You fuckers.

You fucking pieces of fucking shit.

I’ve lived in this neighborhood 20 years you fucks.

20 fucking years.

Do you want to keep using the Reach clinic?

I guarantee you I can get morethan 300 people to call reach and tell you people to fuck right off.

Do you understand you fucking self righteous gendermindfuck asshole fuckwads.

fuck your gender mindfuck crap.

fucking pieces of shit.

all genders welcome my fucking ass you cunts.

It sounds as if you’ve had a particularly challenging time getting your health needs met.

You think? You fucking assholes .
I had a surgeon operate on me at 15 without my knowledge of what was happening you pieces of shit.
did that happen to you?
I’ve had 3 doctors in the past 2 years literallly LAUGH IN MY FACE

you fucking self righteous fuckers

while every genderqueer trans person can get $100,000 of specialists and psychologist and hormones over their life
And I can’t even get a doctor.

Our wellness centre exists to provide respectful health services to transgender and gender diverse people.

So if I wear some fucking tacky clothing and walk around with somelipstick on you’ll suddenly help.

It sounds from your email that, like many intersex people, you don’t identify as trans or gender diverse,

No. I don’t identify with trans. Inersex is a gender. PERIOD.
I have doctors witholding 30 years of magically disappearing health records. I have a CT scan on my computer that isn’t mine because every surgeon since 15 has applied Therapeutic Privelege.
Its on my file, so any doctor that I go to will try to lie to me about.
Because that’s the POLICY in BC
If your willing to be freaky, you get healthcare, as long as you act trans and talk trans.
You’re giving me the same fucking shit that ravensong and 3 bridges dished out.

Intersex people don’t identify as trans because they AREN”T TRANSgender, they are INTERSEX.

It’s NOT the same.

If I call one of your trans people a girl and she identifies as a boy
I’m the asshole
but you can TELL ME how my sexuality is defined or how I should be expressing it in order to fit into YOUR concept of “gender”?

You fucking pricks.

in which case you may not find our services and the atmosphere created in our centre to be what you’re looking for.

another “community” service for Trans people that markets itself for “gender diverse” people.

If you do choose to access services from us, you should know that none of us are specialists in intersexuality,
I still need a doctor.
You’re saying I’m not welcome unless I plan to have my dick turned inside out.
Having a 3/4 inch piece of female genitilia right under my balls doen’t count as gender I guess.

Do you people realize how badly Patti Zettel fucked me over?
You should know who she is.

nor are we aware of any who we could refer you to.
Seems like you tried real hard with all your contacts and shit.

Our team doctor is a family physician with lots of experience providing care to trans and gender diverse people but no experience with intersex people.
I can read the wikipedia and related resources.Why can’t they.


The All Genders Wellness Team

You don’t sound sincere, you aren’t “welcoming”, you aren’t “low barrier” and you really aren’t accepting of “gender diverse” people, because people who are intersex are a different form of gender, and since they might want to just be themselves and not exude or project their differences they aren’t worthy of your little group hug bullshit.

I’ve almost been killed over this half a dozen times, probably more, and I can’t get healthcare from anywhere.

If I went to a surgery I would probably die on the operating table
I’ve had 3 MRI’s and 2 CT scans and they’ve all magically “disappeared”

So I guess I don’t fit in your little group hug club.


Vancouver Genocide? No, impossible, we have Genderfest and Pride!

Fucking hypocrites.

I live sleeping in your gutters alomost 4 years
I survive eating your fucking goddamned garbage
because I need a couple of surgeries before I can work
The happy-fags and happy-dykes and happy-trannies even have healthcare
but I don’t

My “community” just blew $30k+ on “Genderfest”

I have been to every single clinic and doctors office on commercial drive
I have been mocked and derided and laughed at by doctors and nurses in Vancouver when I try to get healthcare

I am intersex.

I don’t have healthcare or legal representation.

Fuck your bullshit fucking “exclusion”
its bullshit
you fucking hypocrite dicks and cunts and whatever

you have healthcare
I don’t
regardless of how much gov’t money you spend marketing the lies.


3 weeks later I’m sitting on a bench
just 5 blocks from where you paid the nazis to rent that hall
a longshoreman sits down
one of the boys
who use that hall
who drink there
we have a long talk
you know the type
hardly working union fatman

as he leaves he says
since we were getting along
“At least you don’t have a pussy where your dick should be.”

as he walks away
I let go of my razor
and try and stop seeing
blood coming from his neck

I smile and wave him off
He’s going to the happy nazi hall
to sign his union cards

Did you have a great party genderqueers?
Because they all know what you look like now
you fools.

Vic retires before he can be accused of supporting genocide…

Vic Toews is retiring.

during the U.N. discussions about the treatment of intersex and transgender people Vic came out with a statement that if Transgender and Intersex people wanted healthcare in Canada they would have to be on a mental health disability and have a psychologist or they would not be eligible for healthcare in Canada.

he is a right wing anti queer shithead christian religious fanatic

good riddance Vic you fucking putz.

“Initially considered a moderate within the Canadian Alliance, Toews later became known for endorsing socially conservative causes. He was a vocal opponent of Bill C-250 (2003), which made sexual orientation a protected category under Canada’s hate crime legislation. Toews stated that the bill could restrict freedom of expression and religion, and was quoted as saying that a “homosexual activist” could sue a hotel chain to remove Bibles as hate literature.[56] He later emerged as a prominent opponent of same-sex marriage, and suggested that changing the definition of marriage in Canada could result in polygamy being legalized.[57] In 2005, he launched an extended filibuster to delay committee work on the issue.[58] Despite his efforts, same-sex marriage was legalized in the summer of 2005.

—-> Hey Vic.
Christianity is a religion based on hatred, discrimination, and control.
There SHOULDN’T be any fucking bibles in a hotel chains rooms you fuckwad.
On top of that, Christian marriage is an institutionalized religious rite
with accompanying legal liabilities that is used as a method of discrimination in wages, credit, and gov’t services.
There is no SCIENTIFIC reason that 2 men can’t marry a woman
or two women can’t marry a man.
Or two men marry, two women, three women, whatever.
Marriage should encompass any loving family combination,
and liabilities should be far reduced and assets should remain individual
with a common account for the household.
Anything else is CHRISTIANITY engrained into the administrative and  legal machinery of the fascist state you’ve built to protect your culturally biased christian fiefdom.
And I bet you hate the Taliban real good.
Good Riddance VIC.<—-

During this period, Toews also argued that religious organizations should be permitted to deny gay organizations the use of their facilities, supported increasing the age of sexual consent in Canada from fourteen to sixteen, and opposed the decriminalization of cannabis.[59] ”

“crime against humanity”

« crime contre l’humanité »

“crime against humanity” means murder, extermination, enslavement, deportation, imprisonment, torture, sexual violence, persecution or any other inhumane act or omission that is committed against any civilian population or any identifiable group and that, at the time and in the place of its commission, constitutes a crime against humanity according to customary international law or conventional international law or by virtue of its being criminal according to the general principles of law recognized by the community of nations, whether or not it constitutes a contravention of the law in force at the time and in the place of its commission.


« génocide »

“genocide” means an act or omission committed with intent to destroy, in whole or in part, an identifiable group of persons, as such, that, at the time and in the place of its commission, constitutes genocide according to customary international law or conventional international law or by virtue of its being criminal according to the general principles of law recognized by the community of nations, whether or not it constitutes a contravention of the law in force at the time and in the place of its commission.


Bummed on Facecrack

Facecrack Friend having a rant about ass sex:

ok sorry I apologies but this asshole thing is still on my mind and I think its funny that a person is willing to give something they are not willing to take. what kind of an Asshole are you? this is not about anyone its just about the idea.. so don’t take it personally…just be considerate ok…thank you

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  • Christopher Taylor:

    But you aren’t stating whether or not you are happy with someone sticking something in your bum.

    Are you happy with your bum?
    Or do you not like your bum being…um…whatever…?
    If you like your bum but are complaining that other people who want to penetrate your bum aren’t willing to reciprocate,

    I guess you would then need to find someone who will let you poke them with a strapon…or something…
    I’m sure one of your girlfriends knows a boy you could peg.
    ask and you shall…get…a receiver..

    but you have been ambiguous about your own opinion about the pleasureablility of your ass and your inner feelings on the subject.

    you see
    no one wants to be the first to say
    “I like my bum!”
    Because you could be anti-bum in your opinion
    and then they would feel

    You might even possibly be virulently anti-bum in all it’s forms.
    Then if someone said they like their bum and other ppls bums they would feel really bad because you don’t like bumfuckers.
    It could hurt their feelings.

    I can’t tell from your previous posts if you are against or for bum sex.

    You may just be referring to the standard agressive anti homo straight male who sees anal penetration as another degradation to force someone to endure.

    If that’s the case,
    I have to say
    there are other men or women that will be more respectful of your ass,
    but I guess you have to find them.

    lots of those other bastards around tho
    I’ll tell you that for nothing.




Stargate: Assholes

Stargate: Assholes


I have written at length of this elsewhere

But I clearly remember
the police station used to be next to the Ravensong
I came for my scheduled appointment
when I rounded the corner of Broadway
the side of the station was empty
by the time I entered the front door
there were 8 cops out on the side
laughing loudly
and a few more coming out

I guess my appointment was the same time as their smoke break
a CanWest concrete Cement company truck was parked on the north side of the building

the two brown girls from malaysia that always work the reception
are not there
instead are two very old
sitting in the other ladies place
looking at my information

I ask her name
She is silent
as is her partner
acting like a mute baba
I do not understand

I understand
she is an evil ancient bitch of the
old ways
and she is staring at my information

using her ancient

the curl of her lip says
she does not
think well of me

she is staring at my information
she has a little pad
of her own paper
ignoring me
looking at what
the malaysian girls

had entered.

she is not adept
at the computer
staring intently


she is trying to determine

no fixed

she is supposed
to get

Inside the clinic is a German woman
who I have seen before
she is never there
but she is there now
for my scheduled appointment

I cannot get any of the 3 to give me their names

but they have access to everything about me and my file
behind the barrier

I try to ask the hindu woman who is arranging my session
who the german woman and the two old ladies are
she doesn’t know

The government literature said this was supposedly
the place
for me to go



Inside the room
there is no examination
I am given no referrals

I am mocked

I trudge the gauntlet outside
and have a smoke watching

the laughing police
still there
the truck

with two young tough laughing men in shades
who I could kill

as I had assessed in the first 10 seconds observing them on my way in

But the laughing police are there


I smoke and glare
until they all


To the parks board:

I just watched an ENTIRE park of people get harassed yesterday by 2 of your new snappy young park rangers.
every single person or group sitting.
they walk right into every human beings space with their uniforms and walky talkies and their little pads of life “violations”
got to get those fucking violators
sitting in the park
Giving me shit for a girl throwing a ball for my dog
in the same spot she’s caught a ball in for 10 years
and your young punk ranger boy is gonna make sure everyone knows that “ranger rick” is on top of it.
a “violation”????

Train your employees to LEAVE PEOPLE ALONE unless they are actually breaking things or wrecking things or being really shitty.
They have to use their actual brains.
We don’t go to parks to relax and then be harassed by your employees who AREN’T from our neighborhoods, coming to our neighborhoods and into peaceful peoples spaces trying to fill their violation books and make their “necessary presentation of authority”.

You people are sick.

Parks are for people,
not for your union children in their uniforms to harass us for being peaceful.

Everybody pull out your id
you need it to be in a vancouver park

Facecrack, Google, Gmail, Verizon phones….
all part of the PRISM
and 100 years ago it was a capital crime for a gov’t employee to open your mail.
 Did you know your apple devicesare part of PRISM?
The protocol is called SKYNET and comes FREE with your iTunes installation or your apple device os.
SKYNET has been on all apple devices for over a decade
and it is integrally related to this nato tracking program:
  It provides for the targeting of any customers of participating corporations who live outside the United States, or American citizens whose communications include people outside the USA.
The documents identified several technology companies as participants in the PRISM program, including (date of joining PRISM in parentheses) Microsoft (2007), Yahoo! (2008), Google (2009), Facebook (2009), Paltalk (2009), YouTube (2010), AOL (2011), Skype (2011), and Apple (2012).[11] The speaker’s notes in the briefing document reviewed by the Washington Post indicated that “98 percent of PRISM production is based on Yahoo, Google and Microsoft.”[1]
 estimated that the NSA also collects records on 3 billion calls per day.
 The Associated Press pointed out that these company denials were “carefully worded” to be technically true and yet make it impossible to determine how much information was actually provided to the NSA. Lee Tien, an attorney with the Electronic Frontier Foundation pointed out that: “A company could say ‘We’ve never heard of the PRISM program.’ Well, maybe the government didn’t call it that. Or the company could say ‘We don’t allow backdoor access!’ Well, maybe they allow front door access.”

However. The Patriot Act 2 makes it clear that companies who are required to cooperate with these requests are also required by law to lie about all involvement and are given freedom from any form of prosecution.

I believe that humanity will only begin its next phase of societal evolution when pegging becomes the most favorite sexual position for both sexes.


It should be something women come to expect from their men.

It’s easier to convince him if:

1. The device is smaller by an inch than his dick.
Pulling out the Giga Ass Blaster is probably going to scare him.
2. You can demonstrate how easily it fits in and out of your own pretty ass.
Still he won’t go for the ass blaster, make it smaller than his dick.
3. You have fed him nothing but smoothies and wine.
You might be able to do this to him unawares and pop the question at him right after you’ve showered him off.
4. You may find it easier if you get your boy really high on his favourite drugs too.

5. You may find it hard to get rid of a boy you’ve pegged. He will love you soooo much.
6. Pegging a boy may increase your telepathic resonance with him. It is a known side effect and you can happily ignore it while you evolve.
7.  Its easier with some boys to distract them with a secondary pussy in their face.
If suitably distracted your boy might allow you to plow him into someone else.
8. Your boy will be very scared if you do not have copious amounts of lube in his eyesight.
Put a large tub of it by the tub. You won’t need it all, but he will be reassured by its presence.
9. If he “owes you one” it is much easier (along with him being high and full of smoothies).
Let him stray 2-3 times so you can poke him in return!
10.  Like in Hitchiker’s Guide, have a towel.  Some boys do pee themselves silly when poked by a pretty girl they luv.

Good luck and happy pegging!

Will some pretty girl please get me a black shirt with this on the front?

I move into a place after homelessness, and the Angel Poverty Pimps fer Gud make another $150: THANKS CHRISTY!

I’ve been in this new place about 3 months.

I have nothing.

No food, a couple pairs of pants, no good mop or broom or cleaners

no dry goods stored up.


Everybody assumes I should be so happy here.


I still am getting blocked from proper modern healthcare.


I ask the ladies at the hell’s angel poverty pimp front called E-Fry that is in charge of my welfare file to see if I can get some money for a good mop and broom and some cleaning supplies.


I’m told I can get $200 from welfare,

but that E-Fry won’t give it to me to get the things I need for moving in,

it has to be a “moving in package”

from their sister corporation

the other hells angel money laundering poverty pimp front

the Salvation Army.


2 days later the biker christian fuckwads who ripped me off and continue to fuck me over arrive at my door

they are so fucking proud of themselves, the 3 of them, looking all fucking self righteous.


they bring me a mattress and frame that, together in the quantities they bought them, cost the sally anne $40. And the company they purchased them from is a hells angel subsidiary too.


They hand me a box full of $20 of dollar store stuff.


3/4 of that box, 3 months later

is still untouched

it wasn’t anything I needed

the box spring is already breaking


They made $140 profit,

at least

the Salvation Army christian biker fucks walked out of my fucking house and all went and bought themselves things with the money they were given as profit for taking the $200 I was supposed to get to get things for myself to make my place work, and giving me this cheap fucking shit that I am not using.


I do not have a mop or broom or garbage bags or cleaning supplies

but hey

at least I wasn’t able to spend $50 of it buying some beer and smokes along with my cleaning supplies


its more important that the christian poverty pimps can afford smokes.


You are a genocidal ignorant cunt Christy Clark.


I have a $140 moving in +2 months power bill I can’t pay

because welfare won’t cover my power


I have 2 hernias, a torn knee ligament

and foot problems

I have been outside 3.5 of the last 5 years


And the biker fucks get $150

to give me a pile of useless shit


They were fucking laughing when they left


better some good ol christian boyz get it

rather than some faggot eh?


And E-Fry STILL HAS THEIR SPAM SERVICE THAT CHECKS ALL THEIR EMAIL correspondence from me from a company called STARGATE.CA

which gets every email I send to the ministry.



Why can’t the police shut down the Hell’s Angels? Because the government gives them more money each budget than the police.

Why can’t the police shut down the Hell’s Angels?

Because the government gives them more money each budget than the police.

Payment for keeping those poor people in line at their poverty pimp money laundering charity establishments like the Salvation Army, The Food Bank, Theo, The Kettle, UGM, Quest Foods, Narc-anon, The Recovery Centre, and a hundred other “legitimate” poverty pimp businesses, all controlled by a bunch of people who barely finished high school and became rich selling drugs and being rapist murderer bullies. Every state needs to put more money into those guys instead of the police eh? Get their heroin hillbilly punker kids with banjos and meth to trash every cultural scene.
Worked for the nazis.

I bet if you calculate just the tax writeoffs and subsidies for IATSE productions alone you would be at the cops budget.

That’s why IATSE pays cops to stand around as security on their sets
its cheaper to protect a movie set’s worth of coke if theres a union cop at the entrance to the set.

I mean its obvious they have more money than the police
Look at the airport and the seaport
All these billions of security cameras
looking out at us
watching all of us walk by
scanning us as we get on the plane
slowing everything down
so many uniforms
so may cameras
tasers everywhere
but behind all of that
which supposedly guarantees that no bomb gets on the plane

But the coke is on the plane or the boat or the train or the truck
on the other side of the camera
the other side of the fence
the other side off the security that cost billions for us
on the other side of that

there is still tons of coke getting off planes and boats and trucks every day

We so admire the boys who git er dun
we’re willing to fund all their shenanigans
I mean jeez
look what a great job they did
cleaning up those whores and getting a good patsy to face the international press

We don’t have a genocidal rapist gangster problem
we just had too many crack whores
that were made from the crack
that came off of the boats
and planes

The heroin in victoria park and the crack in the Commercial drive area, all the meth that people thieve and steal to get

came through the anti terrorism security system.

It ALL did.

Great job Christy
keeping Gordo’s dictator support system functioning for so long after he’s gone

It’s called Crime (Mis)Management

And these fuckers suck up so much fucking money from all of us
yet they are too fucking cheap to pay me
for my work
cheap ass fucks

Sucking Bald Eagle cock while you fuck over the people of your own country
fucking nazi fucks hiding behind your charity scams
you fucking owe me for my writing on Atlantis

This is the thing
I come from a town where I watched 300+ people each week
idolize a huge fat priest
who diddled children for years

So you fat fucks ripping me off and then all standing around your multimillion dollar charity money laundering scams and gloating in your warehouses with the coke stash can fuck off.

You have enough to pay me for my work you fucking cheapskates.

Get Robert and his two buddies to pay me in full and give me my fucking goddamn credit you fucks.
and stop hiding your fucking thieving ignorant drug dealer rapist bullshit behind some fucking “Christian” charity you hypocrite fucks. Ex pimps and drug dealers hiding behind jesus’ fucking skirts and pointing at everyone else
you fucks.

This is the perspective for everyone else you fraudster extortionist dickwads.
A person who works as a senior technician with a screen credit on Atlantis would make a salary of $70k
Plus they would still be getting residuals of a few grand each year
the fucking residuals for a senior tech/coordinator would be still, after these years, more than I’m living on per yer.

I have jack shit and you fuckers owe me a creator credit for Atlantis along with a per episode fee and fucking residuals. Brad and Robert did not create it and all you fat git er dun fuckwads know it. They were producers who took the work that I created and made the show with it. I want the fucking goddamned credit, I want a correct fee, and I want my fucking residuals you fraudster fucks. Pay my fucking fees. Rippoff motherfucker assholes.

The math isn’t hard. Its a lot less than what you scum off all of us with your shit each month.

Let’s say $100K/ep + residuals of 10% is $10M+ along with RESIDUALS.
That’s the lowball figure. Its a waaaay low figure.

But it makes the point you ripoff union gangster motherfucker shitfucks.

Sure its been fun burning me. I’m done laughing.
You owe me for my work you fucks.

The fucking bikers for jesus giving to the poor schtick while you launder your fucking money and rip me off laughing
is pissing me off.

sucking up government money and pretending your doing things for the “community”
its fucking bullshit

You all realize after I wrote this I had 2 people with unmuzzled german shepherds from the heroin crew stalking my dog and me. German shepherds, wolf crosses, should be muzzled. They can kill someone if poorly trained.
and they usually are.
I promote gun legalization for that reason.
If people can walk around with living shotguns
why can’t everyone else do the same.

To the police officer reading this
because there has to be at least one
I just wrote and gave links to witness accounts of fraud and extortion and attempted murder
and even possibly espionage and definitely genocide
but you don’t even have to follow up on it
because its too much work.

A decade after the Royal Commission of Canadian Healthcare: we have worse healthcare than we ever did!

A decade after this multimillion dollar shell game
where we all got told that someone was listening
almost every recommendation this report made
was ignored or shelved completely

The report was right and identified numerous serious health and privacy concerns
none of which have been corrected

Shame on you Prime Minister Harper
you are using the healthcare system to oppress
the lower classes
are getting lower healthcare
private information is being misused
and malpractice is the norm without repercussions

Canadians make over a dozen visits for things that should take two good visits
Why are we waiting for healthcare?
Our government is pumping billions of dollars of resources out
and 3\4 of canada is still paying some form of medicare “fee” end user protection racket

All so stevie’s doctor friends can become millionaires…

The conclusion of the Report set out 47 recommendations along with a timetable for their implementation.
Recommendation 1 – A new Canadian Health Covenant should be established as a common declaration of Canadians’ and their governments’ commitment to a universally accessible, publicly funded health care system. To this end, First Ministers should meet at the earliest opportunity to agree on this Covenant.
Recommendation 2 – A Health Council of Canada should be established by the provincial, territorial and federal governments to facilitate co-operation and provide national leadership in achieving the best health outcomes in the world. The Health Council should be built on the existing infrastructure of the Canadian Institute for Health Information (CIHI) and the Canadian Coordinating Office of Health Technology Assessment (CCOHTA).
Recommendation 3 – On an initial basis, the Health Council of Canada should: Establish common indicators and measure the performance of the health care system; Establish benchmarks, collect information and report publicly on efforts to improve quality, access and outcomes in the health care system; and coordinate existing activities in health technology assessment and conduct independent evaluations of technologies, including their impact on rural and remote delivery and the patterns of practice for various health care providers.
Recommendation 4 – In the longer term, the Health Council of Canada should provide ongoing advice and coordination in transforming primary health care, developing national strategies for Canada’s health workforce, and resolving disputes under a modernized Canada Health Act.
Recommendation 5 – The Canada Health Act should be modernized and strengthened by: Confirming the principles of public administration, universality and accessibility, updating the principles of portability and comprehensiveness, and establishing a new principle of accountability; Expanding insured health services beyond hospital and physician services to immediately include targeted home care services followed by prescription drugs in the longer term; Clarifying coverage in terms of diagnostic services; Including an effective dispute resolution process; and Establishing a dedicated health transfer directly connected to the principles and conditions of the Canada Health Act.
Recommendation 6 – To provide adequate funding, a new dedicated cash-only Canada Health Transfer should be established by the federal government. To provide long-term stability and predictability, the Transfer should include an escalator that is set in advance for five year periods.
Recommendation 7 – On a short-term basis, the federal government should provide targeted funding for the next two years to establish: a new Rural and Remote Access Fund; a new Diagnostic Services Fund; a Primary Health Care Transfer; a Home Care Transfer; and a Catastrophic Drug Transfer
Recommendation 8 – A personal electronic health record for each Canadian that builds upon the work currently underway in provinces and territories.
Recommendation 9Canada Health Infoway should continue to take the lead on this initiative and be responsible for developing a pan-Canadian electronic health record framework built upon provincial systems, including ensuring the interoperability of current electronic health information systems and addressing issues such as security standards and harmonizing privacy policies.
Recommendation 10 – Individual Canadians should have ownership over their personal health information, ready access to their personal health records, clear protection of the privacy of their health records, and better access to comprehensive and credible information about health, health care and the health system.
Recommendation 11 – Amendments should be made to the Criminal Code of Canada to protect Canadians’ privacy and to explicitly prevent the abuse or misuse of personal health information, with violations in this area considered a criminal offense.
Recommendation 12Canada Health Infoway should support health literacy by developing and maintaining an electronic health information base to link Canadians to health information that is properly researched, trustworthy and credible as well as support more widespread efforts to promote good health.
Recommendation 13 – The Health Council of Canada should take action to streamline technology assessment in Canada, increase the effectiveness, efficiency and scope of technology assessment, and enhance the use of this assessment in guiding decisions.
Recommendation 14 – Steps should be taken to bridge current knowledge gaps in applied policy areas, including rural and remote health, health human resources, health promotion, and pharmaceutical policy.
Recommendation 15 – A portion of the proposed Rural and Remote Access Fund, the Diagnostic Services Fund, the Primary Health Care Transfer, and the Home Care Transfer should be used to improve the supply and distribution of health care providers, encourage changes to their scopes and patterns of practice, and ensure that the best use is made of the mix of skills of different health care providers.
Recommendation 16 – The Health Council of Canada should systematically collect, analyze and regularly report on relevant and necessary information about the Canadian health workforce, including critical issues related to the recruitment, distribution, and remuneration of health care providers.
Recommendation 17 – The Health Council of Canada should review existing education and training programs and provide recommendations to the provinces and territories on more integrated education programs for preparing health care providers, particularly for primary health care settings.
Recommendation 18 – The Health Council of Canada should develop a comprehensive plan for addressing issues related to the supply, distribution, education and training, remuneration, skills and patterns of practice for Canada’s health workforce.
Recommendation 19 – The proposed Primary Health Care Transfer should be used to “fast-track” primary health care implementation. Funding should be conditional on provinces and territories moving ahead with primary health care reflecting four essential building blocks – continuity of care, early detection and action, better information on needs and outcomes, and new and stronger incentives to achieve transformation.
Recommendation 20 – The Health Council of Canada should sponsor a National Summit on Primary Health Care within two years to mobilize concerted action across the country, assess early results, and identify actions that must be taken to remove obstacles to primary health care implementation.
Recommendation 21 – The Health Council of Canada should play a leadership role in following up on the outcomes of the Summit, measuring and tracking progress, sharing information and comparing Canada’s results to leading countries around the world, and reporting to Canadians on the progress of implementing primary health care in Canada.
Recommendation 22 – Prevention of illness and injury, and promotion of good health should be strengthened with the initial objective of making Canada a world leader in reducing tobacco use and obesity.
Recommendation 23 – All governments should adopt and implement the strategy developed by the Federal, Provincial and Territorial Ministers Responsible for Sport, Recreation and Fitness to improve physical activity in Canada.
Recommendation 24 – A national immunization strategy should be developed to ensure that all children are immunized against serious illnesses and Canada is well prepared to address potential problems from new and emerging infectious diseases.
Recommendation 25 – Provincial and territorial governments should use the new Diagnostic Services Fund to improve access to medical diagnostic services.
Recommendation 26 – Provincial and territorial governments should take immediate action to manage wait lists more effectively by implementing centralized approaches, setting standardized criteria, and providing clear information to patients on how long they can expect to wait.
Recommendation 27 – Working with the provinces and territories, the Health Council of Canada should establish a national framework for measuring and assessing the quality and safety of Canada’s health care system, comparing the outcomes with other OECD countries, and reporting regularly to Canadians.
Recommendation 28 – Governments, regional health authorities, health care providers, hospitals and community organizations should work together to identify and respond to the needs of official language minority communities.
Recommendation 29 – Governments, regional health authorities, and health care providers should continue their efforts to develop programs and services that recognize the different health care needs of men and women, visible minorities, people with disabilities, and new Canadians.
Recommendation 30 – The Rural and Remote Access Fund should be used to attract and retain health care providers.
Recommendation 31 – A portion of the Rural and Remote Access Fund should be used to support innovative ways of expanding rural experiences for physicians, nurses and other health care providers as part of their education and training.
Recommendation 32 – The Rural and Remote Access Fund should be used to support the expansion of telehealth approaches.
Recommendation 33 – The Rural and Remote Access Fund should be used to support innovative ways of delivering health care services to smaller communities and to improve the health of people in those communities.
Recommendation 34 – The proposed new Home Care Transfer should be used to support expansion of the Canada Health Act to include medically necessary home care services in the following areas: Home mental health case management and intervention services should immediately be included in the scope of medically necessary services covered under the Canada Health Act; Home care services for post-acute patients, including coverage for medication management and rehabilitation services, should be included under the Canada Health Act; and palliative home care services to support people in their last six months of life should also be included under the Canada Health Act.
Recommendation 35 – Human Resources Development Canada, in conjunction with Health Canada should be directed to develop proposals to provide direct support to informal caregivers to allow them to spend time away from work to provide necessary home care assistance at critical times.
Recommendation 36 – The proposed new Catastrophic Drug Transfer should be used to reduce disparities in coverage across the country by covering a portion of the rapidly growing costs of provincial and territorial drug plans.
Recommendation 37 – A new National Drug Agency should be established to evaluate and approve new prescription drugs, provide ongoing evaluation of existing drugs, negotiate and contain drug prices, and provide comprehensive, objective and accurate information to health care providers and to the public.
Recommendation 38 – Working collaboratively with the provinces and territories, the National Drug Agency should create a national prescription drug formulary based on a transparent and accountable evaluation and priority-setting process.
Recommendation 39 – A new program on medication management should be established to assist Canadians with chronic and some life-threatening illnesses. The program should be integrated with primary health care approaches across the country.
Recommendation 40 – The National Drug Agency should develop standards for the collection and dissemination of prescription drug data on drug utilization and outcomes.
Recommendation 41 – The federal government should immediately review the pharmaceutical industry practices related to patent protection, specifically, the practices of evergreening and the notice of compliance regulations. This review should ensure that there is an appropriate balance between the protection of intellectual property and the need to contain costs and provide Canadians with improved access to non-patented prescription drugs.
Recommendation 42 – Current funding for Aboriginal health services provided by the federal, provincial and territorial governments and Aboriginal organizations should be pooled into single consolidated budgets in each province and territory to be used to integrate Aboriginal health care services, improve access, and provide adequate, stable and predictable funding.
Recommendation 43 – The consolidated budgets should be used to fund new Aboriginal Health Partnerships that would be responsible for developing policies, providing services and improving the health of Aboriginal peoples. These partnerships could take many forms and should reflect the needs, characteristics and circumstances of the population served.
Recommendation 44 – Federal and provincial governments should prevent potential challenges to Canada’s health care system by: Ensuring that any future reforms they implement are protected under the definition of “public services” included in international law or trade agreements to which Canada is party; and reinforcing Canada’s position that the right to regulate health care policy should not be subject to claims for compensation from foreign-based companies.
Recommendation 45 – The federal government should build alliances with other countries, especially with members of the World Trade Organization, to ensure that future international trade agreements, agreements on intellectual property, and labour standards make explicit allowance for both maintaining and expanding publicly insured, financed and delivered health care.
Recommendation 46 – The federal government should play a more active leadership role in international efforts to assist developing nations in strengthening their health care systems through foreign aid and development programs. Particular emphasis should be placed on training health care providers and on public health initiatives.
Recommendation 47 – Provincial, territorial and federal governments and health organizations should reduce their reliance on recruiting health care professionals from developing countries.

Death to Religion! Religion is Death: a twisted Kult revealed in this isometric RPG

I’m playing this cool game.

In it you play a female Inquisitor whose overriding mission is to destroy all religion.
Its an RPG, an isometric one.
like divine divinity
so basically you have your character in the center and the world moves around you.
Very old school.
A very excruciating startup, it takes about 6 maps until your character can go any amount of time without sleep, its also extremely confusing at first, and trying to figure out how to buy a house and where takes a while.

But its worth it, its actually one of those cool text based RPGs that have a decent story, with super crappy combat.

I’m trying to find the text files in the game
some of the quotes are priceless
since you basically must use a form of shamanic elemental magic and a visionary dreamstate throughout as you work for this very monastic warrior magician order intent on destroying all religion forever.

The implicit hypocrysies of the heretics are really interesting.

This is so old school I don’t think anyone will slog through it like I am
but I actually like it quite a bit.

magician warriors and atheist mages killing and destroying all religion
everyone is actually scared of the heroine
I’m standing next to someones sacred boar knowing the game will reward me for killing it and I just decided to go to the next area instead

they use this druidic sort of power yet they don’t see their buildings and rituals and Order business as a religion itself

Its very cool if you actually like Baldur’s Gate or the excellent Divine Divinity.
Not as polished
but worth it for some of the later dialogue.

I’m trying to figure out how to add more text
some of the dialogue is funny or bland
but its really pretty deep

Death to Religion! Religion is Death!
that’s their chant
the nazi chant

I don’t think religious beliefs are death
I think ignorance and oppressive religious control systems are messed up
but seeing as they are powerful and generate great wealth

I don’t see how we can not use some form of structure to ensure our collective rights
religions are corporations built on a basis of human spirituality
everything, even gangs have corporations

I think a blanket hatred of religion is false.
but perhaps that is just semantics

I sat and had a coffee with an IATSE chef
and he was mocking me

I had a coffee and a smoke
so I went along with it
but I, personally
am not of Gurdieff’s cult
so his joke did not apply

I remember being struck at his ignorance
Complete fucking ignorance
completely dismissive

I guess someone had told him I was a
so he was having a poke ad a laugh
making good money working for those IATSE fraudsters
hooking up the Stars with coke
defrauding and extorting the surrounding community

I knew that was the score
He bought me 2 coffees
It was worth it to assess

fascist  fucking idiocy

and I am an atheist druid in a loose form
a “witch”

I always thought that whole descent of the nazi’s into black “witchcraft” was weird
after killing and burning all else
they documented a lot of wierd shit they did

the Nazi’s
themselves a Kult?

A very successful one.
They became the rulers
for a while

There is so much of them still

I personally don’t like organized religion
everyone is stronger
if they are part of
the right gang

perhaps it should be a right
to have one

For example
have you ever entered a store or something and there were a couple of aggressive belligerent people that randomly wanted to fight you?
if there were 10 of you and you each had your 4 inch sacred knife with you
it wouldn’t matter how much weight they could lift or how big they were

If one of you was having problems with a government office
ten people could arrive to help add pressure or get a supervisor involved
gangs/congregations/corporations/armies get things done

what a messy bunch
of strangely evolved
monkey rats

If Jewish people were portrayed like witches are in the media, there would be a lot of problems…

Anyone who’s read any amount of my blog should know I’m not racist or anti semitic.

I have been informed on many occasions that the major film studios in America are “controlled” by a very small number of wealthy jews. This is what Ihave been told, from multiple sources. I do not personally know it is true unless the asshole Anderson and Cooper clans are jewish descent.

Over the years I’ve come to realize how much fear is induced in children towards pagan belief and how badly different pagan people have been portrayed.

I’m starting to find it very unsettling.

If you were to place a very sharp nosed obviously jewish person, with a couple of specific jewish caricatures, in the place of any character represented as a witch…

there would be a mass public outcry.

If you portrayed an old jew as a smelly person with horrible potions and evil intent, or the greedy jewish goldmiser attacking his community members for his own profit.

there would be a problem.

I don’t know.

I know more jewish people that aren’t like that.

I come from a place where people actually tried to ban Harry Potter
until it swept the world. So.

Shouldn’t we create an association similiar to the jewish league that’s sole purpose is to sue people over the representations of pagans and “witchcraft” that are misleading or cast a negative connotation?

I think that’s what we need.


Canadian State Funded Terrorist Support Organizations: Why the Masons and the Salvation Army are like Islam and the Taliban

This is really an interesting comparison
I’m getting to this and the 3 previous works in progress very quickly
just teasing you with what’s coming up!

This is going to be kind of like a previous article where I compared the average christian potbellied gun toting arab hater to a taliban insurgent. I thought it was quite funny how similar they were.

But in this article we will take a cursory look at how our provincial and federal governments are giving billions of taxpayer dollars to thugs, gangsters, and christian religious extremists in every budget, through organizations that have headquarters in other countries. Terrorist support organizations working towards a religious or political coordinated attack against the Canadian economy and its citizens.

A Mason, or a gang member aren’t really Canadian.
Masonism comes before their country and its citizens.
Just like Allah.

I also think all Celts should be allowed to carry knives in courts as well.
We are being discriminated against in favor of sikhs.

(I’m sortof kidding. Nothing against Sikhs, except that they hate fags and are also a religious paramilitary group. They feed more people than the Christians though.
I will say
that a Sikh policeman once lied to me
directly to my face
and as a Celtish breed of norwegian scottish german
I value honesty/truth more than anything else within the spirit or material
and so
my assessment of the honorability of Sikhism
is compromised by this situation
regarding a Sikh
in a VPD uniform
with a Kirpan
yet I can not carry
a Kris or Athame.)

Class Actions: How mass suicides and killing sprees became the only effective mechanism against institutional and societal pack oppressions.

Ghandi’s process was too slow
We are a Mc Dick’s culture now
speeding up societal evolution
through an instinctual mass wave of teenage and elder suicide
or depressed underemployed serfs going on killing sprees after being evicted or psychologically tormented for years.

I think, personally, anyone who wants to kill themselves in depression after being tormented for a long time by a group of people should go the killing spree route.

It works like this
A group of people are calling someone a slut or fag constantly, mocking them, laughing at them, making concerted efforts to steal from them and taunt them, etc.

If the person calls the police or an authority figure like a teacher who doesn’t give a shit then nothing will be done, no one will even take a look at what’s going on, and if they do, they’ll just shrug it off. It’s too much bother to get into things like that if you can’t just see what’s happening in a couple of minutes. So many more important things to do.

So useless authority fuck goes away.

The tormenting continues and even is stronger because obviously no one will do anything about it unless the person being tormented does.

At this point, thousands of people of all ages kill themselves each year, because of shitty people in their “community”.

No one cares, every one says they do, they spend lots of money talking about it and having big dinners. At the same time, its happening to thousands more.

Everyone forgets the loser who committed suicide, and later the people who were mocking them get to sit around and laugh for hours. They’ll trot that story out every couple years.

If the person being harassed kills 10 of the 20 people who are involved in tormenting them, everyone remembers them, some of their enemies are dead, the enemies that aren’t dead no longer have a funny story to tell because your torture and its humorous aspects gets overshadowed by the death of their shitty friends or family, or that limb they lost.

In this scenario the victim gets fucked over too, death or jail usually, unless they meticulously plan and watch lots of movies made by gangsters that show them how to get revenge.

But in one scenario the shitheads get to laugh forever.

In the other, they bleed and cry and shut the fuck up and as a group they avoid pissing people off in the future because they remember when that geek or fag or slutty drunk girl got pissed off

and fucked them right back.

my fucking hometown

I guess I have to write about my shitty little hometown and my shitty backstabber father who lives there.

I haven’t seen him in 10 years. I don’t care to.

I think a lot about where I grew up
the town that perpetually loses its children

a beautiful summer resort
deserted in the winter
a town without money or hope

Where the shittiest rednecks have regular work for the town
and the people that have jobs in the 5 stores or so
make jack shit

all the intelligent children flee.

What a great place
to call

I remember the trees and the water
I did a lot of hiking and riding

Such a beautiful place
to have nothing
and no hope really
of ever having anything there

a lonely place of buffoons and bullies
where no one really ever had any happiness
not the people I knew

I remember visiting my father
living in a trailer
his retirement home

I wasn’t welcome there
not really

mocked regularly
there’s that unemployed bum

no jobs anywhere
no respect

I watch my father
work for the town tycoon
who owns the trailer and rents it to him

He’s so ingratiated
quick to please
I had to leave
watching my old man grovel
for 5 bux an hour under the table

That’s what they admire
my father admired him, the tycoon
I wanted to murder him

He made everyone grovel like that

everyone grovelling for little bits of money
everyone snarling at each other
I’m a good slave
why aren’t you working too?

Because I detest slavery
and slave minds
who can barely read
telling me

I’m wrong

The recreational vehicles, boats, skidoos
every summer it fills up

and in the fall we see again the truth
when they are gone

there’s nothing here
and we subsist

No car, no job, no money
get out and get a job
get out and get a job

I wanted to go to university
at 17 with my honors grades
but the $3500 I had saved to buy a car
had to be used to feed the family
during a rough spot

so no car.

no car, no job, no future
jack fucking shit
oh yeah
I guess it’s beautiful

and lonely
and hopeless

honors student
a “star” in the play
not worth anything to rednecks
my plans and dreams to get a degree and work on music

as if they never existed
childish dreams
of futures

I remember bowing
at the prom
a long slow bow
to everyone

as I stood in the doorway
with no money for a suit
unable to dance
with the girl I really did like
but never was able to be with

I should have been in a tux too
dancing or sitting at a table
but I couldn’t

so I bowed
and left

I left.

I remember the day I left
I wasn’t even offered a ride to the city
I took a suitcase with wheels
and walked to the highway
hitchiked to edmonton
and got on a bus

get out
get a job

My father didn’t want a future with us
he wanted a place to retire

He has retired

He wonders why I will never visit him and his new family
a new wife with kids that did things right
they have jobs and cars
they made something of themselves

unlike my brother and I

beautiful places of poverty and futility

Why would we return?

To be mocked?

Kill them or Die: Why all of humanity must murder or incarcerate every mason.

They are enslaving and murdering all of you and they are in control of the legal system. Kill them or die.

They are worse than the Taliban or Islam
The control our courts, police, our hospitals
They manipulate our politics and undermine democracy and human rights in every country in the world

and they act self satisfied in their right to do so



The FBI killed more children at waco than most mass shootings in schoolyards.

She bought the shirt, I just laughed at her good taste!

She bought the shirt, I just laughed at her good taste!

I don’t know her personally.
It’s from the web.
I think it’s from the states
in which case
she would be promoting an illegal activity
since ass-sex is 21 in most states

Its obviously her own choice.

And its FUNNY.

I know girls that stick their hands in each others holes.
Not my hand, it’s too big.
And I would get in trouble with someone like above so I would be restricted to flirting.
But they do that to each other.

What was her excuse? oh yeah
“Babies come out of there. My hand is smaller than a baby!”

I’m fine with it if she demands, but it hurts to have your hand crushed in fleshy handcuffs for an hour or so.
Honestly, it really hurts my hand.


Speaking of good taste.

I was readng about Female Ejaculation on the wikipedia.
At like, 4 am.

There was an anthropological anecdote about a tribe whose female rite of passage encompassed the older women teaching the younger women to hit the wall with the liquid. Which I thought was interesting since that would mean it could be a learned or taught behavior/technique.

Another thing I found interesting was how little the male dominated medical profession understood this until 1990. The amount of blatantly wrong assertions and descriptions created and presented in the article as references in scientific/medical printed history are astounding. Truly.
Just “don’t worry about that silly woman…”


 So essentially, there are 2 kinds, just like males.
Thick white goop of about 1-5ml or a stream of thin clear almost urin like liquid which is not really urine but has some urine and a higher water content. Which would maybe be more like what happens at a prostrate release. Yet for all these centuries, male physicians have completely got this wrong and gave it all sorts of “hysterical” labels.
In fact they were conditioned by a christianized society to believe it was “wrong” or a “malfunction” or incontinence

from wiki:
It has been demonstrated that a large amount of lubricating fluid (filtered blood plasma with urine traces) can be secreted from this gland (Skene) when stimulated from inside the vagina. Some reports indicate that embarrassment regarding female ejaculation, and the mistaken notion that the substance is urine, can lead to purposeful suppression of sexual climax, leading women to seek medical advice and even undergo surgery to “stop the urine”.
And we implicitly trust such an ignorant medical system.


If there was no third eyewitness, then there is no proof of rape.

If there was no third eyewitness, then there is no proof of rape.
That was actually law and standing legal precedent
up until less than 30 years ago.

There are still places where this is true.
There are many things like that.

You see.
Even though I was robbed by Robert Cooper and the people of Stargate Atlantis,
it isn’t beneficial to the masters.

In Canada, a handshake agreement is binding.
Contracts do not need to be written, they can be verbal and remain in force.

But to my family and “friends” and “community”
I am not really a victim of fraud and extortion and attempted murder

Unless you have a witness to the act that’s willing to testify
you were not raped or robbed

it did really happen
for years, only a witness who actual saw the rape, didn’t get caught by the rapist, and was willing to testify, was the only way to get a conviction

sperm, dna, bruises even
all could be construed by the court as consensual
and the legal device called “hearsay”
prevented all people who the rapist might brag to
from being used in testimony

So even though 3000 members of IATSE and Pegasus productions
all know the story about how Robert and Andy sat with me and ripped me off
to get the storyline for Atlantis
that’s innadmissible
its hearsay

unless I have a recording
or people that witnessed the event themselves

I do,
but both of those chicks got burned pretty bad and messed up.
So they can’t even remember.

I guess that might have happened to someone else before eh?
Raped and beaten, the cops are unsympathetic, or just plain mocking her
everyone indifferent or even laughing

Just clean yourself off and get back to being a good slave after your beating
because they will make everyone work more
if they back yo up or show you sympathy

Nowadyas, if you are raped with GHB
its the same,
you looked like you were enjoying it
it serves you right
for something or other you did
if you weren’t such a, that wouldn’t have

it really didn’t

because if we admitted that it did
our illusions of equality and societal evolution
would be dashed
by the sharpest of reality’s edges

they all know I didn’t
get paid a fucking cent
I’ve listed people involved, police have sent me harrassing comments on the internet mocking the fact that I don’t get justice
and  never will

I imagine a few young women sat with rape counsellors who really didn’t care, it was just a job, and if she doesn’t have the legal requirements for the case, such as a present witness, then really there is nothing you can do so
“focus on getting your life back together”

We are a society that puts smiles and laugh tracks
on torture and misery

I was thinking about all those old movies
the british period pieces about the colonies
africa, india

I was thinking about the rich british elites
having tea in the poshest places
“taking care of all the paperwork and business
for you savages”

countries full of poor people
lorded over by people
with slaves

they always have slaves
and servants

slave, servant, whore, moron-thug
those sycophants thrive
in such environments

from a society on the edge
we ebb backwards
into glistening clean genocide
made by laughing thugs
in clean uniforms

The nazis were respected people
they held big fancy parties
in suits and dress
they had cultured dinners and hospitals
they ran thriving businesses

and when they slowly started screwing all the
“unwanted people” over
non nazi, non conforming, non german girls
could just be raped

and it would be justified by everyone
over breakfast

Doctgors, lawyers, police, soldiers
accountants, movie crews, government officials
whole countries turned to fascism quickly
and the first step is wiping away rights
in their big magical illusion machine

called “law”

Worldwide American Standing Armies: Psyops and Cultural Suppression in the New World Order

4000 men anywhere in the world at any time.


Because they are already there.

Satan’s Typewriter

“Masturbation is Satan’s Typewriter”
The current generation of children and teenagers learn more from the internet than from their peers and parents or even tv.
Want to hear something cool about church?
My mother has a tithe in her church right?
Plus all the other contributions,
in 25 years she has given them let’s say $80K+
seriously, it’s probably twice that
and I’ve run a number of restaurants and was also an excellent student.
Which is worth jack fucking shit
to all you students out there
in “high school”
Its bullshit.
Get out fast and make money before you are 24
or you won’t have money you’ll have debt
no one cares about marks
the marks don’t get anyone work
It only that you make money,
the church is worth a $80k
but my family wouldn’t invest $20k in a business loan for someone in the family,
they were
a christian


dis = order
dis – ease
dys – phoria
dys – function

These are word programming tools to make INTERSEX humans as wrongly formed – DIS – formed from the NORMAL gender binary

the wording makes us
DIS – tinct
we can be Dis-owned, Dis-enfranchised, Dis-missed,

this syllable is a negative one, a perjorative
Dis – turbing
the people in the clinics who get all the money set aside for dealing with these DIS – gusting De – formed group of people who DE – viate from male/female marriage normality, those people get paid to explain to us how wrong we are and how we just have to leave that alone.
The money was all spent in them mocking us
there’s none left for our actual healthcare.

If you have a lot of intersex friends or associates
do a little survey
I bet you 9 out of 10 has had serious mental health issues
but if you actually know them
they are fine
but the mental health label is necessary
So no one will take our Dis – reputable words seriously
if you have a set if Dis – eases then you can DI – vide people who are united under a common pronoun as the intersexed, and turn them into Dis – crete groups of separate dis – orders.
As Intersex people, we earn the group inclusion rights of this larger group encompassing more than 5 separate div – isions.
As that larger group we can require advocacy, legal protection, and specialist medical care, as in – div – iduals we are just separated out from the group protection by the pack of the medical society after they make us out to be dis – eased in distinct forms.

As the group Intersex, we encompass hundreds of millions of humans in various stages of medical and cultural suppression, as dis – orders, we have no inherent group identity to hide behind or be proud of.

Does “God” have a Penis?

I mean

she said he was invisible and that she spoke to him all the time

he was all around us

I asked if he had a penis

She said no and then yes

and then something about being formed in his image

You don’t have a penis

I said

Do you actually hear a voice?



she said

but I feel his presence


I said

You speak to him daily, identify him as male, can’t see him, aren’t sure if he has a penis, have never heard him speak, are still certain that he’s male.

And there. Hmm. You’re certain he’s there as you feel his presence.


Do you believe in Telepathy?

I said

Not really.

Not like, people talking to each other with their minds and stuff,

that would be wierd

She says.


I said.

So you’ve never been a Tree?

A what?

She says

How long have you believed in this “god” that doesn’t talk to you?

I said

I guess

She told me more

about it


what she thought

about him

I wondered why someone would work with a Godform

or one projected for them by their “trusted” priest

if there was no direct mental speech

outside of flashy rituals

and private personal workings


and hearing

and seeing


would be how to interact with a Godform

since it is your own mind

that must take away benefit from the exchange

and communication of that visionary sort is very metaphorical

it doesn’t

make sense

to me

it rarely does

To leap and trust

because that is what is expected

and everyone else does

so…I should too…?

It seems silly

I know

the idea of that

big invisible penis

its kind of like

an elephant

in a tiny room

full of people

who don’t want to talk about it

“If you’re going to tell people the truth,
make them laugh,
otherwise they’ll kill you”
– O. Wilde

Billeting the DraGOONs – The disruptors attracted your gatherings like evil moths

Pagans exhibit and grow their spirituality outside

this is why outdoor gatherings are so quickly dispersed by police

in the absence of legal gathering places like churches

we found fields to dance in

in the midst of our drum circles and gatherings we think we have safety and equality

but if we look around

we find the dragoons

the shitty gangster fuck who takes over the loudest instrument, playing off time

drunk and mocking

the rocker union boys

just setting up a picnic nearby

and blaring their blasters

where you have always gathered

They are charming

and have money

and its a free world

you can’t stop them from coming


you throw rocks at them

or start a fight

they will never get in any trouble for it

they’re doing what the masters want

creating fear and tension

so the heathens

will flee

I stopped going to your events

funky people with music and dancing

there were always a couple of the disruptors

usually from surrey or a union

and amongst your people pronouncing the need for equality

I found as much jeering

as any other shitty scene

so it wasn’t worth staying

and trying to compete

with the dragoons

If you were really aware as pagans

you would actually learn to fuck them up

but I guess

that is why the Eloi

were food

The Jesus Zombie – an easter fable

This isn’t my idea

I don’t know if even belongs to the guy who told it to me

I’ve embellished it considerably

but you may recreate it faithfully if you wish

I have no copyright on either the Passion or:

Jesus as a zombie

The Zombie Christ


It makes me think

jesus rising from the dead as a zombie

and the first 2 people that actually are waiting up for him

because they love him so

replenish his brain supply so he can continue

That’s a great easter story

before and after zombification donkey riding pans and closeups

the whole tomb transformation scene

n fact

you could write it up so that the zombification was already taking hold

when he bit off Judas’ ear,

so that would clear him of that cannibal stigma

that the whole ear biting thing was causing for some people.

If there were 2000 zombie movies of Jesus Zombies

That would be better than just zombie

zombies fucking suck

but you could mix it up with Day of the Dead meats Passion of the Zombie Christ

It could be a dramatic tearjerker with maggots and pus

and romans

so many fucking romans

romans and pirates turned to zombies

a battlefield of zombies with beer

there for the whole nailing scene

This is a period piece, right?

There’s no tv, but they got beer

unless its like a future apocalypse retelling thing

then they might have TV projection

Pirates and romans and jock zombies

with a little crowd of christians at the center

watching in horror

and fascination

I mean

that’s the crucial money shot moment anyway

the long death scene

with hints of the coming zombification

for viewers in the know

lots of fucking zombie robot romans

barely able to speak

they can’t even say “brains”

they just say


Jesus was dark BROWN…

Jesus was BROWN.

His hair was curly black

He had BROWN eyes

He didn’t speak english

He didn’t watch football or racing.


He was brown. Almost BLACK.

Not white.

Just throwing that out there for all you folks that like to

“Git ‘er Dun!”

I know I’ve said it before

I thought it bore repeating

for the moron boys

All of the holy apostles were brown.

They were BROWN!!!!

not white


Somewhere in history he got bleached

after the romans took over the collection money

Complaint Procedure – the fascists laughed, because | I wouldn’t get on the fucking train…


What the Death of Jesus represents, metaphorically, to a non-christian:

1. If you are spiritual and have big gatherings and talk about tolerance the kids will love you.

2. The older people who have orthodox right wing views and are good well paid slaves will hate you because their kids that hate them love you. They also hate long hair because they are bald and are afraid of their anuses being too filthy to touch.

3. Eventually the backstabbers and gossipers and lynch instigators will wear you down or set you up or realize you have ideas or property of value and they will ask the Romans to kill you. Even though everyone hates the Romans and knows they are the real criminals that are fucking everyone over, but you can’t fight them so get on their good side whenever possible. Always lots of people ready to suck Roman cock for perks.

4. Once the Romans are involved, even the people that hate the Romans will scream at the Romans to kill you.

5. Everyone that ever liked you will, in the face of all of that, denounce you and pretend they never liked you. Your family will gladly tell them everything shitty they can about you and help, especially if you are worth money.

6. Everyone who doesn’t have anything else to do will all get together to throw rocks while you carry your shit to where they’re gonna kill you. Even the people that knew you will throw rocks, otherwise they will be noticed for not throwing rocks. Your family members will be in the crowd. They will have fucking rocks too.

7. The Romans will kill you.

8. Everyone will watch on pay per view if they can’t be there. It will be a spectacle. There might even be beer commercials during the breaks in torment. Union Made. The local police will run crowd control and grounds security for the event. Everyone will have a party and laugh while they rewind the good parts.

9. The Romans will divide up anything you have of value.

10. The people of your community will divide up the rest. Your family will fight about it all later.

11. Afterward no one will speak well about you. It will be a good thing that you were publicly humiliated and killed. It was good for everybody.

12. The next generation they’ll do it to someone else.

13. 100 years later you and your works will be the tourist attraction for the community that screamed for your murder.

14. If you die dramatically there will be a statue covered in pigeon shit representing your martyrdom.

15. If you don’t die dramatically, you won’t even get your fifteen minutes of fame for hanging up there.

What Jesus represents

If you look up at him hanging there just the right way

is this:

Do what the Romans tell you to or you’ll end up like me.

Clear Precedent Danger – why every queer and freak should take law in post secondary…

Your rights as a human being in Canada are not inherent

like all systems arisen from colonialism

the Canadian legal system is specifically designed to maintain the status quo against human societal evolution and pervasive rights

For decades an atrocity can be committed by administrations of respected governments

as long as there is little proof and no outward signs

it will be allowed to continue

until someone of the slave classes

takes their savings and time

years and thousands

to set a Precedent

This is why entry to law school is very restrictive

Every queer and witch and freak in Canada

can be ripped off with impunity

anyone, really

in Harper’s Canada,

only profit matters

and “God”

method and motive

and culture,

or lack thereof

are inconsequential

They tell you to do what you love

I tell you that’s bullshit

right out of school

take accounting or law

after you have a degree in that

be yourself

because if any of your ideas or creations are of value

you will need a lawyer

so why not start your life debt to the education system by prepaying for the legal representation you will invariably need?

If you want rights, real ones

you have to pay for them

a society that progresses


by challenging laws of the past

that entrench injustice

not justice

to evolve past overdressed simians

bowing frantically to white robed holy monkeys,

to a world where humans can fuck how they like

and create families outside

of the christian binary construct,

a world where evolution is admired but it is still a place where people can believe in different spiritual constructs without suppression,

you need Precedence

to continue evolving

silly monkeys

Precedence only comes

from from humans FIGHTING unjust law.

Fighting Law is the only way to evolve Law.

It is only through our conflict with laws that law and society evolve

anachronous or oppressive, or discriminatory laws,

entrenched for centuries

have to be fought by slave citizens with their own slave money

Masters do not want the law to change

and they can pay well to manipulate law and create more controlling or thieving Precedents.

Injustice in “law” is held SACRED until it is destroyed

by a Precedence.

Law in Canada as it stands, promotes inequality and oppression

Almost all evolutions in law start with someone who recieves unjust treatment at the hands of law, confronting law on their own dime.

They usually die penniless

and 2 centuries later are vindicated.

So instead of taking art, silly little witchies and faggots

trannies and freaks and musicians and dykes and everybody that’s not in a good christianized nuclear family workin’ fer the union to Git ‘er Dun,

all you queer folk,

Take Law.

Set a few Precedents.

You’ll make a lot more money than the other slaves

because all of the hegemony will try to distract you

simply to avoid

the evolution

of Precedent.

Quisling Culture: Harper, Christy, and the Crime Families vs. Your Family

They have a very small minded idea of what a family is.

There are so many real “families” of people living together that don’t conform to their christian gangsgter ideal of what a “proper” family is.

They discriminate and oppress you from this imaginary position of superiority.

Harper’s growing fascist state loves the gangs

that’s why so many billions are paid out to the “faith based charities” that are really gangs laundering money for the rich and targeting the enemies of the state

The state has always needed bullies

and since they learned what a mess public genocide is

they moved back to the previous policy

billeting the dragoons in the cultural neighborhoods

Christy and Stephen have no problem going to church

then paying $300 million dollars out to a bunch of “charities” run by the italians and the hells angels and yes, the cia too

That was Georgies selling point to Harper

“We’re funding faith based poverty initiatives,

not state sponsored criminal gangs attacking lefties, witchies, and queers”

Its all in how you present it.

The indians were relocated to “help them”

die of course, but hey it looks good when you sell it right

Do you all realize

that we could end all of the public debt in Canada

90% of which was incurred by our debt to the gang run unions

the welfare people didn’t break our budgets

the unions did

the gang unions

that Stephen employs

We could vaporize all that public debt in one single month

ALL of it.

Not decades of belt tightening for everybody

its very simple

use the new expanded police powers you’ve gradually grown under everyone’s noses, and absorb all of the assets and companies owned by organized crime groups and their subsidiaries.

In one single week, the Canadian fiscal deficit crisis would be over

If you then went and absorbed all of the corporations who owe the fed more than 50% of their capital assets in tax payments, we as Canadians would be in the black again.

You’ve dismantled our healthcare and made legal representation impossible to get for anyone without money Mr. Harper

You want to throw 15 year olds in jail for a few pot plants

but your buddies at the Salvation Army and IATSE get your gov’t handouts

for the good work they do importing cocaine for your rich friends

Canadians have less money in their pockets than when you started Mr. Prime Minister. Except your buddies in the gangs. They’re living large.

Why every Queer should marry a Straight person early in life…

…and then divorce them when it’s convenient.

Do it before you are 20

Your whole redneck family will turn against you and fuck you over because you are queer,

so marry a straight right out of high school

get all the gifts and perks that families hand out to their good newly married children

take the bank loans, the cheaper insurance, the jobs that suddenly appear,

when you are 22-23, divorce them, split up the booty

and go handfast with someone more conducive to a real life of non fakeness

Your family will be shocked

but so what, if you had been honest with your queer self like they try and tell you you can be, you would have got NOTHING but derision from your family.

So a fag and a dyke marrying just to have the marriage on paper so they can get all the discriminatory perks is completely justified. Each can have their real sex partner living in the house too, legally it is only the marriage on paper that matters.

The Christian Hegemony wants you to believe that it is a holy thing, man0woman marriage.

Love is holy. That’s all. marriage is a cult dominated cultural bias which allows 20-30% of the population to discriminate against the majority, LEGALLY.

They can LEGALLY discriminate against you all..

Christians have this weird idea that they’ve tried to take over the world with.

That because you live together and fuck someone that you should share their debts and profit.

Each person should keep their own debts and profit

There should be no support from exes,

if the child rearing parent outside of the relationship is having trouble then society is not caring for for people with children properly in its design of the social safety net.

Otherwise, people marry because of the economic benefits(the ingrained discriminatory practices against singles) and they marry people not out of love but out of a future greed where they know if they fuck a rich person for 3 years and live with them that they can get a monthly check for the rest of their life.

It’s a long term whoring strategy used by the christians in power to institutionalize control and discrimination.

So all you faggots and dykes and trannies and kinksters

find yourself someone you don’t really love

and marry them just to get the perks that society illegally gives to married people.

Marriage Cults

I predict that one day the concept of “lifetime marriage”,

a Christian Concept

will be ruled as unconstitutional

and the discriminatory rules and perks that married people get in their taxes, salaries, insurance costs, and job promotions will be outlawed

Marriages will be fixed term with clearly defined rules to make sure that the participants assets remain separate and that they have a specific co-owned couples account for shared costs.

Children will go with one or the other parent, all financial ties will be severed at the time of separation

We must separate the church and state

Marriage is a Christian tool of mind control that is used to make people conform to a christian set of ideals.

It divides people more than it connects them,

it separates families by making them enemies over money

and it ingrains discrimination and favoritism against single people in society, finance and law.

My brother might be a stupid redneck cunt-fuck

but he gets job offers, promotions, way cheaper insurance, and more than 10 times the credit, just because he’s married to someone. That is discrimination. It really is.

Look at the managers at your company where you work

The managers are all married, and between a single person and someone who is married, the married person ALWAYS gets the promotion, even though somone else might do a better job.

From the special advisor on religious discrimination at the UN:

In his report, the expert warns that human rights violations against persons belonging to religious minorities include disproportionate bureaucratic restrictions, denial of appropriate legal status positions needed to build up or uphold a religious infrastructure, systematic discrimination and partial exclusion from important sectors of society, discriminatory rules within family laws, and indoctrination of children from minorities in public schools.“The human rights-based approach,” he explained, “takes respect for the self-understanding of human beings as its systematic starting point.” “In keeping with the principle of normative universalism, the rights of persons belonging to religious minorities cannot be confined to the members of certain predefined groups,” Mr. Bielefeldt said. “Instead, they should be open to all persons who live de facto in the situation of a minority and are in need of special protection to facilitate a free and non-discriminatory development of their individual and communitarian identities.”


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The Girl didn’t Die From Bullying, She died because of lack of justice…and indifferent police.

In B.C.

What about that girl that was gang raped at the Pitt Meadows bush party?

Oh, right, she didn’t kill herself so we can forget that happened here.

I mean, she wasn’t killed like that girl on the train in india, so it wasn’t really that bad.


Just “kids”

having “fun”

in the Greatest Place on Earth

Not much the police can do about it.

They don’t really care


They get paid either way

and I bet one or two of the boys involved

has a rich dad

Amanda Todd didn’t die from internet stalking

or bullying

she died from an institutionalized indifference

Every day in canada

someone else who is seriously fucked over by a gang or bullies

every day in Canada, they call the police

and are laughed at

unless you can prove it yourself

the police won’t spend resources to prove what happened to you

you’re just another slave

and union resources like police

are expensive

The girl’s trauma was caused by no one

not even herself

doing something about it

and since her death another 150 people in Canada her age have killed themselves

over something similiar

Where no one did anything

and everyone tells them to call the police

who stand around chuckling

before saying

“There’s really nothing we

can do”

Bullies and gangsters make more

remember that

be a bully

and you’ll be rewarded


But what about the adults?

They get it worse

we’ve spent as a society about $30 million

on Bullying conferences for kids

Save the Kids!

Save the Kids!

There are 4 or 5 times as many adults

experiencing the same thing

every day

but the conferences ignore them

because they aren’t kids

That;s what’s wrong

its not just a high school thing

it permeates our society

We know the police are inneffective

except in simple violent crime

but when someone kills themself

there are no bruises

and the police are allowed to choose

whether they will bother

to investigate


Its easier to build up your employee file

doing simpler things

arresting drunks and such

spending a couple of weeks trying to help one person?

they don’t even bother

There is no justice in Canada for anyone who cannot afford to make their own.

And what about that young 19 year old ontario girl

locked away for more thsn s yesr for stealing a cd and throwing an apple

She didn’t get any justice

She was trying to kill herself because of the inherent injustice of the situation

an injustice the police were propogating

the justice who sent her to jail should be lynched

but there are no repercussions for bad judges, policemen or politicians

The main problem is that the police officers are allowed to decide for themselves whether or not to investigate any particular crime, and they specifically are instructed to not waste resources.

Someone who is harassed online for showing their tits is really just a laugh to them, when they can make 5 arrests in an hour just targeting drunks and crackheads. They aren’t going to charge anyone for calling someone a slut. They won’t charge someone for calling anyone any names at all. They don’t consider verbal harrassment by social groups to be a crime.

It was OK for all the yuppie jocks to mock the goth kids of columbine. That’s ALLOWED. The outsiders retaliate and they are seen as the “evil bastards” but really, if there was proper justice and court and legal representation for people they could maybe taken the rich whelps to court – NOT.

If you get robbed by a gang and they are gone when the police arrive, they won’t look, its a waste of time to them. I had a friend have $5K worth of stuff burgled, an officer didn’t even come to the door. A crackhead steals a pack of smokes and 6 cops will be there, a crackhead or drunk is passed out in the deserted house down the street and they sent 2 firetrucks and an ambulance, $2K worth of union workers for a drunk.

Do you think any police officer is ever going to investigate the fact that my CT scan was swapped on orders from a doctor involved in Therapeutic privelege? Do you think any cop is going to investigate the rich american fucks who ripped off some east van faggot?


They’ll drag a drunk off to the tank for $10K worth of Detox, but they didn’t spend any time or effort on dying whores, robbed and harassed faggots, or little girls who can’t keep their shirt on.

They don’t give a flying fuck, its just a job, and they are only in it for the money and power.

If you have money and power, you’ll get justice.

Otherwise, just be a good slave and shut up, because they aren’t going to investigate anything on your behalf when there is good money to be made taking bribes from gangsters to ignore the whores and drug dealers.

We have a “community cop” in our neighborhood, and he stands around joking with the crack and heroin dealers!

What about police harrassment?

Is that included in your new “bullying” law talk?

2 times a police officer from the VPD has made comments on my blog after a court appearance.

Twice. Mocking me.

What about being jailed for 3 days for calling a doctor a cunt because she was the 9th docotr I went to and all 9 mocked me for my birth genetics. They laughed. They swapped medical records, they mocked me right in the CT scan lab!

My last court appearance the prosecuting attorney tried to make the REMOVAL OF THIS BLOG as a condition of release!

How many millions have we paid out to “talk” about bullying in school, when its really a society wide problem with a number of right wing union backed groups involved.

“Finding God – The Movie” and “The American Invasion !!”

I’m going to find God.

And capture it on film.

The search of course

in all the nooks and crannies

of our minds.

But before I start, let’s get this clear:

I don’t believe in God or Satan.

Or Heaven.

Or the concept of Hell as a destination of Torment

But I believe in human spirituality.

This will be interesting…

It might take me a while.

I need a camera and a better rig for editing.

This will be cool.

So cool.

I’m also planning a movie, 2 actually, a doc and a comedy, on the invasion of Canada by American CIA agents using Canadian films and drug smuggling film unions as a cover for the targeting and character assassination of lefty pothead Canucks with socialist tendencies.It will be followed by a spin off called Canadian Traitors, where the dumbest redneck Canadians who suck american military dick for perks like good jobs harrass and intimidate every Canadian cultural worker they can find, justifying it by giggling like a bunch of fat schoolgirls saying “you shoulda joined the union!!” or any other excuse they can bring up for why the person deserved their fate.

Of course, both of the “American Invasion!!!!”(tm) series will have the usually stupidified Canadian politicians clamouring over each other to bend over for the americans, and happily going along ith everything to help get rid of the terrorist socialist pagan un-christian hordes of useles people who won’t be good slaves for the american masons who are in seats of power all throughout the canadian social and legal and health systems.

Every episode starts off with another loveableCanadian loser who believes that the social safety net is essential in a society where it hits minus 30+ and all the good jobs go to people who were born in other countries, to keep the canucks from ever gaining any hold on their own society and its rulers.

Every episode or 3 episode arc will show the horrible lefty bohos getting framed and red-baited and ostracized from their own families and communities for real or imagined “transgressions” endlessly talked about by plastic TV personalities groomed for vacuous information misdirection.

Lots of closeups of plasticized canucks speaking reverentially about “american life” while their families slowly disintegrate from lack of healthcare or credit.

Single Player 3D First Person Adventure/Story Game Design on Lower End Rigs

I’ve been trying to get a modding/game design core single player base to work from.

I was using Valve’s SDK for a long time,
but it’s expensive if you’re successful, so there’s no profit motive. It’s also got a lot of steps to work with textures.
The deal breaker with Valve was Steam tho.
I would have my dev box working, all set up, in the middle of something, I’d run a test after surfing the net, and Steam would update and reboot.

Then it would refuse to let me work until it had the internet again. Which was really spotty.
I could not work offline consistently with Valve and after about the 10th time of that in 3 years I uninstalled the source SDK and probably will never install it again.

I abandoned that for UDK 2 years ago. When I had A DECENT RIG.

Unreal Development Kit (UDK) from Epic Games is FREE and is here:
It really is fantastic. On a better rig I would actually be using UDK 50% of the time.

I have a piece of fucking crap rig that limps. 512 megs of ram feels like I am on acidic time distortion. Press. Wait. Smoke. Look at floor. Drink coffee. Look at monitor…
Drink more coffee, smoke. Wait.

What really kills UDK is that the core SDK won’t install or run on older hardware. We have good hardware perhaps, but 3\4 of the world is still using XP. They really are. I am. Valve Source can be made to run at DX8 level using the orangebox engine from 2009(hl.exe -dx8). Except it has that steam affliction.

That is actually something to consider. That is a huge possible user base (read customers to buy your creation) that has 10 year old machines and they usually play farmville or peggle.

UDK needs pixel shader support so it won’t install on your Grandma’s rig or mine, so I need to go backwards to find an engine that will work, that isn’t like using stone tools to cut steak.

The problem for me and other single player designers, other than the shader mode 3 necessity in UDK is that there is no easily placeable AI entities and no NPC codemonster entities, no patrol guards, snipers, rocket monsters, police. In Valve you would have the entities from the game you own.

You can’t get any from anywhere else, you can’t copy over scripts from previous versions and modify them so you just have BOTS. Bots fight different than monsters and act differently and don’t have good scripting arrangements for cinematics really. In UDK its nodes not scripts.

I look at really popular games from the past that intrigued us with so so 3D. The game was more important. The game. The story about so and so and things you had to find to learn more about what was happening. How many hundreds of hours did I walk around Myst or Planescape or the Forgotton Realms of Baldur-s Gate, skulked along the corridors of System Shock 2 with about 2% health, a jammed weapon, and the knowledge that there were at least 2 of those slow dumb happy kamikaze robots between you and the tiny little health item 2 hallways away. And it was about 4 blocks of virtual backtracking to the nearest health behind you. It was so ugly looking but we were actually engrossed by the activity and the balance of things, the complexity of our tasks and the map of the ship that we began to memorize as we walked through it.

So I don’t care too much, personally about particle effects and procedural shaders.

Textured environments, stories, and simple logical systems really are at the core of single player games.
Dumb AI can be deadly if it’s placed right and has the right animation in a standard campaign game, and for more adventure or mystery there doesn’t even have to be any physical conflict.

Weapons can be replaced with tools and tool actions. The process is well documented.

If you want to create Single Player 3D games, there isn’t a good code/engine/graphics framework to work with unless you go way back to games that were interesting but ugly. Angular characters and spaces, crappy lighting, blocky textures, low color palettes. But many of them are extremely moddable, because it was Quake and Half Life in object oriented c++ that began the whole modding thing, really. That was when it caught on. But the engines suck. You can rip apart all the texture sets in System Shock 2 or Quake2 with Xnview and replace things to your hearts content but you can’t overcome the lighting and mesh limitations of the engines.

IF you have System Shock 2, and you have applied the major texture mods (there is a non illegal torrent of all the mods that are really good combined with inconsistencies between the mods worked out), then I HIGHLY suggest that you go throught the datamods folder with xnview and find the image sequences and place your own 5-10 frame animated image sets in there instead in png format,  then play the game.

It is a great and easy introduction to retexturing that is fast since you simple open what is there and replace it with something else you make or just adjust the contrast or colour, put embossed labels on doors, change the med sci animations, etc. Its very easy and fun, and doesn’t require a number of steps in an editor, you simply replace the files with new ones in png 32 bit format, and since they are mostly planar mapped you can resample most of the textures larger if you want to make sharper graphics. Just start up the game and walk around, the monitors will be different, there are lots of small image sequences and textures you can alter.
If you want to do this, copy the datapermmods folder after you’ve fully patched ss2 and applied all the mods or the big modpack. Then open the .crf files in the data\res folder with winzip since they are zips renamed crf. Extract all of those into a new empty datapermmods folder in the main SS2 dir. Delete the crf files.
Then copy the contents of your datapermmods bkp onto that and overwrite. This way you will have one image file per asset, and all of the assets in one place. Trust me. Then you can edit the images to your hearts content. I’m trying to make the von braun look like a geiger bosh jofra nightmare. I think I can ickify the intro to the many cutscene with only image replacement. Its more fun than it sounds like.

To my knowledge no one has succesfully managed to open a SS2 .bin 3d file and change it then resave it and have it appear in game. You can retexture it in minutes though. Just editing the files in Photoshop and anytime you open a .pcx comvert it and save it to PNG and notice that png transparency works fine.

But there is no PNG in UT2K4. Hmmmm.

If you have a pretty good rig, with 4-5 year old graphics, you can use Unreal Tournament 3 and have all the things I am going to talk about next, plus normal and bump mapping, and transparent texture support.
But it is a lot more complex to modify if you are just getting into this. I really like to use UT3 for modding, but it is too laggy on my pathetic box here, even with the smallest of landscapes.

If you REALLY need transparent textures (think chainlink fence texture on a flat plane – 4x3d points and a texture to make a whole fence you can see through) and normal maps, there is a super crappy pair of games that you could use. They use Unreal Engine and the Unreal Editor, and they came out about 2 years after UT2k4. They are Pariah and Warpath. Warpath is a slighty more tweaked engine, and pariah has a bit more single player entities. They use UE2.5+ so they have those two extra things, which, for your particular application may be necessary, as normal mapping and transparent textures are very useful in creating atmospheric scenes with low geometry. These run on my rig but smaller designs are necessary. They both come with the Unreal Editor, and it is the same as in UT2K4 so all your workflow procedures will go back and forth easily. They just let you import transparency and normal maps.

You won’t really be able to release it to any large community since both games tanked, whereas UT2k4 players (millions of them) could potentially play your SP mod/level/game if it is UT2K4 based.

I finally settled on Unreal Tournament 2004. Which is not designed for Single Player, but read on.

It has the graphics with basic uv layered textures (but unfortunately no normal mapping).

A number of cool monster packs based on the monster code from the first Unreal single player games years earlier are available, lots of them, plus there are bots, vehicles, ingame messages triggered by using things*think PDA story parts) and landscape objects with landscape tools. It can also import static meshes of fairly high triangle counts and bitmap textures in 32 bit color. It has a mesh Terrain Object with a really excellent set of landscaping and layered texturing tools for the terrain. Huge terrains and rooms are possible. And you get a bunch of vehicles. I like vehicles for SP games.

It will install on a DX9 gfx card, works with 512 megs of ram.

If you install a mod called the Single Player Framework, and another called Vehicle DM, then you get
xPawns from unreal with updated monster code and reworked monsters from the first unreal game (faster, smarter, better shots), unlocked drivable vehicles , and a number of triggers/objectes/keycard/ingame store/inventory/persistence code for single player stories/activities. These are called Actors, and they are also known as “Entities”. If you add the UT2K4 mega pack with the updated patched engine, and its additional 20+ maps, you get 3 new vehicles which greatly change gameplay. For single player flying missions and modding I prefer the Cicada to the Raptor as a base to work with. You may like it as well, and the Paladin is a good class to base a land vehicle off of. The editor patches in the update are essential though, if you want to use Matinee flying camera scenes. (Hint: in the editor you have to load OnslaughtBP.u if you want to place a Cicada or Paladin or SPMA in your level, BP stands for bonus pack.).

I KNOW there is a Max Cicada file for the bonus pack version, not the UT3 version which is MUCH more complex. I remember it. It was rigged and had all the sockets named correctly in Max. Can’t find it now, email me if you do.

UDK doesn’t come with a lot of that (it does come with a souped up cicada), but it gives you better graphics and realizm. And Complexity. It’s a tradeoff.

The Monster and xPawn entities/actors are c coded with simple behaviors that have been modified over the years, unlike bots, which have a different form of AI that works on a pathnode logic system. If you build a game in UDK your enemy actions are complicated networks of kismet programming nodes. Not my scene really, and they don’t give you any templates or base NPC’s so it’s actually a bonus, the scripted monsters, because you can get tweaked monster code in basic patrol here press alarm then attack flavors..

With the UT2k4 Source from Epic and notepad++ or uncodex (I use notepad++ more, but uncodex is really indispensable) you have a good available base of code you can peruse for your enjoyment if you swing that way. So you could open the different files and read the well commented code, adjust it, and even recompile it. If you have a rudimentary knowledge of object oriented languages and headers or linked dlls you can read the main scripts for each significant actor you want to learn as well as their parents, and you can extend, say, a new weapon/monster/item from a similar existing one and make changes such as a new model/sound/fire animation, etc. without affecting the upstream parents and retaining the qualities of the parent objects that you do not explicitly change with our child object. Keycard can be extended to become MetalKey and be necessary to open a door perhaps.That’s the short version of scripting uses.

The recipe is as follows:

You take the script source



unzip it to a folder that isn’t UT for now to keep yourself from getting confused, as you might “export the scripts” from unrealed later but I suggest you do that in a separate folder and place a different uncodex there.
Place Uncodex in that folder and have the classes folder there, then add the codemasters classes from the spframework which will be in a folder called codemasters in your spframe directory if you installed spframe right, or it will be in your main UT2K4 folder if you did it wrong.

Put the two folders of classes side by side in your development folder somewhere away from UT, they do not have to be but you could end up with 30,000 duplicate classes in your UT2K4 folder if you export the source from unreal ed into the same place. Put those folders in the uncodex settings and let it build the class tree. Install notepad++ and bind it to .u and .uc files.

Browse the classes in uncodex, the blue links in the code browser will take you to that class as you browse through each script. You can open each class that you are browsing into notepad++ and then you can have the upward object tree for any child class all opened at once in tabs there. You can then extend the child classes of the source and modify them, creating new .u scripts which you can test and even compile for your UT system directory later, where they can be loaded as necessary to implement your coded child class and its game representation or effect in a running level.

You don’t need visual c++ installed or any c++ ide and compiler, since you can use a tool called ucc.exe oryou can link a small compile program to uncodex and notepad++.
If you want to you can get an extension for visual studio express that will properly section and highlight UT2K4 code.

Which will make sense to some people, and others just got an immediate migraine. Sorry about that. I shoulda warned you. I had to give the starter code geeks a bone though since I am focused on the story and graphics here mostly, the application of the tools created by the underlying code, and the useage of software applications to create or process original asset and structural content. Somewhere some geek just figured out they can sift UT code with less than 20 megs of space and a set of programs smaller than 10 megs, and have everything they need to manipulate their nasty little code snippets. Grrr. Programming sucks kiddies but there you go.

You then have every tool available in a game like Quake 1/2 or Unreal.
Tools for a single player game. And you actually can do the whole thing without typing any code at all other than names of objects or filenames.

If you go section by section through the two connected example maps called Parser and just try to recreaate each trigger/even setup you will see by the end you have most of what you need to tell most stories.
You can use minus to take the hud away. I’m trying to find out how to set it that way at the start of the game, no hud. They are very short, but the 20 or so objects used can all advance your story nicely.

The only thing that isn’t there is some kind of Deus Ex 2/System Shock 2 inventory system with combineable items. And personally I would like a coop non deathmatch adventure using the SP tools, where in SP mode I could control one of 4 or 6 characters like in the ugly but interesting Project Eden. The source is There. I really would like a fling probe and remote vehicle controls too. Project Eden used Quake 2 c++. If they could accomplish it, it is possible in UT2k4. C++ is C++. There is a way…

Graphics wise, in UT there is a LOT of modding support, which is good for artists because they are NOT coders usually. It takes a different Brain for lines of text than for 3D modelling and level construction usually.

I found an essential tool. For older Rigs.
If you are on XP using Dx9 and you install Dx10, 10 will fubar 9, and max and modtool, which can hold the actor x plugins for mesh and animation export of UT, both choke.
It can be fixed using dxerad.exe (dx eradicator) and only reinstalling dx9c, but some things will never be the same. XSI Modtool will repair itself this way tho.

If that happens then you don’t have max (Max 7 works great and natively supports .ASE mesh format!) or xsi modtool working suddenly and then you NEED an .ASE converter. Or you get no static meshes.

Max/Maya/XSI really are OVERKILL for most needs in your game design adventure.

I gravitate to max a lot. When its accessible. I enjoy working in ModTool more because I started in 3D with LW and Softimage 3.1 (the irix->NT port). There is an actor X plugin for max, maya, xsi, and the xsi works in modtool. All of those tools however will immediately botch and be unuseable if you install direct X 10 on an XP machine that is at DX9c. They will work before that. XPsp3 with DX9c will install and run these 3 applications. If you install DX 10 for any reason on that development box, your DX9 is wratched and all 3 cease to function. DX10 on XPsp3 requires a complete rebuild of the os patched to dx9 and don’t add the dx10 again. If you don’t care what you are building things in as long as you can do it, then you can just move over to a tool that works for you on your crappier rig.

At which point you can use C4D, Lightwave, Silo, Milkshape, etc. LW works on almost anything. Keep in mind these games you love were made with tools from 10+ years ago. The core tools for low poly and uv have been standardized for more than a decade.

So anyway, for UT2K4 I needed this tool.
Nothing else worked.
with it I can model in Silo/c4d/max or anything else and convert to .ASE
So cool.

It’s called Biturn, and was made for Final Fantasy 7.
Imports Obj and a bunch of other formats, and exports clean .ase files.
This is the guys page:http://mirex.mypage.sk
There is nothing else, other than the max/maya actorx plugins which are picky for just static meshes, and not everyone has max or maya.  So now you have this!

With those things you can build a single player game that is graphically superior to at least 20 games that made over 10 million each. So you can’t really bitch about it not being enough. Pretty much everything is tweakable at that point.

Another very useful file utility for me is dragon unpacker, and notepad++ to read uc and u files.

and I HIGHLY suggest you get the Extended Toolbar, which you can customize with the toolbar creator.
Why? Because you can click a button and select all lights, or all actors, or all stat meshes. You can customize your own tool buttons too.
I actually use the toolbar creator alone now because it will actually build the toolbar into UnrealEd once its set right.

All these monsters are available in UT2k4 if you take the time to import them, and you can load them into an editor and look at their design or modify them.

I stick with the ones in the SPFramework first (the original unreal xpawns), some of the packs are twitchy and you have to fix them.

The unreal reference animation sets and meshes are here:
This is the most important one for animators (use google)
as it has all of the base animations for the 5 character types
so it has the dodge ani, the fire ani, the crouch ani, etc.
There is a base mesh too, but you have to detach it from biped as those are max files.

The editor is a bit hard to get into, but for cheap/free level design you can’t really complain. Save lots, don’t push it too hard.

On my crap rig I can work with a 40k terrain and 30 monsters with 6 vehicles on the map and a bunch of interactive items.
I don’t need that much space, but that’s the limit where framerate drops.

If I don’t use a terrain object, and just carve out the world with the BSP builder brush, I can make a set of spaces 10+ kilometers in size connected by hundreds of passages, since the bsp compile will segment the rooms by visibility. That’s more than I need. I can build the Rickenbacker or similar sized ship/complex in one level with different zones to pull the entities out of ram until I enter different zones.
You can build huge complexes that you have to drive around in.
They are hard to light though, so stick with smaller rooms connected at first.
But what more do you need?

Every monster or character mesh made for UT2004 can be modified and reskinned by clearly defined processes. All character animation sets can be loaded tweaked exported reloaded and packaged. All inventory items can be renamed and remeshed. UI elements can be reskinned. Ogg or wave can be triggered at will with stereo placement. Text messages, even small vids or audio can be embedded in consoles. Monsters can be spawned. Bots can be spawned. Keycards and quest items can be gathered. Vehicles (and Turrets) can be placed. Sculptures, models, artwork can all be imported.

You can even build your level corridors using the base Silo/c4d/max cube and extruding faces then exporting, but you have to resize and change the orientation in a very odd way in Silo/c4d/max before making your OBJ for conversion by biturn to ASE. It works, and Silo or c4d have very intuitive face extrusion tools.
You might NEED to flip your normals too. Double sided materials make light do weird things in game engines. I used to dislike C4D. Now I do not. Meshes from it import well in UT, its base scale is close to UT, and most of all it will open old lightwave hypernurb sub-d objects. Which I actually have quite a few of since lightwave was great for spaceships. But nothing else opens them. Lightwave itself is fine for this work in games, though it is usually a film/tv rendering tool, the modeller is great with these meshes, and UV texture display is excellent. Lightwave 9.0, not 9.0c will work after a dx10 in xp botch. Max/Maya/Modtool will not, even if they worked before the dx10 addon to xp. Max 7-9 and modtool will work on most older hardware, and max has a software renderer built in for backup. UT2K4 will import single layer lightwave static meshes as raw .lwo, and they will show nicely with collision and uv mapping and smoothgroups by mat. I don’t know why. I don’t see any mention in the history of Unreal where they specify having used anything but max, maya, or xsi, but there it is in your static mesh import: would you like .ASE or .LWO?

I honestly think you get better speed with standard room squares and corridors by using the BSP Subtract/Add tools and then populating the spaces with Static Meshes (the sculptures and models you make in other packages and import). If you don’t delete the end caps and use the interior, I believe you can also convert a room system to a Brush then use it to Subtract if you are using max.

The main advantage of using builder brushes where the user goes is that wall sections can be selected by rectangular brush face and given a different texture. Static meshes can not be retextured in the editor so you have to texture in Silo/Max/ModTool/etc. and save all your maps as massive TGA files until you can import. If you don’t texture stat meshes with UV you will have to link up every texture on wall faces instead of just to a single UV map. I say this because I have avoided modelling in BSP as I was using UDK which is Additive and supports FBX. UT2k4 is subtractive and only supports triangulated ASE meshes. It affects your texturing flow in the editor, so if you build corridors as stat meshes you have to texture them well before importing and properly uv map them unless they are perfectly planar mapped. In BSP you just select a wall and change the texture. Stat meshes don’t drop and have pretty good auto collision on import, even archways and domes. Faces and the Normal directions matter very much if you use Stat meshes for the corridors, so surround sections with BSP blocks or antiportals.

Zbrush models I’ve made with the default sphere can be very detailed, comparatively, and poly painting/textures exported with the multi map exporter are great, although I didn’t dig auv tiles, they made seams.
The polypaint to texture had no seam. I found meshes at level 2 were enough, 3 caused lag, but textures of 2048 on a level 2 mesh export straight through biturn into ase and are very fluid and interactive. Thats at about 16000 tri’s exported per model for good speed, you could probably go step 3 on a better rig, but 16k is pretty good for a sculptural showpiece in the center of a room or a fairly detailed console or something.

Transparent textures are not supported EXCEPT with TGA,
but you can live with it. You get entities in exchange.

create zrush/max/silo model
in zbrush export multimap tx 2048, mesh exp at level 2
in max/silo/c4d/modtool export a uv mapped .obj mesh and texture
convert obj to ase with bturn
convert zbrush psd or tiff to bmp or tga
import mesh to your meshes testpackage in UT2k4
import textures to your textures testpackage in UT2k4
save both packages
place model
select model,
“actor properties -> display -> drawscale” to resize, 400 works good
rotate the model
“actor properties -> display -> skins” add skin
select imported texture or a Shader Material with multiple textures combined in it
click Use
the texture appears in the field
and on our model
build all, play
The packages must be saved before you play,
they do not need to be saved before you build.

It is that easy. You could resize and flip in your 3d application. The mesh on import will always flip the same way, so learn to adjust for it and get the origin of your objects right to make rotating/moving easier.

Zbrush is beautiful, but difficult, expensive and a ram user, and BodyPaint I believe costs even more. Sometimes I feel like I’m using a bazooka to create a simple texture map.

This FREE software I offer a link to is tiny and, well, FREEEEEEE.
It’s great.
I can load a 3ds of a ut2k4 vehicle pulled from the package with some extractor, coverted to 3ds, I can load the manta in to this Tattoo prog, both materials are still assigned,  I can paint away, save out the textures, it saves png and paints symetrically.
I can then load the 3ds manta into LW/Silo/Zbrush/etc. and have an already applied uv with 2 pngs.
Did I say that it is free?
And 1.2 megs!

It’s called Tattoo:


Save it, pass it around. Good things like that tend to disappear suddenly.
I have 2 backups of it.

 This is great for g16 terrain heightmaps

At this point someone might ask why I haven’t extolled the virtues of the mighty Blender.
I have 2 versions, the latest, and one around 2.4 or earlier.
I use them for occasional file conversion.
I can’t stand Blender. Can’t stand it. Big clunky interface or inscrutable blah.

My screen is MINE. Get your damned geeky buttons that mean jack shit off of them. Give me back that big grey blob of wasted space in the corner under and around the boxes with 30 pixel spacings and those huge massive pixel robbing bands of menu that never stop f$%@%@#ing replicating. You bastards.
Blender really makes me mad.

When it has a skinnable interface that we can reorganize and ungibberish I’ll consider it,
until then feel free to jizz in the open source.
One day there will be an alternative. To Blender. I’ve been waitng a decade.

Yes, before the emergence of the
windows pixel robber at the top of our screens
(not my model of course)

Don’t tell me it is a gem under a turd splash,
I don’t care.

I hand built an NT machine so I could install Softimage 3, and used Lightwave since version 3 on the Video Toaster.
I used a f@%$%@#$%ing Video Toaster, the wierdest Amiga doodad that worked ever.
I can decipher a wierd interface.

Blender isn’t wierd, its an asshole. It doesn’t want you to understand it because you’re not fucking ‘leet enough. Or something.
The things that work they remove and they fill in more crap. No manual you can download? A wiki? f@#$@%. Grrrrrr. Inscrutable geekshit.

That being said, I use it for some kind of conversion or test at least 10 times a year since it came out. I just don’t model in it.

The SMD export works in 2.6 and you can still activate .lwo import, so I do use it for file generation and conversion.

Well. The SMD SORTOF works.
It shows you how great things COULD be, auto importing all meshes from the qc, SOME of the animations import, but then, after being somewhat excited you realize that it doesn’t like the source .bmp’s and so you need to convert all your textures to jpg and replace them in each material.

On the redesigned high def loader that’s 30+ image files that need to be hand linked after conversion.

f%#$$%#ing ‘leet geeks. What do you think people want to use blender for?
They want to mod games. HL1 and UT2K4 hav huge user bases, but we get half cooked tools because all the geeks are jerking off on subsurface scattering and python crap that has no fucking value to 80% of the people who would LIKE to use blender for real production work. Sure milkshape is an ugly piece of shit, but at least it doesn’t make me load 30 f%$%#^ing textures requiring 120 f^%$^ing goddamned mouse clicks to do it with for every f^%&^ing  <bleep> model I want to work on.

Milkshape, XSI, Max, even the HMLV will load the fucking textures with its whopping 20 meg size.

Go code us some more high end shit we can’t really fucking care about and we’ll go back to using tools we don’t have to fucking fight with or try to decipher.
I guess that’s mean. But its been 10 years.

Do I sound mad? I hate inefficiency. If I have to repeat a task over and over with multiple mouse clicks then the process is NOT WELL DESIGNED and I rip the software from my pipeline or relegate it to what it is doing well without fighting me. That goes for shortcuts and interface.

When I work, the things I need should be there, around me.
Not stuff I don’t need,
not stuff I have to click through and down and into like %$#% textures
5 clicks from an object to reach image import and I can’t batch load my 30 images into the list? Why do we bother with that. Grr.

Yes, python is cool, but it breaks,
import export, mesh optimization, armatures and animation
are the core of work,
everything else,
rendering and physics,
is really an external process
to 90% of the work
we would be using blender for.
modelling, texturing, rigging, animating.
Shaders are a render things.
Dynamics and physics are an engine thing.

I can model with it
it’s the little things that suck.
Like mouse controls that make no sense
and dialogs that constantly pop up
just to ask me if I really wanted to do that simple thing that I have an undo for
or the nested tree of 20 clicks it takes to get at a specific component
oh, and I mentioned the massive interface I think
I expect it from softimage xsi, the bloat
I don’t want it in Blender.

I can’t believe it won’t import a BMP from source.
that’s just lame. So lame. Its bmp.
too ‘leet for bmp, even though that’s a core format for a dozen different media pipelines. I know it sucks but that’s what I’m working with let me load it.

If its up your alley, great. Yee haw.
Check KatsBits for tips on blender and .map

Anyway, I’m foaming and ranting.
If I’m stoned out of my gourd and a bit drunk will sit down and open Zbrush or Lightwave or Silo. All 3 are symetrical box modelers in operation.
Silo rocks but lacks some basic material functions and occasionally won’t work for a particular application without tweaking points or normals.
Lightwave is slightly less wierd than Blender, but to anyone who has taken the time to learn it is worth it and a dozen movies and sci fi series have used it.

On lightwave I generally start with a 6x6x8 edge cube, centered, symmetrical modeling on, and tabbed into hypernurbs, and then constant extruding or faceted subdividing selections.  I use the subdiv weights painting to sharpen edges, bridge to connect separate object layers, and spin quad to fix bridges. Before Silo, I could not find this workflow anywhere else.

I like the separation of LW Modeler and Layout
I personally like the segmentation of apps
I would like something open source that was like Motionbuilder
I think that would make everyone happier
especially if you could smooth retarget and edit bvh and asc motion libraries
I bet an open source motionbuilder clone could run on less than 100 megs and have input mapping, retargeting, advanced and simple armatures, control rig and biped/multiped/wheeled/tracked motion skeleton templates
instead, when you want to animate, you have these massive 2 gig I wanna show off every dynamics and shader trick I can find suites
when you just want to make the arms move on the mesh you made in something else. That’s all you wanted to do, just a little walk cycle or two, with maybe an attachment. How many buttons do you need for that?
not 300 that’s for sure.
I don’t want render menus and texture menus when I’m animating
and I don;t like navigating around render tools and things when I’m modelling really. I want my screen space more than all your pretty geek buttons
put them in a folder and I’ll put them on my toolbar
if I want them only.
There really should be nothing on my screen except the tools I am using and some menus to get to the others.
I’ll stop bitching and dreaming about impossibilities now.

I use lightwave for mechanicals and ships, zbrush for organics mostly, and silo is kind of inbetween. There is a great Silo scene with 12 heads you can find.
Well, I couldn’t find it but I had it once so its out there to study.

Open Source is a great idea. When I’m rich and can be a philanthropist I will give $1000 prizes to people who contribute significant code to open source video editing, 3d animation, 3d modelling, 3d compositing, and  motion tracking software. I’m not rich and I’m stingy so you do it. I personally think it’s a disgrace that we can fly people to the moon, encode the library of congress on portable media, and yet we have no fast good slick free swissarmy knife nonlinear video editing/compositing system, 3d rending animating modelling system, and top notch open source game development software that is cutting edge. Our evolution is chained to our profit motive and we have become lazy fucking sated ipod monkeys or vacuous wage slaves, take your pick. Hmmm.

Ok. Back to our wondrous Single Player Experience.

Adjusting the texture map in photoshop is fine but it will not import if it is not multiples of 512, 1024, 2048 on the sides. One pixel off and it will choke. Bodypaint is the cat’s meow, but anything that does uv textures properly works. Obj is standard between programs but you may wish to keep them in your original application format for editing as all meshes end up triangulated. If you triangulate it yourself, in your fine tuned 3d application, then UT will not do its own thing on you. This only really matters on meshes with bones in the end as all quads just get split but if you do it yourself it won’t change your work.

Maybe one day the stingy bastards at Epic will release a set of engine updates (I bet they even have a bunch of SP code they could stop hoarding) to support simple normal mapping in UT2K4. Probably not. It sucks that a Quake engine replacement, Darkplaces, will render normal maps and png files, but UT2K4 won’t. System Shock 2 supports png!. TGA files are huge things. Anyway. That’s not a drawback if you build small spaces for showing off particular meshes, I have had extremely high density meshes for showpieces in testmaps. The Terrain object used more resources than the super subdivided model I imported.

Oh well. Normal maps are not really required for a story driven game, which is my personal interest.

I have enough to work with, as do you and your small team, or cat.

There are LOTS of tutorials for every asset of Unreal Tournament 2004 modding, and the SPFramework with the VDM code snippet is stable.

Now, that all aside, that isn’t your game.

The game part, the story, usually is built with a text editor, a pen and paper, an excel workbook, a flowchart editor, a logic diagrammer like visio, Yed, etc.

Did I say Pen and Paper?

Or your BRAIN.
That’s where games come from, really.
Coffee, cigarettes, beer, pot, putzing, playing games
thinking, using your Brain, Creating, having Opinions about what YOU like in games you play, incorporating techniques you observe to expound YOUR story.
That’s really where it starts
before all the committees get involved in the process…

Working with a level editor is actually a lot
like using an old typewriter
just get into the rhythm of it.

People used to do that you know.
By candle.
They didn’t have power and they wrote books on mechanical typewriters.
They all got ripped off by rich fuckers too.
But the point is
you can make a book with a typewriter
games can be made with sheets of paper (D&D)
And you can make both with an average computer

You don’t need weapons, or “weapons” don’t necessarily need to kill or cause blood. You have audio and text messages you can trigger, say, when a character finds a book or pda or computer. You can have the character trigger video events as textures on tv sets/monitors, you have outdoor and indoor environments available. Anything can be modified visually.

So where do you start?

We’re back to our trusty pen or simple text editor, or maybe we have something more elaborate in spreadsheets or diagrams.

creating lists of the items needed sequentially to finish each section or “quest”area.
roughly sketching out the text of what will happen or what will be said/heard/seen
Many people create a backstory or project bible
lots of others fly by the seat of their pants
If your gameplay isn’t focused on killing or violence,
then what is the story about?
What tasks need to be performed?
Do you need tools? keys? parts? more knowledge?
If you ignore building the tool meshes and animations, and focus on defining the story and the need for the tool, you can build up your story and not get bogged down where everyone else does
in the asset creation, which really should come last
if you have the lists of things and the sequences that will need to be completed all in a rough sketch format, you will be much farther ahead, as you will be able to make placeholder ojects in the world for things you will build later, yet still be able to work on level construction.

What about location?
Space is cool. game characters don’t really need air, so you can go between inside and outerspace pretty quickly. Oceans, or islands, with level transitions and lod level streaming the illusion of vast spaces can be achieved with very fast frame speeds. Especially if it’s just your character and not 32 deathmatch players.

What do you like to see in games?
I like it when I am searching around for a particular type of ammo instead of universal ammo. I like inventories and vehicles. I don’t like picky jumping puzzles.






SPFramework mod team forum:




UTX gaffer for quickly browsing the texture packages:

DXT and DDS tools including a windows explorer thumb view extension:
Photoshop DDS

The ever incredible and essential picture browser that’s free and converts to bmp with a right click:


Gimp Normalmap plugin


an I couldn’t even count the number of times in the last 15 years I’ve gone searching around in my stuff to find this tool for a particular project or that. Useful with games, images, mp3, massive asset datastores, 500 image sequences, etc. Strange to learn, addictive to use, its…Albert’s REnamer.

for when you have 30 images rendered out in format myrender0000.bmp and UT wants it called myrender_a00.bmp
just so you can have a bunch of animated stuff on a monitor, or lets say a background? Prerendered background components with moving textures on planes? Hmm. Like shuttles flying into bays, or moving machinery. 10 512×1024 images in a sequence can create huge amounts of moving detail with low overhead.

of course, 90% of an average factory scene can be done with simple movers, but getting beyond what the starting point is and creating something new that will move on old machines is a challenge.

some more links:


Www.Hourences.com is a good place to go, he has some really excellent tutorials,
 and another good one is Angelmapper. 

For UT3 but useful to read:

The simple tips I should give you:
When you build your first subtracted big room box, if you want the Sun light object, you must make the walls and ceiling surface properties to fake backdrop.
When you create a landscape object, you MUST texture it, you MUST save the package with the texture if its imported, and you need to select the terrain objects editor icon to move it, not the terrain mesh itself.
Spend time with the landscape object and get to know how to make a heightmap, and at least 3 texture paint layers so you can paint pathways and rock face edges in the landscape editor (very quickly your landscape will look good if you can do that), then make yourself some simple textured rock shapes in a 3D app that you can use to sharpen the edges of cliffs with, as Terrain doesn’t make hard edges for cliffs. The terrain is the base, but the edges and wall sections are all mesh rocks, that’s they way to have edges and ledges. Only a couple sets of rocks are used, and instanced all over the level in different rotations to achieve rockiness. I have a “bunch of rocks” prefab.

I was suggesting people look at ONS-Iguazu to see this rocks with terrain example in a vertical style map, however you need to have ONS-Dinora as the Iguazu designer used some textures from Hourences Dinora packages.

A terrain object’s mesh density is directly related to the size of the heightmap in pixels.
a 128 px HM is 1/2 as many QUADS (which render as tris) as a 256 which is half as many quads again as a 512 pixel heightmap.
Crappy rig? 128 px landscape heighmap is fastest. Later you could just upconvert your HM to a higher resolution for more detail, but usually you just use Terrain for the major form of the land and static meshes for the edges and details.

This image below is a 70k (in Unreal editor units) square room 26k high. There are 8 similar rooms in the level with identical dimensions. 3 have the walkways and I plan to test the map with every room filled with the walkways. Just for shits and giggles. It has no Terrain objects, so it is very fast, even at it’s current size.

The vehicles at the bottom are specks. Down in the right at the bottom of the room you see a little square, that tunnel is large enough to drive the flying raptor through. Its roughly 6 times the character size. There are 3 rooms here with the same walkway grid.

The walkway is one section made in cinema 4D (which sends extruded shapes to UT better than Silo, but at 10 times the price tag). It is copied and pasted multiple times rotated grouped, copied, pasted again and again, so it looks like a maze, 8 levels high, from one static mesh imported. The grey ones were a bad texture wrap, the brown ones were properly uv textured in cinema 4D first so the textures are better, not that you can see any from this height. The walkways are actually too big for a person. but the test is to check lag with lots of simple extruded walkways made externally with 3d modelling, not in-editor additive csg brushes, which are really difficult to fully remove and move in this version.

A test with railings would probably be next.

Very ugly I know, but the point is, its only one static mesh, referenced a bunch of times.
On my celeron 1.4 I can fly all around in this between the rooms and walk all over the walkways or drive on them and I get NO LAG. Theship I’m in, and me are smaller than that tiny square. 4-5 of the Raptors I’m flying would fit side by side on each walkway. It’s really big, and there are 8 rooms as big, but each room is separated by the BSP space, so they are basically self contained, when you are in one the others are not calculated at all. It’s too much space. But it’s a good thing to know, you can fit a lot of stuff and a lot of stories into 1/4 of that space. Designing for vehicles in your single player requires larger sizes though so you need to do these kind of “how big can I go without introducing any lag on this target playing device”.

I think that’s cool. That’s probably why I am a computer geek.

You don’t need more room or complexity than that to tell a story. That’s a lot of room.

You don’t need a better this or that or anything,
OK, well. Someone has to get a decent inventory system going at some point.
If a P.O.S. like SS2 or Fallout 1 can have one, it can be done
I don’t want to code. Me and code are like cats and full bathtubs.
Also on my wish list> trunks for the cars so I can stash things from my inventory into the trunk
I think it should be a standard
SP/Co-op with swapable inventory and vehicles with trunks.

Forget the implant to give us more slots just give us all the f*ing slots at once at we’ll all descend upon the Template to rip its holy words apart and use them in our own creations.

Personally, never liked the conversation systems, but a framework for it in UDK at around the time of UT 2k4 was in the game Pariah, so it could be implemented in UT2k4.

the normal maps might be nice, but once you move up to UDK you have no single player entities and you must build them from scratch as there are no templates.
There’s also only 2 vehicles, and the complexity of the vehicles is much greater,
they have more bones for motion and sockets for coding rider entry, weapons, engine exhausts etc.
in UT2K4 a similar vehicle will have less than 1/3 of the bones and sockets and will have accessible code for you to read the socket comments in the program script as well as more readily accessible meshes and animations.

(you can learn more from a UT2K4 model quicker)
So UT2K4 might be better for you to get into the design of a Single Player game.

I prefer to study the Onslaught gametype maps for ideas, and for a suggestion, amongst the many many maps you could download for UT2K4, you really need to get this small one:
ONS-Toon Country

Yes. You fly or drive around and blow up bots in cartoon land.
It is a stunning example of a non realist modeling texturing effort.
If you are initially frowning on UT2K4 as an engine because of the mainly war themed textures
This shows you how all of the standard tools used to create a realist environment can each be cartoonized.
I played it quite a bit. The cartoon water is very soothing when your tank is starting to spew smoke.

I highly suggest the UT3 weapons and vehicles in UT2K4 mod, to get a look at how much the textures can be tweaked in the current engine. But if you install the Bonus Pack from Epic and update, or install the megapack with everything, you get a vehicle upgrade as well you might want to look at. And an editor upgrade.

All the bonus packs and the 3 UCMP map packs have admirable work to look at,

A very simple VCTF map that I like is VCTFMarsbase3000.
It is a simple terrain that works to test your own ideas in. It also has some pretty gnarly botpathing, but something like that could be an opportunity to see a simple path network and maybe adjust it. It works better with the Vehicle DM actor placed in it before you path, the bots see the vehicle paths better. I don’t know how, it’s one of those geek code things that I don’t really do but appreciate.

Botpathing isn’t necessarily essential at all in a single player game.
No bots in Myst. Still spend 3 months staring at it.
Writing down clues.

At the start of this article I was slagging Steam.
I REALLY love Valve Source. I actually like it more than UDK.
But that Steam “I always need to be online or I’m gonna cry” thing bites.
It just bites in development boxes, because it will update itself no matter that you tell it not to.
Anyway, I have to clarify something for you since I was slaggin the delivery system, not the engine or the SDK itself (other than its extravagant cost). I actually prefer to work in Source, but UDK is more flexible and convenient with file formats. I want you to pay attention tho:
If your rig won’t even run Unreal Tournament 2004, or perhaps you just like a more simplistic but not crappy engine, the re-released Halflife one on GOG based on the gold src is available to you.
You can get a build that will run without steam installed, and the Hammer Editor 3.4 is still around. Its less than 4 megs and the game is less than 600. I mention this because it is the Hammer version you want that has gcf support, but not the not the Source SDK. As soon as you use steam you will get that problem if you aren’t connected, but with an offline GOG install of HL1 and the Hammer editor you can actually fire out levels extremely fast, and it has all kinds of necessary things for a first person shooter. I have to mention this, because as bad as Half Life 1 looks, it has great lighting and texture support, and the scripted scientist things are actually pretty easy to make. I have to mention this, because as much as I hate Steam, I love Half Life and the Hammer editor was how I originally got into Q1/Q2 editing and I find it REALLY quick and intuitive for a starter with lots of easily placeable stuff . The editor is arranged well, and once you get the feel of it, it is easy to crank out nice complicated levels, that run extremely fast on new hardware. It doesn’t have as nice static mesh support and is a bit blocky and overbright, but it might work better for some people, just because. You can, if you look for it, still find the “HL1 SDK”, but all you really need is Hammer.

Half life is a great start to look at how assets in a single player are laid out. If you extract all the GCFs or Wads into folders you can look at the arrangement and the audio files for this particular game are 3/4 of the game story. The triggers for the most part are well named if you open up the valve level s and the hammer properties editor and material/entity browsers you will be able to organize and create things very quickly, with very quick build times, lots of interactivity and some pretty hard enemy AI for smaller quarters.

It’s also a great deal better than it was originally, and with proper design you could remake a lot of the NPC’s and Monsters with your own meshes attached to the Valve animations, or even just reskin and reweaponize them. The inclusion of wandering NPC’s who babble and can be “used” to do things is a considerable code bonus for you. It can add immense depth to a story, and you can extend the NPC entities with your own names and just a mesh and sound cues changed. Voila. Wandering characters that will say important things about your story. Suddenly you need a voice-over artist unless you got it all covered.

The engine is better than System Shock 2 and half a dozen other titles that made millions. I just replayed half of it. There’s a lot to work with, and it could theoretically be reskinned like the Toon Country example above, or something approximating it (without the tanks). If you make maps for goldsrc Counterstrike you will actually have people play them as well..





If you use Source or Goldsrc, the XSI ModTool is the way to go, and I personally always have and install both 6 and 7.5 because of some exporting issues and 7.5 requires Steam to access some of the Source Noesis ref meshes for HL2 which are included in 6 in a folder.

I love softimage
and it is the biggest fucking ram and interface screen space stealer on the planet. Yuck.
The interface is actually bigger than blender these days.
But, if you are lucky enough to have a dual monitor setup with lots of vid ram and widescreen 92 dot lcd screens running at over 1280 it really is the cat’s meow.
I can run modtool on my celery. but I have to stare into space a lot a wait.
I hardly even animate with it, but it is my 3rd preferred next to motionbuilder or max biped. I like it for modeling and tweaking triangular meshes, which I generally despise. It makes a hard job easier with the tri’s.






source addon:

I really do suggest that anyone involved in any way of studying video games get the modtool 6 and 7.5 and study the valvesource addon scenes.

6 will let you use them without steam, 7.5 has some feature enhancements, but some export functions work better in 6.

They both have working buggies, swamp boats, and first person arm/weapon combo scenes for half life 2 all rigged up and working. You’ll learn a lot, if you can run it. Really. For everything. This is the core that you need to look at. A couple of working vehicle meshes with the nulls that are named for the engine. Human figures boned and skinned for the game, and first perosn weapon models and animations to work on and learn from. There are similiar files for UT2K4 or UDK but they are all over the place. Everything that is graphically/texturally necessary for modelling/animating for an FPS engine is in that addon, really.

Modtool is the preferred tool to extract an SMD into obj as it retains vertex weighting nicely and maps. Milkshape is very useful, but everything can be done with just modtool and some other modeler of your choice. You need to actually locate the obj export plugin though for 7.5 as smd’s won’t export natively.


Regardless of that
anything will work once you’ve translated an mdl to an smd then fixed up the textures a bit, closed a few holes and random polygons, merged/freezed/collapsed the stack or whatever and made an obj then any tool will work

With milkshape or xsi modtool you can decompile, recompile, modify, and translate the model and skeleton, make animations and meshes, import them back into either one, and create a new smd set, edit your.qc to point to all the mesh and image bits, compile in studiomdl, and you have a character.

When you come down to it,
The same game model, extracted and ported to 5 different packages for manipulation or as a base guide:

I can do it. So can you.
The above examples are on a CELERON 1.5 with 512 megs and a 64 meg shared ram onboard laptop video card.

Yes it is fucking slow, donate me a new one,
but as you can see, it doesn’t matter if the machine is crap or what you use
as long as you have the ability to read and think
and click and drag

I’ve been using 3D packages for 15+ years
but if you focus on one or 2 applications and follow the trail of google tutorials left by others you can accomplish this too.

To get to the point above required about 1.5 days to have the helmeted and non helmeted versions in 7 file formats fully textured with proper uv’s and about 4 hours of mesh tweaking that wasn’t necessary, but made it cleaner.

So you, young jedi
or old crotchedy jedi,
you can do it too
From knowing zip you could get to this basic point of having a model from your game in your editor to tweak in less than 3 months.
Faster if you are a smarty pants.
Yes 16 year olds learn it faster
but, grandma can do it too if she’s so inclined
(see tooncountry example)

You need one copy of hammer to edit HL1 and its mods updated to 3.4 so you can see the static meshes instead of colored blocks and you can get an unofficial 3.5 update from Sven’s Co-op that gives all the entities labels in the 3d view.
It can be moved around, it’s not really a picky program, but the 3.5 has to plunked onto a folder full of the 3.4 for it to work, so you can have a 3.4, and a folder with 3.4 that you overwrite with the 3.5 fixes

If you can’t stand the unmarked entities (which is the only real suckness to the editor) then you could try this Hammer rebuild which puts nice labels on every entity. Along with other tweaks.
You can run them in two separate folders, the 3.5 has to be plunked onto a folder full of the 3.4 for it to work, so you can have a 3.4, and a folder with 3.4 that you overwrite with the 3.5 fixes and use the sven fgd and supplied hammer browser models to get a nice set of little icon models..

You need an .FGD file for each of the goldsrc games you wish to edit so the editor knows what entities it can interface with. It is also an important file for you to look at since it contains everything you interact with in Hammer in each dialog.

So if you have HalfLife, BlueShift, Opposing Force, and HalfLife:Decay you need an fgd for each and have to choose one as a base, but you can import meshes, textures, and code from the others into it.

FYI there was a torrent that had all four with the HD meshes all applied. It was a 250 meg package, SO TINY, to hold 4 games. It’s 15 years old no one will mind I don’t think. You know. About the torrent. Or you building a great game off it.
Buy the GOG and download the torrent for its ease of use since all the games are built into it as mods with the gcf’s already extracted. You can access all 4 games plus team fortress. Lot’s of base materials, code, and entities to workwith and aome really excellent hi def packs you can patch all of them up with. As a modder the torrent file has it set for you to go and you need to take much less steps to set up your environment, as it is also moveable your dev machine around without breaking registry settings.

You can also Create Quake 1, Quake 2, Counterstrike, Tribes, Max Payne 1, etc. levels with the same editor. Or you could use netRadiant I guess. NOT. At least not for me.
You need GCFscape, Wally to extract stuff from wad files, Quark, theres a tool to pack wads of textures properly, etc.
Most is here:
or at Nem’s:


the best hammer update for over hammer 3.4

Milkshape costs $35 bux, but it might do something you need at one point if you use this dev environment:

Milkshape does .SMD, the Valve model format.
When everything else dies milkshape works. Clunky, but it works.
It imports a lot, including fbx/dae, and outputs smd with multiple uv textures linked. compiles for you in milkshape.

XSI and Max have Source SMD plugins
Blender 2.46 and previous support .MAP natively.
Blender 2.6 doesn’t. But there’s a new smd script link below.
To get a simple static mesh without animation but textured, into hammer, is a feat. It will take you have a day if not half a month to do it.

make model
textures as flat 8 bit bmp (ugh) they can be adaptive
export .smd model.
copy the .smd 2 times in folder
name one reference.smd and one sequence.smd
3 .smd’s and one or 2 materials in bmp format in folder now
create .qc file which is a simple file to tell the model compiler that you have these 3 .smd files, named this, in this folder, with the bmp’s that are referenced in the .smd in the same folder, and other material flags if you want to add them.
drop the .qc on studioml.exe and a .mdl with the original .qc name should be there next to the smds and bmp’s.
copy the .mdl  to your hl/mod/models folder
place an info_generic and browse to the .mdl file
run and see your model in the level!
Notice it has no collision box
It is much more difficult to import a simple unmoving uv textured mesh in goldsrc, but the qc/smd system is actually fairly useful, just time consuming.
They should have made a full gui for mesh import,
oh right they made something called sourcesdk…

npc tut:
Creating an HL1 NPC: http://twhl.info/tutorial.php?id=175&page=1

this dev texture wad totally rocks, and if you look you can find something similiar for UT2k4:

At this point you realize it is easier to get a static mesh into the UT2K4 editor.
but you also see that it is nice having an .mdl file that has its textures and even animations all inside the one file, and that specific materials like metals, shiny, glowing, can be used in the .mdl using the compile with materials as well as textures. For GoldSrc, ValveSource is more complex with the textures and vtf, but goldsrc is still operating on basic image maps with uv.

 You don’t need Source tools, Source is different than GoldSrc and c++ source, the file and mesh formats supported are different as well, and animation is not the same. MDL, and bmp/tga, in paks and wads. It is limited graphically and texturally, but it is small, fast and fun to build with GoldSrc using Hammer.
The code is much easier to understand than a modern hundred programmer game for those kind of people, and it also doesn’t require any expensive IDE to work with it.

I don’t think they(Valve) will hoard it forever, it should become open source goldsrc one day. Nice shiny stuff in ogl mode.Of course, they MIGHT be stingy about it forever.

If you can run HL2 and the modern SourceSDK on your awesome rig, then you might want to get Black Mesa if you wish to have some of the Half Life 1 monsters and scientists to use for your stories. Source SDK is a great storytelling environment, its Face Poser and Choreography/Gesture tools rock for actually getting characters to speak properly and show facial emotion.

And to anyone who would take the time to read this my recommendations of other single player story driven games you could look at for inspiration in story or asset creation:
System Shock 2, Myst (I suggest realMyst 3D), Deus Ex 2, Baldur’s Gate 2, Planescape Torment, Portal, Half Life (all of them), Doom 3, Quake 2 and even Q1 with the glquake or darkplaces engines, Arcanum *of Steamworks…), Max Payne 1, and Grand Theft Auto Vice City.

Which all should play on your machine, if you can run Unreal Tournament 2004.

Adding to my Valve statement above, which was just shy of gushing I guess,
Half Life 2 will run in DX8 mode, the orange box engine source 2009.
hl2.exe -dx8
Which means it will play too. On a crappy machine.

Half life 2 (and Portal) are very easy to create and edit complex maps in.
I own Half life 2 and can legally dl the sdk as anyone who owns a game based on Source can
actually Source Base SDK is free with like 5 models or something,
but it’s better to start with a game that is close to what you are trying to create.
You can get offline versions of HL2, but you cannot get an offline install of the Source SDK.
So then you have Steam. You really can’t edit HL2 without Steam and an internet connection, but if you have both, it is of course an excellent framework for a single player adventure.
Noesis is the place for Source tutorials, I highly suggest both the version 6 and version 7.5 of the XSI ModTool Which has some valve base meshes in it to work with. Like a working buggy, cop, and airboat. You can use something else of course.

Whatever engine or development environment you choose, the first thing you should do is create a basic 30k box with just your character, the sun light entity, and maybe a vehicle if there is one. Save it as a template and make a copy.
Do the same again with a terrain object if your editor has one, then look at the simple SKYBOX demonstrations for your particular editor and make one for your basic 30k space and save that as a template.
Start from there. you have your BSP tunnel type stuff or outdoor skyboxes. Mixing them comes later. But you can mix terrain and underground levels in a large map if you segment all of the zones nicely for cutting out unrenderable things for the engine.

Partly related, but not quite, if you are interested in facial animation that doesn’t use bones as in UT2K4’s impersonator system, you should look at Facegen modeller. It generates nice head meshes with rigged eyes and mouth, and will export a whole phoneme set of Shape Morph Targets in one shot, which you can then load into Max or Maya or whatever and you can practice BLENDSHAPE animation using max’s morph mixer or Maya’s blendshape tools. Not very useful ingame, but for creating animated head cutscenes or a simple exercise they are great.

Maybe someone could donate me a better rig when they upgrade!
Then I could use UDK or Source like everyone else,
Till then I settle on UT2K4

Exactly what you would expect from someone who spent 4 of the last 6 years outside eh?

If you are truly a geek, I tell you
those Stargate assholes are rip off backstabber mofo’s.
But no one cares because I’m not a pretty 15 year old with perky tits, no police would help her either, they sure won’t investigate what happened to me…they only investigate crimes against rich people

I actually know my shit.
They are the reason I was living outside.
Read this again. Follow along and put all these parts together.
I find it easy, just time consuming on my rig.
Probably 4 out of the hundred or so people I worked at Stargate with could even get close to putting that together, and not in 4 days.
I set all this up in 4 days and tested it thoroughly.
On a Celeron 1.4
I’ve done this setup hundreds of times.
I could write the same thing about non linear video editing and the important components of a small set.

The only reason I’m not doing anything is not laziness,
I need a proper Doctor, and these Stargate fuckers,
Robert Cooper, Brad,
The whole GANG of them
Owe me some decent money.
I should have a house and car and some extra at least,
if not a lot more
you backstabbing prick fucks pretending to righteous while you slut about the sci fi conventions
fucking shithead moron fuckwads.
You are fucking redneck neanderthals.

Robert Cooper definitely couldn’t.
Jen Patterson couldn’t.
Mike Elliot DEFINITELY couldn’t.
Bones or Shannon Gurney probably couldn’t either.


Games and Theories

I have been holed up for 4 days with a celeron trying to get all my tools in order.

I have successfully changed images and textures in System Shock 2 while replaying it.
So fantastic. Especially with all the fixes and visual mods you can apply to make it nicer
A game people replayed even though it looked crappy, because it was the story, the hunt for things, so many things, and the neat little touches like the research, chemicals, pda’s, combinable inventory items, nano augs, and tons of little story lines all with great spooky soundtrack that constantly makes you feel paranoid.

You may laugh and point to Skyrim. But that is 25 GIGS.
This game started a lot of it out more than a decade ago, and it’s still replayable.
Unmodded it is 520 megs! With the eye candy applied its 1.2 G.
So much scarier.
That nice tense scary.

I study games that were big, ones we don’t think of much now, Fallout 3 and Skyrim have made them into grand cinematic textural masterpieces with hundreds or thousands of ants building them bigger.

What gets me about a game like SS2 or deus ex, is the small tiny size
Really, all the flash is nice, but you only need a small toolset to create games.

Someone asked what I would do when I was sellingthem one of my instruments.
I lifted my hand and said
“It is in these, not that.”

I spent 2 days importing static meshes properly into UnrealEd for Unreal Tournament 2004
Which I have modded on my machine to build single player maps and eventually a conversion of the game to a single player story that is not really about killing.

Games are affecting us strongly
we spend so much time in them

My personal mission, which I have had for many years amongst my bazillion other eternally broiling ambitions
is to make a game,
a 3D FPS with almost no shooting.
Not really any enemies
Just things to do and look at in order to progress.

I’ve talked to people about this,
people interested in game design
They thought I was nuts
everything is twitch these days
twitchy gibby blood spattered amigdyla spazzing shockfests.
Its exciting. For a while.

I remember Myst.
Not when it came out, later. I got into the 3D one not the mac hypercard bs.
It took 2 months without a manual.

I actually remember no personal computers of any kind.
I remember the startling joy of a 1 gig hard drive.
Not a terabyte. 1 Gig.

I remember computers with no hard drive other than the os and you had to have a disk or you couldn’t save.
I programmed apple basic, pet, trs-80. Well. Actually I copied the instructions from the magazine letter by letter which was how people did it before you could buy floppies. Originally we used cassettes to record. Or we typed it in, and retyped it if the power glitched.

But now I bitch because I only have a celeron 1.4, 512 ram and an integrated 64 meg video card which feels like the stone ages. But I can play and mod Unreal Tournament 2004. I bitched at my Dad when the kid down the street got an atari with no cartridges, it was hard coded for pong, breakout, and tanks. You toggled a switch for the games.

Now I can build a landscape and meticulously plan the puzzles.
Searching for things.
That’s what I like.
Not really murder mysteries
just mysteries
figuring out
what happened

You see, some of the most groundbreaking games, that made their creators rich and changed the face of our lives, they were made with 5-15 core people, sometimes starting with only one or 2 collaborators.

very intricate games, games that intrigued us for months
were made by very small teams.

Hollywood and its northern compatriots make movies
flash bang whiz
Big games are movies
Movies are about investors and money and action and gangsters and fabulous people.
Fabulous people.
Roll them in shit and wipe them off with money.

I’m misanthropic.

These small teams made games that were films
Like Repo Man.
That’s a film right?
Not a movie?
Or Tarkovsky…

I have no desire to make movies
I will make Films.
Science Fiction Films.
2001. Film. Definately.
Gattaca, Equilibrium, Brazil,
and I’d like to make games
like films

I keep returning to Myst, Baldur’s Gate 2, Planescape Torment, Quake 1-2, Arcanum: of steamworks, divine divinity…
So many hours
looking for things, finding things, learning more of the story.

I will be writing a how to of 3D game modding. Maybe you’ll like it.
Or not care.

You might find these interesting

Or these…

Van Cliburn

Van Cliburn died.
He made a lot of cheese in his later years.
But so what.

The ’57-’62 recordings he made of Tchaikovsky and Rachmaninoff remain at the top of my favorites.
Van Cliburn made me like Tchaikovsky more and love Rachmaninoff.

Out of dozens of Rachmaninoff recordings I’ve listened to, I only found 2 other pianists I even like as much on that.
Back then, in the years shortly after his wins in Moscow.

I had a beautiful live recording with both composers on the set list.
It was RCA I think, but might have been Deutsche Grammaphon

I hand copied it to tape from a record my uncle had.
He wasn’t much of a music guy, but this piece of vinyl was sweet.

I wore that friggin tape right out over 10+ years.
And never have found that again.


Fear of “Witchcraft” – new names for a new version of ourselves after the fires

I’m constantly amazed at the reactions people have to the word “witchcraft”.
Personally, I dislike the term, except when using it to explain historical prejudice against various forms of neo-paganism or to interact with that smaller subset of pagans who specifically call themselves witches.

Why does the word cause such extreme reactions?


Watching the Watchers

They have this:

But looks like we can too!
on a smaller scale.
Wow. Under $3K for a hovering ipod camera mount system.
Very Cool.
For consumer use.
Goes with your button hole camera and your bag with built in record system that syncs to your ipod.
You can mount an ipod on the storm flyer…

I like the little one. Imagine where that’s going in another 10 years of composite materials and miniaturization.
I think battery life and gas engine noise are the two blocks, but a laptop battery lasts 4 hours now, not 1.
These things will be cool.

The toy 2 channel heli’s are only 40 bucks now with electric motors.

I’m not going to become a guy with a lot of helicopters.
I just decided to see what personal consumer options for spy drones there were.
A Drone with HD and audio that can fit in a cigarette case?

My cover would be blown immediately when I pulled out the cigs.
No one smokes these days
except crazy writers.
Even James doesn’t really smoke anymore.
He can kill people and blow shit up,
but the cigars are getting toned down.

More surveilancel means more candid photos of corrupt politicians or their brats getting blowjobs or driving off with their non-partner.

I predict that portable cameras will become a big legal issue in the next 10 years. Worldwide
Not that I care.
I just need a normal camera for HD
You think the blog is eccenric?
Wait until I have HD podcasts.
With drone footage.

how to kill faggots…

I was checking my wordpress stats,
I still get a lot more traffic to the blogger site
but I like writing and editing in the wordpress interface better
I’m looking at the search terms people have found my blog with

and this is one of them
“how to kill faggots” is what the person was searching for
and they got this:

The Asshole – Reloaded

I have a computer finally
a p.o.s. celery with a 64 meg vid card
So I can maybe fini a few of the incomplete arties

(evil cackle)

The pervy girl returns soon with part 2 of her story
but it won’t be complete until I finish another story, The Divorce, since the little dragoness has disapeared and I need to relate to that within the pervy girl’s story. Unless she tracks me down and kills the protagonist, which could happen. Or vice versa. It’s just that way.

God is a telephone is also gonna get an expansion. Big time
Don’t like it?
Bite me, then lick.

So there you have it.
Pucker up.
I’m mad.
valhalla rising

Christy the Clown gives $280 Million to the Hells Angels, bitches about $20 million for the social safety net, and STILL disabled children get no bus passes?!?

Do you realize that if a mother on disability in B.C. has disabled children, she gets a bus pass, but the kids don’t?

So, a disabled child, needing multiple visits to the doctor, gets NO BUS PASS from Christy and Translink.
They haven’t ever got them.
It’s shitty and LAME Christy!
Making mothers on disability or welfare pay for their childrens bus tickets.
They have $280 to live on, and you’re stealing $5-$10 from them when they need the transportation for their disabled children.

Who cares about them though heh?
You made your $280 million payout to the Hell’s Angel’s for the year, giving IATSE and it’s american pimps a quarter of a billion to keep 1500 of their shittiest cronies in the money, so I guess you got another year in their good books eh?

Don’t you realize that the $280 million doesn’ go to B.C.?
It’s a bunch of American gangsters backed by the U.S. Military.
They produce “Canadian made” propaganda using the great hollywood machine
which is simple.
A bunch of americans come up here.
They take over a film studio. Rent it.
They get U.S. military and cia fake companies, many of whom are manned by unwitting agents of the us state.
The movie itself is made by a small crew of Canadians getting about $20 million dollars of this money you are paying out you dummy!!!

The american crew are in charge of everything and get $80 – $100,000 jobs while the canucks get $18 -$50,000 jobs, and the canucks are laid off whenever possible.

All of this film subsidy money will be out of B.C. in less than 2 days after you release it.
Less than $20 million will actually stay here.

When the movie industry rents things here they do what they have always done, they rent from another american running a “canadian” company. Or they order it up from the states and again the money goes down.

Most of B.C. ‘s actual filmakers that are from canada are serving coffee.

All the union people up here, the 1500 out of 25000 that actually work regular, are all gangsters and the managers are all american.

You’re paying $280 million in corporate welfare for AMERICANS.

And B.C. people on welfare, all 100,000 or so of them split up $20 million and you give another $20 million to the union bitches that harass them each month.

And now you introduce legislation that makes it so that if you live with someone for 2 years and have sex with them they are entitled to half of your money and property? That’s fucked you dummy. Why do you think people live together? Because they DON’T want the legal bindings!

Christy the Clown, you are a nasty cunt, responsible for oppression, genocide, and political corruption.

Good luck with your election bitch.

Who needs poetry anyway.

Now that I’m in a place
I can assess

In my last shithole place, the slumlord fuckwad ex-whore moron junkie shithead landlord causes me to lose:
My airbrush and…
200 poems!

Really good poems.
from 11-18 I wrote a lot of them.
Those were the best ones, copied out and arranged.
Carried with me for over 25 years.

Gone. Thrown out by the shitty little bitch in her shitbox full of garbage.
She even ripped me off of the rent money and then throws out
my life

All that matters now is money and revenge.
Keep that in mind at all times.
Art, music, love, poetry
are worth nothing in culture-less vancouver

So fuck them all and lets be assholes making money.


I don’t really plug too many things, like software
just once in a while
I’m going to plug a simple tool that you might find useful
its an online image editor
so you can edit images in the web browser
so it works to edit images in the library or other locked down computer environment

Its called pixlr


It works in the library and most corporate environments!!!

It works in the library and most corporate environments!!!

Another cool thing for locked environments, or a Novell/Unix/mac variant, is this nifty java jar based file browser which seems to pick up nfs and its variants nicely:   http://sourceforge.net/projects/jfm/

A while back I went on about zbrush and silo
I am currently running a laptop with a celery and 512 megs ram, with an integrated 64 meg shared ram vid card.
I am able to do basic modelling in zbrush!!
It’s a very smooth prog, after the 5 minute startup!

I use Firefox mostly.
I use tabs. Usually about 15-30 documents open at once.
It’s how I work.
With this little firefox addon I can open tons of wikipedia reference pages and other textual research links, lots of them, and just right click -> save all tabs, or save selected tabs.

later, offline, I can sit and go through all the text and even copy paste from it
Its called Multiple Tab Handler
I would go crazy without it. I just spent 2 hours searching for it again.

if you can’t afford microsoft’s expensive OneNote,
which I will say I like a lot

You can do a lot of note taking and organization on the free version of EPim,
which holds its data in a flatfile, so you can back it up
and will capture the pictures from web pages and store them in notes when you copy sections from the web.
it can get big though so you can’t do a lot of that.
I use it to write and copy paste organize text in research because it has a nested note tree which I love
It’s more effective than notepad but less irrelevant things like in word are in the interface.
and its only 6 megs, there is a portable version too. It loads fast and holds a lot of stuff, organized.
I use the calender and scheduler sometimes to make the computer go beep and warn me of something but mostly,
as a writer
I use the notes feature to organize work which I then finish elsewhere.
Sometimes with the blog I will use it to build the base text and save out the note as a .txt then post from that and edit.

The Original Christian Sin: When Adam Sucked Some Dick

I was raised until my teens by an uber-christian mom, then I became an atheist.
I had lots of those bible stories pumped into my head though, seeing as christian brainwashing of children is still legal in Canada.
Later I began to try and figure out the metaphors in many of the various myths that I studied.

I came to this conclusion many years ago, and thought I would share it with you.

The metaphors of the Garden in Genesis are kind of murky,
but here goes…

So, first off
Eve wasn’t the first woman.
Lillith was. And she took off with Adams neighbor, a black man.
His name was Sam. Sam was actually a really nice guy but Adam was too racist to stay friends with them. And he was pretty bitter, so they didn’t keep in touch
Adam couldn’t handle that, that lilli needed a bigger wiener than he had,
so he whined to god and got a replacement.
That was Eve.

So, after a few years of married bliss, eating lots of fruit and having sex in the garden, Eve got bored. So she started thinking about another neighbor and wondered if she could get Adam to allow it.

She couldn’t figure out how. Then one day, she was giving Adam a blow job, and when he came she took some of the seed from the serpent, the semen from his dick, and puts some in his mouth and made him swish it around.

Adam’s reaction was basically, “that doesn’t taste too bad at all!”

So now that Adam had eaten from the tree of life, the fruit, the seed, he started thinking about his wife and the neighbor and himself

(secretly he sometimes thought of Sam too!)

And eventually Eve convinced Adam to have a threesome with one of their white jewish neighbors who just magically appeared from nowhere.

Adam was a happy cat. The serpent, his neighbors dick, filled him with joy when he drank the seed, and he and Eve were very happy with this new arrangement.

Of course, the god dude was homophobic and he had a tantrum like all fathers whose son’s learn that dick isn’t really bad at all.

But no amount of counseling or group communication and mediation could cool dad down, and like every christian father since, he expelled his children from his home.

That’s what the story is about. I might have some details wrong, but essentially,
That’s what happened.

And that is why, regardless of hate speech and anti-discrimination laws, the christians hate all fags and actively attack them and bully them.
Because they want to go back to dad’s house, but he hates fags.

The recap/summary of the thesis concept is:

The Husband’s penis is the Tree of Life
Eve’s pussy is The Garden
They are forbidden to eat the Fruit (the semen)
The Snake represents another penis, not the husband’s
Eve is tempted to eat the semen (give a blowjob) by the Snake (another man)
She does, enjoys it
And convinces her husband that it’s good
And so they are kicked out of paradise by dad.

Now, this came to me many years ago, and I was actually going to write a much more serious piece about it
I’m feeling cranky after the holidays.

Sanity, Madness, and Foolish Families

I have a lot of strange and interesting things here, I’ve said a lot of things that many people find difficult to swallow.

I would like you all to understand one thing though,
I have a family, and people I know.
I am more intelligent, if you use standardized testing, than all of them.
There is not a single member of my large extended family who has a higher intelligence rating than me.
I had honors through every year of high school. I’ve read thousands of books, both fiction and reference non-fiction.

Many of the people in my family and amongst my community believe that Chris has a serious mental health problem. Most believe I am “schizophrenic” or “delusional”.
Most of them would not be able to read and understand the DSM-IV-TR, which I can read quite well.

So for all of those people, to make it clear:

About 3 months ago I called a Dr. Mah the “C” word. I wrote about it, you can read it. I spent 3 days in jail and half a day at St. Paul’s having a COMPLETE MENTAL HEALTH ASSESSMENT.

So to all of my fucked up moronic family who all barely graduated and married other people who paid for all the stuff they are so proud to have, there you go.

A full assessment.
No schizophrenia
No delusion
No cognitive malfunctioning.

If you smooshed all the people who think that crap about me into one big brain, I would still beat it at chess.
Neanderthal morons.

God is a Telephone: How Monotheism Hijacked the Immanent Gods to Hold Us All Hostage

Wow. This is it. The big questions answered!
It’s going to grow on you

I promise.

“fake” Witches vs “fake” Christians: “real” authentic fake relationships

I was reading one of the two every bustop cia “news” rags, when it informed me, in a number of articles nested firmly between santa’s bosom, that there were “fake” witches, and that in Ontario, 5 fake witches in ten years have been nabbed.

First of all I wondered how one would be able to tell a fake witch from a real one.
It would be as easy as finding a fake christian I guess. But there isn’t a law against that, being a fake christian.

Is there a witchness test?
If Canadian law can’t nab fraudsters who can ascertain fakeness of witches?
So there must be a definition of a witch to compare the fake witch to.
Where do I find that definition? That would be interesting.

A big part of the articles were about people spending thousands of dollars on some blessing or something. Timeshares, whether they are in the after life or in a run down condo that the managers have neglected as they spend the fools money, are almost never nabbed as fraud.

Christian priests demand money for their services though.
Donations are usually in tens to hundreds of dollars, and a longer talk with a priest is more money expected or even a monthly tithe of $300 or so.

Why would you bother spending time “blessing” or counseling someone if you weren’t getting paid somehow.

If the Christian priest is found to have done something improper, can the authorities then have him arrested for being a fake priest as well?

I have more to say about this of course, but its cold and the dog is cold outside the library.

Spells. Hmm. Christians have rituals and spells. Hmm.

And what about the Sally Ann eh?
Fake. Money laundering organized crime bikers turned to jesus bullllllsheeeet.
Sorry I don’t call spades shovels.

My friend says he hates christians because they just assume that everyone believes like them. He was upset about christmas. Not everyone believes in Christmas. So we should be able to take any day like the solstice or hannukah as a “holy” day, but the only one officially marked on the calendars is the christian holiday.
I don’t think I really hate christians. I kind of pity them, and I kind of avoid getting too close. Being surrounded by sheep is too disconcerting, I’d rather watch them from a distance.

updates are slow…

I am really cold, tired, and getting fucked over more by doctors and the Ministry, so I have a couple of recent articles that are small or even just a title.

They are teasers I guess, just check back and re read tehm, they might get very large and interesting!

We only have 1 hr at a time at the library again since we are outside.

Christmas wishes…

What do I want for Christmas/Winter Solstice?
Hmm. I haven’t got much spirit of happiness right now.
I have nothing to give out, except sharing a bit with the ground level people around me.
And THIS. For whatever that is worth.

But, if you are a gift giver, these are the things a ripped off freezing-starving writer likes.

1. Justice. I wish that I, personally could get a team of lawyers to make sure I got justice against Robert Cooper and the Stargate crew. Good luck, I know, but a gift card for a hitman would be almost as good.

2. A place for a man – dog – cat that is $450 or less inclusive and preferably doesn’t have 6 people sharing the shower. I will do with a covered heated garage and access to a toilet though. Closets are also welcome. If they are in gay-friendly houses. I don’t really care about inet, though it’s nice, I don’t care about cable, but I’ll watch a bit if it’s there. I care about a plug to plug in my computer and a place to sleep and crap. I can wear sweaters if its an unheated space. Yes I know this is impossible.So what. Its my wish and I can wish for what I want.

3. Tobacco. A pouch of Tobacco. Maybe you disagree with smoking, so go to the next number. For those of you that can maybe understand, consider: it’s 3 am, and I’m broke and cold and hungry, sleeping on cement. I get up and have a smoke.
Small pleasures are important when you have nothing.

I like Drum, Players, or Export 50g pouches – premium.
If you give me a “rolls 100% more” bargain pouch I will not complain though.
I like zig zag blue or white papers, and an extra pack of them is so fantastic…
The little things.

4. A Tim Horton’s card with some money on it. I like coffee. If you give me more than $10 I’ll get a tin of the hot chocolate powder and one of the toffee cappucino, just add hot water and yum. I can drink Shitbucks too.

5. A liquor store card. YES I DRINK. I AM FROM ALBERTA.
Make sense? I’m not a 2 litre cider a day alchoholic, I drink about 10 6 packs in a month. I usually buy 3 tall cans or a six pack in a sunny day, and drink them while I throw the dogs frisbee forever and ever.

5. A really good rain poncho, and some super mitts. Size 36 pants with a belt. Unused longjohns. Wool socks. An israeli sub-bullpup with R. Coopers address in the box with it. Hmm. I feel so warm.

6. A pretty girl. Self explanatory, but she must be warned that she has to shower me off or she will probably gag.

7. Weed. Well. I meditate daily and smoke weed, not always in that order. I keep myself with enough for my daily meditations, but if you have extra of something nice, Thanks!

8. Small change.

9. A computer that doesn’t suck. I use the UDK for developing games. Yes I am a homeless person. But 10+ of the best games of all time were made by a small team with one tyrant at the lead. Those are the games I like, and I’m going to make one.
unfortunately the UDK requires shader moder 3, my meshes, landscapes and textures require 4G of ram or better to build properly and test, and a terabyte will only be just enough. I’m a power user with a shopping cart, but when I get into a warm closet with a plugin I continue to work on my games.
So what I would ask that santa dude for would be a 4 processor I7 with a shader model 3 (dx10) video card with 2g+ video ram and a terabyte+ hard drive. I need 4 G fast mobo ram minimum. That’s what I need. To work at full speed with maya-zbrush-max-silo-udk and test. I’m limping along on a 4 year old build of udk mounted on a P4-2.8ghz with 1 g of slow ram and only a 350g hd. It sux. Big time. But I can do it if I have to, since I know that there is no santa, or justice, or god, or devil, or fate. Just people who believe you and people who don’t. A laptop is obviously more convenient, but if it isn’t shader level 3 I’d be happy with a tower. I’ll be inside healing after 2 operations and will need something to do.

10. Did I say Justice would be cool? With the VPD in the pocket of Big Red and the Mafia? With Genocidal doctors in every clinic of Least Van and Canadian Human Rights protection at an all time low. Hmmmmm. I am wasting my time I know.

11. A Traditional Tarot deck. A traditional rider-waite/radiant deck. My favourite deck is the Fey deck, but it’s a mail-order expensive thing, right now I have this Arthurian deck which is just too weird for most people, and it’s too christianized for me. I’m going to write a book about Tarot in a non-mystickal structure one day. Yes, I am an atheist pagan and I read Tarot from a jungian archetypal perspective. It works for some people and I can actually make a couple dollars here and there with it without begging, which is against my spiritual beliefs. Willing to trade this deck for yours if you like it.

12. A job that doesn’t require lifting or heavy pushing or running. I am a certified Network Administrator, I can walk a dog, I can repair your computer or show you how to use it. I can make up to $500 a month while on PWD. I can do linux/windows/mac for homes or businesses, but I can’t lift things off the ground.

Food: We actually do pretty good for food usually. Sometimes its tight, but we can’t store anything really. Hot food though. Or hot coffee, harder to get and welcome when we get it.
Powdered hot chocolate, dark chocolate, tins of survival food like sardines, food cards.
We never trade in gift cards for money, we always use them to get food.

For Koala:
Koala really needs a good visit to the doctor. 

She’s 10 and needs her paw looked at and a teeth checkup. If you can donate a bit of money to the SPCA with a note asking them to help your buddy Koala when she’s in, they are really nice to her.

1205 East 7th Avenue
Vancouver, B.C. V5T 1R1 
Phone: (604) 879-7721
Emergency Phone (if available): (604) 879-7343
Email: vancouver@spca.bc.ca
Koala likes Tripe. Tripe in a can. And tasty canned dog food. And frozen turkey necks, or chicken legs. The tripe is good in the winter for her coat. And dried liver sometimes. Mr. Pet’s or Sophie’s both know her and will give her the gift anonymously if you want. She could also use flea stuff of course since B.C. is perfect flea temperature. We really have enough toys.

Koala really wants a place more than tripe tho
she likes couch cuddling while watching something.

My wishes for you this Christmas/Solstice?
Find some small happiness,
and rid your world of some large hypocrisy you’ve been holding onto.
Maybe clear up some family secrets or decades old lies, clear the air a bit, build Trust.

happy happy, everyone.
I can’t do it. Fuck optimism. It’s cold. BAH! HUMBUG!!!!

East Van Genocidal McMedicine – Quack Diagnosticisms for all…

44 minutes
I’,m in the waiting area for a McClinic on Commercial at Broadway.
I’m calculating
My time.
My life in a McMedicine line
Thank you Mr. Harper, and you especially, Mr. Martin
For McMedicine
I have lost 44 hours of my life
for less than 2 hours of medical attention
because they get paid by the visit, not the ailment, so I must come and come and come and sit and wait,
because it’s better for billing the government.
44 hours of my life.
3 hours at a time for each 5 minute McVisit
a half hour each way
2 hours wait EVERY time plus some longer waits
3 hours per McVisit
5 minutes of face time
per McVisit.
and after all of that
we have:
Jack Shit, really.

The form in my hand must be filled out by a doctor,

he get’s paid a hundred dollars to do it
It can’t be done in 5 minutes
So I have come here
14 times
so that he would have been able to gather enough visits
to make the time.
For accounting I have come here ad nauseum
while daily I freeze outside without a bus pass
and from the FIRST visit
ALL I have wanted
was for the doctor to fill out this form
Not “make something up so you’ll be sure to get visibility”
I have come here 14 times to have it filled out accurately
with no embellishment.

The system thinks it is on the right course, full steam ahead
44 hours for less than 2
dog freezing
and now
“just sign up for mental health and it will be fast tracked Mr. Taylor”

I came for accuracy,
and am offered a quick road to warmth
for lies

fucking liars.

There’s this crucial component of modern medicine.
Its called diagnostic imaging.

Its important to have proper diagnostic imaging for medicine. Very important. Its important for lawsuits regarding malpractice as well, but you have to pay out of pocket for that, since the system will never pay to investigate its own people for wrongdoing.

If you’ve read some of my blog, you may be familiar with my rants regarding the horrifying and dangerous quality of care I have recieved in British Columbia. I am literally scared shitless of lying murderous doctors. There are so fucking many of them.

So. Short summary.
I have a congenital condition called intersexuality, which is an actual physical genital difference created by genetics and endocrine development factors during gestation. No bullshit.

So after doctor number TEN that I have been to in the last 5 years, we have this. 4 doctors literally LAUGHED. 3 doctors refused to interact with me for treatment, and 4 of the doctors tried to put something on my file regarding delusions or other mental dysfunction – WITHOUT PHYSICALLY ASSESSING me. They didn’t even look.

Now we come to medical imaging and its importance.
Doctor or nurse is trying to call me a liar and delusional. If i had a proper DIAGNOSTIC IMAGE I could pull it out and show it, but I don’t have one.

Ten doctors, half a dozen nurses, and I have NO DIAGNOSTIC image of the area in question. I have asked EVERY SINGLE doctor for this, over the course of 5 years.

My library time is almost up and I will have to add to this over the weekend.

So. 3 months ago I try a new clinic, like clinic number 7 in 5 years.

Its at broadway and commercial.

For the first time in 5 years a doctor or nurse actually asks me to drop my pants and take a look.
She doesn’t understand it but agrees its not what she normally would see.
I ask her to order an ultrasound of my perineaum while I am getting one for my inguinal hernia in the upper groin.
She agrees, and contrary to my wishes and commoon practice writes “hermaphrodite” on the imaging notes. The term is Intersex, there are less than 1% of all intersex people who would be termed actually hermaphrodite. I was a bit offended but she ordered the scan so I was ok. I ask her to use CML, in the new Jim Pattison(ie: Hell’s Angels) constructed medical building at broadway and commercial, across the street from her. There is a reason. They destroyed some of my ultrasound images at the beginning of the 5 years at the request of a Dr. Cooper and Dr. Brown, both of whom are mudering genocidal religious fanatics, I SWEAR!


I book my ultrasound.

the story of Jin the genocidal radiologist – goes here! and is still being expanded:
Short summary: Jin is pattronizing. He takes 32 pictures of my 1-1/2 inch balloned out inguinal hernia, then scans my perineum for 5 minutes, after turning the monitor away from me, and he doesn’t snap a single frame of my perineum!!!!
I went for a diagnostic image, one that I could show to other doctors…and not one single image was snapped into his digital system!!
That medical building is where they are moving the transgender clinic from downtown. So all of the clients of that “service” can expect to be lied to in that building if they are intersex and not trans.

here’s my email to Jin’s boss: bidad@cml.ca
Hello Diane.

I am very upset. I will try to be short and clear.

A couple of days ago I was booked for an ultrasound at your broadway commercial location.
The technician was Jin.

Jin was the same technician on duty in the old office 3 years ago. I remember.

I have a congenital condition known as Intersexuality.
It is not a mental disorder, like transgenderism, it is a disorder of sexual development, a physical expression of non standard genitalia  caused by different  factors, some genetic and some endocrinal. Approximately 250, 000 people in canada have some form of one of the 5 kinds of intersexuality.

I came to your clinic for a scan of my right side anguinal hernia and a second set of my perineum. So I could take the IMAGES, which are the end result of a professional DIAGNOSTIC, to a PROFESSIONAL with SPECIALIZED experience.

You might notice, if you look, that there are 30+ images of my hernia.

and ZERO images of my perineum.

He didn’t snap a single image. This isn’t the days of $100 film stock. Digital space is almost free.

3.5 years ago I had a scan done, when it was strips of paper and not on file.
I watched as Dr. Cooper (who severely compromised my healthcare) actually TOOK 3 sheets from that set back then, in front of Jin.


Therapeutic Privilege should be a CAPITAL crime. IMHO.

There is no SCIENCE without DOCUMENTATION.

Thank you for your time, Diane.
As you can see, I’m kind of pissed off.

Christopher Taylor

So after all that. The new doctor tells me that he can’t really fill out my disability form without using “schizophrenic” because he really wants me to get on disability and he really doesn’t want me to get a CT scan for this:


This is what it is all about.
They will absolutely not give me a CT or ultrasound image of this under any circumstances!

They would rather kill me first, slowly, in front of all of you!So you tell me, ladies, how many boys have that between their balls and ass?
Honestly. How many? You’ve seen that lots?
The well-trained Dr. Mah, with no examination whatsoever, called it “probably extruding colon material”. I’m pretty in tune with my butt. If I rub a one inch section of one spot of my colon for half an hour I don’t curl up into a ball.
Rub that and I do.
I think I deserve better from a scientifically advanced culture.
There are specialists for everything, but we are happy with the techniques of modern genocide here, so clean and quiet.I am tired of this shit.

The Grandview-Woodlands “Community” Plan: Hard Drugs, Decimated Culture, Genocidal Health Providers, voila! -a “community” is reborn – with fetal idiocy syndrome…

Beyond the Border: Harper sics the FBI and CIA on Canada’s left wing, allowing them to operate in Canada against socialist threats!

The nazis were elected with about the same percentage as the conservatives, and with similiar circumstances.
Throughout his career, Mr. Harper has steadily eroded the principles of democracy, equality, justice, and human rights.
It’s a right wing dictatorship now.
All the left wing neighborhoods and hangouts in Canada have been effected, and the culprits, when we look at the disruptions of these cultural centres, the culprits are americans in canada, or the organized crime gangs who buy their coke from the CIA and american military.
Mr. Harper believes that our “allies” have our best interests at heart, but americans in canada all say the same thing,
“These stupid Canadians…You can get away with anything here…”

check it out, the bilateral agreement where american law enforcement can operate within canada, and identify targets for canadian extrajudicial harassment by law enforcement here.

and here is a quote for you:
“Integrated Cross-border Law Enforcement
We intend to build on existing bilateral law enforcement programs to develop the next generation of integrated cross-border law enforcement operations that leverage cross-designated officers and resources to jointly identify, assess, and interdict persons and organizations involved in transnational crime.
We intend to seek further opportunities to pursue national security and transnational crime investigations together to maximize our ability to tackle the serious security threats that these organizations and individuals present.
We intend to improve the sharing among our law enforcement agencies of relevant information to better identify serious offenders and violent criminals on both sides of the border.”
Serious offenders would be all you fucking idiot do gooder socialists who believe that full comprehensive healthcare is a right that should be fully covered by taxation, and all you foolish lefties who think in a country that hits -40 degrees sometimes it’s essential that everyone get the basics of food and shelter.

The americanization of Canada is an essential component of Mr. Harper’s very christian crusade against anyone who believes the rich, and the corporations sucking resources out of our country, should be paying back in to the prosperity of ALL Canadians, not just the rich cronies of Mr. Harper and his genocidal business pals.

There are american teams in Canada right now, “neutralizing” the left wing, before it starts demanding that everyone get free access to post secondary education, healthcare, childcare, eyecare, and LEGAL REPRESENTATION.

Anyone that says things like
9/11 wasn’t the Taliban, they just threw the brown people at the building to make it look good. Really, what happened was that Donald rumsfeld announce that $2.1 TRILLION (that’s what, 9 zero’s?) in DOD money was missing from the Defense budget, and they didn’t know where it was. 2 days later the 3 places that held accounting information on the $2.1 trillion dollar heist were gone. It wasn’t the Taliban, it was the Italian Mafia and a bunch of American generals skimmming the money and they needed a scapegoat, so a bunch of brown people were elected to make it look good. Don’t agree? so what.

Saying that in AmeriKKKa is treason. But in Canada, we like to look reasonably at the FACTS, because we actually think Noam Chomsky is worth listening to, while in the states they would rather hide their head up their ass and believe that their government and military loves them and cares about human rights. Fools.

Good luck Canada, you’ll need it.
When Hitler took over,
it took the whole fucking world to stop him.

Wanted: Non – infested private living closet with utilities and toilet for the welfare rate – $375

The title says it all.

I can actually afford to spend $450 if I use my food money, which is of course necessary in Greater Vancouver.

$500 is really pushing it for me.

Looking for something south of broadway and west of main


man- dog- and cat.
Cat kills mice. Dog, doesn’t do anything but chase frisbees. She’s quiet.

We’re quiet. We don’t like music anymore. We keep to ourselves.

I “write”, and develop video games, which is a good excuse to play them.
I smoke, smoke weed, drink a few fays out of the month.

I mostly keep to myself and can keep a kitchen and bathroom clean.

I would probably have better luck finding a grassy spot on the moon with free cheese flowing out of a lava tube.

Email me with your splendiferous offers.

I don’t want to live in the outer burbs. Van/South Van/West/North/fairview/shaughnessy/marpole/dunbar/ubc/jericho would be great.

Willing to live in a garage if I have access to at least a porta-potty.

Christie, it’s impossible, and you won’t be able to hide it!

So every human on social “assistance” is allotted $375 dollars for rent+utilities and no more.
Social services gets the rent receipts every month.

Out of all those people, all those receipts, more than 80% of those receipts the rent is over $375.

So. 80% of people on “assistance” are using a significant portion of their food/clothing allowance for their rent and or utilities. Plus you can’t even get service out of the Ministry snots if you don’t have a PHONE, so half again of those clients are forking out for a phone out of their measly $230 of food money.

And the paper trail for our flabbergasted future researchers is undeniable.

This is a really sick society.

I’m talkin to a crackhead who has longterm disability, because they are a poor crackhead, I’m talkin to a half dozen other people I know who are on disability because they are obese, they ate to get on it. They get a bus pass and I don’t with a mashed knee and hernia? Messed up, so messed up.

Christie, just organize public executions of poor people. It will be more effective, I swear.

Searching for solace for solstice

I am wandering in search of a place.
Probably gonna move west from Least Van
Would like to be near the shore
jericho or spanish banks
let the dog near the water

Goodbye to Music.

I used to play.
A lot of things.
Sax, drums, handdrums, bass, keyboards, electronic instruments, guitar.
All gone.
No need for music here.
Only money.
I used to have lots of music,
I was a musicologist you might say.

Thousands of albums over the years,
first on tape, then cd, then dvd, then on hardrives

But I have no laptop
and now my tower is gone
a decade of collected music, gone.

I haven’t the heart
to pluck any more strings
or pull out old favorites
Goodbye, Music.

I really enjoyed it,
but music never helped me succeed,
and many pretty girls listened,
but none walked home with me after.

So I guess it really wasn’t worth
that much

I’ll sing carols this year
and never again

Its time to forget
about singing.

zbrush with workspace customizations

zbrush with workspace customizations

not my model!

This is what I’ve been working on, not the model, but customizing the interface of zbrush so I can work like this:

This is a downloaded interface that I’ve modified for a couple of days. I’m not done yet. I wish I could model chicks like that but its a free model by an accomplished zbrush pro.

For the nerds who might want to know.
The coolest tip I found when learning to customize the user interface of Zbrush is that you cannot resize the standard buttons, but if you make a simple macro of the button push then you can get a nice short little button, so instead of the standard QREMESHER button taking up gazzoodles of space, a macro named qr is a tiny toolbar button. That was the zen trick.

I have come to the conclusion I almost need nothing else. In another iteration they may begin to understand the need for more streamlined UDK/Source export support for low subdivision tri export+ normal mapped meshes. However, with one or two other pieces of software zbrush can form the backbone of most modelling/texturing processes. Normal maps are a standard and this software excels at generating them in combination with a texture map and displacement for your external renderer.

A dense interface with so many tools that’s luckily very customizable, with many user contributed interface layouts to start from.

I believe this is the layout pack I used for all the neat small icons around the interface.

Zbrush will also work fairly well on an underpowered machine, it will just take forever to load, but most software in the 3d world would not be able to manipulate such dense meshes on crappy hardware, but it does!


When did all the science fiction geeks start sucking U.S. Military cock?

When did it happen? They were brilliant geeks, then all that flashy hardware and Operation Mockingbird funded CGI made their minds incapable of reading anything more speculative than a computer generated list of appropriately voiced patriotic sound bites.

Hmmm. Science fiction. Or Speculative Fiction as it is now called.
The mainstream flash gordon dumbing down grew. The grit and bite of speculation and the tales of the lone maverick achieving against all odds replaced with yes sir! yes sir!

Fuck. What happened?

The X-Files geeks suddenly got bored because there was nothing to watch except 7 of 9’s fucking tits for 10 years, so they just lapped up every military sci fi that was slopped into their institutional food trays. Moral dilemmas, sacrifices for honor or authority, just fucking blow more shit up and lets holler…


oh fuck that is shitty. Lame. SO FUCKING LAME!!!!!
Creationist monotheist militarism wrapped in amygdala squishing action sequences.

Fucking shitty crap. Rules of acquisition and chains of command

mental chains.

The geeks flock in herds to their conventions clutching photos of the agents of their descent into stupidity, drooling for signatures and sticking ten dollars at a time into the pockets of stars and crews that actually despise them.
They truly despise you
geek herd
I know. I have walked among them. It was like a creepy zoo. Ray’s carnival, coming to a sleepy town to feed off it.
They feed on geek blood, geek bank accounts, geek herd behavior. You’re gushing, and they feed off of it.

All you super dykes who admire Amanda Tapping’s “strong female lead”
She fucking hates your guts you dumb lezzies
I watch you fawning outside the gates hoping to glimpse your heroine,
She laughs! She mocks you! She fucking hates you you fools. She thinks you’re perverse and sick.
Superfan, who knows what happens in every episode,
they fucking despise you
all of you
and you fawn and fret and pay them well for it
geek masochism slathered in hero worship

Fuck. It’s creepier than doom 3 with headphones.
oh shit more of that fucking military shit


and recycled fucking zombies again
give me that double barreled shotgun…

I read every Heinlen before I was 14, almost every Asimov, Clarke, Bradbury, Herbert, Varley, Bear, LeGuin, Huxley, Wyndham…

Fuck your endless reboots of your previous successes

Fuck them all to hell.

So many stories, and the actual writers are getting nothing
Dick was broke his whole life until the near end, and so are they all
but the military has geek power filling its bank accounts now


We should have snow crash and neuromancer, foundations and childhood’s end,
instead we have commando in space, car chases in space
just more and more of the fucking same shite
“any means necessary” to destroy the “terrorists”/aliens/socialists/stupid geek boys
and again.

They are training us to accept the maxim
“any means necessary”

What next?
Lets see


Dexter in Space?
Or how about Dexter as a sci fi geek.
He could uncover the truth about all the plastic heroes
then wrap them in celluloid
confront them with their literal visual shit
and whack them with sharpened DVD pieces from their straight to DVD shitstorm of crap.

I’m going to go read a fucking book.

The evil Pope – proof at last!

The Pope is a Sith Lord!!! I knew it!!!

I donèt know who to credit, but this is a great pic!

Gently washing the War Penis – Lest we forget why we erected these stone dick-altars…

sports and spectacles
intolerant atheism
the right of power over the weak

happy faces
triumphantly surround
the burning books

we need no philosophy
new or old beliefs
there is only
The Father


and the bodies
beneath it

the new world order
seems very much like
the old one

These things are not for puffy fat men to stand in front of parroting
Support our troops!

They are Stele
to mark the master’s boundaries
They mark

The Land
dot the landscape

We remember corpses and intolerance
righteous indignation and sadism unmasked
piles of poor men
not rich men

dying for causes
we supposedly held dear
simply fodder
to feed fat pockets
over and over

Reverently the union boys
power wash the edifice
preparing for the spectacle
its a job that takes all day of course

The quiet park
filled for a day
with motor sounds
people ejected from seats

by spray

Megaphone megaphone pray to me of children
with nothing in their pockets
no other option but to go
to war

It was a solid paycheck

Their bodies do not reside here
beneath this ugly altar
you stand upon
for your prepared Spectacle

rub the holy brass plaque

in your guileful spectacle of solemn prayer
tell me
to support meat robots with minimal education
and the dictates and inherited beliefs of their masters

I will remember the burning poets
the burning words
the happy sneering faces

the uniforms and troops and guns and sports and
sneering faces

the same look drives the megaphone here
while we bow reverently at the spectacle
not the memory

placing $100 city certified corporate sponsored plastic all-weather

holy fucking wreaths
of plastic
that no one dare touch
for months
until they lay in dirty piles

holy things
holy bullshit

all the right people were there

Play loudly to me in my Land
the hymn of our “ally”
while I watch his footsoldiers


and he sends more young men across the world
to repeat the process
we supposedly
are lamenting

I say to you
we do not need these dicks of stone
and corporate spectacles
to remember


and history

Stupefied Roman Military Slave Cultures and Servile Slave Sects


Samhain Disruption

Living outside for a few days while I look for a new place for me and the dog.
Had to leave.
I bet a lot of you had a disruption in your life this week, when you would be meditating/celebrating.
Maybe it wasn’t random, the disruptions, maybe you were getting fucked over by disruptors.
It’s more likely than you think.
Your supposed to suffer to live.
Only good slaves are free.

Does it seem like I am in a good mood?

The police don’t actually investigate. I doubt they have ever read this blog seriously.
Lots of things I’ve written about here are illegalities or oppressions.

It’s just a job.

It’s not justice, it’s just us.

“Git ‘Er Dun!!” – The rise to power of the Moronic Fascist Neanderthals – A world still enslaved by the Romans

Git er dun!
I’m staring at someone who barely finished grade 12. They make 50k a year as a dumb union bitch.
I read more books by the time I was 18 than this dumb fat bitch has read in her whole life.
And she’s laughing at ME?

The Vancouver Pagan Temple

After years of watching the Neopagan movement in Vancouver (and Canada) dissolve and be dispersed, I decided I would create a Temple for Neopagans in Vancouver (and elsewhere).

The Vancouver Pagan Temple is now actively seeking members.

We intend to offer over the next year:

– Weekly gatherings for members to interact and socialize
– Full Moon gatherings and rituals(13 times a year!)
– Solstice/equinox gatherings

The first 8 gathers will be in various rented spaces until we get a large enough membership to negotiate a long term arrangement for a hall.

Once we get fully up and running and get a permanent space we will be working on a set of curricula for members who wish to learn other aspects of paganism that they are interested in.

At first, however, we intend to focus on the gatherings and full moon events as a place for witches, druids, shamans, eclectics, and other forms of neopaganists to gather and make positive socialization and networking.

An important focus of the Vancouver Pagan Temple is the safety and security of it’s long term members. Strength in numbers is what we are about, giving solitaries and small covens a larger group to identify with and interact with.

Check back soon!

our contact email is:


It’s no charge to contact me. If you want to have a one on one, it’s $10 bux so I can buy a coffee. Priests need coffee too.

I just set up a facrack page, so you can check VancouverPaganTemple on facecrack.
Not much there yet, but soon.

Gatherings will be approx. $10 per weekly gathering, including music and there will be very cheap food available.
Moon Rituals will be more closed and cost $20.

Why a fee? Halls cost money, spaces cost money, a priest needs some form of compensation, and lastly, I hope to actually pay people who help out with chairs or food or organizing, instead of constantly mooching free volunteers.

I am not going to make this a democratic organization, not at first. Priests serve an important function, as the Temple grows I am committed to weeding out the inevitable disruptors or bullshitters that try to mess up most pagan events in B.C.

I hope to help people find smaller working groups of like minded people so that we can all grow in our different paths.

We wear clothes at our temple. You don’t need a cloak. You don’t have to abstain from anything.

You should have AT LEAST 2 gods or goddesses you identify with. We don’t really care much for monotheism. Atheist pagans are welcome, as are deist pagans, but we as a temple are focused more on creating a safe gathering space for communal growth.

– High Priest Christuus Gnosis

Reclaiming “Witchcraft” from the Ditzies

Witchcraft is such a stupid term.
It’s like “christianity” in one sense, it refers to a huge, wide ranging set of often opposing belief systems.
Neopaganism is the same, and occultist spiritualities even more so.

I don’t normally get along with Dianic witches much. Diana hates men. She’s a dyke that hates men so she doesn’t work for any neopagan group that includes men. She is always at war with the Panokoi. Because Pan keeps stealing her bitches. Time and again. She always claims it was rape, but really, they snuck off happily with him because they were tired of Lady Di’s controlling bullshit. And the flute thing was nice too.

Anyway. This Samhain, consider where you hold your spiritual gatherings or “rituals”.
Consider the space you are using.

Is it run by a bunch of fat white misogynists who have a permanent problem with queers and other different types of people? Honestly, think about the energy of the space. Who is using it when you aren’t having your holy little “ritual”.

Are there security cameras in the building? A guest list? A mailing list?

Lots of honeypots out there for little dumb witchies to get sidetracked with.
If the space is really cheap, maybe there is a reason for it.

The hatred against “witchcraft” is so deep, regardless of what your craft consists of.
Your enemies don’t care.
They’ll gladly offer you something
so that over the next year they can TARGET you.

That’s why neopaganism is dispersing, rather than collecting together and growing.

Because the Ditzies are in charge.
They organize well, and make sure everyone is accounted for, manifesting good and light
and all that fucking shit.

The Ditzies are like lemmings
They’ll lead you over a cliff
or into a situation where you lose your witchy secrecy and are marked
later to be followed

be sure and watch your drinks in the next few weeks little witchies
because your “rituals” are being enacted
in places populated by men
who hire whores off the street twice a month
if they don’t run them.

You have to get smarter witchies
most of the Ditzies are too ugly to worry
but YOU should think carefully
about where you gather your energies
and why

You can’t stop bullying, because SOCIETY REWARDS BULLIES!!!!!!

I saw a bus, plastered with anti-bullying advertising.
About $20k worth of advertising on ONE bus.
They’re putting millions aside for the campaign.

Advertising and shows on Oprah about bullies are not going to help.
Do you know why?

Isn’t it fucking obvious to you all?

Our society in North America REWARDS BULLIES.

Bullies get union jobs, and stay bullies, bullies get hockey careers, bullies get promoted to operations managers.
Bullies make money.
We train our children from very young, they see that you have to do what the rest of the mob/crowd does, or you get bullied, and NO ONE will help you.
ALL our kids learn this here in Canada. You learn it early. You conform to the herd or the rest of the snarly bitchy pack, or they attack you.

You can’t stop bullying in schools because everyone knows there are NO CONSEQUENCES.


Until we have at least 2 students per year from EVERY SINGLE HIGH SCHOOL IN CANADA arrested and held for a minimum of 3 months, it will NEVER STOP. No one gets arrested for assaulting or harassing someone else in high school here.

200 years ago a 13 year old boy would be a father or a soldier already. We keep trying to “make them stay kids longer”
But they have too much information for that.

If the police never arrest anyone on HATE speech or discrimination charges, then no one will ever be scared to talk that way. The police didn’t lo0k into the young girl being bullied because they DON’T REALLY CARE. Its just a job to them. They aren’t really interested in equality or justice, just their power and their paycheck.

The police don’t actually investigate murder or harassment or assault unless they are called, and then they will generally be indifferent. Could you imagine the police officer actually going to a 15 year old girls house and ACTUALLY INVESTIGATING a “mean” comment?

Screw your head back on you fucking morons.

He’d look at her and think of all the potheads he could be busting, or the kids drinking in the bushes, or the 3 car accidents on the radio. Cops have no time for fags, or little girls, or anyone else who can’t take care of themselves.

The kids have learned this from all of YOU.

They’ve watched your tv and movies and read all your books and newspapers and they see it, over and over.
Corrupt bankers and businessmen walk away from the crime with their pockets bulging and turn your young women who can’t afford to live into whores, the rob you and fuck you over and no one will do anything.

Unless the young women’s parents work for years and save money and pay a lawyer to sue in civil court, they’ll get no damages. The police don’t care! They’re only investigating because everyone is having a big media party over it right now.

Did anyone actually get arrested from that 15 year old getting drugged with GHB and screwed by 3 guys in a field in Pitt Meadows? NO! And it was shot on camera!

Because no one cares.
The strongest win here and there is no justice for anyone who isn’t a rich conservative.
If the young women had done what a couple other thousand young 15 year olds do in Canada each year, if she had run away in shame and become a crack whore doing cheap survival sex because of the lack of non intrusive supports, no one would care! There are 3000+ 15 year old whore in your country under the Harper regime and you will pay a bunch of fat yuppies to make anti bullying advertising?

No one gets arrested for hate crimes or bullying here, no one will arrest a group/pack/gang that robs you or constantly harasses you. Read my fucking blog a bit. Robert Cooper is just fucking laughing. The IATSE fucks who mock my spiritual beliefs and orientation, they do it for the same reason. They mock me hoping I will kill myself, there is no police investigation unless there is blood.

I know people who were RAPED when they were 5. No one ever went to jail. They went to the top of the company!!!

Unless people who are bullied start reacting more efficiently, like in COLUMBINE, it will never stop.

They young girl shouldn’t have drank bleach, she should have JOINED a GANG. Or bought a gun. Or found a tough boyfriend with guns. Because no one else will care about you. The police will not help you unless they already have a body. That’s the way it is. Until you are actually dead they won’t investigate people fucking you over, unless it’s blatantly criminal and you are handing them the evidence on a silver plate.

The bullies in YOUR high school? They have good jobs I bet.

They became cops, or jocks, or government ditch diggers, respectable coke dealers and pimps.

School does not help you succeed. Its there so you can be tormented. You have to learn that that is how it is through your life and no one will do anything unless you do. Because the “responsible” people are all bullies themselves, really.

Our society rewards bullies. They have it made here.

Look at your TV. Look at the music industry.

Bullies, drug smugglers, gun smugglers, the military, organized crime – that’s who makes all the television shows and movies for your children to grow up on. Watch it carefully and see! Almost every show on cable is funded by organized crime or the military and all of it is crewed by bullies and gangsters.

All our heroes are vigilantes. Criminals are our heroes. The Lord of the Flies goes electronic and most of you are too illiterate to understand the reference.

So what the fuck are you all on about?

She called the cops, they did nothing. That’s what happens.

People try to gather together in packs these days. its a game, trying to make other people depressed and kill themselves.
I listen to a young bitch I know laughing about how she tormented some 17 year old into killing herself with the help of a friend.

She’s LAUGHING. “Dumb bitch” she says. In my head I call her a cunt.
I told a couple of people about that. They didn’t seem to care or think it was real. I was “telling stories” I guess.

Yeah. Fucking dumb. Ignorant fucks. This is the bed you’ve made for your children.

Does anyone else understand the hypocrisy of a society where a fifteen year old who kills herself because the police don’t have enough time or computer skills to catch an actual stalker trying to blackmail her, yet somewhere in Canada this week I fucking guarantee you there is at least one cop and one lawyer and one judge and one doctor somewhere who fucked a 15 year old whore who needed the money to survive.

Think about it.

I’ve sat drinking with 20 somethings who told me about sucking cop dick at 14 to keep from getting hauled off.


The police can’t stop bullying because it has always been tolerated in schools here. School officials won’t stop it because then they get a set of police reports tied to their school and it looks bad. It’s easier to blame the victim for their mistake and tell them to not whine so much.  Every school has at least 5 bullies. One per year should get ARRESTED! That’s the only way to stop it, not bus sized ads!

How can you all expect justice?
Unless she kills herself or her attacker, no one will care. No one will investigate until it has become something violent.

It was just her tits. I know people who woke up not knowing what happened and found months later they had a video with 5 men on the internet, that they can’t remember. No one went to jail, and there wasn’t even really an investigation. They just said “you should watch your drink next time”.

We have de-evolved into a snarling pack of wolves and self adulating primate preeners. Everybody screech and throw your shit at each other all at the same time now…

What about the hundreds of 15 year olds every year who kill themselves because of bullying and brainwashing in Christian cults? Every year young people kill themselves because of a christian cult that doesn’t like their boyfriend, or their sexual orientation, or that they don’t actually believe in the twisted loveless god that the cult is enforcing on them.
Every year! Every fucking year for the last hundred + years Canadian children have committed suicide over christian enforced dogma and brainwashing practices. I’ve watched that shit live in action. Its seriously fucked up.

What about the Masons and LaVeyan cults? Both of those cults have actual written materials and long standing practices of ripping people off then bullying them in packs to try and get them to KILL THEMSELVES. They get immunity from prosecution as a reward, or long running gigs in the film industry. It’s not murder if someone kills themselves. Especially if its some socialist or faggot, or some other kind of  “lesser being”. They used to do it to women too, but now they supposedly can’t. Like that stops them.


I have way more to say about this than library time allows. The finishing off of the pervy girl story will have to wait.
wait for the WIP.

Why doesn’t anyone remember what Hitler did right?

*WARNING* – this is SATIRE.

I was talking to someone and they were praising the Hell’s Angels,

for “cleaning up” the local park.

I was disturbed. What they did was rob and harass all the cool cultural people and lefty socialist sympathizers that made up the actual “community”. Then they flooded the neighborhood with heroin, coke, and shitty asshole weed dealers to replace the pleasant hippy ones. They fucked over any faggots, and took over the poverty pimp “service providers.

Then they brought up their buddies from the states to rebuild the park that their punk ass heroin junkies and shitty native weed dealer gangs destroyed.

Then they have a big meeting, the “Grandview/Woodlands Community Plan” and they hold it at the Legion and the Princeton. Great. The Italians and the Bikers will tell us all about “community” from the very corners that the heroin and crack are pumping out of. Yee Haw! Let’s “git ‘er dun and make us a “community” !

That’s they way to do it. Why do we have politicians? Just let the gangsters be politicians and run everything like in Italy.

The community doesn’t really exist anymore. Its a separated collection of selfish individuals all gearing up to sell off their property and move somewhere else where there still is an actual community.

When hitler came to power, everyone was pretty happy at first. He cleaned up all the poor neighborhoods, invested in lots of pools, skating rinks, and other sports facilities, there were lots of pompous circuses of power, and just enough bread.

Before the war had even started, he had recruited the doctors to kill off 250,000 people through the clinic system, almost 40, 000 of which were actually just starved to death.

Everything was cleaner, there were lots of well dressed young SS boys looking sharp in their uniforms and making sure those social parasites stayed hidden out of good honest married folks sight.

Lots of construction projects, lots of money for the non-intellectual union gangsters to “git er done” with.

It was really great and clean, there were no miscreants around.

It was only when the war broke out that everyone started making a stink.

Because up until then, everyone followed along
saying: “It’s so much better without THOSE people everywhere.”

It’s so much better now without those faggots and smelly hipsters, musicians and broke artists.
We got rid of all the vermin, now we can enjoy our



The Pervy Girl

I am writing a short story, but it is on the serializednovel.wordpress.com site, because it’s just a bit too much for here. A love story with pee and other twisted madness. Ahem.

The Pervy Girl

sort of lightly based on a somewhat true story…